Copium edition

QOTT: Since the year is more than half over, have you completed any of your New Year's resolutions?

Last thread: https://archived.moe/lgbt/thread/40299961/

>>40341407 (OP)
I don't make new years resolutions because I have no faith I'll accomplish anything.

so basically, i wish i were a girl

>>40341407 (OP)
I spent like half of today laying in bed staring up at the ceiling while imagining the weight of the comforter on top of me as my imaginary boyfriend cuddling my imaginary self.

>>40341798
same

>>40341407 (OP)
> Completed:
• I passed my driving test
• Get treatment for my acne

> Incomplete:
• Be able to cook for myself
• Be able to eat one more dinner food
• Reduce phone screen time

I want to be an anime girl with huge bazongas.

>>40341407 (OP)
Take your HRT, retards.

Reply to this post to become a loli.

>>40343010
Do i get to become a big titted hot anime girl after spending some time as a loli

>>40343039
no, loli forever.

its really hard to do anything when everything feels pointless and your mind goes straight to suicide. p.s. did you win?

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40343115
kms

the chad mtfs hitting on afabs in femrepgen vs the virgin androphillic reppers in (regular) repgen

>>40343158
>I’m a real woman because I like men!
Sissy faggot cope

femrepgen is so peaceful compared to this place. I guess dysphoria is a male thing.

>>40343175
I honestly think being trans is way more sane than the way gay people act at this point. They've become so comically heteronormative.

>>40343060
but i want tits

Hello repgen, how are you all on this fine July day?

I once again cannot cope anymore. Being a man with the sexuality of a woman is unbearable

>>40343702
How do you feel about just having normal sex with a woman as a man?

>>40343775
It's fun in the way that doing anything with someone you like is fun, but sexually it does nothing for me. All I want is to be put in my place and made to feel like a dainty little thing by someone who could easily wrap their strong arms around all of me. Almost no woman would ever want to give me that and even if one did, it would feel wrong if she's not taller and stronger than me.

i am so lucky that i was born poor, because if i hadn't been forced to have roommates all throughout my teens and early twenties i would've become a tranny. if i had a private dwelling i would've been trans by now. thank god i was poor.

>>40344140
not lucky enough to not be a repper THOUGH

>>40343702
I can't entirely say I have the sexuality of a woman. >>40343857
I don't really relate to this. But I don't really relate to any men either.

I am afraid that being on here more is just going to destroy my mind even more.

i have to go out and interact with wider society because the more i self isolate, the more i forget just how much of a gigantic hulking beast i am

>>40341407 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

I am just an AGP man. Nothing in common with other men or women though

>>40344140
i am thinking about moving out just so i can have an excuse to troon

Read some stupid post. Obsess about it nonstop for literally the entire day. Likely irreversibly shaping my beliefs. Fun.

This life is a nightmare I hope to one day wake up from.

Femininity is a universally hated quality

been cooming to a nip fps game that lets u play as a anime girl and u can look down and see her tits and also her bare waist and thighs while crouching
hte enemies r also anime girls and the game is gorey so u can dismemebrr the anime girls while there still breathing
i want more anime coomer shooters

how do i make myself smaller

Have you tried being a gay guy who acts flamboyantly at all?

>>40344978
We just have an awkward combination of both. Female sexual orientation with a male body.

>>40346226
>Female sexual orientation
idk if wanting to be a walking japanese cartoon sex object is female sexuality

>>40344978
This is a brvtal blackpill I keep coming 'round to. I tried for many years to deny my own AGP experience but the truth (that we are merely twisted men) is plainly obvious after exhausting all explanation.

>>40346163
It's been proven that playing first person VR games messes with your body image.

>>40346253
All the female hentai artists I know of prove that it's at least a possibility.

>>40346163
what game is this?

