Feeling very disinterested in my life right now. I've reached that finally stage of ultra depression-maxxing. Total and complete apathy towards life itself. That's the purest form of contempt one can have for anything. Give a man indifference an he will beg to be hated. I truly love the concept of death and not in a sexual way. I feel nothing but a murderous hatred for anyone who promotes the continuation of my life. The thing this world lacks most of all is death. Every time I walk down the street I see people who would be better off put out of their misery. I think our cowardliness in this regard will be looked back upon by historians as our greatest error. I have meds for an overdose but lack the willpower necessary. Looking for a mutually supportive buddy to force my hand. No fucking fag emotions or crying just cold hard force of will. Not got enough meds to share unfortunately but do have needles and some good sites to buy more drugs.

join the mob then you can be fodder

>>40147203 (OP)

So you want someone to murder you and then go to prison for it. Got it.

>>40147203 (OP)
wanna go for a drink instead

>>40147231
Ideally we'd both end ourselves. DESU I'd be happy to at least help someone else end theirs and take the fall for it. No one seems to take me very seriously when I say this. The idea that I could at least put someone else in my position out of their misery is very reassuring to me. That at least would be one good deed. The highest form of empathy IMO.

>>40147203 (OP)
if you can't cut off your own arm with a katana, you're not ready for suicide. pills and ropes are for children playing games
think about what it means to be a thinking, feeling person in 2025 A.D. and meditate long and hard about it

>>40147203 (OP)
>nihilist
You did this to yourself and you deserve the dishonor of being mocked posthumously for the weakness you display in killing yourself as a transgender.
Only the strongest of us will survive, and you are not one of them until you work for the success you lethargically fail to grasp.
You have my contempt, especially because you're posting nazi shit... infact, follow your leader nazi, you'd make the world a better place.

>>40147336
I don't think I understand your point?

>>40147337
You don't seem to understand. I agree with what you just said. I am weak and fully expect to be mocked as I deserve. If you are strong enough to survive then I wish you the best of luck. I have worked and I have done everything within my power to make this life viable but everything within my power turned out to simply not be enough.

>>40147285

Mhm and that's murder and luckily you don't have the willpower to do it because you know going to prison would be a much bigger problem than your "depression"

>>40147366
It's a lot easier when you aren't fighting survival instinct. Making a sacrifice for myself is hard. For someone else it is easier since I don't hate them as much.

>>40147203 (OP)
When you let go of your life completely, only then it can truly begin

>>40147706
Been there done that. I was happily living as a woman for 4 years before my life ended again. Thinking back on it I realise that it was never anything more than an illusion like the Buddhists say. I am disgusted by this parasite we call "reality" It devours our souls by leading us into attachment. I want free of this great liar and deceiver. I want to not exist.

>>40147766
How fun, I don't think you really understood anything if you still wanna throw your life away