my life will never be real and cute and actually female(body, mind and soul are all masculine and male since birth)
i should die

>>40332275 (OP)

>>40332308
Yes why am I still feeling like shit though despite hormones? :(

>>40332321
because estrogen doesn't fix you. it's just a supplement.

It's natural. Do you know why placebo medicines work? Because the brain can thrive off of a positive mentality and hope for a brighter future. I'm not joking. Motivation will bring you happiness. Stick with it, keep track of it, all of that.
https://youtu.be/m4RfF7vyPnE
Watch this video. It's kinda ADHD in its delivery but it's about positive thinking strats for trans folks and it's great because it's real advice from a real therapist (and a token mtf).

>>40332330
wtf :(

>>40332351
I tried watching her voice vids and I couldnt understand shit
im too ugly masculine(real masculine not boymoder) fat and LAZY and ill soon be fired

>>40332386
You didn't watch the video I told you to watch and it shows.

>>40332386
Your behavior now is incredibly feminine anon, I just want you to know that. No man would ever act this way.

>>40332403
fuck you dude im male af wdym??>>
EVER SEEN REAL WOMEN?
HUH?
I DID
IRL TRANSOWMEN AND CIS WOMEN ALL ACT DIFFERENT
AND THET KNOW IM INHERENTLY MALE

EVEN MY room and LIFE are masculine

>>40332421
Well if you want to be male so damn bad then be male. You don't, do you? Exactly. You can have a masculine personality and still be a girl anon. That's how my mother lives her life going in and out of jail for drug charges and recently punching a cop while high. Personality and gender identity are separate. Like, I'm a fuckin redneck who lives in the south and I have an American flag hung up in my room and a Gadsden flag showing up soon but that doesn't make me any less trans now, does it? Have you never heard of tomboys?

>>40332463
wait wait wait wait wait! so you're telling me i don't have to conform to normative standards of femininity and I can still be trans?

>>40332463
i think i just lack a personality
so empty
i cant do anthing, not even decorate or buy clothes or ANYTHING

>>40332275 (OP)
same i don’t know how to cope with the fact that i was obviously never meant to be a woman

>>40332503
That's because you're depressed anon. Are you an American? If you live in a state with medical marijuana you should consider procuring some for depression and anxiety. My state is technically a may-issue licenser but it's so damn easy to get a license it's practically shall-issue. I use it for my awful anxiety and depression and it's a big reason why I'm so positive and not suicidal all the time. I have dark moments as well, we all do (A few days ago I was cursing God for giving me the body of a football linebacker and making me want to be a girl, I mean that's a cruel fucking joke if I'm gonna be honest). Sure, it's not great to just be high all the time but you'll sure as hell feel better about yourself and not want to die, I credit it as being the reason I'm still alive because I would have killed myself years ago if not for it.

>>40332614
nta, but I tried this and all it did was turn me borderline schizophrenic, so ymmv heavily.

>>40332682
You got the bad shit anon. Did you talk to the guy behind the counter or did you just grab something and smoke it?

>>40332690
i tried medicinal cannabis, street cannabis, synthetic cannabis. i smoked weed almost daily for seven years and all it ever did was make me way more paranoid and hyperaware of my thoughts.
i'm glad I accepted that I'll never be a stoner.
> now alcohol on the other hand...

>>40332275 (OP)
being suicidal is trutrans actually

I've gone back and looked at picrel in op like 10 times today. idk why but avegadro6's art scratchs a very particular itch in my brain

>>40332275 (OP)
wow same