Thread 40176783

drugs are abused by lgbt over two times more than heteronormative people making them partially a lgbt issue. please don't delete my thread jannies

>qott: are you high rn?
>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?

Come to discuss drugs or alcohol as much as you would like, i hope you all are having a good time rn :>

>>40176783 (OP)
Does being drunk count? I'm working my way though a bottle of wine a t m.

>>40176783 (OP)
no
either low tolerance 390mg dxm freebase or first time 600mg dph
yes i know i listed otcs 15 year olds use leave me alone im in my 20s

>>40176783 (OP)
>>qott: are you high rn?
no i am unfortunately an alcoholic and addict so i can't do drugs anymore or i will rapidly ruin my life (again)
>>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?
probably the first time i rolled really hard on MDMA but there's been a lot of good one

>>40176783 (OP)
>>qot: Yea, I got a cart, but I think it's spice
>>qot2: Took shrooms and hit a cart while watching Bojack Horseman

>>40176783 (OP)
>Are u high
No rolling up a joint rn tho
>Best high ever
Candy flipping mdma+lsd
Dont remember half of it but made 3 strong friendships that afternoon and they all thought i had immaculate vibes

>are you high rn?
going to be in an hour
>what was the best high you ever had?
probably the time i got really really baked and watched videos about north korea for like 5 hours
i took a bunch of edibles and was manually breathing at one point but the guy going over whats available in an nk political shop went crazy hard
alternatively if alcohol counts, getting incredibly drunk at a party and going back to my gfs place for the first time through the biggest storm of the winter
pic rel

>>40176783 (OP)
I’m a drunkard. Drug and alcohol use is usually tied to other underlying conditions.

>>40176783 (OP)
>are you high rn?
yes I just finished smoking.
>what was the best high you ever had?
when od'd on oxys at 16

>>40176812
yes ofc nona! :3
>>40176838
i love dxm freebase so much i think the most i ever did was 600mg
>>40176866
spice is good for you :3

>>40176982
drinking wine on tramadol idc what happens to me

>>40176783 (OP)
not high rn, but will be soon. gonna nap first though so i can enjoy it
my best high was a suicide attempt cuz opiates are just lovely. if that doesn't count... did a massive amount of LSD while camping in the mountains a few years ago and spent the entire time staring at the clouds and the forest. Had a beautiful moment during the comedown where the full moon broke through like 5 different layers of clouds to shine directly on me for a few seconds before getting covered back up

>>40176783 (OP)
no, but i wanna be

best high in of itself was definitely when i took mdma in a hotel with my friend. thats the only time ive done it so far, and the high was probably hampered a bit from me being drunk while doing it, but it was still great.

The best experience ive had while high was probably when me and my bf took shrooms together the first time. we just cuddled naked and yapped the entire time, but it was probably the most happy ive ever felt in a 6 hour period.
god i wanna do mdma with my boyfriend while he fucks me. i think that would be the peak of life

>>40177003
600 is also the most i did but it wasnt fun

i unfortunately only have had access to alcohol up to this point, but drinking out with my new friends has been a ton of fun so i guess that's progress in the not rotting in my room department

>>40176783 (OP)
my best high would probably one of my molly sessions, ig my second one when i flipped it with 2cb in a rave, it was also an interesting time bc i was 1 month hrt.

for the first 2 hours i was just kinda vibing to the music, but then i sat on some random lawn chair and was like damn it feels so good and comfy life feel so good and comfy its so beautiful to be here etc you know all that molly stuff. some time later i dropped the 2cb. the peak moment was one of my friends talking something about determinism and if free will exists and i was like even if im deterministic and have no free will, its still me and thats beautiful and that thought hits me to this day. the next day i was feeling so spiritual, watching the sunset while on a train and thinking that some kind of god or guardian angel must be proud of me and is caring for me.

actually my later mdma experiences werent any worse, you actually can relive it if you dont do much and too often and also if you know what to do if you get into a spiral of bad thoughts that actually can happen while on mdma but all you gotta do is to tell someone who will care and youre gonna be fine

>>40177003
>yes ofc nona! :3
oh ok! I mean i feel kind of shitty cause i'm letting down my dad who really struggled before becoming totally sober. but i'm also disappointing him by being a troon so i guess it doesn't matter :[

>>40177047
sounds beautiful..

mine was also an acid comedown. i was on the beach in northern california with my best friend and we were both watching the sun shine through these huge waves with perfect weather. we both saw our own unique patterns glinting on the sand.. i saw a continuous mandala and he saw letters. these visuals would follow us both later on in life whenever we tripped together even on mushrooms or especially intense amounts of weed.

