depressed and tired of being an unlovable ugly unpassing false woman. im going to do it whether or not i get confirmation, just wondering. thanks.

Genuine question but why do people come here and ask for suicide methods when foraging is right there

Anon don't kill yourself.

>>40340687
nobody wants to hear this shit. answer OP's question or fuck off
>>40340629 (OP)
idk

>>40340629 (OP)
Depends what you mean by ensure, you could feasibly fuck it up. All it takes is angling the gun wrong.

There's no need to rush anyway, you'll die no matter what you do. Being ugly and non passing doesn't make you unlovable

someone posted a webm here of a trans woman who survived something like this. it's not like the movies.

>>40340687
no
>>40340713
the barrel would be resting flat against the side of my head diagonally in front of and above the ear.

>>40340725
yeah i know i can survive. ive already survived a few overdoses and i dont want to continue. might as well try the most lethal option

>>40340814
Why do you want to kys? There has to be more of a reason than just being ugly.

If you haven't emptied your bank account, given away all possessions, planned on killing people, or run up credit cards... You're not serious

>>40340629 (OP)
would you want to talk more about whats going on for you? many people here feel themselves to be all of those things, so what specifically has made that so painful and whats going on for you on this evening?

>>40340629 (OP)
anytime you “die”, if there is even ANY possibility that you may survive, then your “mind” will be transported to a timeline where you survive the incident.
almost nothing you can do will “ensure death”. there is one thing to end it, but i don’t think that I can trust you enough to tell you how

>>40340824
major depressive disorder, suicidal ideation since early childhood (with no stopping after estrogen or antidepressants), flunking out of college & in debt from that, im trans and deep self hatred ig.
theres also some trauma and sexual assault stuff contributing to the self hate.

>>40340865
>heckin ragecomic about epic alternate timelines...
just like in my sci fi stories!!

>>40340865
shut up schizo
>>40340835
ive given away a solid amount of possessions and am leaving my money to my sister when i pass. also ive already attempted suicide the fuck are you getting at

>>40340887
>hitting all the buzzwords in one go over a comic
you a cornball

>>40340877
I feel you op. I'm not trans but I have a fuckton of issues with me such as severe OCD, likely ADHD and Autism, etc. Might end up killing myself eventually too.
At least I live off my parents so I don't have financial problems, that sucks. Have you tried getting any help.

>>40340887
stfu youre supposed to call me schizo and based or find it hilariously stupid and call me a retard
or find it intriguing/funny enough to further inquire about it so i can make up some shit and we can laugh about it together
calling me soi was literally the ONE response that i wouldn’t’ve been happy with and that was the one you went with. congratulations.
>>40340907
see this is more like it

>>40340908
the comic hit em first ray j style

>>40340916
been in therapy for the past year, have talked to psychiatrists, have opened up to parents and close friends about mental health troubles, went on hrt (which gave me hope for the future till like two months ago ig), and tried getting into hobbies, getting closer with my family even if they arent supportive.

nothing really helps though. my family gives me a scared look saying "are you okay" when i look remotely sad. my friends dont care about me. my therapist threatens to put me in a mental ward every other week so i dont really tell her my suicide plans anymore and im just alone at the end of the day. i hate myself, i know i have no future and here i am some pathetic faggot crying online again and again.

>>40340629 (OP)
No. Worst case scenario, you could live and be permanently disabled and disfigured.

>>40340977
is there any good method then

>>40340629 (OP)
in a similar spot. from what ive seen aiming for the brainstem would probably be the best bet. not exactly sure with 9mm though. if you have the money get a shotgun instead and saw the barrel off

>>40341007
I'm not going to tell you where to aim because that would be un-Christian of me. I don't know you well enough to help you find a reason to live, but I suggest watching Thunderbolts if you haven't already. I think it could be helpful for you.

>>40341016
okay will consider it thanks
>>40341066
"i know what will get you to reconsider committing suicide! watch *insert marvel slop here*!"
fuck off

>>40341103
I don't know that it will change things for you, anon. All I'm saying is you might look at your situation from a different perspective. Look, everybody dies at some point. But what do you gain from cutting your time short? You're going to die anyway, why not do something with your life? Do something exciting, do something only someone with a death wish could do. Either you die and had some fun on the way, or you find a reason to live.

