>>40308054ok memes aside, that sounds painful. maybe you should feel that if your soul is empty, i think you should leave this board and reflect on what you truly want, not who you should be.
u wanna stick to the past right, you had something in your past you cherished but you don't have it any longer
also consider the possibility that crossdressing is a cope for not living authentically, that your authentic self is trying to give you clues on who you really are deep down. that's something unfortunately no one can definitively tell you, but the fact is a lot of trans people start their careers crossdressing, but of course cynics will always say correlation is not causation