ftm. my father isnt the greatest, he admits this, but i feel like hes suffering because of me.
>most likely loves me and cares about me, has put in the work to gender me correctly even though he still sees me as a woman
>because of how much my social life sucks he started getting concerned because im an incel and generally unhappy
>started paying for my psychological treatment
>constantly concerned about me. allegedly he couldnt watch "adolescence because of how much it hurt him" and constantly broke down crying. might or might not be associated to me
>he still sees me as a little girl he needs to protect
>psychologist deeply recommended i get further psychiatric help because of insomnia and that i need to tell my dad or someone
he will try to inquire more about why im so sad and angry all the time and hes probably gonna think i got raped. the bad thing is that it wasnt rape but a friend making me uncomfortable sexually out of nowhere repeatedly and a lot of other more shit, but i know hes just gonna view it as me being a little girl who he needs to protect from the actual men. however i really need the treatment, and i cant pay for it because im a college student. i also don't want to make him more concerned about me than he already is, and hes got my little brothers to deal with too.

>>40254408 (OP)
>the bad thing is that it wasnt rape but a friend making me uncomfortable sexually out of nowhere repeatedly

rape

i dont understeand FtM. why wouldnt you want to be a cute girl?

>>40254432
it wasnt rape cause he didnt actually touch my genitals or boob or whatever. i stopped him cause he was getting way too touchy even though i told him repeatedly i dont do that stuff with someone im not in a serious relationship with. then he stopped. it was bad but it wasnt rape and itd be unfair to lie about that

>>40254510
you seem cute pooner. i could i touch you if you want

>i dont want sex until i am into a serious relationship

see, no human male talks or thinks like that

>>40254510
do you think getting touched has anything to do with you being a poon poon?

>>40254408 (OP)
sometimes, get this, sometimes, when you're an absolute fucking nutcase, and a
>incel
people grow concerned for your mental wellbeing because you appear unhinged, it's not because they view you as a little girl per-se but moreso because they view you as being a psycho.

If you're going to do anything I think you should listen to the concerns around you from the people who love you, and take them on as constructive criticism to help you improve yourself.
but gosh! listen to me talk, I know you won't do that, you're a man, you're a fucking idiot by design, go blame your issues on a minority or something.

>>40254590
youre right its the neurodivergent arab women who are to blame... thanks dood.

in all seriousness regardless of its manly or not i do not want to be a weird asshole all my life, i want to tell him but im sure it will be hard for him. oh well if i dont ill be the one who didnt open up and then got worse.

>>40254623
Curious, men also do that, they bottle up their feelings so no one else arounds them worries about them or see them less of a man, it is actually the main cause of male depression.

But he's your father and he loves unconditionally, if he ever cries or feels bad about your situation is that he is empathetic about your suffering, not that he wants you to be a little girl but that he wants you to feel good about yoursef.

>>40254703
that kinda makes sense. thanks. youre very nice

>>40254408 (OP)
>my dad is miserable
>opens thread
>I'm miserable

>>40254408 (OP)
didn't read hswyd

>>40255352
not contradictory

>>40254408 (OP)
>woman drivel word salad that goes nowhere and makes no point