But I won’t even have attendees for my funeral
My name won’t be remembered and it will have no meaning to anyone
Not yet
Mom isnt ok
Not yet

Idk do you want a bunch of motherfuckers sitting around in black talking about how sad they are because you passed? I'll die alone in my hospital bed, thank you.

>>40286189 (OP)
Looking for impact is meaningless when we all disappear over time.
Just be happy while you're here, you don't need to make a mark.

>>40286189 (OP)
:(

>>40286189 (OP)
If you want your death to mean something, then make your life mean something first.

You can be nicer to yourself. I want you to

>>40286189 (OP)
go on holiday and go missing in the wilderness while going camping or smth. with any luck you'll make a massive news spectacle

even better if it lasts long enough you can somehow troon out in the middle

>>40286189 (OP)
I'm more terrified of dying young enough that they put my deadname on my tombstone, just my dead body being paraded around for others to pretend they knew me, if I died now I'll never find peace, I think that's partly why I haven't fully committed to killing myself yet

>>40286189 (OP)
its less traumatic to keep people you cared about away from your funeral.
having them all congregrate and make a day out of it and looking at your corpse..
why do that to them.
sometimes its better to not have visitors.