Thread 40276989

bi cis male for my letter
y'all have helped me a lot
>kicked heroin
>kicked alcohol
>no longer bite my nails
Now I just need to get over these awful PAWS, and get back into running. Thinking about all the cringe things I did while drunk and high makes me want to rope, but I know it's the chemicals in my brain talking.
What have you guys done to help yourselves this year?

>>40276989 (OP)
>joined a club
overall it has been a backslide year so far but this summer i plan to:
>quit weed (at least move to only once a week)
>start eating consistent meals
>go to therapy
>maybe also stop biting my nails
im a straight mtf

>>40276999
Your digits show that you are making good improvements anon. I'm proud of you. What club did you join?

>>40277014
i don't wanna get too specific because im in a small field but it's the main club for my major at my university. hopefully i can live up to the digits lol, i have some hope because ive had my life on track in the past

>>40276989 (OP)
i'm getting some bad teeth fixed and removed.

>>40277035
I've never had my life on track. Not since I was 15. Here's hoping I can put the darkness (racism mainly) of my thought process to bed finally. That's next on the list.
>>40277046
Having bad teeth sounds like hell. I had a cavity and felt bad enough about that recently lol

>>40277070
all of my wisdom teeth and getting a molar worked on its very expensive bt i'm ok

>>40276989 (OP)
>Eat slightly better
>Started hrt after having to go off it over a year ago
>Made more friends and socialising more
>Started running
Idk it's been a poor year so far, i don't think I'll ever be able to stop biting my nails how did you do that please i need help best I've done is maybe 2 months. It's pretty bad cuz i also bit the finger tip skin at this point and it's getting worse. Also hoping to join some clubs at college, I'm thinking drama, learn how to ride a motorcycle, get back into the gym and actually effortmaxx on my transition (i probably won't also sorry for talking about tranny shit cuz i assume that's not the idea of the thread)
>>40276999
I also need you're help on how to stop biting my nails

>>40277070
>here's hoping i can put the darkness of my thought process to bed finally
that kinda thing is hard to do but you can do it!

>>40277080
Running helps a lot
>sorry for talking about tranny stuff
don't be, we are talking about how we are improving our lives. If transitioning helps you, then that's most certainly on topic.

>>40276989 (OP)
went to rehab again, registered for college in the fall

>>40277234
What are you studying?

>>40277280
studying to be a paramedic

I got a job!! Its only 6 hours a month rn, since I'm a cleaner that comes over 3 hours a week every two weeks, but its an end to my neet-dom!!
I'm also working on finishing my writing and trying to build up the courage to actually post it.
Working on weight loss as well.

>>40276989 (OP)
damn, ur a fuckin soldier bud. good on u.
>got a part time job
>got into my local music scene
>stopped drinking liquor (still drink beer+smoke. working on that, though)
bi mtf. the horrors persist but so do we. it would be nice to have a boyfriend, a flat, and an actual career someday. things to work towards.
>>40277416
a step is a step, keep at it! hope ur writing goes well. i write too, so i know from experience that putting it out there is always one of the harder parts.

I started working
Only about 3-4 hours a week sometimes 12-14
I have never had a job before this one
I read my first novel in Japanese

>>40276989 (OP)
i started playing league of legends again

haha

im going to have to learn carries my lux is too weak :(

its fun to be back to it after 12 years though

>>40276989 (OP)
>rotted
>given up
>started abusing stimulants
>twice weekly lower body only weight lifting
i could be doing so much more if life didnt hate me

adam's so handsome
anyways i'm dropping out of college & moving back in with my mom. so nothing i'm regressing

>>40277416
That's amazing anon! The first step is always so hard, but sweet at the same time.
>>40277509
Thanks bud, yeah gotta troop on. Tired of being a loser.
>still drink beer+smoke. working on that, though
not trying to lecture, but that was me for a long time, my cope
>oh all I do is drink beer, I don't drink liquor so it's not that bad
but you can still be an alcoholic mess with just beer anon. That being said, I am proud of you for your progress nonetheless.
>>40277902
>i could be doing so much more if life didnt hate me
That was me too. I abused stims some as well. Life doesn't hate you anon, it's the addictions that make things tough to reconcile with a normal life.
>>40277932
Adam is so cute, would love to top him.

