its over I don't look like or sound like a woman. i tried voice training but someone said I sound like a rat, so that was the final nail in the coffin for me

I'm going to stay on hrt, but I'm never going to call myself trans again. I'm a dude as far as everyone else is concerned. I will never be able to be my true self, she'll be trapped in my body forever.

my therapist keeps misgendering me too, so yeah I give up. I'll just rot away in my room like an incel.

I'm not a fucking girl. Im so fucking envious of everyone here, it's just easier to accept I'll never be happy.

>>40135407 (OP)
I can't stop fucking crying dude. I wish I could've just been BORN A GIRL.

Why did I have to be a tall nigger who has a fucked up voice ? Fuck

>>40135407 (OP)
yeah

>>40135407 (OP)
yeah

there's nothing wrong with being black though but being a man is hell

>>40135407 (OP)
yeah

>>40135446
>there's nothing wrong with being black though

yes the fuck there is. I wish I could repress that monkey part of me too, but unfortunately it's my entire skin color. I'm just a mixed black spic.

>>40135475
my ex was a spic and she was sexy

>>40135468
>>40135445
>>40135436

NPCs

>>40135487
well she probably wasn't half monkey like me.

Imagine me for a second: a spook who sounds like a rat, has the face of an ugly spic, almost 6'0 and alot of nigger hair.

That's me.

>>40135510
I sometimes wonder if anyone felt this way like 500 years ago or if it's a modern thing

>>40135549
probably. slaves probably degraded themselves for their masters. I'm a filthy gay coon.

blacks don't want me, Mexicans don't want me, troons don't want me, gays don't want me.

I'm still going to stay on hrt, but I'm hiding every tranny aspect about myself.

>>40135573
sorry sis. I hate myself too

>>40135582
you're still 1000x better off than me. Me calling myself trans is an insult to all trans people.

I'm a fucking ant compared to anyone here. im fucking scum.

>>40135589
I'm a spook

you are bearing the sin in this universe so your foid self in another can go to frat parties, get drunk, and get dicked down

>>40135490
yeah

>>40135407 (OP)
If it's really that bad, the most productive thing you can do for your mental health is make plans to be frozen/vitrified/whatever is the most up-to-date preservation method by the time you're near death, so that you have a chance to get your Uncle Ruckus moment 300 years from now and get turned into a waifish blue-eyed blond-haired woman.

>>40135407 (OP)
unleash your frustration and self-hatred on others and the world. don't think about yourself. it's the only way to be happy <3

i want to rape basil...

>>40135977

>>40135407 (OP)
rats sound like mice and mice are cute

>>40135407 (OP)
Why the fuck do so many people go to transphobic therapists? Isn't therapy really expensive? Why the fuck do you pay for someone to abuse you? Literally just switch therapists or stop going there

>>40135407 (OP)
>>40135423
i'm normally pretty racist but i feel bad for you anon sorry... i hope you can be happy one day

>>40136002
I'm being covered by insurance, and finding a new one could potentially take MONTHS.

>>40136015
yeah that's not going to happen.

>>40135954
The fuck are you on about retard?

>>40135988
not when it's coming out of a nigger ass beaners mouth. nothing about me is cute. my transition was a literal failure, and I can't be the woman I envision in my head like all of you can. You can all just girlmode without a problem, but I'm a disgusting piece of shit.

>>40135964
there's no point. I'll just rot away in my room.

>>40135407 (OP)
Either become a HRT twink\femboy or work harder so that you can afford FFS and VFS or both you retarded fag.

>>40135407 (OP)
I'm not a tranny anymore.

>>40136042
how about I stay in my room like the gross ogre I am? How about that cunt?

>>40135407 (OP)
sorry that happened or happy for you, but I wanna rape basil

>>40136094
Whatever suits you I guess. After all, it's your life that you're throwing away.

>>40136118

>>40136164
I just can't continue down this path. the girl inside of my head is going to be trapped there forever. I don't sound or look like a girl, so why even fucking bother.

I don't want to manmode either. I'll just stay in my room until I die.

someone convince me transitioning is worth it.

>>40136239
why

>>40136243

idk, no one's really tried yet. I'm still a man, but I'd like to see if one of you can change my opinion on myself. I'm so fucking ugly iwnbaw

>>40136239
You shouldn't need convincing. If it's not for you, it's not. Sorry you were unlucky, try to find something you can devote yourself to so you don't have to think about troon shit, or take drugs to make yourself a different person and see if that works