>Have a crush on my godmother since I was like 6 and she was 21
>Don't see her much
>Transition 7y ago
>Reconnect with godmother and hang out at her place a lot 5y ago
>Asks me how I feel about her and I tell her I like her romantically
>Says she does too but with how we're family and how that'd affect things with family (especially her daughter)
>We drift apart than I leave country and meet hubby
>Come back to country this year
>Meet godmother for 1st time since 5y ago so we hang out and she invites me to her place on friday
>Am sexually interested in someone other than hubby (who said early on I can do what I want with women so long I tell him 1st and film sex) for the 1st time so I tell him and he gives me the OK
>Get to her place (daughter moved out) where we do catching up and some flirting
>Give her a massage on her bed
>Tells me she can't stand hair on cocks and is allergic to latex
>Get rock hard and have a hard time not touching her thick ass with my boner
>Times up we say goodbye but she invites me to a sleepover tuesday
>Get home and excitedly report to hubby
>Tells me he needs space
>2 hours later he tells me he changed his mind and wants us to be completely closed
>Feel bad but don't show it cause I love him so much

>>40299056 (OP)
Kys trigger

>>40299056 (OP)
How do I stop obsessing over her and feel like cheating (which I'd never do)? For those who have sexually obsessed over someone they know while in a LTR, how long until it fades?
Also I still haven't said anything to godmother but how do I cut things off when we're gonna be seeing each other at family gatherings?
>This is a TL;DR of >>40285942 cause I only got 1 real advice

>>40299072
Kys

>>40299056 (OP)
>>40299072
This is obviously a really bad idea, for more reasons than just your husband changing his mind. That's probably the whole reason the idea is sexually arousing for you and your husband, because it's "bad." But acting on it would not only destroy your relationship, but possibly your family as well. You're sexualizing a close bond you have with this woman that wasn't meant to be sexual. Turning it into something perverse will ruin it

It's normal to get turned on by "bad" ideas like this but it would be utterly retarded to act on it. Your husband said he likes the fantasy of it, you're clearly turned on by the fantasy of it - so bring it back to fantasy, where it belongs, and you and your husband can get off on the fantasy together somehow. Talk out all the stuff you wanted to do, talk out the ways you imagined it going down, get off on it together. But the reality wouldn't match whatever you've built up in your fantasies anyway. The reality would get messy and ugly pretty fast and you'd feel like a total retard for fucking up so many key relationships just for a coom

>>40299087
La creatura
>>40299114
>This is obviously a really bad idea, for more reasons than just your husband changing his mind. That's probably the whole reason the idea is sexually arousing for you and your husband, because it's "bad." But acting on it would not only destroy your relationship, but possibly your family as well. You're sexualizing a close bond you have with this woman that wasn't meant to be sexual. Turning it into something perverse will ruin it
Well nothing is happening anymore, but are you saying it'd be bad idea even if my husband was still on board?
>It's normal to get turned on by "bad" ideas like this but it would be utterly retarded to act on it. Your husband said he likes the fantasy of it, you're clearly turned on by the fantasy of it - so bring it back to fantasy, where it belongs, and you and your husband can get off on the fantasy together somehow. Talk out all the stuff you wanted to do, talk out the ways you imagined it going down, get off on it together. But the reality wouldn't match whatever you've built up in your fantasies anyway. The reality would get messy and ugly pretty fast and you'd feel like a total retard for fucking up so many key relationships just for a coom
My husband would be really hurt if I was still entertaining sexual thoughts about her. He meant that he thought he was into it but really only liked the fantasy, but now that reality happened he doesn't like the fantasy anymore.

And I don't think it's *just* the taboo that's doing it for me, it's that I find her unbelievably, like she has the hottest body I've ever seen (from what I could see at least).
Also that doesn't help me get over this but thank you lol

>this guys wife gets rock hard
Why did that make me rock hard

>>40299160
>Well nothing is happening anymore, but are you saying it'd be bad idea even if my husband was still on board?
Yeah, definitely. You will ruin your relationship with your godmother by sexualizing it, you might've already pushed it too far, and unless both of you are very stable low-drama individuals capable of playing this extremely cool no matter how it goes down (which I doubt, based on events up to this point) it could quite possibly have broader fallout and consequences throughout your family. If your husband was on board, that'd just mean your husband is just as delusional as you are
>like she has the hottest body I've ever seen
There are other attractive women out there - you're fixating on her because you already have this close, intimate bond, you probably don't have the same level of access or closeness to other attractive women, so you're sexualizing this bond rather than seeking others where it might be appropriate

>>40299170
Cause you like women but you're a sub, who's envious of my husband.
>>40299192
>Yeah, definitely. You will ruin your relationship with your godmother by sexualizing it, you might've already pushed it too far, and unless both of you are very stable low-drama individuals capable of playing this extremely cool no matter how it goes down (which I doubt, based on events up to this point) it could quite possibly have broader fallout and consequences throughout your family. If your husband was on board, that'd just mean your husband is just as delusional as you are
I mean she is pretty dramatic but she hasn't spilled anything in 5 years so idk why she would now?
>There are other attractive women out there - you're fixating on her because you already have this close, intimate bond, you probably don't have the same level of access or closeness to other attractive women, so you're sexualizing this bond rather than seeking others where it might be appropriate
That sounds completely on point. So again, what do I do to stop this fixation, if just time then any idea how long cause this hard and I don't particularly want to think about her when I fuck my husband or he sucks my dick. For now I'm just sticking to being subby and it works so should I just keep that up? Still don't want her pooping up in my thought.

