QOTT: Do you want bottom surgery? If you already have bottom surgery, are you happy with it?

>>40169228 (OP)
i'd get it if i could see evidence of better results. honestly i never got bottom dysphoria that bad until after top surgery and starting T. now i wish i had one to have sex with a girl the way i want to

>>40169228 (OP)
The only bottom surgery I'd actually consider getting is meta. It could at least feel like a real penis, just a tiny one. Phallo dicks look mushy and not firm enough from footage I've seen and I don't want a cis sized penis I won't be able to shoot sperm from. My bottom dysphoria isn't too bad but my pussy doesn't work

>>40169228 (OP)
as everyone has already said no because current technology for ftm srs is pretty shit
if it actually looked good and most importantly was fully (or near fully) functional i'd consider it but we are nowhere near that so no not in my lifetime

>>40169228 (OP)
I probably will at some point, I'll just do everything else first. Still unsure whether I prefer phallo or meta, both have pros and cons. Meta seems to be the more likely choice.

Also I' pissed at some gayass trannies.
Why are so many gaydens annoying, I don't mean to be rude or discriminate, the fact that gay ftms are the most annoying is probably a numbers game but God damnnnn!!!!

>>40169228 (OP)
Need big ftm strap up my bussy

>be me
>terminally brainwormed
>start seeing someone
>its fine
>they start doing things that are admittedly entirely normal for someone you are intimate with
>eg. calling me cute, playing with my hair, implying they want me to act more submissive around them
>feelsbadman
>can’t shake the feeling that they just see me as a fucking foid
>maybe a tiny little pooner at best which let’s be honest is just foid lite
>2 options
>option 1
>tell them
>sound fucking rarted, no one normal thinks any of that implies effeminacy
>anything they do after that will automatically fall into the realm of heckin valid hugboxxing
>they have to contend with my worms for the duration of our relationship
>option 2
>don’t tell them
>resent every other instance of affection they show me
>even without the worms how the fuck am i supposed to tell someone i care about that the way they care about me feels like shit
>live a lie until the whole thing blows up in my face
this always happens regardless of what gender the other person is. damn bros i think i’m fucked. at what point is it better to stay single forever?

>>40170505
have a conversation with them about it and be entirely honest about how you feel. active communication is the only way relationships of any kind stay alive.

>at what point is it better to stay single forever?
if you struggle a lot with self hatred/insecurity especially because you're trans it may benefit you to take a break for a while to be single and focus on yourself and your transition. at least, that's what's helped in my experience.

>>40170550
>take a break
i’ve been single for three years, just ruminating on things tonight
>have a conversation
bro this makes the worms worse. i get too in my head about having to bring it up in the first place, and moving forward from those kinds of talks feels like making them walk on eggshells just to placate me

>>40169228 (OP)
I'm almost certainly going to get meta in a few years. Also, Ontario legally considers a hysterectomy bottom surgery, and I'm actively working on that now (consult scheduled for next month)

SHE SAYS BABY
ITS 3AM I MUST BE LONELYYYY
SHES SAYS BABY
WELL I CANT HELP BUT BE SCARED A BIT OOOOOH SOMETIMES
AND THE RAINS GONNA WASH AWAY I BELIEVE IT

>>40170380
Gaydens are annoying, gay trans men are fine. Simple as

>>40171258
LIDDLE POONER YOUR SINGING IS SOOOOOO CUTE

poons on leddit are angry about me again I think their heads would explode from anger if they after actually lurked this board.

>>40171311
IM SORRY BOUT THE ATTITUDE
I NEED TO GIVE WHEN IM WITH YOU
BUT NO ONE ELSE WOULD TAKE THIS SHIT FROM ME

>>40171355
Lmao I just closed your post on there jsut to see you here again

>>40171355
fuck em. what musi>>40171311
c do you listen to

>>40171355
If you were born with a weird but functioning penis, why do you hang out in ftm circles? Is it because of hormones?

>t.newfag

>>40171390
fucking spasm

>>40171390
I literally listen to screamo and weird glitchy noise stuff
>>40171414
wasn't born with a functioning penis, I had extensive reconstructive surgery and there was like a 90% chance it would never work

>>40169228 (OP)
is true that all pooners want to get impregnated?

>>40171498
No

>>40171490
Were you socialized male growing up?

>>40171537
I was isolated growing up because my parents send me to special ED so no, I would argue my behavior is very atypical for any gender, and I am leaning towards being fembrained.

>>40171498
I want to get another guy pregnant

>>40171490
ooh. i actually find that surprising

>>40171367
*jiggles your liddle pooner body*

>>40171390
rock/alt

You will never have a real penis
>buh mah corpse flesh sausage!
Kek

>>40171870
my dick is real and also bigger than yours

I like cocks

>>40169228 (OP)
i've never met a pooner with a real job. it's always "digital artist" or some shit like that.

in comparison, i know many boomerhons with 6 figure tech jobs or business jobs.

>take bbc with the homie
>get sick from the homie and my gooch torn by the bbc

>>40172354
Apparently some reddit ftms work in law

>>40172668
>things that never happened

>>40172827
new fag alert

>>40169228 (OP)
need a neococked ftm to fuck me

>>40171355
your shoulder to hip ratio genuinely made me a shed a tear

>>40171355
youre a cis guy that goes into ftm spaces to mog them and remind them they wnbam, obviously they are gonna be upset

>>40172668
Can’t wait for you to get pregnant we need more single black mothers

how many of you think if you were born cis m you would still troon and be mtf?

>>40174164
That’s retarded.

I LOVE U LIDDLE POONERS!!!!!!!!!

