Thread 40147229

And I did y like girly things as s kid not wanted my body to be female until after I started having s transformation fetish
I think inherently on some level trans get to be girls or have girl memories or lives on some le else that they repress
I think i did repress anything but this tranny/transformation/lesbian fetish
But it didn’t deep into my waking life until after I was 18 abd then I repressed for 20 more years
I think Since I was a normal kid growing up I’m not trans
I wish I was an actual girl now but even that is fake I think, might be a reactionary wish since I’m now deep in the tranny shit( socially out to a few people) and needing this cathartic catalyst that tells me I’m valid in my fake choices to transition.
It never begun
It’s already over.
2 more therapy sessions then I’m Becoming a neet.

souls aren't real
transwomen are males
gender is a socially reified category
you are a woman if you socialy preform as one
you can never get a straight boyfriend

>>40147229 (OP)
>>40147246
>words words words
only passing matters
transition if you can pass, repress if you cnt

>>40147229 (OP)
skill issue

>>40147253
It does matter
If you can’t be female then passing will be harder
If you weren’t female growing up you won’t pass easily
If you “repressed” and grew old without at least pretending to try not to repress like a real a girl would you’ll grow into an impassible hon
If you aren’t female in SOME way how ca. you pass?
Sure passing isnt just that but…it helps
I can never be like other troons because of this. I am a man

If I trooned at 18 I could cope with my fake transness
But now? Impossible
Suicide