>>40346253
>>40346539
To be honest, I don't really envision myself as a japanese cartoon sex object. Mostly just me but as a woman. But still I find people's bodies attractive in a male way, and I don't completely hate the idea of being feminine

>>40346622
the title is literally in picrel lel
fml i need more anime style vidya shooters
>>40346253
i want to be a japanese cartoon sex object

>>40346222
Im not attracted to men

>>40346700
fogeot picrel
its is boomer shooter with gore realitsic gun mechanics and anime girl and playable foid pc
its practically agp catnip someone PLEASE GIVEE MEM ORE AGP GAMES

>>40346664
i am pure gynephile and want 2 be me BVT as japanese sex objetc and i dont even think about beign feminine unless im high in my agp coom sesh haha mogs me ur brain sexualuty i am more moid agp coomer... hAAhHahaha
this game is so hard to actually play onehanded fvckkk

>>40346801
rEEEEEEEEE I KEEP FORGET THE PICREL

wonder how the femreppers are getting along

>>40346720
samme niggga
htis game give me exta dose of agp whenerver im look down ingame i spend half the time on game to look down instead of actully playing
also i like to shoot apart the anime girl enemies while thyere still breathing so good

>>40346700
sorry for being retarded, thank you

>>40346539
>All the female hentai artists I know of
my sexuality is still different from theirs
>>40346664
i don't envision myself as a woman, i just want to be one
>>40346700
>i want to be a japanese cartoon sex object
yeah i just want to be a hot anime girl while retaining both male and female privilege meanwhile women complain about actual problems with being female that i will never understand

i am less suited to be a woman than a cis male atp
>>40346893
ya i stopped bothering to think the responsibilities of being a woman irl i just bedrot while cooming and dreaming of being a hot anime girl on the cock carousel easy life tutorial mode

>>40346720
I am attracted to men. But at the same time I hate men and masculinity so much.

It's just so so so so tiring. The constant competition for one thing.

I just don't know. I feel very broken

>>40346961
t.

I HATE WOMEN BUT I WANT TO BE ONE AAAAHHHHH FUCK MY STUPID REPPER LIFE

It's strange. I know that even as a woman I'm supposed to hate women and idealize men as more valuable

why do we even have sexual dimorphism at all? is it just because god hates us?

>>40346976
i should visit that thread

>>40347354
At a basic level, so men are more efficient in physical activity, and so women have hips wide enough to give birth safely. Wider hips are worse for running and jumping around, so there must be dimorphism. Most everything else is a product of sexual selection.

Trannies are fucking crazy. I've wanted a trans friend so I could talk to someone I can relate to but they're all totally insano in the braino.

>got a job offer
>need to move
if i move out of my parents house should i transition or take hrt even though i'm 30 years old?

>>40347457
that’s untrue. we only have sexual dimorphism because a billion years ago some single celled organism got an advantage over the other cells from trading dna with each other. everything else is a cascading accident that doesn’t actually do anything

>>40347668
Uh huh. Anyway if you look at various human ancestors and relatives that went extinct leading up to homo sapiens, you see a wide variance of sexual dimorphism wavering back and forth, from dramatically less to dramatically more dimorphic than humans are. The women, basically, went from being too alike the males to give birth safely, or they were adapted to giving birth to such a level that they were ineffective at general survival. Finding the 'sweet spot' humans are at was necessitated by the adaptions leading up to bipedalism, since that puts heavier constrains on the pelvis.

I'm so tired all day every day even though I literally do nothing

>>40346767
>PLEASE GIVEE MEM ORE AGP GAMES
do you like CYOAs anon?

I literally don't care about anything anymore and it feels really bad

At some point i stopped questioning and just said i don't want to be trans

This is for the gendered language native speakers here:
Is it a common occurence for your parents to call you daughter by mistake quite often? This happens like twice a month to me.
The difference between son and daughter is literally a single letter in the end of the word so I can understand how it's easier to mess up, but every time it happens I go spiraling for an hour or two...

>>40348460
I always get a hard-on when my dad calls me "filha" by mistake, haha

(joke, I don't even have a sister)

I wonder what the ratio here of handsome vs. hopelessly ugly is here. I'm the latter, and not in a feminine way at all, so I end up very unapproachable despite being a frail turbomanlet.

>>40346767
>PLEASE GIVEE MEM ORE AGP GAMES
My favorites are Tower and Sword of Succubus (two games sold together on Steam) and Lilith's Throne (free text porn game)

It's a mistake to associate AGP with the desire to be dominated. AGP, to me, is precisely the refusal to be dominated by the female body. A refusal to let myself be hypnotized by them. I’ve always preferred the idea of being the one who could make others feel that pitiful state of enchantment.

>>40348435
I stopped questioning and realized that I want to be trans but already missed my chance

>>40347738
So women are just objectively worthless and inferior aside from being fucking slaves that pump out children. That's reality huhhhhhh. God what's the fucking point

>>40348845
Did you forget all the civilization we've built up since we were balding chimpanzees chasing after antelope in forest edge environments to beat them to death with rocks?

seeing reppers on other boards is so funny

>>40349025
You see them all the time, the funny part is when you see them using copes that you used to in the past or whining about trannies.

