For context I am 28. I moved to a new city a couple months ago and ive been trying to make some trans friends my age.
Whenever it comes up about when I transitioned (at 18), the other trans girls instantly get cold. Itโs noticeable. then they always stop talking to me :(
>>40308013 (OP)that's the neat thing, u don't
srsly, they'd only drag u down if u did. and prolly throw u under the bus when convenient
they're just looking to make ppl as miserable as them
>>40308013 (OP)I wish I could meet a 28 year old trans woman
t. 29 year old cis man
>>40308013 (OP)you must be talking to some crusty ass hons if they're mad you transitioned in 2015.... everyone could get HRT by that point
>>40308109real af
hating is prolly their life
>>40308013 (OP)maybe take the hint they dont wanna talk to u? it doesnt have to be your fault and maybe its not theirs either
In my day social media didnt exist, YouTube was a dream, instagram light years away.
You had to pay 10p per text message, or use a phone box. The only estrogen we had was whatever the doctors gave us, so fuck all.
I hear about youngshits like you and i relfect on my own sadness, how much better id pass now, how many years stolen from me, maybe id have a partner by now.
But then i think i wouldnt wish what i went through on others and i think good, you deserve to have a life and be happy. No one wants a bitter old hon, so the less of me and the more of you is a net positive for the world.
Yeah its cope but being angry solves nothing, i hope you find your friend circle OP
>>40308013 (OP)they don't want to be your ugly friend
>>40308714this
find friends that are like you
i don't make friends with passoids and it's not always their fault
>>40308647Since you started transition at 18 and get hate from hons, I'm guessing you pass. In that case, you should have no problem at all get positive attention and interest from other people. Women have life on easy mode, just don't be obese.
>>40308013 (OP)Let me know if you figure it out. I am dealing with a similar circumstance for very different reasons.
I got a job making a fuck ton of money and now I can't "celebrate" anything positive with anyone I know because they just get jealous and bitter about the money I'm making.
The only solution I've found is to surround myself with other people making a lot of money which sucks because I would like to stay "grounded" in some sense but it seems like that will be impossible.
>>40308869It turns out that making a lot of money does not remove the desire for human connection
>>40308013 (OP)don't interact with them, do you really want to talk to hons that would only want to drag you down? it's so weird they think they're allowed to breath the same air as us. it's ridiculous. i'll choke them for u sis
>>40308958the larper is back. i hope you stop pretending to be like the people who hate us and want us dead
>>40308984cope contribute to convo or try to pass, hon
>>40308976why would i pretend? i actually despise disgusting hon freaks. i giggle in public @ u cause it's fucking funny to see a man try to look feminine
>>40309001passoids are usually more subtle in their hatred
>>40309004i don't have an outlet irl for my disgusting behavior, but it's okay online, because you can't actually find me IRL and i won't face any consequences. it just keeps giving here
>>40309025i know its fun but at the end of the day u gotta log off and go back to being a hon like the rest of us
>>40309025classic 4chan moment
if u have the money, look into a rage room
>>40309033not a hon, sorry not sorry (x today i will log off and kiss my wife goodnight like i do every night (we're on a streak) and i'll show her the thread after sending it to her in discord
>>40309039i really want to try this cause i have type 2 bipolar and i'm stable, but i have these feelings sometimes that i don't want anyone to see. i'm afraid if i go to a rage room that people will think i'm weird or not a passoid. like, displaying aggression is going to make me look like a man. i am not a man so i will keep it inside.
>>40309039u can tell hes a hon just like the rest of us because he has honrage
you don't get this mad about being superior to someone
>>40309046>bragging about being a transbian
>>40309053power tripping =/= mad. getting drunk on this
>>40308013 (OP)you started at 18 youโre in a totally different league than them. Ditch the hons and expand your ego tenfold. Become unclockable.
>>40309084disgusting hon freak you don't have any place trying to talk to me. i hate people like you, you make for bad optics. i'm so sick of you all, you should just die already. if it weren't for you, then we wouldn't have to worry about people being so disgusted by the idea of trans people. i'm so sick of you, just shut the fuck up.