>>40174164
I would try to obtain a vaginoplasty while still being a man. I don't care if I am afab or amab, I want to be a cuntboy.

>>40173828
you really hope so? :3
https://litter.catbox.moe/a3jvr8yz221ge8vu.mov

>>40174809
Those clouds were sick asf

>>40173681
my sister has that too
>>40173800
I literally help them because they're too retarded and hugbox eachother too much to fix their own lives.

why would I have to visit their spaces for that? I can go to any cis male space and there's still literally no competition.

>>40175178
i dont see how posting photos of your body and making fun of tunapooners is helping

>>40175178
Gotta teach dose silly females, they aint know better

>>40175276
it provides credibility that what I'm doing works but you're insanely out of touch if you think that's all do, get a grip.

I have full length guides on how to make dht cream for example since it's not manufactured or provided in most of the world.

>>40175371
if your test level if below 500 ng/dl and you're spewing fembrained shit I'm willing to argue you're not a man.

>>40175390
DHT cream guide plz

>>40175454
percentages are 1 gram/100ml = 1%, the most commonly available cream is 2.5% which is andractim, you can get black market formulations which are sketchy and both of these sources don't have good reputations (and tend to rip people off sometimes) but these go up to 10%, and suprisingly have seen some good effects, these are the diktator by aisuperpharma and another one by alphagels (don't recommend either, again their reputation is sketchy)

dht isn't called dht medically, it's called stanolone, you will only find it if you search for this, use meso rx (thinksteroids) you'll be able to find a source.

making a cream out of this isn't particularly hard, all you'd need is phlojel and some ethanol, it mixes quite well, and doesn't have issues dissolving, you'd want it to be in the 5-10% range, which means 100ml = 5-10 grams, which would make it equal to tbe most powerful black market creams that cost way more.

you can also make topical forms of masteron or proviron if you're absolutely unable to find it, I can explain how to do that if you need it.

>>40175404
isn't the healthy range for afab bodies dofferent than for amabs? 500 seems borderline too high at least that's what my endo told me /gen

>>40176018
no, and if anything total test should be higher for trans men to make sure free test levels are sufficient, they have lower total to free ratios.

but not a single clinic even measures free levels.

What is ftmg using AI for?

>>40176248
porn chatbots.

>>40176248
i refuse to use anything ai beyond ethically made rvc

>>40171355
you're so much more heckin valid than them sweaty

>>40176018
500 is on the low end for sure but everyone's tolerance is different

>>40176248
i like when oneyplays fucks around w ai those vids are funny

>>40172354
gimme a list of real jobs vs fake jobs in your eyes

>>40171854
*jiggles your giant hon body*

>>40169228 (OP)
barber fucked up my hair and now i look like billie joe armstrong
kms

>>40177466
whats ur revenge plan lookin like?

>>40176279
Show us

Reminder: This is what cissiod gays think of us. These people are NOT our friends.

>>40177477
spiking it up with gel for now and most likely avoiding that specific barber at all costs in the future
i guess it could have been worse and he could have given me a low taper fade

>>40177566
i have a lot of free time

>>40177466
im a trans girl and i had the biggest crush on him growing up

>>40176080
but afabs are more sensitive to testosterone than men are aren't they? i thought over 500-600 was heart attack or stroke risk territory. doses for transmascs and cis trt are different for a reason.

what is free test?

>>40178069
if that were true id be dead already

>>40176080
I use planned parenthood (telehealth only) and they measure my free and total :-)
However they never measure estrogen levels

>>40178625
why cant they ever check E levels it pisses me off

>>40178684
Because you still get decent enough results in the end
However, if you mention having your period, you might be able to get them to give you anti estrogens. I told them about mine (They lowdosed me at first + I have had a Myriad of issues actually being able to receive my prescription. Shit's comedic) and I think they mentioned it, although it might have just been an offer of birth control.

i opened up reddit phalloplasty and immediately saw a giant black neocock
i wish it was fucking me
>>40176018
yeah usually females have like 10x lower than that but i think ftms are a special case... agab language is worse than useless for trans issues

>>40178625
my private clinic tests total t and estrogen, but not free t. thankfully my estrogen is almost completely suppressed

>>40169228 (OP)
i wish to have a penis of my very own but i am not satisfied with most surgical results i have seen
at this point i accept strap life

FtMs: how tight are your vaginas? do you think that you can crush a real man's cock?

>>40181272
i wasn't born with anything down there so i can't answer your question sorry

>>40178069
not really, they just have lower baseline levels, and their tissues respond stronger initially due to unregulated androgen receptors from a lifetime of low exposure, but they quickly desensitize, trans men were given trt until the 00s and there wasn't an issue with it, your body adjusts to it, and once it does 500-600 is typically not high enough to have enough free testosterone as trans man due to the lower total to free ratio, this is based on reports I've found but there are not many of these because almost no clinic measures free, and free testosterone is what causes the changes, total test does absolutely nothing it just floats around in your blood, but it's unable to interact with tissue, it can only aromatize.

>>40178625
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/29561193/

estrogen doesnt actually go up for trans men once they start test, instead it goes down, unlike with cis men.

but you don't need to really check estrogen the signs are pretty obvious and you won't die from chugging some aromasin if you want to feel what lower estrogen is like (it helps some people with dysphoria, you can be extremely sensitive to it)

>>40181454
I don't know why redditors are mad at you, you seem pretty chill.
Also what do you think about the frequency of shots, does it matter? I get testoviron every 21 days and my T levels are at 600-650 at their lowest (day before next injection). I wonder if I'd get better changes from smaller weekly injections like pooners from America have.