>>40349139
Such as?

Trying to buy crypto and they made me take a whole fucking quiz lol

>>40349025
I try to pinkpill you there, too

>>40349187
>Such as?
"I want to be a girl but the technology isn't there yet and so anyone who troons out is a gross retarded tranny freak loser." People like this are gonna end up here in a few years or give in completely desu.

>>40349294
>I want to be a girl but the technology isn't there yet and so anyone who troons out is a gross retarded tranny freak loser.

>>40349294
I just read posts that make me psycho spiral and break down completely.

I don't get it. Am I supposed to feel compelled to abandon people who are sick or are doing poorly or are mentally ill, or who just can't be perfect? I'm supposed to just be cold and devoid of compassion

>>40343857
>being a man with the sexuality of a woman is unbearable
>its a mans view of a womans sexuality
>its based on the objectification of women
you know that women dont just wanna be dainty little things for big strong men right. Like some do, sometimes, im not gonna generalize *all women* but women don't generally want just a buff strong tall dude.

I wouldn't be surprised if women liked seeing mens butts be big rather than like biceps or whatever

>>40349477
>I wouldn't be surprised if women liked seeing mens butts be big rather than like biceps or whatever

I would be. It's not the man they're interested in.

>>40349477
>I wouldn't be surprised if [headcanon]
Ok dude. I know you think I'm a depraved evil perverted moid or whatever because thats how you see yourself, but what I described is like 99% of what all women are into, according to science

>>40349610
Just a coincidence your tastes are totally identical to a gay bottom

>>40349610
>according to LE SCIENCE

Trooning isn't gonna work, so I'll just become a beautiful male instead.

>>40349809
‘Beautiful male’ - you know that’s oxymoron right?

>>40349858
People are just fucked aren't they?

need to killmyself im faketrans, my dysphoria disappears for weeks suddenly and then comes back and rn i have none so what am i even doing here why cant i live life like a normal cis male whats wrong with me

>>40349991
take your pills

>>40349991
>for weeks

This is stuff I obsess over constantly. I just know what I idealize is wrong. It's very miserable, but I don't know if I would even call it dysphoria

>>40350032
thats the thing i dont know if i should, its almost gone now i dont wake up thinking about my measurements or how iwnbaw but i just feel nothing like maybe normal cis people feel? i dont know if i should whats if its a mistake

>>40350071
take your pills. its normal that it “goes away”. its kept coming back right?

>>40349858
I used to believe something along those lines, and it messed me up and made trooning out the only choice for me to become happy. Had I stayed in that mindset, I would've been a subpar tranny considering my build is not made for that.
By realizing men could be beautiful too, I have expanded my ideas on what beauty and perfection looks like.
I wanted beauty, and because I only found women attractive, I desired their form for myself. By realizing there is more to beauty than just attractiveness, I have become free.
The glory of hard work and discipline to maintain a chiseled body, the curiosity to see what my body is truly capable of and to aspire to become like the heroes of old... that has become beautiful to me.

Mute, faceless characters in media were always to be vessels for the player to insert themselves into. For me, I had related to the empty vessel itself as that was the closest reflection to me, and was more of the ideal I wanted to reach as to be as far removed from my actual flesh as possible. Perhaps that's why I always hated when such characters were ensouled or would take off their masks. Wonder if anyone else here felt a similar way.

>>40350092
what if I'm making it come back because my life is terrible and I see this as a way out
I never showed signs as a child

>>40350135
how long have you had the desire to be/look like a woman?

>>40350144
13, right around the time I realized I'm weird and nobody wanted to be around me

>>40350114
Honestly, no. I don't really like mute faceless characters. I guess I've always been kind of drawn to overly expressive characters, but I'm usually expressionless in person.

>>40350173
would you prefer to be treated as a woman by people as opposed to being treated as a man?

>>40350204
woman, but maybe because I was never treated normally as a man I'm wrong

>>40350213
> would like to look like a woman
> would like to be a woman
> would like to be treated as a woman
thats gender dysphoria. you were not treated as a normal man because you are not a normal man. the vast majority of men like being men.

>>40350102
Good for you.

>>40350256
fine maybe, im going to try diy but if I'm faketrans in the end I'm kms

>>40350256
The vast majority of women don't like being women

>>40350267
Thank you.

