Thread 40262040

sup tttt. bored oldfag tranny here. i have to leave my place to go catch a plane in four hours, it's too fucking hot to sleep or really do anything else with this stupid heatwave, my oomfie is in the middle of nowhere with no signal so i can't annoy her and so i turn to you guys for company and entertainment. how are you guys doing?

Pretty chill, I got an exam tommorow to worry about but I am decent at the class so I think its fine as long as I study.

This stubble is giving me brain aids though.

>>40262072
good luck anon! i've considered going back to uni to get an actual qualification (been working for years and have a fairly decent job in IT now but i wouldn't mind climbing the ladder a bit and i see a lot of jobs asking for a degree even if you have experience) but then i hear about stuff like "exams" and i'm like, never mind actually. it's cool though, i hope it goes well for you.

>>40262111
lol yeah college sucks, but it can be fun too.
What are you traveling for?

>>40262131
just a little solo holiday, couple of days in normandy, i miss the sea air and it's gonna be only 22 degrees which sounds lovely after suffocating under 35+ in a big dense city for the last couple of days. i think i'm gonna rent a bike and tour a couple of the d-day landing beaches. shame i couldn't go for longer but i've been saving money for a surgery later this year and for when my favourite girl in the world visits me soon.

>>40262204
Ah yeah, that sounds like fun! I've got a hubby on the other side of the continent, when I see him I need to show him a good time. He is from the city and I live in a less populated area so I was thinking showing him some nature and firearms would be something he doesn't get to do all the time and is relatively solitary.

>>40262040 (OP)
I feel like it's so rare to meet any oldfag trannies, all the trannies in frengen seem to be in their early twenties or younger. I wish I had more tranny friends who are at the same stage with their transition/etc as me

>>40262040 (OP)
>oomfie
i hope she's hot
i hope you're hot
i hope you're having a lovely time anon <3

>>40262288
cute! i've been a city girl all my life but even i need to escape to nature sometimes lol the last time she was here we got the train out the countryside, rode a boat to the end of a lake and then climbed up a hill in the forest to find this abandoned castle. reminded me of being a kid. firearms sound cool, i'm more of a sword person but i've gotta fire a gun at least once in my life.
>>40262352
yeah i guess a lot of us were once those early 20s girls posting in frengen and then we moved on with our lives, but still hang out here from time to time. i go through phases of months or even years without ever posting here but then something compels me to come back. the board's changed a lot since i was first on it mind you, but then again i've been on this site long enough to remember moot and the original leekspin and all that stuff (i'm not even that old! i guess i was just on here ridiculously young ahaha).

>>40262396
thank you anon, means a lot. we are and i am. life is a gift my friends.

>>40262451
sometimes it feels like a curse. i'm still a khv at 26 and i think a lot about how worthless i am

>>40262040 (OP)
hi! whats the main difference between how the board is now and how it used to be?
t. lurking on the board since late 2022 but havent posted much until early this year

>>40262466
i think a lot of us are late bloomers, many of the trans women i know didn't fully find ourselves until we were in our mid 20s. i had my first actual relationship at 25, when it ended it felt like my world was falling apart but it wasn't my last, there's always time. you're not worthless, don't say that shit. i used to talk about myself like that too and learned that's no way to treat yourself. i hope things look up for you soon.
>>40262471
i definitely feel like the overall culture of 4chan has shifted and /lgbt/ is no exception, just less of a "board" culture if you will. there was always a bit of degeneracy here for sure but it's gotten pretty boring and repetitive now, though there are still gems ofc. quality of discussion and advice has gone downhill a bit for sure. trips are less memorable but maybe that's not a horrible thing, who knows.

>>40262540
i'm actually a bi cis guy, not trans. but i am diagnosed autistic and i was convinced i was asexual for like eight years.
>there's always time. you're not worthless, don't say that shit.
thank you. it really, really means a lot

>>40262551
my bad but i think it applies to being lgbt in general you know? on average we just spend more time soul searching and figuring out who we are than the average cis straight person, you just can't hold yourself to the same standards. hell when i was a teenager i thought i was asexual for a bit too, realised soon after it was just dysphoria, all of us have these doubts i think. chin up dude, things will get better i'm sure.

>>40262551
Lol i never figure out anything with my sexuality until it hits me in the face like a frying pan. I honestly have some pretty funny stories from figuring out I like men and now figuring out I might be a tranny.

>>40262601
god bless you, you're the kindest soul i've met here in months. thank you so much

>>40262616
me and you both lol i think i figured the gender stuff long before i ever figured out who i actually like but people expect it the other way around. i remember... god this goes back a whole decade now which is crazy but my home country i no longer live in had a referendum to legalise gay marriage when i was still in school, i knew i was trans at this point but my mom was just convinced i was gay, when the result was announced she was like "son, now's the time if you have anything to tell us" and it was just like "well i do but not quite what you think". did eventually realise i'm just bi but i fought with myself over it for years even after transitioning.
>>40262620
hey no problem, i just hate to see anyone feeling bad about themselves, i do what i can to lift everyone up i guess.

