any trannies here sober or in the process of getting sober? i haven't drank alcohol in two weeks and i'm trying to make it through the whole month of july without drinking but god it's hard. i've practically gotten addicted to diet coke because it's the only thing that helps me ward off urges. i also managed to stay self-harm free for all of june but today i had a couple of panic attacks and almost lost my streak but managed to stay clean. i'm feeling really discouraged rn. :/

>>40294143 (OP)
I’m sober now as I’ve spent the first half of today recovering from a hangover.

I think you’ve got the right idea by having a substitution. Diet Coke isn’t too bad unless you start considering some of the sweeteners but that’s another story.

Well done if you have managed to stay away from self harm recently. Are you doing anything about any previous scars or wounds?

I honestly just don’t trust myself with blades or anything sharp out of fear I do something, so I just don’t keep any. I use an electric razor to shave. So far it has been successful but I don’t think it’s sustainable to live like this.

>>40294143 (OP)
hugs nona, its demons difficult. im trying to go as sober as i can for july too. spent 200 fucking dollars on alcohol last month without even being aware of it and that realization has really fucked with me.
some things that help me is to try to replace that urge to be drunk with some other stimulation. make something yummy, watch a new movie all the way through and really focus 100% on it, some stupid addicting videogames, typing out all my thoughts into a notepad file. anything to keep yourself from even drinking a single beer.
when it really gets bad and it feels like i'm gonna snap and run to the liquor store, i smoke weed and watch cooking/citywalk videos to keep me occupied. usually works for hours. its still not good at all and maybe not even applicable for you, but you really need to do whatever you can to keep yourself away from the bottle.
im proud you managed to keep yourself from self harming. its not easy. im 1 year clean myself and its been really worth it, even though ive almost gone back to it a bunch of times. its a difficult time to try and stay clean+sober. if you slip, dont be too hard on yourself. always get back up.

>>40294143 (OP)
i used to live a sex drugs and rocknroll lifestyle and compared to most people i'm pretty sober except for hrt things.
i dont even drink coffee or smoke.

but you name the drug, i've probably done it.
all the popular ones people know about anyways.
and i've been addicted to many drugs in my life.


i miss opiates and speedy things the most.
like coke, or mdma, or percs or o.c. or heroin

booze is pretty gay, but i get it.
i've had some binges with it in my day also.

I am 1 year sober now after a really abusive 5 year long relationship.