>>40181617
they think I want to get trans men pregnant to fix them or something but don't seem to get that this is part and parcel ragebait that's literally posted on this board daily, none of them actually lurk here.

I have literally send guys testosterone for free to help them before from my own stash, stealthed so hard that even if their parents were to open the package they still wouldn't suspect shit.

it matters, the further your shots are spaced apart the more you will aromatize because they'll have to inject more at a time, and your levels will swing up and down causing more issues like acne.

but there's also pros to it, less frequent injections mean lower shbg.

>>40178836
i know that the healthy range for women is lower, but even for afabs taking hrt shouldn't the testosterone be lower?
>>40181454
I understand that they have lower levels naturally. Why were transmascs given more t in the past and not as much now? I'd wager that it's because it was discovered that high testosterone is unhealthy for afabs

>>40177591
Obviously cis fags on 4chan are going to hate us lol
>>40178069
poor widdle weak afabs need lower T levels or they will LITERALLY die :( no dood you need 300ng/dl levels at most for you to stay safe :3
>>40178625
my PP only measure total T, no free and no estrogen measuring either. Most widely known hrt provider and theyre not even good

>>40177591
A man cannot become a woman. A woman cannot become a man. You degenerates are a stain on the LGB movement.

>>40182604
Make your own thread

>>40178069
this is a fucking LIE and you know it! I've been blasting test which puts me at about 2000ng/dl, with additional anadrol and masteron use over the past 6 months. the result?

BIGGER
>much more muscle
>noticeably stronger and more defined

MORE
>testosterone usage has put such a euphoric track on in the background
>i get more bitches

>>40182604
We aren't part of the lgb movement

>>40182671
True god bless the last thing I'd want is to be part of the lgb movement

>>40182278
it's because doctors see being trans as a phase medically and want to prevent them from virilizing too much in case they regret it

>>40171355
goofy ass crash bandicoot build

>>40182664
anyone that thinks the meek afably bodies of trans men can't handle cis test levels needs to realize that it still takes like 30 years to die if you were to inject yourself with 5 grams of roids a week and sit at a test level of like 20,000 ng/dl

steroids aren't actually very dangerous at moderate levels.

>>40183573
it's sad how many people eat here up the silly justifications doctors come up with

>>40183585

qotd:
did you ever get your goonstick stuck in the zipper?

>>40183656
doctors see you as a mentally ill person and trans care as a carrot to manage the symptoms of your mental disorder.

somehow they don't test free testosterone levels but hold entire hissyfits about slightly elevated rbc levels like it's hard to treat or causes issues short term, because it's not.

>>40183981
half the time "slightly elevated" just means male range like what did they think testosterone was going to do. doctors are only interested in treating us as our agab.
i'm actually a post op mtf who wandered in here because i want to see neococks. the amount of trouble i've had getting gyn care from even "supportive" doctors is astounding. and like fucking basic obvious stuff. apparently i'm just immune to bv/stds now? really they can't touch me without admitting i'm female now so they prefer to send me home untreated. it makes it really obvious what's really going on.
i wonder if/how the same happens to post op ftms but i've never seen anyone discuss it. the hormone stuff is obvious though and i don't understand why so many of us don't see through it

>women avoid me
>wont talk to me
>if i walk in the same direction as they do they start looking behind them with their hand on the phone
>if i go to sit anywhere they go sit somewhere else or pull up their bags to block me
>if they see me looking in their direction they put on a face of utter terrified disgust
>if they see me shopping anything, like even a paper clip they ewww out all around me
>if hey see me writing they block me, if they hear me calling rhey change number
>alright maybe im just ugly or something and want to send a clear message
>nah ftms pooners theyfabs do the same
>wont even reply to my posts

haha i l-love being a man.. weew so good..

>>40184165
This is a larp because you're too biased

>>40184234
not a larp
also biased doesnt really make sense ad an objection when I am talking only about actual experiences that involve me and how it affected me

>>40184300
When people tell the truth about their experiences they're more nuanced this is too dramatic

>>40184165
>people avoiding you
>audibly saying "ew" around you
>people looking back at you
It's summer anon, you have to shower daily.

>>40183814
kek

>>40184165
People are calling this larp but I distinctly remember in middle school people looking at my face and saying "ew" passing me in the hallway, both boys and girls
I have a medium sized birthmark on my face that people seemed to really hate so I took that as the reason

>>40184323
weird hill to die on icl

>>40184508
Obvious larp is obvious

>>40184525
nta >>40184508
and I am not larping and actually this entire reaction is like every conversation ive had with women (admittedly very few) but the gaslighting is so real like you know what i feel and what happened to me

>>40184550
See a truthful person would give reason as to why what they're saying is true you're just blaming me for not believing you

>>40184581
if i knew the reason I could maybe change it did you ever think of that
like just stop

>>40184590
If you were telling the truth you would have had no reason to imply I'm gaslighting you or something. Honest people don't do that they solely rely on insisting their experiences are true because they know the facts are on their side. You needed to change tactics because you were lying

>>40184645
you are clearly gaslighting me
typical woman

>>40184724
You don't need to do that to make your larp believable

>>40184724
Damn u gave up quick

Do pooners train for strength? How can you be a man if you don't have a proper grip?

>>40184809
What would I use grip strength for? Rock climbing? Tug of war?

>>40184855
jerking off your tiny pseudopenis?

>>40184871
Why would you need grip strength for that

>>40184914
fantano death grip

daily reminder

LIDDLE POONERS ARE SUUUUUPER CUUUUUUUUUUUUTE

>>40185333
how liddle is smol enough?