>>40341155
not op but shut the fuck uuuup dude

>>40341155
i end the constant sorrow ig. i dont care about doing anything with my life. i dont have any motivation for anything and when im even trying to do something i just stop and get sad for no reason

>>40340725
was it this one?

>>40341199
>i just stop and get sad for no reason
>tired of being an unlovable ugly unpassing false woman
That's the thing, anon. You're not depressed for no reason. There are people who have everything going for them who cannot shake their suicidal depression. Wealthy or moderately well-off people with successful families who can take vacation and get nice presents for Christmas, get respect from their communities, and so on, but they still want to kill themselves. Who can understand that? But you, on the other hand, are well-calibrated. You feel suicidal because you have problems that are materially worsening your quality of life. How would you feel if you were pretty, passing, and had a romantic partner? If the answer is that you would be happy, then there is the possibility of improvement.

>>40340629 (OP)
if you try that method as described there's a good chance you'll end up so retarded you won't be able to attempt suicide again

>>40340953
I'm not gonna tell you what you should do with your life, but if you resolve to go on, get a better therapist. You should be able to share your feelings freely and without fear.

>>40340629 (OP)
if you've been on meds for a while it could be a good idea to taper off all of them

>>40341255
> if you were pretty and passing
yeah this isnt going to happen ever
> if you had a romantic partner
ive had romantic partners that just abused me. im a sex object at best and that wont change.
>>40341292
is there a good suicide method then
>>40341300
i dont really care enough to. debating just dropping therapy entirely because it doesnt help. the only reason it might is theres something i have to do consistently weekly

>>40341312
im not. i got off of my antidepressants months ago. the only meds im on are my hrt meds which im not stopping

>>40341324
>yeah this isnt going to happen ever
Why not? Have you had surgery already or is it difficult to afford it?
>ive had romantic partners that just abused me. im a sex object at best and that wont change.
How other people treat you is not your fault nor is it an indication of what you're worth. If you walked out tomorrow and tripped every elderly woman you saw, spit on every man you passed, and broke the nose of every kid who entered your periphery, were all of them low-value people whose existence begets violence or were you just an asshole? It's the same way with your past partners. You are not at fault for all the bad that happens to you.

>>40341329
if youre still on hrt youre not gonna do it. just saying...

>>40341324
>debating just dropping therapy entirely because it doesn't help

If you can't confide in your therapist it certainly won't. IMO a therapist who operates like that doesn't actually care, even if they believe they do.

>>40341381
not how it works retard

>>40341364
>Why not? Have you had surgery already or is it difficult to afford it?
i dont have the money to afford it and unsupportive parents would never pay for it
>How other people treat you is not your fault nor is it an indication of what you're worth.
it definitely is. i actively put myself in those bad situations with people who would date me and stayed in them because i hated myself. its my fault he strangled me, its my fault he made fun of me, its my fault my life should end.
>>40341397
i know they dont care. i wish they did but its obvious they don't. no one really cares. at least that makes it easier to kill myself

Hi. OP I have a tip.
Forget everything that happened today. Forget it all... Make reality not real. Reality isn't real anyway. Sit back and sit back. Dont think anymore. See yourself as someone else. Your body is someone else. In the mirror it's just someone else.

>>40341418
Have you considered trying a different therapist?

>>40340629 (OP)

>>40341449
this is my fourth therapist

>>40341418
>i dont have the money to afford it and unsupportive parents would never pay for it
What country do you live in? Do you currently live with anyone else? Do you have a job?
>it definitely is. i actively put myself in those bad situations with people who would date me and stayed in them because i hated myself. its my fault he strangled me, its my fault he made fun of me, its my fault my life should end.
Those are the guys you chose, but in the end, it was still them who chose to hurt you. Choosing them and to stay with them does not make them what you deserve. There are men who would treat you better, but you wouldn't let them be with you if you met them. Seeking broken men is something you do to reaffirm your erroneous fear that you aren't worth anything. You can heal without guys like that, but you stayed with him because you didn't want to get better. You have to let your situation be better if you want your life to be better. If you saw a farmer complaining about his crop yield and you saw that he pours industrial sludge on his fields, are you going to believe him when he says his crop is bad because he's a bad person who deserves a bad crop? Or will you recognize that the farmer is self-sabotaging? How would you help him?

>>40341427
dont ignore me OP you fucking FAGGOT I'm the only one giving you rael advice

sorry