I spent a good third or so of my life becoming the man of my dreams to fight off the dysphoria but now that I gave into the dysphoria I miss my sexy male self and seeing a hot guy in the mirror everyday and i feel like i killed my former self but when i was a guy i was dysphoric like am i insane??? why the fuck am i like this its legit so bad i've been browsing the dark net and considering getting fent to off myself because it seems like i can't find any happiness and i hate my body as a guy or a trans woman?!!?!?! and idfk maybe its not even AAP that makes me this way maybe im not even attracted to my male self but like wtfff could my issue be all my tranny friends are sick of me trying to ask or advice or help and its like i have nobody now who cares or listens and i can't go a single day without thinking about going back to steroids and manhood but i feel it would just bring me even more pain now as my breasts are quite large fuuuuck

>>40331257 (OP)
bdd or non biney would be my top two guesses

>>40331290
i've had several friends suggest i could be non binary but i think i just realized i'd rather be a man than a trans woman despite my dysphoria and now its too late because i have huge breasts and wide hips

>>40331309
>too late because i have huge breasts and wide hips
nuh-uh ftms do it all the time

>>40331321
yeah but i dont have twenty racks to spend on mastectomy : ' (

>>40331309
waiter waiter my steak is too juicy and delicious!

aap cope claims another, feels good to bang a hot transbian tho right

>>40331369
I like it sometimes but the other half the time it makes me want to rope