>>40175508
What would I need dht cream for?
I was considering buying Boldenone Undecylenate, for anabolic effects and the boost in red blood cell production.
Also use finasteride, can you even combine those or is it either or?

>>40184809
How would I even measure that?

>>40186230
Get a dynamometer like picrel and simply squeeze the handle.

>>40186415
Why tf should I buy that? Use it once and then what? Might as well buy calipers to measure body fat, something that is a tad more interesting but in the end thats something you spend money on use it and then find it 5years later in the back of a closet and then you decide to toss it.

>>40169228 (OP)
What app do I go on if I want to have kinky sex? I’m too autistic to date, I just want to have weird sex with women (cis or trans). IRL only men approach me.

>>40186503
App to have Sex with women, yeah sure thats something very real

>>40186501
You can compete with the lads.

>>40186099
clit growth

>>40171498
kill yourself

>>40186099
dht cream is good once you plateau bottom growth from test alone, there's another even harsher steroid that's able to go beyond that even.

eq (bold) isn't very strong, you need a lot of it, but it also doesn't aromatize much at all so it doesn't tend to cause balding, finasteride doesn't really do much against it, but you can combine them without issues (some steroids cannot be combined with finasteride i.e nandrolone)

bold is just slightly modified test, it can aromatize on paper but in reality all it does is convert to some synthetic weird estrone form that doesn't really do shit at all.

>>40175508
I was able to find some sources for raw dht a couple months ago, they've been scrapped now

>>40186659
How much growth can you even expect?
I tried mk677, gave me an additional 3mm but I doubt that there is more to be expected

>>40186700
Im not exactly looking to gain a lot of muscle, a gain in aerobic capacity is the priority for me
Some more bottom growth if possible would be nice tho

is dyeing my eyebrows a darker color a bad idea bros?

>>40187219
Y tho?

>>40187219
It's definitely a unique idea

>>40185692
>how liddle is smol enough?
6'9" 300lbs of powersharter is liddle and cute

>>40187333
>>40187346
which one is more feminine to you?

>>40187219
don't forget your lashes, both make your eyes stand out more.

>>40187346
not very unique, everyone with light eyebrows should dye them

>>40187459
Well dood, the obvious one is the white one because he looks like an edgy dangerous guy that dyed his hair white! The right looks like a normal dood you would see at the mall.

>>40187459
Blonde because it is naturally effeminate

>>40187477
no you are heccing WRONG

>>40187483
It's XY female color, it would highlight the pink pudgy flesh of a pooner

>>40187219
I darken my eyebrows with a tinted brow gel, nobody notices that it's makeup if you don't put too much. It definitely masculinises my face.

>>40169228 (OP)
>you were born with a huge dong
>would you like to remove your appendix and become a evolutions joke that is a born eunuch?
not really nah, only lesbians can truly love the lack of anything, at least small dong boys know how to hold you close and show their love

>>40169228 (OP)
>QOTT
Forever waiting for cock transplants
Guys be honest with me do high fem cisf chasers exist? I'm thinking it might be over for me. I hate having a high quality type

>>40187955
yes, but they are the types that flaunt how QUEER they are

>>40187999
I don't care I just need a pretty girl with bleached hair who wears nice clothes and makeup and knows she's pretty and uses it against me in my life
I'm ugly and awkward though so I think it's over

>>40183981
>>40184061
i dropped my endo and started doing diy because kept on adhering to the female ranges for my bloodwork too strongly. she also kept on thinking i was a different client of hers who is nb and continuously mixed up our goals and names

>>40188588
Based
I don't have a permanent doctor but the last one I talked to didn't so much as blink an eye when I said I diy steroids, just asked if I wanted a blood panel

i think i need to go to a hospital i feel mentally paralyzed all i can think about is how much i want to die but idk if theyll give me anything

>>40189166
Why do you want to die anon? It's not even the 4th of July yet.

>>40189189
i just feel like such a piece of shit loser and useless and dumb and ugly and icdont know why i feel these things i feel like somethinh is wrong with me chemically but idk what and my nmeds arent working anymore

>>40186503
fetlife perhaps? not an app though

>>40188588
i wish i could diy all the fucking bladder problems i have

>>40187219
i use beard dye to dye mine. one tube lasts so long. having thicker darker brows really does masculinize you quite a bit

swwwhhhh

>>40189715
i hate myself

I'm a trans man but i do not find other trans men attractive in the slightest. It's weird because I'm bi, i like cis men and women as well as trans women, but when I look at a trans guys nudes i just feel slightly uncomfortable. Don't get me wrong, I can recognize that they look good but it just doesn't do it for me. And I can also look at myself in the mirror and see where people find me attractive, so i'm not sure it's any kind of internalized transphobia. But even non-sexually, i couldnt imagine dating another trans dude for whatever reason. I just don't get it and it sucks because I yearn for t4t. I guess I just dont see the appeal. Anyone else?

>>40189954
Is there a certain body type you're looking for? What makes you uncomfortable looking at ftm nudes?

>>40189954
trans men who have been on T for a while are my favorite, yet trans men who are pre-T i have almost zero attraction towards...

i cut myself i cant afford alcohol

>>40190043
Dollar vanilla extract?

>>40190043
Water

im seeing lots of weird chud baiting in this thread lately

>>40190143
>>40190155
neither of these hurt me enough but i cut in the wrong spot so now i have to cover it up

is the rest of this malebrained enough to outweigh the alex g

>>40190293
gay but malebrained, my topster looks pretty similar as a femrepper

>>40190293
how can i describe this taste in music.. it's like surface level underground

>>40190779
yes its essentially pretentious indie without the work. tiktok music in layman's terms

>>40171258
Do zoomers listen to matchbox 20 or are some ftm anons here actually around 40 years old?

