>>40244973
It dont make sense tho. Im a conversationalist, extroverted, and a leader in my field of work. I manage a team of several dozen people and know each one of them personally. I easily intuit body language and tone of voice and am deeply empathetic. Isnt that all, like, mega counter to autism. The only autistic thing I do is develop hyperfixations, but that's also an ADHD thing
>>40244991
There is a type of therapy that has a high success rate with BPD. I forget what it's called.
What's helped me the most is just writing down the feelings I'm having and where they're coming from. I have an entire feelings journal full of it. I find the bad ones come from one of three mental thoughttrains: "I want to stab everyone and leave them", "I want to know exactly how much they love me at all times", and "I want to solve my problems right now, no matter how much it hurts me"
And lots of reminding myself that it's not always about me and sometimes friends are just quiet. My best friend wasnt talking to me one day and I got real upsetti... found out later she was consoling a mutual friend who was feeling suicidal. Felt kinda dumb.
We are loved, more than we know.
>>40245004
After reading about them I can see slight differences. But BPD *does* fit my symptoms better than CPTSD.
Doesn't help I have actual PTSD from military service, as well. Kinds muddles everything. ><
>>40245019
30. Repped long and hard. Ive also worked very hard on becoming a better person. Still working on it.