>>40176783 (OP)
No
Molly

>>40176783 (OP)
No
First time I tried molly. Was at rave and kissed cute hapa girl with enormous knockers. 11/10 would recommend

1. Soon
2. oxy, the absolute peace… zzz i wish i died
3. Yes i do hope the happy people here become uglier tomorrow

>>40176783 (OP)
>yes i jjust smoked weed from an arizone can
>traveling in asia and i smoked a lot of "ketamine" idk if it was actually ketamine desu bc of the language gap but i want it again

>>40176783 (OP)
>>qott: are you high rn?
No, wish I was but I cba getting out to smoke a joint
>>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?
First time smoking weed while already being drunk as fuck, I fucking loved it

Where is everyone getting MDMA ? I'd love to try it but I can't just come up to someone if they have some, that's weird...

i don't do drugs i'm xvx

>>40179685
>can't just come up to someone if they have some
can't just come up to someone *AND ASK* if they have some
I can't type I'm retarded and I don't deserve to live

>>40176783 (OP)
>1: yes
>2: meth or lsd

im so fucking baked and i have to wake up early tomorrow and try to push an important fix by the end of the day because things get pushed into production friday
fuck my stupid faggot life

>>40179040
you dont smoke ketamine
was probably opium

>>40179727
lmao imagine being a prodlet, SAD! Everyone knows don't push risky changes on Friday!

>>40176783 (OP)
no, im sober-ish. I've done too many drugs, and I have brain damage and physical problems from abuse during my early teens. if i did anymore, I'd spiral out of control, probably.

there was this random pill i did. I had no clue what it was (not that i really cared atp) or anything comparable to it now.it was really odd, very physically intense, visually moderate, and a very weird but intense headstate. It felt like there was rain hitting my skin, and every little drop was ecstasy. the visuals were like being underwater almost, like water caustics. This drug reminded me of these rainy thunder-y days when I was a kid watching the lightningbolts hit the water over the ocean. I have tried finding any reference of this drug everywhere online from erowid to rc websites, I literally can't find a single thing like this.

bump, i know you smoke weed

>>40176783 (OP)
I stopped weed more than a week ago. It's hard and makes me anxious, but I'm never touching that shit again.

>>40176783 (OP)
> are you high rn?
no, sober actually since starting hrt
> what was the best high you ever had?
probably the combination of
- 80mg MDMA crystals (oral)
- 10mg HHC gummy
- 150mg Ketamine (nasal, spread over ten hours)
- 12 servings of alcohol (spread over ten hours)
- 3 espressos to help with the comedown

> that was a wild night.

>>40179901
you can actually freebase ketamine (like cocaine) to get a more intense, but shorter duration high.

>>40181608
> this random pill i did
sounds like 2cb going off your description, if in pill form, it was probably impure and mixed with other stimulants. not that special desu and nothing to worry about

>>qott: are you high rn?
nope would be cool tho
>>qott2
so far, my first time on shrooms. laying down completely zoned out to music and enjoying myself

>>40182289
good for you, you should try opiates 100% no chance of addiction

>>40182331
ive done 2cb a handful of times before and it wasn't like this.

>>40176783 (OP)
i cant drink anymore because i drank to blackout every few days in my early 20s
i do pot every day and it helps cant today because i have too much shit to do

My bf is a huge weed head and is almost constantly high
I don't mind it though. He gets really submissive and intimate when he's high

I wish I could get high I hate being poor

>>40184127
a bj goes a long way

>>40184133
should I install grindr or something
should probably focus on food and rent first desu

>>40184149
or option 2, move in with the guy from grindr so you dont need to pay for ANYTHING

>>40184156
not looking for a sugardaddy atm just need money and some decent dick

>>40184156
ive been trying to do this for a while its not been going well :(

>>40184164
i would fit this if i wasnt poor too

>>40184176
sucks desu

>>40184201
yea </3

>>40184164
get a job

>>40184313
have a job

>>40184321
whats the job

>>40184325
personal shopper
I need to leave the shitty union desu theyve never actually done anything for me and should cancel my healthcare stuff

>>40184338
you could unironically make more money as a fucking hooker

>>40184338
Like instacart lmao?

>>40184346
yeh
last time I had a grindr a bunch of guys at the smoking area were critiquing my body
made me quite uncomfortable

>>40184348
yeh prettymuch
have a nice wank or whatever m8

>>40184353
We all gotta start somewhere no disrespect

>>40184353
redownload grindr

>>40184363
ty

>>40184372
think I'll do that in a bit
ty for being nice
sorry for derailing the thread

wanna write a charecter with a ketamine addiction, what should she do 4chan

have her cheat on her boyfriend with her dealer for drugs, then the boyfriend leaves her and the dealer harasses and threatens her and her children for a few years
based on my mum

>>40184769
>>40184832

currently writing this after consuming one voodoo ranger and half a pint of jagermeister. very seriously thinking about marching to the liquor store that opens in 20 minutes and getting more beer or jager...

