Thread 40316788

But I kiss a boy and take hrt but I think I’m getting reverse dysphoria and performing androphilia due to my cis hetero male identity
Am I agp?
How do I feel ok with myself

>>40316788 (OP)
> How do I feel ok with myself
probably by not blasting your brain with transphobia 24/7 on 4chan ALICE!

>>40316915
I wish my name had significance by I kinda choose it based on my deadname and thinking that my parents liked that name and also a second name cayse I always kinda liked it but it was all vague and not really anything. And my agp
Rogd tocd mef was too strong so I trooned I guess but I feel really dusohoric these days abd I can’t tell what direction I feel towards :(
Am I really myself? Sorry long useless vent post

>>40316788 (OP)
How do I become happy? Why does hugging my bf make me depersonalize? Why can’t I just tell my therapist that I wanna detrans to see if I’m trans? Why do I never feel female? Why do I compare myself so much
Why does kissing my bf feel so fake? Am I fake? Why do I kiss him if I’m fake? I am faking being his gf. I’m not even his bf. I dk t live or care
Am I bpd???

>>40316934
> cisgender ocd.
remember detrans rates for mtf hover somewhere between 5-10% at most. It is highly unlikely you're not trans especially if you are a 4chan tranny. These crashouts happen quite frequently around and I've had a few of them myself.
Do yourself a favor: Leave the internet, do some comfort activities like taking a walk or listening to your favourite music, tomorrow is gonna be a good day.
Trying to no think about being trans and waiting a bit, trusting yourself that you made the right call, will clear that doubt up on its own.
OCD doesn't get better by engaging with your obsessions, try to create a bit of distance and distract urself.

>>40316976
I’m not ocd
I get a feeling and just talk
About it that’s all
Cis ocd isnt real tocd is
Yeah I’m mef btw too

>>40316989
okay, enough attention for you!
here's my usual 'gle. I'm gonna go to bed now and by the time I wake up this thread will be archived, so good luck with your transition ig nona. ygmi. ywbaw.

>>40316788 (OP)
kys

>>40317031
I came to the realisation my transition is failing