>>40262724
I forced myself to jerk off to femboy porn so I could "get used to it" for the guy I fell in love with haha.

I honestly don't know how or why I was able to keep myself from ever considering myself a tranny, but whatever that was blew up in my face when I put on a dress and shaved and then I had like a month long mental rollercoaster ride. I'm still debating if I am a tranny or not but I think the fact that its been such a problem is probably a sign I am cooked looool

>>40262416
>i'm not even that old! i guess i was just on here ridiculously young ahaha
Same! I didn't really go on 4chan for maybe 8 years or so, but recently started coming here again because I didn't feel like I could connect with any trannies on other websites or IRL. Though to be fair those also tended to be mostly people very early in their transition, so maybe it's just that. Yeah I guess when you've been transitioning for a while you don't really have that much of a need to be in trans spaces because you don't need to figure things out or get info on diy, so that's why most of them tend to be young or very early in their transition. It's kind of sad though. Sometimes I feel like younger trans girls would probably benefit from having older trans girls to talk to.

>>40262797
i got on here when I was 12 and it fucked me up good, don't do 4chan kids

>>40262783
well, idk if i'd say you're cooked, i think being a tranny is pretty great but then again i would say that! best of luck whatever you end up doing anon.
>>40262797
oh absolutely, i'll never forget the sort of mentors i had when i was questioning and then early in transition. at the same time trying to reassure an anxious babytrans that everything is gonna be alright is no task for the faint-hearted ahaha i'm thinking about what i put my older wiser trans girls through all those years ago, my goodness! if only they could see me now. at this stage of my life i'm just glad to have a couple of other trans women in my age group in my life, it's all i need. in some ways transition never "ends" or "finishes" but it's different after some years have passed for sure.

>>40262844
I always figured one of us 2 would have to troon out, if we adopt kids I don't want to force any poor kids to grow up without something resembling a mother. I guess this experience of mine has only confirmed who's responsibility that will have to be.

>>40263000
you know, that's actually sort of a nice way of looking at it. i accepted a while back that i might never know what it is to be a parent and i've made peace with that, so i don't tend to really comment on things like same-sex parents. what i will say is i don't really personally know anyone who grew up with two dads, but i know several people who grew up with two moms. one of them was my roommate in the psychiatric hospital who i ended up befriending though so i'm not sure what that says about lesbian parenting lol she seems fine mostly though!

>>40262040 (OP)
another oldfag here, freezing my ass off in a thunderstorm

Im doing okay, just told the girl i liked that i like her and she said she liked me back. THen it turned out she didnt know I was a tranny, but said she is cool with it and invited me over to her place. So shits looking up for once

>>40263069
hell yeah, good luck

>>40263047
I feel you with the parent thing. I had a sort of collectivist worldview hammered into me so being in a nonbreeding relationship doesn't feel great. Living a traditional life sounds great but you know I think I came out of the factory wrong.

>>40263069
>freezing my ass off in a thunderstorm
jealous lol it's significantly hotter right now at 2am where i am than it's going to be in the daytime where i'm headed. getting ready to head to the airport now except it's an absolute oven in my apartment.
>just told the girl i liked that i like her and she said she liked me back
congrats anon! glhf with her.
>>40263226
yep lol the very first thing my parents said when i came out was "what about grandchildren". later found out i was infertile anyway before even beginning HRT so it's not really something i chose. still feels bad though.

>>40263362
might not be the right time, but did you do your HRT DIY or medically? I am considering both options but idk what is a better idea

>>40263390
what's a better idea completely depends on what part of the world you're in and how serious doctors there are about dosages. personally i started with DIY, then went to a GP (was still living in france at the time and if a GP is treating you for transsexualism you can get free laser, psych appointments, even certain surgeries etc) but he was hondosing me so i did this semi-DIY thing where i'd source my own estrogen and get progesterone and other meds off doctors while pretending i was using their estrogen. now i'm just fully DIY though and stealth even to doctors.

>>40263576
Damn its possible to pass biologically? I live in the land of the free so I will have to pay for everything, might as well DIY then.

>>40262040 (OP)
Hello fellow oldfag hope you have a great trip! I’m sweating like a ham and thinking about dick and pussy and the future again. The usual

>>40263708
the future is scary, in its upper layers it contains our dreams and in its lower layers our nightmares and the great beyond

>>40262288
you don't live with your husband? wtf

>>40264337
we aint married I am pretty young, but I've known him since I was like 14 so its still been like most of my post pubescent life lol

>>40264409
probably gonna get married eventually though i do love him hes such a black little potato

omw to the airport with a bolt driver who's driving this thing like he's suicidal lol keep me in your thoughts anons.
>>40263672
i mean there are good endos in america, bad ones too mind you but if there's anywhere you'll find a doctor who won't hondose you it's america. look into dr will powers' method and see if you can find an endo who follows that. if not DIY it is ig.
>>40263708
thanks anon!

>>40264703
great advice, thank you very much! This tranny shit is making me feel the most alive I have ever been I think its a blessing (or I just figured out how to lift a curse and this is how everyone else is supposed to feel lol)