>>40183608
I have some oxy laying around soooo
But nah

>>40176783 (OP)
>qott
no, unless u count 3 cups of coffee. I abstain a lot
>qott2
speed but the vibe was right and I was in an apartment with great view of the city and playing blood borne with a friend

>>40184832
actually not a terrible idea. charecters background is that she uses the ket as a cope for her abusive dad + gender dysphoria so shes like,16 on it. Idk how id write that considering her age but i like the idea behind it. Her dads a politician so it could be an interesting way to put tension in there relationship

>>40184935
nah my mum had 6 kids caus she didnt wanna work and liked getting high/drunk but u do u
also fyi the kids were not safe in this ordeal

>>40184946
obviously what your mom did is dumb, im just saying having like a stalker drug dealer charecter could provide some cool tension

sorry that happened to you btw anon, sounds very shit :<

>>40184974
is ok sorry for venting
gl with your story

>>40184974
oh actually make the father a jahovas witness
they are highly insular, conformist, cult like and have numerous child sex offence scandals that the united nations are trying to indict them for

>>40184883
yo wya do you gots a script?

>>40185001
maybe.. idk

the father charecters weird, hes a politcian who is trying to advocate for good policy but its ultimately unclear if he believes any of it or just sees it as a gap in the market.

Hes abusive to his "son" because hes concerned about his image and anytime the poor girl is even slightly out of line punishment is swift and often violent. Hes a bad person with redeemable traits. This is what makes getting his buse so hard for the main charecter. She feels as if her abuse was for some sort of "greater purpose" and her father didnt mean to hurt her.

>>40184875
back from the liquor store (＾_＾)

the cashier probably noticed that i was high but they didn't say anything. gonna pass out on lite beer and maybe a shot of tequila now

>>40185342
sounds nice
nini nona

>>40185342
please blog more

>>40176783 (OP)
shrooms, lsd, dxm, weed, molly and ket in my stash rn

i mostly just enjoy lsd and shrooms tho. they help with my trauma and let me see myself how others see me, which is as a beautiful woman with a female body

my favourite time being high was when i took 3.5g of shrooms and wandered off into the nearby forest to read inside mari. i thought the mushrooms would let me turn myself into an agp like mari so i could finally feel happy with my transition

i didnt become agp, obviously, but i did realise i was just a woman that day. i also befriended a rock (mister rock!), cried after i peed on a tree (im sorry mr tree) and hugged the tree better again, and then ate dominos in the pouring rain

crona mentioned

>>40176783 (OP)
>are you high rn
no I quit all drugs except psychedelics, and then I started suffering from dissassocative episodes and weird effects like dual monologues and personality takeovers, I'm worried that I've pushed my brain too far so I'm now I'm straight edge

>best high you ever had
heroin + shrooms

>>40185377
>>40185359
thank you! just want to also mention that working night shift at an old folks home has completely turned me into an alcoholic! literally nothing to do when i get off + my weekends

>>40185494
Have you ever been clubbing?

>>40185494
yeah night shift sucks
Ive been a recluse for a decade so I only work night shift for the money and caus its not really like im losing out on anything
sorry tho

>>40185415
ur my favourite anon <3

>>40185893
oh I only posted that caus someone else posted crona it wasnt me who said that sorry
crona cool tho

>>40185510
clubbing is not my scene but I have tried some bars, and it sucks because i get off at either midnight or 4 am. at 4 am the bars are all closed and at midnight the bars are only open til 2:30, so by the i get there everything is winding down. also i'm being a total shylock so i can save for ffs and bars are so expensive compared to getting drunk at home ;^\ (maybe if i wasn't a hon someone would buy drinks for me)

>>40185512
I thought night shift was gonna be great bcuz it would make my stupid transition easier, like no one's gonna care when the person who changes your diaper at 11pm has x pronouns. Which is mostly true, the old people I work with are very out of it and most of them see a person with long hair and ma'am me. But the isolation is rough, all of my coworkers are filipinas or black janitors.

>>40176783 (OP)
>>qott: are you high rn?
yes, vicodin
>>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?
still vicodin, I've never done any other drugs

>>40185998
better than where I work
night shift doesnt stop my co workers from being horrible people

>>40176783 (OP)
>best high you ever had
Was like the second time I did shrooms. I took too much and I’m pretty sure I experienced ego death. For just a bit, my mind was completely quiet and it just felt ok to exist. I ended up thinking I died.

>>40176783 (OP)
>>qott: are you high rn?
no but almost hit cns depression on hydros the other night
>>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?
suboxone lmao wtf i felt like i could die and it would all be ok

>>40176783 (OP)
God i just want to be completely blitzed out of my mind all day everyday until I finally leave this world. I don’t want to feel anything anymore.

>>40176783 (OP)
>are u high rn?
i just took the last of my painkillers that i had leftover from a surgery last year.

they havent kicked in yet but hopefully they will numb the pain of having a lying manipulative boyfriend

>>40176783 (OP)
>qott: are you high rn?
no, but i have an amph binge planned for july 1-4 with the vyv in picrel
>qott2: what was the best high you ever had?
first or second (i cant remember, i think first) time i had mushrooms and i decided to take a shower. i felt like a rainforest frog in the best possible way