>>40309090so does bad optics affect you? dont you hate me and want me to die? why should i care if you get hate crimed because of my existence? i wish that was actually how it worked
>>40309090seethe and cut hon lololololol
>>40309100YES it fucking affects me, i'm constantly on edge, because every single fucking day i'm always wondering "do i pass do i pass do i pass do i pass?? do i pass?" and it's FUCKING TIRING. i'm so disgusted by you. i wish you'd do something so you're not a hon, i wish i didn't feel this way. i wish that everybody passed so that i didn't have to suffer at the hands of people like you. calling you people is such a joke, you're worse than men and i hate you for it. i don't care if i get hate crimed, at least it'll be cause someone thought i'm a stupid foid instead of a gross hon. i wish you'd shut the fuck up, you pissed me the fuck off
>>40309111cutting isn't valid, it's disgusting and itchy and i've only tried it once. it wasn't even deep and it wasn't even more than 2 centimeters. i don't care that you have uwu jellybeans under your skin fag
>>40309113if you have to question yourself that much maybe you don't pass?
also i thought u were like getting drunk off this or whatever
>>40309134i wish you'd contribute more to this conversation than trying to be a snarky bitch, you're as useless as i thought you were. pathetic, ingrate, actually a loser for thinking i'd give you more time. next time someone like me graces u with her words you should just say thank you. isn't that all you're good for?
>>40309149what am i supposed to contribute
u just raged at me and told me u want me to die
i honestly dont get why you're so mad at me lol i openly admitted im a hon and yet ur seething more than me. arent u supposed to be like superior to me?
idk why you're this confident if you're not even sure if you pass
>>40309084>>40309090nta but im in a passoid x cisf relationship and tbqh it sucks being existentially mogged all day in a way i cant fix
>>40309167this is very malebrained btw. usually im the honraging one
>>40309167i want you to die already, it's so gross. i'm so disgusted, i can't help it. i wish it weren't so. please change, even if you can't. some things are within your control! you can always an hero
>>40309174another hon
>>40309188anon why do you question if you pass so much?
>>40309197probably because if she found out she didnt she'd implode. its one thing to be a honmoder and another to be a delusional honmoder. passoids live in constant fear of being a delusional honmoder.
>>40309210finally some words that aren't word vomit. trvke. all hons i tell i transitioned early hate me and i think you're right. if the reality was that i don't pass and that i'm a hon i would kill myself. i'm still waiting for somebody to prove me wrong and i'm actively searching every day. i'm not even suicidal, i just need to know and i won't ever be satisfied with an answer, because i'm sure it's just hugboxing. everyone is a liar and i'll find out one day
>>40309227do the hons know how you actually look? transitioning early =\= passing
them hating you isnt proof of you passing unless you showed face. obviously if you larped as an evil passoid they're gonna hate you
>>40309237uh huh sorry you transitioned at 24, it really sounds like something i should be sympathetic about
>>40309248did you show the hons that hate you your face anon? i think we're getting closer to what's bothering you
>>40309264hons bother me. can't read? i have a 4 year degree in psych please try to therapeutize me i'm sure it will help me in the long run. unless ur doing this for ur own gain? that's so selfish, filthy. ugly, hon. don't talk to me, you don't deserve to live in the same realm as me
>>40309284why do you hate hons so much if you're not even sure if you pass? do you even have any proof you pass like from people around you? did your cis wife date men before you? is she a lesbian?
>>40309297uh huh keep pretending like every other passoid here isn't insecure about their body image. if you aren't, then you're not a passoid and are stuck with autistic male brow bone brain. i have proof and i won't share it with someone who isn't even going to archive this or remember me more for more than a week. stay on topic, moid.
I'm a lateshit but i'm frens with people who trooned early usuauly
>>40309327do you pass? even a little? as long as u aren't a hon that's fine
>>40309320sure every other passoid is insecure about their body image but we know they're passoids because other people consider them passoids and they post face. being insecure doesn't make you a passoid
i'm not even asking you to post face, but of the people you have shown your face did they think you pass? you obv didnt show the hons you mentioned that hate you your face bcs you dodged the question
what i'm asking is how do you know you pass? being insecure isn't an answer
and is your "proof" you won't post a face pic? i thought we established that you're not a reliable judge of your own passability bcs you're like bpd or whatever
>>40309344i think if you were a passoid you wouldn't pass up the chance to namefag on here for attention like most passoids
you can tell who the passoids are even when they larp as hons because they aren't ashamed to post face
>>40308647this was my last post in this thread what happened lol
>>40309365yeah idk that person just seems to be angry and lashing out.
>>40308109> everyone could get HRT by that pointLet's not overstate things
>>40308748>from other people.picrel but like, unironically. And ive tried for a decade
>>40308824Money is different though, especially in this economy.
