Why are you here? Don't you have like.... anyone else to talk to or anything to do?

people who post images of little girls are pedophiles who want to fuck little girls irl

>>40155341 (OP)
my girlfriend is asleep and i dont like her anyways. my best friend is busy playing her mm that she plays for 16 hours a day.

>>40155341 (OP)
i dont wanna bother my bf with stupid tranny nonsense anymore. he's done his time

>>40155341 (OP)
nope. no one to vc with, no one to game with, no one to laugh with. It's a lonely lonely life in these streets.

Well, no...

>>40155367
thats fucked up to say while shes sleeping, why don't you breakup?

>>40155341 (OP)
I have 1 friend who barely ever talks to me these days. Can't be bothered to meet anyone else, too much of an annoyance, so I shitpost on 4chins

I mean I probably should be doing other things but...

>>40155341 (OP)
no, I'm a weirdo loner

>>40155341 (OP)
Nope. I'm lonely and this is where I come to try to get moments of joy from nice tranners

>>40155341 (OP)
literally no one cares about me at all :(
i am unwanted by the world

>>40155435
i dont actually dislike her im just bitter right now because she hurt my feelings

MY BOYFRIEND IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY AND I HAVE NOTHING AND NOBODY ELSE TO TALK TO WITHOUT HIM

>>40155341 (OP)
She goes to sleep early for work what do you want me to do

>>40155341 (OP)
>Don't you have like.... anyone else to talk to or anything to do?
Pretty much

wow, the lot of you are extremely pathetic. go outside. talk to people in your local community, go to events and keep seeing the same people over and over. talk about shit, just do anything with people. holy fuck. you aren't anti social, you're just fucking lazy and scared.

>>40155903
>you're lazy and scared
i know that i am. how do i get past the fear?

>>40155916
you keep putting yourself out there, genuinely. stop with the facade or the idea of who you are to people. just show up. bounce off of other people in conversation. you over time will develop an innate sense of connection to these people. everyone is just as scared as you or have been at some point in time. this isn't a thing that's unique to any one of us. just try, nona. just keep trying and don't give up. you will ultimately find your people. stop worrying about being "cringe" or "sperging out." it's THAT easy. people will appreciate you for showing up when others probably won't.

>>40155903
people are mean to me when i go outside, im not sure what you want me to do about it. my local lgbt community is just a bunch of poly people who do too many drugs and are extremely autistic, so theyre not particularly desirable to be around.

>>40155961
woah. yume nikki is my favorite thing in the entire world. anyway, fuck those people. you really give a shit about people who are mean to you? i'm not saying pretend to be bulletproof, but if you feel bad for some reason, then sit on that and think. maybe you should be the person who isn't any of those things, cultivate your own personality and you'll find people flock to you. don't worry about what medium you're using to meet these people. i highly doubt these people make their entire personality about being poly or doing drugs, that's just what you see. you don't know them and they don't know you, maybe try and see what life is like on the other side?

>>40155341 (OP)
I'm mostly just here for the diaper threads. I'm on a call with my gf right now. I'm just a little bored because she's playing a game called Barony and I don't find it the most interesting thing.

>>40155990
>afab
lmao just saw this nvm you dont get it and you dont know what its like. youve never had to deal with an ounce of the societal hate trans women have to deal with
i also dont think its unreasonable to not want to be around people who see others as sex objects to be in a polycule with and who do a lot of drugs. anyone with an ounce of wisdom knows to stay away from people who do drugs too much for a myriad of reasons. youre genuinely very dumb or very young and naive if you havent learned that yet

>>40156039
don't be mean. cruelty isn't exclusive to marginalized people like you and you don't know why a shit ton of people hate people like me. it's probably easier to disregard everything i said cause it's easier for you to cope with tho. why are you searching in the worst places for these people, like go outside and meet people on fucking meetup or discords where they host events. i highly fucking doubt that that's all there is around you. maybe you're the insufferable one, i don't understand you?

