She was abusive af but I still want her back. What is wrong with me? I keep wishing she texts me one day something like "Do you still love me?". It is so delusional. I am broken. I'm the one who left and ended things because she cheated me and I can't stop to look back and think, what if? I still love her and it hurts. It's been weeks and my heart still sinks. There's not a an hour of the day I don't have a passing thought for her. I miss her, and my heart wants to believe she does too, even though it makes no sense, even though she probably moved on.

Worst of all I keep making those posts, to vent I try to make myself believe. To get it out of my system. But deep down I know it's because I hope she sees it.

>>40297479 (OP)
she has bpd and you are an enabler/codependent
>t. amateur psychologist

>>40297506
I wasn't like this but the bpd did change me over time. I feel broken inside.

it's normal to have thoughts about exes when you're lonely. she is not the solution to your problems. she is the problem that needed solving. at least you understand reflectively that this is no good, but it will take a while before you've properly moved on. I'm still seething over shit that happened with exes literally before most of you were born, but I only think about it on rare occasions

>>40297531
When I have moments of complete lucidity I realize that. Tonight is hard.

>>40297479 (OP)
she probably doesn't if you broke it off and she cheated
t. evil bpd

>>40297567
she begged me to stay before I left. we both cried in her car. It was quite tragic. I regret leaving sometimes but she wouldn't make any solid promise to stop the cheating. She claimed to be poly and all sorts of delulu.

>>40297583
she probably is happier without you than with you

>>40297583
I couldn't walk out on a crying tranny but I would beat her and start disciplining her and if she didn't stop she'd wind up dead.

>>40297479 (OP)
I know the feeling. I was only a friend to a tranny and she practically made me go insane. Still reeling from it. The best thing you can do is stay far away from them and never try to be in any kind of relationship with people like that. Gaslighting yourself won't change the reality that trannies are just too mentally ill and will always hurt you in the end.

>>40298786
elaborate im curious

>>40298786
if she wasn't so good at sex, the relationship probably would've imploded from her shitty behavior a long time ago. So, how can someone tolerate that without getting any?

>>40298743
Here you go little tryhard, here's your acknowledgement
>>40298996
It's called uhh, having a developed brain and good priorities?
As a virgin. Only people who make sex their personality have thoughts this brain dead

>>40298743
Based but sadly larp
>>40298786
>Getting hurt by a tranny
If this happens to you start taking estrogen immediately

>>40298786
>I was only a friend to a tranny and she practically made me go insane. Still reeling from it.
Too relatable