>>40350275
stop being so dramatic, the first few months don't even make permeant changes. if youre taking pills its a choice you make daily. if youre doing shots its a choice you make ~weekly. theres no shame in finding out its not for you but i seriously think its going to help. you sound like me a year ago and like yeah i was worried i was making it all up. and you know what happen? as i took my hrt those fears kinda stopped happening. i didn't notice anything at first but gradually i noticed small changes that made me genuinely happy in a way i had not felt in a long time. not everything is going to become better the instant you pop e but stick with it and youll notice changes

>>40350291
i think the dislike the societal disadvantages that comes with being a woman. i dont think they want get back hair and grow a beard. i also dont think they want to bro it out in the same way men do. i think dysphoric women who do want those things should take their t tho.

>>40350386
I mean, they also don't look up to feminine traits the way trans people do. For most it's more of a humiliation fetish. The attraction to men or women is still just not expressed the same way.

>>40350423
what?

>>40350347
thank you

>>40350463
I don't know. I'm just mindbroken from some posts I've read.

>>40350464
glad i could help.
>>40350474
:/ im sorry to hear that anon

>>40350525
At my core I'm just an evil misogynist. Nothing in common with actual women when it really comes down to it.

>>40350552
why are you a misogynist, in what ways does it manifest? plenty of women are misogynistic thats how our society is shaped.

>>40349809
>>40350102
Nevermind the thoughts are back and now I want to cry.
Fuck my life man...

>>40350610
I mean, in the sense of wanting to be feminine and compassionate and all that.

>>40350698
>wanting to be feminine and compassionate and all that.
i dont think that makes you an evil misogynist

>>40350714
It does though, when no real woman actually idealizes that, when it's expected of them at their expense. Can't even say it's positive for gay men either.

>>40350652
me too bro, me too

>>40350728
> no real woman actually idealizes that
thats not even true, there is like a bunch of influencers who “cultivate their divine feminine energy”. its ok to recognize that all women dont have to like classical gender roles or femininity and you can also like aspects of femininity or things classically considered feminine.

>>40350765
I just can't entertain the idea. To me it means you're an evil person.

>>40350819
i think the it becomes evil when you restrict others based on it. i dont think wanting these things for yourself has any moral value

>>40350835
Right it just makes me a lesser person, idolizing something that's a fucking joke an universally hated.

>>40350879
never said it made you a lesser person

>>40350895
I mean it's just the objective truth

Anons this thought will ever go away? or it will eat me away till i dont feel like myself anymore?

Cause i can't take it anymore
reading >>40350275 # makes desire so much

>>40341407 (OP)
>stop drinking
>get a therapist
>get a better job
so far, i have yet to accomplish any of these :)

>>40348058
unfortunately no, ive tried one and i feel like taht was enough
>>40348643
Ima look up the free one i guesß
idk mang i need something with the a moid genre game with anime girl skin kinda thing (so fps or hackk n slash i guess idek KEK)
i guess anime girls with guns kinda things liek peripeteia but i cant find any more examples REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>40350552
I should be more misogynistic
so much so that i stop wanting to be a foid

So I parsed through the responses to last thread's bingo and here's the scoop:

Out of 14 respondants
>12 spend more time inside the house than outside
>11 were bullied in school
>9 have a bad relationship with their father
>9 prayed to god for a gender/body swap
>8 have an opposite sex digit ratio
>8 have no irl friends
>8 have a pet interest in history or philosophy
>7 are virigns
>7 are from the third world or europe
>6 make music and/or art
>6 have a fap addiction
>6 played tf2
>6 have a tumblr
>5 have a pinterest
>5 think men are ugly but want sex with them
>4 have a rightwing ideology
>4 like ted k
>4 smoke weed
>3 are either anorexic or obese
>3 have gainax or trigger show as fav anime
>3 have an amazon basics wardrobe
>3 have only opposite sex siblings
>2 liked volleyball in school
>1 has more than >50% trans friends
>1 pretended to be a girl on omegle
and
>3 got bingos

Some of these are more surprising than others. Most people here being shut-ins with no friends and no good father-child bonds was obvious. Personally, I thought more people would have a lot of trans friends here.

What can you guys take away from this?

>>40352339
Y'all should touch some grass fr

>>40352339
>I thought more people would have a lot of trans friends here
Growing up in a very conservative area and a resulting lack of experience with and uncomfortableness with transsexuals is a big part of why I turned into a repper.