>>40155945
i just can't tell when people like talking to me vs when they're just being polite. i also can't tell if i pass or not and if i don't i don't wanna risk coming off as creepy (im probably very obviously autistic)

>>40156066
>don't be mean.
youre the one who started the conversation with calling me lazy and extremely pathetic.
>why are you searching in the worst places for these people, like go outside and meet people on fucking meetup or discords where they host events
> maybe you're the insufferable one
i already stated my experiences with doing this, so i wont repeat myself there. getting trans people to like you is extremely easy, you have an ounce of charisma, confidence, and dont judge them when they open up to you about small things, and they'll flock to you. this is doubly true for romance
like i said, irl people are
>cis and hate me
>trans and absolutely unbearable for a lot of reasons

>>40156092
that's okay, not everyone is going to like you. it's okay if someone is just being polite, that's their problem for being fake as fuck in that instance. do you really want to spend time with someone who is like that? live your life as if you're on neutral terms with everyone, you'll find that even you are the one who cringes at a lot of people. cause ffs there is so many stupid people in this world and i highly doubt that's you. i understand it's not okay if you don't pass for obvious and societal reasons, but stop worrying about coming off as creepy. a lot of people only care about what you do, not what you say.

>Don't you have like.... anyone else to talk to or anything to do?
I haven't had a single friend since middle school

>>40155341 (OP)
no not really. a lot of my friends are dead or moved away :(

>>40156099
you're right, i'm sorry. i was looking over all of this and absolutely was disgusted with the majority of responses. like an amalgamation of being astronomically down bad as fuck and i already know most channers are just wallowing and not doing anything about it. do you think all cis people will hate you? that's unrealistic and i'm sure you can agree with simple logic. why do you think you're better than the tranners who aren't druggos and just autistic? they're not different, just weird. does weird scare u?

>>40156151
>do you think all cis people will hate you? that's unrealistic and i'm sure you can agree with simple logic.
at best they misunderstand me, at worst they hate me, yes. i did get on well with a cis person but she had a crush on me and wanted me to top her so that was the end of that.
>why do you think you're better than the tranners who aren't druggos and just autistic? they're not different, just weird. does weird scare u?
not better, i just dont want to be around people who do too many drugs and are autistic.
if you really want me to spell it out for you since you seem young, being around people who do too many drugs is bad because 9 times out of 10 someone does a bad thing to another person in a social group (particularly from 20s onwards), there were drugs involved. whether thats a fight, rape, what have you. drugs are inherently destabilizing and make bad things much more likely because predators seek vulnerable people to hurt. anyone with a hint of pattern recognition above the age of 21 knows this and has recognized this happens with drugs. simply put, i dont want to be around people who do too many drugs because bad things happen frequently with them and the common factor usually seems to involve drugs.
as for autism, its just grating, i dont like it and i dont like being around people who see everyone else as an extension of themselves as extremely autistic people do.
i dont think im better than them, i just dont want to be around them for my own sake.

>>40156121
i think i just need therapy at this point because more than anything i just can't believe im on neutral terms with everyone. i think ive just internalized a lot of stuff people say about interacting with autistic people as well as a lot of stuff people say about trannies so i just assume that everyone who talks to me hates it the whole time and hates me for it.
i honestly worry i might be too far gone because i haven't made a new lasting friendship in almost 10 years, and im 23
>stop worrying about coming off as creepy
that's how society sees trans women especially non passing trans women though

>>40155341 (OP)
north philly niggas boring ahh hell sometimes

>>40156148
Why not?

>>40156196
sorry your relationship with that cis woman sucked (if i'm reading that correctly.) i'm not new to drugs anon and i'm 29, but that doesn't matter to you. i'm coming across as young and naive to you for whatever reason instead of you focusing on the core message. why is it so hard for you to get off your computer and go outside?

>>40156303
>sorry your relationship with that cis woman sucked
no she was just a friend
>i'm not new to drugs anon and i'm 29, but that doesn't matter to you. i'm coming across as young and naive to you for whatever reason instead of you focusing on the core message.
do you have autism? autistic people are usually naive, and knowing autistic cis women, they love calling themselves afab rather than women.
>why is it so hard for you to get off your computer and go outside?
already said

>>40156202
agreed, i think everybody can benefit from therapy. forget about what people say about autism on the internet. it's mostly garbage, especially here on an imageboard. you're not too far gone, most people aren't. 23 is baby lol, you've got a whole long life ahead of you whether you like it or do something to prevent that. i can see the majority of society hates trans women, that must be so fucking hard and i'll never truly be able to relate. on the flip side, most of the world is full of fucking idiots. get therapy, stop talking to doomers online. don't take everything i say like it's sage advice, but think for a moment why you're here and what you're going to do about it.