>>40308958>honsthey weren't like super unpassing, some of them even passed!! Thats what confused me the most
>>40309088>youโre in a totally different league than themat the end of the day were all trans
>>40309344nice blog i'm not gonna read all dat By (You) next hon, please. keep it short. i don't have all day.
>>40309352namefagging is retarded. why would i pay some fucking anime website my money just so i can be recognized by a bunch of losers? tomorrow i get to start fresh and it's amazing. i'm going to heaven!
>>40309352>passoid doesn't want to tie their face to being a trannyseems reasonable to me actually
>>40308824Here's the trick: when you want to go hang out with your poor friends, you take them out to a local bar or to a shit-tier restaurant like Applebees. I know it's not top shelf stuff, but you're there to celebrate, not for fine dining. You don't rub the money in their face. Going to a fancy place and expecting them to pay that level of cost is being a cunt, and paying their tab at such a place will make them feel indebted to you (which people naturally dislike.)
>>40309388good luck figuring out whether you're a passoid or a hon anon
>>40309403>>40309395>>40309390>>40309388oh my gosh can you people please leave my thread. youre all annoying. go away
>>40309390finally, some fucking sense in this world
>>40309403im a passoid, thanks tho for worrying about me. worry about urself tho, hon. it's so gross that you think i would give you any more attention. off to kiss my wife (we're still on a streak lol)
>>40309386what was keeping a medicaid recipient or a person with a job from getting HRT in 2015 obamamerica?
>>40309404Why? I was about to engage with you too.
>>40309386>Some of them even passedWell it's not all about passing. For some, it might be the lost years. Like, you transitioned at 18, if they transitioned 10 years after that, their bitterness might be derived from thoughts like "I spent 10 more years than her living as someone else. I have 10 less years living my authentic self before I die." Some people have trouble moving past such thoughts. Some people take that frustration out on others instead of internalizing it (which isn't healthy either but it doesn't result in harming their relationship with you.)
>>40309386Iโd rather be wealthy in India than be a poor American you feel me?
>>40309423It was much less talked about and widely known. youre assuming everyone just had the same base level of awareness about hrt. Which is not true. Sure, if you teleported yourself back to 2015 you could get hrt easily. But for the average person back then, it wasn't really talked about. not nearly as much as it is now
>>40309425That makes sense
>>40309443Ok? Do you think youre an average person lol
>>40309453I am pretty well aligned with the average tranny in a major city and HRT was not a whispered taboo in fucking 2015.
>>40309458I'm talking about the general population retard
>>40309474Why are you being retarded. I can tell you are DEFINITELY not an average person.
>>40309443I'm 34, I was there and I was repping until last year.
I'm not giving these clowns another (you) but HRT has been a mainstay of online trans communities since the late 2000s. Revisionist history from reppers
>>40309502>online trans communitiesI am going to repeat one last time, you retard. I am talking about the general awareness in the general public about transitioning with hormones.
>hurr durr in 2000 they had super obscure forums that you got told about by a friend of a friend, therefore it was readily available to anyo-shut up. Quit being a loser.
>>40309519you are nuclear butthurt and need to go to bed friend. we are talking about surface level internet access, i dont give a fuck if illiterate flyover hicks in 2009 didn't know about them there hore moans
>>40309502Your premise in
>>40309423 was asking what kept a person from getting HRT in 2015, I just said they might've still been repping. I didn't presume they didn't know about DIY, just that they didn't GET it because of repping. That said, from personal experience? I tried to stay as far away from trans spaces back then as possible to facilitate the rep, I thought hanging around with or empathizing too much would make me troon out (which yeah no shit) and basically didn't know a damn thing about 'online trans communities.' So while yeah, I knew about grey market drugs in theory, I had no awareness of the availability/cost of HRT via those means, or that it was even something people made at home.
>>40308013 (OP)Lessons for OP: Don't hang out with bitter people IRL, but 4chan is no better and full of schizoids
>>40308109lowkey this, I'm pretty sure the majority of trannies on this board started before 21y lol
>>40308824gee wee rick i once heard someone say something like money doesnt make you happy oo wee gee weeeeeeeeeee
>>40308647God that's so real, I started hrt at 19 and I've been trying to make friends in my town and almost all the trans women just refuse to treat me like a friend, I feel like such an outsider. I just want friends to talk too about being trans :(