>>40185333
Even me, a bearded fat guy? *bats my eyelashes*
>>40186700
Is there another way of getting topical dht? I'm too retarded and bad at math to do the guide you posted
>>40190021
trvke pre/early T ftms are overrated. I don't want a boy with a pussy I want a MAN

>>40190779
most of it is stuff my parents played for me growing up (nin, tool, butthole surfers, radiohead, ween, tpotusa, etc) and the rest is mostly from spotify autoplay i dont claim to have a refined taste

>>40190801
idk if i'm a zoomer, i'm 28 so i think i'm in the right age group to be listening to them

>>40191278
That song came out in 1996 so you weren't alive yet.
Also you would be a zoomer, but you're the king of the zoomers since 1997 is the first zoomer birth year.
I almost spotted a 30+ ftm on /soc/ just now but she made a followup post asserting ftms don't exist.

>>40191278
>>40191351
Actually though if you turn 29 later during this calendar year (i.e. you were born in 1996) than you would be the weakest millennial instead of the king of zoomers.
Either way that song was before your time in my opinion.

>>40191351
>>40191371
*then* you would be, gomen

what do you do when you keep getting traumatized by stuff in your life? I genuinely don't know how to handle this anymore. I just want to kms.

>>40191416
stop being a pussy and take hrt

>>40191416
Why are you asking the ftm general that if you're a natal male who wants to be a woman (according to that flag)? Are you just into ftms or something?

>>40191351
>>40191371
i'm not retarded so i'll never post on /soc/. but i'd hear a lot of matchbox 20 growing up as they were popular on the radio, hell they play at my job. late 90s and early 2000s music is within my time i'd think, songs lasted longer on the radio and stuff with CDs

>>40191416
therapy

>>40191443
oh shit, sorry. My fucking brain is scrambled right now. I thought this was the mtf repressor general.

>Are you just into ftms or something?

It doesn't matter, I'll never be loved lol

>>40191441
that won't fix me or stop the trauma.

>>40189954
I can kinda relate . Cis guy but I only like Cis men and women and transmen. Trans women don't do it for me.

>>40191510
>that won't fix me or stop the trauma.
it won't fix you per se or erase your trauma but it can help a lot. i have cptsd and a lot of childhood trauma but after starting hrt i definitely felt much better about myself which gave me the confidence to finally escape from the situations that were bringing me trauma. good luck regardless :)

>>40191570
ty <3

>>40191480
I mean, music from 50 to 60 years ago like Led Zeppelin is on the radio pretty often but I would consider that before my time since I'm only 38. I kind of think music you hear when it first came out is different from music you catch on a replay much later on. Like I have no real concept of what hearing the Beatles drop their albums was like, but I was definitely around when Darius Rutger from Hootie and the Blowfish did the TenderCrisp Bacon Cheddar ranch commercial in 2004 when I was a junior in high school.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C02M0bd53AM

>>40191570
needed a dose of hopefuel today

>>40191648
i suppose. i mean matchbox 20 is definitely one of those bands that everyone knows about but not everyone is listening to beyond their hits. same with dame matthews band. idk i never found anyone who knew half the shit i listened to growing up, even after moving to a city no one listens to what i do. not in a quirky way, its kinda annoying. i hate not being able to relate to others

Chat my aunt is pissed off cuz my male cousin and his gf got an onlyfans and for some reason he told her? How do I get his username without sounding like I wany to see even though that is exactly why I want his username

He's flirted with me before so i don't think he'd care

>>40191690
Yeah, I've never heard of someone actually buying a Matchbox 20 album and listening to the stuff besides their hit singles. I imagine those people exist, but I've never known any of them personally.
Dave Matthews Band on the other hand definitely had plenty of fans around my age when I was younger who'd go to their concerts and buy their albums.

I think i should loose some weight. I'm starting to get a gut. But every time I try counting calories I relapse on my eating disorder and either restrict down to like 600 a day or binge purge.

>>40192033
bro i swear just work out more or cut minimal calories like sweets or certain carbs

>>40191846
DMB is very good. i always end up loving the meme'd on 'white people' music

i took an expired cymbalta and i think its making me sixk

>>40191838
Lol let that guy have his privacy. If he's worth it you you'll naturally run into him online.

>>40192825
expired medication is usually just less effective

>>40192978
j feel really sleepy and dizzy and my sfomach hurts

>>40193113
though i guess the prolonged panic attack could have tired mee out

is it wrong if im ftm and am on t/am pretty masc but i stil ldream about getting railed in my pussy? I'd love to have a penis, I'd rather have a penis than a pussy, but also, having a penis AND a self lubing fuck hole that gets w e t, soaked even, when you get turned on is so great

>>40193258
just like the thought of someone working me up and feeling that I'm so fucking wet and then teasing me and cumming in me voer and over and over like damn son. get a man that goes feral and cums in you repeatedly

wanna die

>>40193258
if you don't have crushing dysphoria about it, it's totally fine to enjoy having sex with your body how it is currently. breast dysphoria is more common to experience since that's what people actually see. having a pussy and doing stuff to it is your own damn business.

>>40193326
i had a hysto and i feel the "get cummed in" impulse so fucking bad because now there's no risk as long as you're with someone tested and trustworthy. when i had a gf i'd think about threesomes where i'd yank the dick out of her, pull the condom off, and make her watch while i get the load she wants so desperately but can't have.