>>40155341 (OP)
no I can't let these thoughts or feelings out to anyone in my life or they would probably get weirded out.

Unironically nobody likes me. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.

>>40156196
Are you autistic or share traits with autistic people anonette? I'm trying to get better at hanging out with non-autists because I wasn't bullied enough to know how to correct my behavior to fit in with them
t. autist

>>40156365
>Are you autistic or share traits with autistic people anonette?
i have a few signs from early childhood that make me suspect it as a possibility, but talking to autistic people now its like im talking to an alien, they just view and interpret the world in a fundamentally different way than i do.

>>40156339
>>40156338
Want to talk about it?

>>40155341 (OP)
why the fuck else would I be here

>>40156379
I don't even know what to say really, making friends is just difficult to impossible and I never make it past merely being tolerated.

>>40156379
no thanks it would be a novel of incoherent rambling about things that can't be fixed and id rather just get high and pass out. I appreciate the offer tho

>>40156398
Is it just in your head or do they say as much to you?

>>40156403
Stay safe boymoder

>>40156435
>or do they say as much to you?
Current social mores would forbid that I think. But I don't really understand how else to explain my lack of success in uni (probably the easiest place to make friends ever).

>>40156331
im gonna be starting therapy again soon, hoping it can help me hate myself less and come out of my shell.
thank you for taking so much time to respond to and read my posts by the way.

>>40156455
that's good, i am genuinely glad to read that. you don't deserve to hate yourself, but i get it. you'll get there and yaaa of course, nona. now take the patience and time i've given you and pass it on!

>>40155341 (OP)
No. I enjoy being alone and having nothing to do, no one to talk to. They won’t understand me and I’ll also be too retarded for them to want to stay around me. I enjoy staying in my room alone where there are no expectations, no judgement and no urgency.

>>40156331
I’ve had therapy for almost 2 years now and I still come back here. I just can’t trust the therapist with myself. They never felt relatable to me either. I just really hate the world as it is.

>>40156588
that's okay that it has been 2 years, but it's not okay that you aren't comfortable with your therapist. not saying to get jailed in jail at the psych place, but you need someone you can actually relay what's on your mind without feeling uncomfortable. the world sucks, but you should always look for the people helping. someone will help you too, more than you could have imagined possible in your life. keep looking for those trying to help.

>>40155341 (OP)
im being pranked

>>40156677
Lots of people have tried to help with “good intentions”. Now I can tell you I’m not interested with this whole business. I got worse after many people “tried” to help. Just trying isn’t enough if I risk tipping myself over to sui again.

>>40156818
the road to hell is paved with good intentions. it's okay to be cautious of people, that's healthy. will you repeat the cycle? remain where you are?

>>40155341 (OP)
Whenever I'm on 4chan, I mostly just spend time on /c/ and occasionally check this place out. I think spending too much time on this board actually damages you in some capacity. You end up taking it way too seriously and that hurts you.

>>40156829
Yes, 100% remain where I am. I’ve lost the idea of elevating myself. I’ve done all these for around a year.
- Helping others (volunteering at eldercare, tutoring children from broken homes)
- Meditation (didn’t work when it got stress-tested)
- Exercise (once a day, 6 days a week. Mix cardio & weight training)
- Dieting (no sweets, no heavy snacks)
- Online courses & certificates (forgot them by now)
- Talking to others, making connections (tiring to make new connections after severing almost all my old ones)
- Therapy (went for > 1 year. Never could relate to the therapists, always felt a guardedness)
- Antidepressants
- Pursuing hobbies (always felt too tired & weary to do them after the first few tries)

I got burnt out with the “self-improvement” and “producitvity” bullshit. I just want to live my life authentically, and that is to stay in bed 24/7.

>>40156899
fair enough, i mourn the idea of who you are on the internet. good luck, nona. you're gonna need it.

>>40156914
Why mourn for me?