Thread 40297280

I don't know why I'm doing any of this

There's no point at transitioning at 20, my body has already been permanently changed by testosterone and nothing can fix that

I hate my fucking life

the point is sterilizing yourself like a farm animal for the benefit of others
nobody, not a soul, transitions for their own benefit

John50 then

>>40297280 (OP)
you're 20 fucktard you'll be fine

>>40297290
Shadilay my fellow kekistani

>>40297280 (OP)
it could always get worse, there is genuine masculinization that happens between 20-30 that could turn on ok-for-transitioning body into a bad-for-transitioning body. twinkdeath is real and odds are at 20 you havent gone through even close to the worst of it

>>40297493
I'm still a twink but I'll never have the figure of a woman, at best I'll be a twink with long hair and cone boobs

better 20 than 21

>>40297560
twink is miles better than a barrel-chested ogre.
unironically the main thing stopping me (im also 20) from trying (and likely failing) to detransition is the size of my dads ribcage. that thing is the genuine definition of a barrel, and considering my own ribcage is slightly above average for my height and age, im basically convinced i have his ribcage genese and id kill myself if mine looked like his.

>>40297280 (OP)
While this is true that testosterone has permanently affected you, it's very far from over for you. Think about it this way: Would you rather have a chance at being a girl overall or are you looking to be a pretty girl? Either one is possible, even if you had to go through two puberties. I've seen folks who started in their thirties who look gorgeous. Alternatively, if you manage your hormones correctly, both in taking them when you're supposed to and monitoring your hormone levels, plus keeping track of dieting and exercising will maximize your chances of not looking like a gigahon especially if you are decently in shape beforehan, you'll maximize your chances of succeeding and passing. You can do it anon. There's hope for you.

>>40297280 (OP)
>20
Oh for fuck's sakes.
Just troon out already or you're going to be saying the same shit at 25.

>>40297791
I would choose being an ugly girl if I could, but I can't
If and when I do fail, I'm an ugly fucking tranny, not an ugly girl, a man cosplaying a woman

It's way different and I know I'll be treated even worse than now

>>40297280 (OP)
Chill out anon, plenty of us transitioned even older than that and turned out fine. I've seen some girls that started in their late 20's looking like straight up men that ended up passing and looking really hot. HRT can help your figure, it gave me more hips and ass and stuff, and your hip bones can still grow before 25. I started in my late 20's think I'm a little bit clocky but it seems like I can pass well enough and people just think I'm a girl, and FFS is always something that's on the table if it's your face, I'll probably end up getting that.
>>40297799
For real, I was about to get on HRT when I was like 19-20 and freaked out thinking I'd look like a weird deformed man with tits and just abused drugs instead to cope. Horrible decision, it never went away and I just ended up getting on HRT years later.

>>40297817
You're being hard on yourself anon, I'm sure you look fine. Tell you what, if you've got discord drop your name and I'll friend you there, send me a pic and I'll judge for myself. I promise if you're doing the right things with your hormones and your dieting and working with makeup if you can that you'll look perfectly fine and ladylike.

>>40297895
>For real, I was about to get on HRT when I was like 19-20 and freaked out thinking I'd look like a weird deformed man with tits and just abused drugs instead to cope.
I almost went on HRT at 14. I kind of wish I did.
Now I'm 19 and I'm just going to go for a SERM, and if it doesn't work out I'll do full HRT.
I don't think I'm a full transgirl, but I don't wanna be a male and that's all I need to know.

>>40297909
Yeah, honestly might as well just shoot towards what you want, it's been there that long for you and never went away. I remember when I was like 12 or something reading online about trans people and everything clicked so much and I was really interested and wanted to transition but all of my exposure was to like Susan's Place hons and joke characters so I didn't think I could actually look like a woman and I gave up back then. It never went away and just kept eating at me until I gave in and did it. Even if you're not a full on trans girl, if you don't want to keep masculinizing you could hop on AAs or something.