>>40352339
>7 are from the third world or europe
Europoore is the third world

>>40352339
>>1 pretended to be a girl on omegle
That's obscenely low, you are all faketrans

why is repgen so dead at night/morning?
do you losers unironically have jobs or something?

>>40353232
Yes we go back to our manly man jobs

>>40353232
All the true reppers left long ago to pilgrimage to the Repper homeland. There we discuss things without troon interference.

>>40353232
I feel dead inside

I WANNA BE AN ANIME GIRL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
https://youtu.be/00RIGf-Axfo

Who else Uma Musume

>>40353512
you mean the afterlife

>>40353232
i don't really know what to say sometimes. yeah i still wish i was a woman, same as yesterday and the day before that

>>40354004
>bitterhon seething

One night, you have a strange dream. In the dream, an old woman using a spinning wheel tells you:
>sonny, I can give you what your heart desires. I can make you into a woman respinning the threads of fate. But there's a price to pay...
>At this moment, there's a woman in North Korea, born exactly the same moment you were born, who wants exactly what you already have.
>I believe I might have messed things up and put both of your consciousness in the wrong bodies. I can fix this, but once it's done you can't go back.
>If you accept, you'll have to live in North Korea for the rest of your life, but at least you'll be a woman. She lives in the big city, so you won't need to toil the soil all day long and you'll have all the required memories and skills to live her life, but it will still be objectively quite awful.
>Don't worry about your old life, I'm sure it'll be in good hands.
Do you accept?

I hate myself for being an AGP skinwalker freak

>>40353928
I can't say I want to be, like literally, an anime girl. The feelings are more like wanting to be a girl who likes anime girls. In the sense that you have guys looking at guy characters and thinking "he's so cool I wish I was him" but not like in a deeper sincere way

I honest to God want to be an anime girl. And I mean a sexxo anime girl.

i've never watched anime. does that make me a crazy outlier in this thread?

>>40354093
nope i want to be a hot sexxy anime girl in easy mode tutorial mode cock carousel into rich betabuxx life
no i dont actually have dysphoria why do you ask?
>>40354655
>>40353928
same wtf

>>40346961
>i just bedrot while cooming and dreaming of being a hot anime girl on the cock carousel easy life tutorial mode
yeah this
but i'm gross and sometimes i think about being agamp and having a dick and then other times i wish i didn't have a dick and that i had normal female genitals

i can't stand my subhuman 5'3 body. my brother gets to be 6'3 but not me because all the foids in my family had to be underdeveloped obese fertility statues. all foids below 6' should be getting sterilized and ostracized en masse like the genetic defects they are

I get mindbroken too easily from stuff I read online. And then I know it's going to permanently change me.

>>40354722
wanting is better than having
simple
bc nigga idc if being a foid irl has its own bullshit and the grass isnt actually greener BS i just want the fantasy
but on hte offchance that foids actually have it easy mode irl i am also cultivatej g misogyny

>>40355137
>bc nigga idc if being a foid irl has its own bullshit and the grass isnt actually greener BS i just want the fantasy
yeah ofc
pregnancy, periods, dangerous men, constantly being sexualized, toxic femininity, there are a lot of problems with being a woman that i don't know shit about
why do i want to be a woman again

>>40355250
I wonder too. But I guess it's just the naive delusion of not having to compete constantly, being able to express more.

Is 27 too late? my measurements (aside from height) aren't totally cooked but I get the impression there's a hard cut off to actually get anywhere and I missed it a while ago

>>40355443
I've seen pics of old bald dudes who transitioned and looked like women their age.

What makes this troon shit even harder is that I have the potential to be handsome. I'm not model-looking or anything, but if I tried really hard I could be a 7/10 man.
Why would I risk losing that in hopes of becoming a woman, when the likelihood of success is really low? Not to mention the things that give me the potential to be attractive would work against me if I went the troon path (height, shoulders, etc)

>>40355535
Yeah with ffs. I think the most clocky thing with late transitioners is man hands

Repping has made me extremely homophobic

just made me homophonic

I think I hate both men and women.