>>40299234
>I mean she is pretty dramatic but she hasn't spilled anything in 5 years so idk why she would now?
Because sex changes relationships, sex does weird things to people (as you're experiencing yourself) and the fact that she's entertained your attraction up to this point and seems willing to go further suggests that she doesn't have all her marbles in a row. Even though you're both adults at this point, if she had her shit together, she would be the mature person in this situation and basically gently say what I'm saying - that she loves you, but it's not supposed to be that kind of love.

Chances are pretty high that she'll try to fuck with your marriage and tempt you, out of some sort of power-trip over the sway she has over you, or out of jealousy/hurt feelings that you buttered her up and let her down and she'll "blame" your husband. And this is your mom's sister, so if your mom somehow gets wind of it or even catches a weird vibe between you two, this could absolutely destroy the relationship between your mom and her sister, and make things SOME form of weird between you and your mom

Idk really how to tell you how to get over it - it's not really that crazy that you've developed sexual fantasies about her, and you've entertained and indulged them far enough that it might take a little time to fade. In some way, you just need to place her back in her proper "context" in your life. Maybe interact less with her one-on-one and more in a family setting, remind yourself that she's your aunt and your mom's sister, see her in context of her relationship with your mom, and ideally it'll break the hold of the fantasy at least a little bit

As far as you and your husband are concerned - your sensitivity to his feelings about this are a good thing, but he does bear some degree of responsibility for encouraging and indulging your fantasies as far as he did. You're not to blame that it's still in your head. Just give it some time

>>40299234
I'm not a sub though

>>40299273
>Because sex changes relationships ... to be that kind of love.
I can't really argue that. She's immature, but she isn't a bad person.
>Chances are pretty high ... make things SOME form of weird between you and your mom
It's my godmother not my aunt, she's *like* a little sister to my mom, not actually related, don't know if that actually changes anything though.
Would be bad if it got out for sure, but I still don't think it would, it's not like she's head over heels for me or anything at the moment, we just have some sexual tension.
>Idk really how to tell you ... the fantasy at least a little bit
Well I actually haven't really fantasied about her much, I thought fantasizing about others without at least implied consent was weird (and I still do), so I only really fantasied about her 5y ago and this week. Definitely not having anymore 2 on 1 with her that's for sure, but the issue is that I've never seen her as something other than a person I was attracted to, I've never seen her as family so there's no placing her back as such. And since she isn't mature and more of a friend to everyone, I could never see her as something else than an equal. Shit's weird.
>As far as you and your husband are concerned ... give it some time
Yeah okay thanks. It just feels so wrong how much I want her despite how those desires would hurt him, my absolute everything.

Also any idea on how to confront her? Or should I just play dumb since we didn't actually say anything explicit to each other? I just wanna do what's best for my husband.
>>40299337
Everyone is a sub to me. Otherwise why would that turn you on dumbo.

>>40299388
>>40299273
anymore *1 in 1 with her

>>40299388
I misread, I thought she was your aunt by blood. Still roughly the same idea, though. Don't confront, just cool it down and back away from the brink a little without actually cutting ties or anything, just bring it all "back to normal."
>It just feels so wrong how much I want her despite how those desires would hurt him, my absolute everything.
I get it, but he was egging you on until it got real, so you haven't done anything wrong. It does sound like kind of an unhealthy relationship, though, so it's for the best that he came to his senses even if a little late in the game. But he did sorta give you whiplash and blueballs, so it is what it is

>>40299388
Because it's fucking hot? Doesn't mean I want to get railed every time, it's just aesthetically an s-tier combo. But yeah he is lucky.

>>40299403
>Don't confront, just cool it down and back away from the brink a little without actually cutting ties or anything, just bring it all "back to normal."
Alright sounds good, not gonna be easy especially if there's cleavage but I'll do my best. What do I do if she comes onto me though.
>I get it, but he was egging you on until it got real, so you haven't done anything wrong. It does sound like kind of an unhealthy relationship, though, so it's for the best that he came to his senses even if a little late in the game. But he did sorta give you whiplash and blueballs, so it is what it is
Like I'm not really mad at him, but when he's being a dick I definitely get unwanted feelings.
But yeah I didn't think it was possible to feel this blueballed haha
>>40299414
>Because it's fucking hot? Doesn't mean I want to get railed every time, it's just aesthetically an s-tier combo. But yeah he is lucky.
And why is it a hot combo huh? If you're turned on by cock you're a sub I don't see a way around that. Like I'm turned on by big tits and pussy cause I'm a dom, and I'm also turned on by dick and that's cause I'm also a sub sometimes.

>>40299508
I just don't look at sexuality that way, I'm not wired like that. You getting hard is hot in the way other girls moaning and getting juicy is hot. Don't tell your husband I said that or he'll kick my head in.

>>40299540
Okay I see what you mean now, my bad anon. But yeah you're getting hard at your imagination, not at me so it doesn't matter.