>>40188588
I'll write a guide on how to pass blood tests once I'm home, for the people who still get it legally and want to supplement with other things, it's not actually all that hard to lower your rbc/lipids a fair bit so that nothing's triggered and they don't lower the dose.
>>40190835
dht cream isn't legally manufactured or produced in the entire US, and they're not keen on prescribing it elsewhere, so no there aren't really any other ways depending on where you live.

>>40193258
fetishizing yourself is a normal coping mechanism.

>>40193652
you should just post all this in a new thread. this is a lot of DIY HRT information that's getting mixed up between the casual posts.

>over a decade on t
>post op
>ontologically incapable of existing in ways that don’t make me dysphoric as hell
What even is the point

do you guys feel bad about not having a penis? once my balls were removed I lost the genital dysphoria. wondering if any of you had a similar experience post hysterectomy?

>>40194233
i've never had much bottom dysphoria but after being on T it's even less because of bottom growth and just generally being more comfortable with my body. i will probably get a hysterectomy eventually for various reasons but i dont expect it to make me any less dysphoric desu

>>40194233
My most persistent dick related dysphoria is not being able to cum in someone, which I can begrudgingly live with most of the time.
Having to deal with the feeling of getting wet almost every time I’m horny actually makes me wanna rope tho so hopefully a hysto would help wrt all that

i dont deserve my friends

>>4019423
I wanna fuck men so bad it saddens me that it’s automatically assumed that I’m the one that’s being fucked I find no pleasure in that

>>40194975
Sadge. Do you have any advice for being seen going out with other men or am I just doomed to choose between being a volcel or the knowledge that if strangers even think I pass they’re still gonna assume I take it up the ass

>>40194975
Or worse the possibility that I could end up with some fucking faggot that wants me to be his uwu ftfemboy twink until the end of time

Why do you little guys have such fat asses? Every pooner I've seen who isn't skin and bones always has a fat ass

>>40193258
This is how I feel more or less. There are cis gays out there who would love to have a hole that makes spontaneous sex easy. I'd really rather have a penis but if I'm forced to have an axe wound I might as well put it to use idk

>>40195121
because we're women

you crass fat ass, you stupid steroid FUCK

>>40194233
I don't have genital dysphoria

>>40193632
That's a nice fantasy I hope you find the opportunity to live it one day

>>40177466
>>40177599
ok bros according to the internet if i smear all this stuff on my head my filthy soul will be cleansed and i'll no longer look like shit. i will report back.

>>40195159
Silence false flagger
>>40194233
Yes. I hate not having a dick. None of the surgery available either is good enough too which fucking blows.

>>40196619
Post results

>>40195121
because i'm german

>>40197034
Zeig arsch

It's a sunny day, /ftmg/
What're your plans?

>>40197419
i'm going to the behavioral health clinic. idk what they're gonna do to help me but i know its better than the emergency room

I turn 29 in a few days and im still a repressing faggot why am i even alive

bloodwork stealth & prep tips

most clinics won’t give detailed warnings before labs, they'll just schedule the test. to reduce the chance of getting flagged, especially during enhanced or off-label protocols, these habits and strategies can help normalize common markers.

basic prep (no supplements needed)
fast for at least 8 hours before the test
skip breakfast, fasted blood draws reduce glucose, triglycerides, and rbc values

drink 0.5–1 liter of water before your appointment
mild hydration reduces hematocrit and improves draw quality

eat a light, low-fat dinner the night before
keeps lipids and liver enzymes closer to baseline

combined, these three can reduce red blood cell count and lipid levels enough to dodge clinical flags - no substances required

optional supplement-based prep (for extra stealth)
only use these if you know which markers are being tested, otherwise, they may raise suspicion

vitamin b3 (niacin) – lowers ldl and triglycerides if lipids are being tested, but can raise liver enzymes and cause skin flushing

only use if liver enzymes aren’t part of the panel

berberine – mild reduction in ldl and triglycerides with fewer side effects than niacin

safe for most blood panels but still best to cycle off before testing

timing: both niacin and berberine take ~2 weeks to take full effect

>>40197542
It's good to see you figured something out. Something is better than nothing. We hope you feel better soon anon.

>>40197751
i don't even know what i'm supposed to say to them. i cut myself and i'm having suicidal ideations and extremely negative thoughts about myself? i'm already on meds and have a psych. i'm probably going to have to call out of work. i know sitting at home won't help but idk what my goal is by going to the clinic. i just want to stop feeling like this

>>40169228 (OP)
I'd like to get a metoidioplasty but I supposed that snip-snipping the F cups is a higher priority right now

>>40197929
they recommended inpatient services but the inpatient facility lady disagreed. i'm looking into IOP now

>>40171414
I'm intersex as well but in a different way from him. The penis I was born with was mutilated and I was forcibly AFAB despite XY chromosomes. Not only I had to go through legal and social processes of changing my name and gender, I also have to take testosterone because of how they mutilated me I'm unable to naturally produce sex hormones.

>>40169228 (OP)
Would it be possible for an FTM to graft on a donkey dick as bottom surgery?

women's feet turn mens minds into submissive mush

>>40200030
my parents almost went through with this too but then my nuts dropped like a year after being born and they decided to raise me as boy.

kinda planning a vacation with the guy I'm seeing.

is my life finally going in the right direction? probably not, I have terrible luck and everything always goes wrong.

>>40194823
Matchmaking st4t thread <3

is my voice froggy? androgynous?
https://voca.ro/1bBBcgwXdoMb

why is recreating a real life town on roblox hard
why can't openstreetmap have elevation data
why can't opentopography have bodies of water

>>40174435

So this is the gooner final form

>>40202651
>is my voice froggy
Yes kinda

>>40202952
Surprisingly... I only watch porn (maybe) once a week

sad

>>40205146
ily anon

i miss gloves

>>40196902
bitch you take it in the pussy on onlyfans

>>40184165
have you tried not being ugly

>>40205306
yeah i haven't been here too often. sorry, anon.