>>40355250
>>40355348
yeah more or less the naive delulu fantasies part (which are overstated or simply not real irl)
>pregnancy, periods, dangerous men, constantly being sexualized, toxic femininity
these are all hotter in fiction than reality
wanting is better than having

>>40356169
what makes for a clocky hand size? I don't have a ruler on me, but in terms of piano reach, I can comfortably reach a ninth but no further

>>40353441
I tried the job life but it wasn't for me.
I'll probably have to go back soon anyway though because I've been an aimless neet for 2 years post graduation, relatives are starting to give my parents shit for it and I must not dishonor the famiry
>>40353512
can I take my birthright trip please
reppers are yaldabaoth's chosen people/torture subjects so we deserve an ethnic homeland
>>40354004
yes please

there are two moods i get in when i drink my repression alcohol. one is just a melancholy sadness which is standard and the other is a sort of defiant 'fuck why don;t i just try trooning?' the second mood is very dangerous

>>40354093
100% yes
I would probably try to escape though since I would definitely want to make the most of my new life. Maybe if I got out I could try to contact new-me and see if I can get him to marry me so that I could still be with my family.

>>40355072
I'm 6'3 and my cousin who I'm like 80% sure is a femrepper is 5'4, the 2nd shortest adult on that side of the family. Very unfortunate.

>>40341798
Same here

>>40354093
yeah i will loyally serve the democratic people's republic of true korea

>>40354682
it makes you missing out
https://www.youtube.com/show/SCcLxlap_otlKRWn-8mv81ww?season=1
give this a try, it's what first got me hooked when I was a kid

Reppers, how do you do it? I hate being a non passing troon but being percieved as a man is more painful. At least as a twinkhon im seen as at worst "man-lite"

>>40359117
Momentum helps, there was never any stage in my life when I was 'out' and where being out would be safe or acceptable, so the entire genesis of my personality as a teen had repressing and actively loathing my feelings built into it.

>>40358296
Fucking Ranma 1/2 has to be the worst anime for a repper, it just reminds you of what you're trying to ignore.

>>40359117
by being in pain all the time except when I temporarily get a break by drinking alcohol

>>40351592
Well I literally just found this it's called Fate Trigger and you can sign up for the closed beta on Steam.

>>40359242
it's kino wish fulfillment
if you're in this thread then you're already a conscious repper anyway

>>40359784
>it's kino wish fulfillment
Except how Ranma rejects his female transformation.

Can you ever stop being a conscious repper? Could I be a just a man who's happy in a straight relationship and doesn't care about my maleness and masculine features and parts one day?
Are we just doomed to be in limbo forever?

>>40359812
yeah as a kid that always made me seethe lol, I wanted the Nannīchuan to dry up
looking back that's what made his character such an entertaining fit for the genderbending though. Although I admit that I am relieved he never found a "cure"

once you know, you cannot be ignorant anymore

>>40359762
ok u on to something herre

how do i find a reason to live

>>40360467
good question

The main reason why i didn't transition is because I didn't think my personality was women enough

>>40360467
read philosophy and you'll understand the question is meaningless

I hate my body and I don't enjoy being alive

>>40356674
>>40355137
>>40354701
>>40351592
Based Citadel poster

It becomes tolerable if you're able to completely distract yourself. When I find a good game I'm totally immersed in I'm able to completely dissociate. I can lay in bed for 5 hours straight and I'll completely forget I'm a middle aged man and not a cute anime girl. Feels like 80% of my life is just looking for that one thing and 20% is spend on that thing until it wears off, then I repeat the cycle. That 80% of shit is still worth the 20% though.

>>40351592
I want to look like this and make men aroused and flustered when I wear absurdly revealing outfits but act totally innocent and oblivious to how hot I am.

we should number these threads probably

>>40359837
I can never get the thoughts to leave my mind. I find impossible to even just walking past or having a conversation with a girl and not be insanely envious of her body. With cis people, they compare their looks and bodies of people of the same sex so how they want to look is pretty achievable. But with me, I went through the wrong puberty and that will never change. So I think we are doomed.

Would anyone recommend being in a relationship as a good cope?

>>40363369
>Would anyone recommend being in a relationship as a good cope?
Anon no that's a horrible idea.

>>40363374
Do you speak from experience?

>>40363377
Yes. Seething envy makes for a poor partner.

>>40363386
What if I date a pooner?

>>40363374
you can make a repper x mtf relationship work if you just stop caring about yourself & realise that only she gets to enjoy it

>>40363400
>>40363405
Fix yourself before dating anyone.

>>40363412
I am fixed. I shouldn’t even use this board.

>>40363412
i'm perfectly okay with being window dressing in her life, it's as good as i'll ever get anyway

>>40357294
it’s not abt finger length (check anthro.cs for source) it’s about palm width/girth, texture, finger width.

