>>40309061
I wasn't talking to anyone. There's a few people I didn't dislike. I dislike most people. When they posted in the thread we would chitchat but we did not talk outside of the thread and it was almost always about that particular image I send people.
I opened up to you more than I opened up to anyone. There's just not much there. I'm not a strongly emotional person and the few horrible tragedies in my life aren't fun to bring up.
I talked to you once every few weeks. I didn't want to sour it talking about how my dad died or how my stepdad liked to get drunk and beat me. I didn't want to say upsetting things about how I'd lost my job as a sous chef when I was young and how my fiance blamed me for the poor relationship she had with her father before he passed away. I didn't want to tell you about how I almost, or may have, killed a man in self defense situation and how the memory still haunts me. Those things aren't amusing or interesting. They're upsetting and I didn't want to upset you with them. I wanted our times together to be as positive as they could be because I don't want to dwell on anything negative. I wanted you to be happy about us talking. I didn't want to be a burden.