>>40171498
their mouth says no
but their poon says YES

and if the poon says no you just add lube and spurt it all in and make them wives
AFaBs do NOT have bodily autonomy

>>40205163
thanks. i don't love myself anymore but i know i should. i don't feel i have anything redeeming about me.

Pooners with a (straight) cis gf how did you pull her?

>>40205647
We're all gayden faggots here ma'am

>>40201498
I love the st4tg threads, just wish they were more active and had more oc like they used to have.

>>40205407
Used to*
And what about it? You gonna cry?

here's some general notes I wrote, more or less the protocol I use to help people transition.

begin with standard-dose testosterone enanthate
dose: 100 mg per week, split into two subcutaneous injections, you can do IM once a week too if you want, doesn't make a huge difference, subq hurts less.

timing: immediately at the start of medical transition

why:

this is a standard starting dose range for trans men

early bottom growth, libido increase, and atrophy typically occur in the first 1–3 months

monitoring before introducing other compounds ensures more control over the early dysphoria-related changes

summary: establishes a solid hormonal base for masculinization and sets up later interventions

>>40207318
add cialis (tadalafil) once bottom growth begins
dose: 5mg/day

timing: after some bottom growth is noticeable (often within 1–3 months)

why:

enhances blood flow to genital area > improves growth response and vascular sensitivity

may support hormonal transport through nitric oxide signaling

delaying avoids overstimulating a dysphoric area early on

summary: supports tissue responsiveness and improves genital circulation, best used once discomfort subsides

>>40207326
use anavar during a cutting phase for body recomposition
dose: 10mg/day

cycle: 8 weeks on / 4–8 weeks off

timing: begin after testosterone levels stabilize (~4 weeks in)

why:

targets visceral fat, preserves muscle mass during cuts

suppresses appetite and enhances metabolic efficiency

accelerates visible masculinization alongside structured diet

summary: helps drop fat, retain strength, and boost visual impact of testosterone during cutting

>>40207333
add raloxifene + ibuprofen to target chest tissue
dose:

raloxifene: 60mg/day for 2 weeks, then 30mg/day ongoing

ibuprofen: 200–400mg/day as needed

timing: during a non-cutting phase or after initial anavar cycle

why:

blocks estrogen activity at breast tissue > flattens and reduces glands

doesn’t suppress estrogen elsewhere > protects bone health

ibuprofen reduces risk of raloxifene-related clotting

summary: provides a nonsurgical way to flatten the chest by shrinking glandular mass

>>40207342
this is an extra step in case you're in legal talks, you can skip it if you're just gonna diy.

transition to legal testosterone when available
dose/form: follow prescribed protocol (gel or long-acting injection, but preferably injections)

timing: when a prescription becomes accessible

why:

switching after enanthate saturation maintains continuity

legal trt ensures safe long-term monitoring and compliance

summary: shifts hormonal maintenance to a monitored, legal system with minimal disruption

>>40207352
add proviron to boost free testosterone and mood
dose: 25mg/day

timing: during or shortly after starting raloxifene

why:

lowers shbg > increases free testosterone (which drives most changes)

mild antidepressant and libido-enhancing effect

doesn't convert to estrogen > no aromatization risk

unlikely to be flagged on standard labs

summary: strengthens testosterone’s effects and helps regulate mood during more emotionally taxing phases

>>40197612
i will impregnate you unless you poon out noW

>>40207360
labwork + safety notes
anavar and proviron are not detected on standard panels

stop anavar 7–10 days before labs to avoid liver enzyme elevation

raloxifene may affect clotting factors > plan timing around blood tests

most clinics test total testosterone and estradiol; free t is rarely screened

use this if they're drawing blood
>>40197654


most of this is tailored to make everything go as smoothly as possible with minimal side effects.

>>40205407
I will never understand why this makes people seethe

isn't it kind of absurd that there are men with pussies

>>40209040
How is it absurd anon-kun

>>40209040
this is the way it should be

had a dream about cuddling with this girl in our underwear and the next day i see her making out with my best friend love my useless pooner life

>>40207318
dont ftms need a lower starting dose to avoid frog voice?

>>40209913
in general yeah but that only for a couple months to ease the levels into your body slower

>>40209913
it doesn't matter, largely a meme.

Ftms, would you ever top a masculine cis man?

>>40210637
yes, please. this is all i want.

>>40209913
Poonscience

r there any southeast us pooners who want a twink bf

>>40210637
Normally no, I am attracted to women. But my Kinsey 1 hit one masculine guy who I'd absolutely destroy

>>40195121
nature wants them to have breedable fat asses.

>>40210637
hope someone will fuck me one day.

why are the people on taimi so ugly

>the condom gets stuck in your cervix again
uh will this just hopefully fall out?

>>40209280
>>40209459
male culture is all about penises

>>40211254
I noticed this too, literally every man look like they've been stuck fighting in the trenches of a war only they know exists for the past decade.

they should hand out free spf 100 for downloading this app.

i need more gym

>>40211399
We're sigmas

please someone tell me if this is normal ive switched from gels to injections and my doctors told me i need injections every 12 weeks but today i woke up and looked at my underwear and theres blood but im not meant to get another injection until 2 weeks from now. wtf is this. does this happen to anybody else. i didnt have sex or penetrate or anything like that i just jerked off like normal and am in no pain. i havent had a period in about 2 years and im really freaked the fuck out

>>40212240
you switched from gels (which reach peak concentration in 4 hours and then diminish) to nebido which takes like 3+ months to saturate so you're in the in between period where your blood levels haven't saturated yet so your test level isn't where it's supposed to be at.