I wish it were possible to just flush my brain, forget all of the propaganda and self-hatred. It's becoming actually painful at this point.

>>40363429
:(

>>40363436
This is going to fuck me up. Just looking down at my hands will be enough to remind me.

>>40363369
>>40363405
>With cis people, they compare their looks and bodies of people of the same sex.

Well, I guess that's kind of how it is with gay people. There's just the acceptance that one partner is simply the better person.

>>40363575
Like when I look at guy who’s attractive, I’m like no I don’t want muscles like him and when I look at a girl who’s got a nice curved body shape, I’m like that’s how I want to be. I don’t think my mind will change.

I have already been corrupted by male socialization. Nothing will ever fix that.
I'm sad, but the tears won't come.
What did I do to deserve this?

>>40363637
>I have already been corrupted by male socialization.

That's how I feel too. It's my own fucking fault though, because I know that continuing to spend so much time here will only make things worse

>>40363676
I blame my dad for a lot of that.

My problem is that I have so little self esteem that I basically believe everything I read online

>>40363691
oOoOoOoOo you have high self esteem you like yourself oOoOoOoOo

>>40363695
I mean just reading anything bad about trans people or women or effeminate gay men is enough to mentally destroy me

>>40363568
it's okay, she has better people to be with anyway

>>40363737
Yet I still spent at least an hour a day on X

I despise this image so much. There's a joy in it that burns me and it really hurts.

>>40363829

>>40363829
>>40363637
this transfem shinji shit is like a straight up activation image where instead of assasinating someone i just become bedbound from depression and self hatred
FUCK everyone who draws this shit

> tormented by the thought of others transitioning happily

>>40363903

>>40363895
Why?

>>40363895
Someone gets my pain...

>>40363937
I think it's because we relate to shinji in some way, and seeing him successfully troon out and be totally happy is simply miserable.
"Look at this character you related to so much because he was also depressed be happy while you're still feeling like shit"

Shinji is basically a girl but I definitely don't see him being transsexual desu.

Man why don't femanons get it, I'd really love to be female

I think i accidentally made my bisexual gf straight

>miss sleep or get stressed by something
>trans thoughts increase 10x

>>40364694
I understand why they don't get it. But at the same time I just want to.

Just spent half an hour reading every top post on r/TheLezistance
This should be enough rep fuel for another few weeks

>>40364807
A masochist just like me

>trannies: no I wouldn't take the cure for dysphoria, that would destroy who I am :)
>also trannies: god I wish i could have my entire self obliterated and replaced with someone of the opposite sex.

>>40365032
i am both of those people at once and there are absolutely zero contradictions between those statements, absolutely none at all

>>40363313
yes same absolute
not gna troon THOUGH
>>40362966
need more moidbrain game with anime girls PLS

>day ruined because a cute girl with glasses and punkish green hair walked in the sandwich place I was at and immediately started burning with jealousy knowing I can't ever look like her
fmsrl

free MAID for reppers when?

>>40365194
I tell myself that they are a pooner to help me cope.

>>40365242
But at the current stage, a femrepper

Helping my old man cut wood. Al least I have physical strength. Would be nice if he didn't imply that im weak and lazy every time he asks for help though

>>40365399
>imply that im weak and lazy
Men sure do love that one, huh?

>>40365461
None of my friends were surprised when I told them. Seems like no matter how strong I get everyone just sees me as a massive faggot.

>>40365631
I think it's a projection from them, or some retarded malebrained status/virility jockeying that our troon brains just can't comprehend. As a child, it made me cry, as an adult I just roll my eyes when they do it.

>>40365668
Yeah you probably right

implyign youre weak like what
what did he say??

>>40366088
I cant do all the work around here stop being a bitch type of stuff

Note to self:
Never look at transition timelines again. If I see another person that looks like me end up passing because they were a luckshit I will not be able to handle it.

>>40366864
If they look like you, how do you know you can't make it too? Sometimes I look at timelines trying to find someone who looks like me turn out passing on the other side, but eventually my brainworms convince me it just wouldn't work for me because of x.

