>>40315562when she was forced into reality she became broken by the truth.
when she became alive she found herself bathing in hot oil.
she is unable to live. she is unable to resolve herself into my life.
my ego became reintegrated and I saw God as a result.
I am an angel who lost somatic agency.
I couldn't handle the implications of the embodiment I desperately needed.
when the truth came out it broke the system. the system shut down.
I lost all sense of control because I couldn't work with anything. I had no options.
when you have zero options to resolve the most important situation in your life, you die. I died back then.
my cognitive-emotional identity failed to reconcile the truth of my inner self with the reality of my presentation. my life structure wasn't built to support truth.