>>40212442
so i shouldnt try to inject myself before the date? am i gonna have to wear pads? i injected myself about 2 months ago

>>40212477
you should've kept using gel at a lower dosage to keep your levels elevated while you're in the transitional phase where it's still saturating.

>>40212521
i wish there was someone with a medical license who couldve told me any of this when prescribing it to me. oh well. the main reason i switched is because there was no more t gels left anyways

>>40211498
i have no idea whether taimi has mmr like other dating apps and my less than 24 hours on the app have given me lifelong insecurity that i am in the same league as someone that looks 50 at 22

>>40212565
endocrinologists are retarded and will tell you you're fine when you've got the test levels of a 90 year old man post chemotherapy.

I wish a pretty twink would spit on me

>>40213610
wya

>>40213625
Eastern canada please kill me

>>40211399
No men culture is all about appearing strong and unbeatable, undefeatable on a dialectical level (even if they don't even know the word dialectical), about appearing strong and commanding, about emanating an aura of confidence. It's not about the penis at all. The penish is just a tool for punishment (to punish other males by proxy)

Does anyone here like TTRPGs and have any interest in doing a campaign of Vampire: The Masquerade?

I made a Discord server for it if so.

https://discord DOT gg/gB4dGyyD

>>40213639
oof I wish the US built a huge monorail across the east coast so I could

>>40213710
I want to move to eastern europe but if you're fast to build that monorail I'll peg you first

>>40212781
afabs have different standards. giving am afab cis levels of testosterone would LITERALLY kill them

So what, are you guys just going up to a higher life difficulty for fun or some shit? Unironically insane to imagine just how gender dysphoric you'd have to be to go through with ftm, insane shit no cap

Btw I'm not transphobic it's just that you're all lunatics for going through with it (in a good way)

>>40215156
I find cis people tend to exaggerate how much easier or different life is for the opposite sex. It's really not that different enough to make your life hell (unless you don't pass, but that's just how society treats troons)

>>40215236
Can't claim to know your experience obviously, but guys are basically reduced to vegetables now. I think that's literally the term used for it in Japan, vegetable men. No desire to do anything because being a man means doing nothing. Success breeds droll tedium and nobody cares about you. Being a woman seems like way, way, way greener pastures, but maybe my thinking is just relegated to the west.

Hope you don't have my experience and you can find happiness

>>40215270
Just checked and it's actually "herbivore men" in Japan, my b

sometimes i just watch youtube or play on my phone with a vibrator in my underwear because it feels nice

>>40215340
i have a serious hand-always-in-my-pants problem.

>>40210637
Masculine in personality, yes. God yes, that's all I want. All I ever pull are MtF reppers who want me to forcefem them.
Masculine in looks, depends. I'm a pederast so big hairy men aren't attractive to me, but I don't like actual children or femboys who just look like titless women.

>>40215270
are you afab or amab?

>>40216417
latter

>>40209913
>to avoid frog voice
do T levels have anything to do with this? i thought it was just a result of feminine speech patterns/inflection and no voice training.

>>40215270
iunno anon none of the 'difficulty' problems related to being a man apply to me. i make enough being unemployed that i can neet for life and i'm already a social shut in
the only hard area is dating but my difficulty is more brought on by being trans rather than 'not being a woman'. i've thought about just paying a guy to play into my paraphilias but the men i find attractive and can talk to me about things are basically just in the same boat as me, and don't have the need to prostitute themselves unfortunately.

what do you guys think of ftms with impregnation kinks? this seems to be the most popular subsection of ftm fetish/porn. i understand it as a fetish i suppose but then these poons actually get knocked up and i can't help but feel incredibly grossed out. pregnant pooners already confuse me because how the fuck does that not cause you crippling dysphoria? how does any of this shit not cause it. maybe i need sexual trauma to understand these people.

>>40216829
i have a impregnation kink but actual pregnancy is grotesque to me. my kink is solely limited to having them threaten to knock me up as a sort of humiliation thing. no idea what goes on in the minds of people who actually get pregnant

>>40216829
almost no ftms are into it. its just that chasers and cis gawkers never care to think about ftms at all except for in the hypothetical seahorse scenario, so it gets amplified online. if you look at porn, youd also get the impression that ftms are all bottom gaydens, but in reality most are at least bisexual and prefer to top

>>40216675
it's just your voice dropping, it will happen to everyone no matter their dose and going lower won't change much about the process besides maybe making it more gradual but you'd also be stuck with it for longer.

>>40217112
This.
Most porn is made with cis men in mind because they are the ones paying for it. Majority of the trans porn creators are into vastly different things offline but there's lots of money to be made out of making fat redditors think you'd let them cum in you (pandering to the "stripper loves me back" type of thinking).

>>40215091
you wouldn't don't die even if you inject several grams of testosterone for decades, roids are just not very dangerous.
>>40216829
most people into that shit don't actually want to get pregnant.

I want my boyfriend to breed me, but I hate the concept of children.
>>40217112
there's no one into knocking up trans men it's 4chan meme ragebait.

>>40216675
I deliberately poondosed myself for my first few months because I believed this poonscience. Its 100% just speech patterns and afabs generally having less skull space. Voice training is the solution.
>>40216829
I mostly hate the detrans fetish shit but ultimately its just a fetish and a lot of ftms would rope if they actually detransed or got pregnant irl. Rape kinks are very common but that doesnt mean people legit want to be raped.

On that shit

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