Thread 40167870

>be me, tall enby top (UR gacha tier)
>demisexual and obsessively doting (very caring)
>netori fetishist and abuser (not caring)

Why did god make me so emotionally attached to adoring and ruining people? Why can't I be nice? How do I fix this? hrt made me realize its not just being horny.

10 years ago not even the greatest minds in the CIA could decipher this

youre just possessed by literal interdimensional demons

>>40167870 (OP)
currently easing off estrogen temporarily made me understand all interaction between males is to be power struggles where death is idealized.
there is nothing more disgusting than being masochistic for a weakling who wants you to submit and fluff their ego which never had anything put into it, nor is it any less disgusting dominating somebody who wants it.

however im sure this is a "i want a relationship!" thread and youre some weeaboo who read too much yaoi yandere fan fiction.

>>40168373
Sounds weird, didn't understand that much. Currently in a relationship though so your surety is worthless. If this hadn't caused me problems why would I care?

>>40167870 (OP)
so you like stealing girlfriends and then abusing said girlfriend during sex? thats quite interesting

>>40168545
what are you even speaking on here for other than attention then?
what good is your relationship when you admit to cheating.
go back to gooning to anime faggot.

>>40167870 (OP)
bump

I think if you described this to somebody 20 years ago they'd throw you in an asylum

What the actual fuck is wrong with you, hope you kill yourself.

it just means you are worthless filth and incapable of love. if you dont hate yourself for being like this, youre doing something wrong

>>40170075
its not that bad at all, stop parroting "le words in bible rofl"

>>40168579
Yeah.

>>40169503
She encourages it because of her self-destructive tendencies. I have asked her to stop at certain points because I do care to some degree.

>>40170075
I wish.

>>40170198
I do.

>>40170987
based gf

ngl while low-key based and somewhat hot (esp the abuse stuff) i would kill you the first time you cheat

>>40167870 (OP)
>Why did god make me so emotionally attached to adoring and ruining people?

Probably childhood trauma.
It doesnt excuse you tho. I have trauma too. I was a very shitty person in my early 20s, but i moved away from that, i matured.
Its a choice youre making, you think you cant stop being evil. But thats just not true.

I normally hate jordan peterson but one of the points i really agree with him on is that often times the kindest people are the ones who have every "justification"to be evil pieces of shit (like you currently).
Evil is a choice.

Good luck. Maybe you can find redemption or whatever.

>>40167870 (OP)
>I like porn and sadomasochism
>>40170075
20 years ago they’d just go nut at an s&m swinger club on the weekends instead of making it their whole identity