>>40279955
>Life doesn't hate you anon, it's the addictions that make things tough to reconcile with a normal life.
then why can i suddenly not get a job? its not even addiction, im not on coke or phet or anything like that. im using beta agonists for weight management and energy levels and to keep myself from rotting further.

>>40276989 (OP)
mtf
>made better sleep schedule
>kept improving on hrt
>made better friends (after the last lot ditched me)
>got better at making ramen (the small things)
yk for living in a country that ruled i "obviously can't breastfeed" (how tf these fucking legal retards even works I don't even know) i think i'm not doing that bad??

>>40276989 (OP)
>kicked heroin
Goddamn anon that’s hard to top
I’ve been learning to daytrade stocks and I can do a handstand now
>>40280129
Sleep and friends optimisation is solid fundamentals

gay male, 27 Lost 30 pounds and now I’m at my ideal weight for my height.

I didn’t really do anything besides eat healthy and walk a lot, but I did stop drinking alcohol. Been sober six months.

>>40276989 (OP)
>quit drugs
>lessened alcohol intake significantly
>got a bf
>started detransitioning (?)
>slowly learning to cook

>>40280140
>Sleep and friends optimisation is solid fundamentals
what in the autism is "friends optimisation"?!?!

>>40280325
Realising that you don’t have to be friends with people you don’t like or share values/interests with just because you shared or share circumstances or environments

>>40276989 (OP)
mtf, checked myself into a psych ward, got off wellbutrin. realized that weed has actually become a problem for me so i'm trying to kick that, at least for a while. working on gaining weight since i'm scary thin

>>40276989 (OP)
Hrm

>>40276989 (OP)
Hmmm?

>>40276989 (OP)
> Left an abusive relationship
> Moving out to be alone (contract signed, waiting for the move-in date from the landlord)
> Processing trauma. All of it. From childhood onward.
> Actually taking my prescribed dose of hrt, not skimping on it.
> 100x healthier sleep habits (0300-0900 -> 0000-0600)
> Reduced nail biting (I have the nails on my left hand pristine, and 2-3 good nails on my right)
> Stopped weight gain
> Started speaking with humans (see: #1)
> All while staying employed

>>40280535
i kinda did that ages ago but kept the old lot around because didn't want to be alone

then became alone and then became not alone because idk god cast down some tranners from the heavens to ask me about how buses work idf remember anymore

>>40276989 (OP)
getting teeth aligned so hopefully i get to have a decent smile

>>40276989 (OP)
str mtf
>got a job (fired 1 month later for being a troon)
>got first haircut since started growing it out
>booked ffs
>found a group of friends I enjoy hanging out with
>quit girlmoding bc im a brick and being a hon made me hella uncomfy, andro manmode is much more comfortable
>new clothes for new style, look a lot better on me
>finished a big project i started in january
I think its been pretty good so far?

I'm going to improve myself by closing this site forever. Half the people who post here are insufferable. Best of luck to y'all and peace.

>>40276989 (OP)
>Started therapy
>Started making savings
>Cut out a friend who was seriously stressing me out with his bullshit
>Closed my circle further and stopped giving my authentic self to people who don't value me
Still have so much to improve
I need to keep working hard, I need to keep working on self regulation, I need to sort out my daily routines and I need to start utilising my down time better (not being here or rotting)

Don't get me started, dude...

>>40279955
>but you can still be an alcoholic mess with just beer anon
no ya i agree, its still a cope through and through. i was fighting fucking demons yesterday to not run to the grocery store after work and burn my money to sink a 12 pack, thankfully i managed to end the night sober. makes 3 in a row. heres to many more.
>Adam is so cute, would love to top him.
you are a man of culture, you will go far