>>40353969
3 speed spark yo

>mfw literally nobody else in the world is anywhere near as good as you at systematically berating you and every single one of your flaws, weaknesses, and issues until you feel like you're about to have a heart attack
>mfw people getting to know your weaknesses, flaws, issues and insecurities means they're less likely to switch up and start abusing that knowledge against you to make you useful for them because they're too nice
at this point i just want to be abused again until i'm on the precipice of suicide or something but i'm in hell, surrounded by decent people
ffs

i wish i was actually trans, instead im an agp man who wants to take hormones trapped inside a mans body

if i wasn't such a bitch i could move out and transition

Just fantasycopemaxx bros

I just lived out my dream life where I wake up as a girl one day in an AI-powered text-based roleplaying game. Pretty fun

It only makes the pain ten times worse when you turn off the computer

>>40368383
how do you do it? when i tried ai roleplaying i stopped after 5 minutes when i realized how pathetic i am and how iwnbaw

>>40368418
The rep side of the trans is a pathway to many abilities some consider to be unnatural. You won't mind it once you want it bad enough.

>>40368492
i dont understand, i also want anything that will give me even for a moment the thought im a woman but i just cant find it

>>40368383
I do this all the time
claude, set me a scene in past tense and second person in which I wake up as the opposite sex please

i will never look like this THOUGH

It's just that sometimes I like being a guy but other times I hate it and wish I was born a girl. I just want to be normal

>>40367374
I think it's just the pure anxiety of making a life-changing decision. Sure, if I found a way to cure myself I could hop off estrogen any time, but I would always remember that moment in my life and see it as a failure of willpower, a failure of... following nature. A blemish in my record. Does that make sense?
People absolutely despise trannies, what if that gets to me if I end up a twinkhon?
What if I actually passed and a decade later I got tired of being treated as a woman, what then? What if I had gotten plastic surgery or SRS in that time? Would I just be fucked?
But what if I regret not doing anything now? What if I actually pull a John 50?
I'm scared.
(Obligatory i'm also a faketrans AGP freak that deserves to be shot yada yada we've all heard that here before)

>>40369212
Yeah pretty much this. I actually almost did it a few years ago, but I told myself that I had to try to be a real man first, and I was so successful at becoming a man I don't think I can go the other way now, but the what if kills me.

>>40369343
It's similar to having two people in your brain, isn't it?
One wants to be normal, successful and a stable human being. He wants to do this on his own, He can get over this with willpower alone.
The other just wants to give in. Her desires have no real reason, Her whims come from pure emotion.
i want them to shut the fuck up and leave me alone but they wont go away

"you have three options"
>transition
>rep and suffer forever
>die
And then they all get mad when I want to choose die. Why can't I give up? The other two options suck.

Drunk and sad, lads.

thinking about how much i wasted my youth
kinda sucked but sometimes i wonder if i want to relive it (as a girl)

I wasted over two decades of my life. I feel like something's inside of me and that I need to do something or it'll burrow out of me like some fucked up chestburster, but I don't know what. I haven't pursued any of my passions, career or studies. Just some asshole NEET who reads books all day. Speaking of studies, my peak neuroplasticity is gone, as is my youth; just utterly fucked. I hate everything about this and I lack even the volubility to convey any of this well or meaningfully. I can't believe I'm only through 33% of my natural life, tops. I don't have another decade in me, but I know I'm too much of a coward to die when I should. I thought I'd feel better after writing this, but I really don't. Just the sensation that I'd probably cry if I wasn't a man, as men don't cry.

>>40369470
Man that is so exactly how I feel. >>40369494
Yeah this is the problem that I couldn't cope with as a teen

>>40369809
>>40369910
based fellow youth wasters. I feel like I have been left stranded on an island to fend for myself with my only attainable goal being day-to-day survival and nothing more. I'm staring down the barrel of 30 and am clueless.

>>40362966
Just started playing this. I love the aesthetic, cryptic story and gun selection, but some levels are moidah...

>>40369771
Buck up, anon. What are you drinking?

>>40368383
what game?

it sucks that I can never be honest with anyone ever desu

alcohol has cured me, bye forever guys

I love being intoxicated and no longer perceiving my body

>>40370962
Had 12 pints, like 6 or 7 whiskys and like 5 glasses of wine, how about you m8?

>>40371077
Damn man. Impressive.
Normally I'd be with you (this >>40371026 actually sums things up pretty well), but I'm on a dry streak at the moment.
I'm drinking vicariously through you.

>>40371184
I actually hate myself for being like this and I wish I could just nut up and transition, but thanks.

>>40371226
I think I understand way too well. Sometimes I wonder if I have dry spells bracketed by binges, or if I interrupt an ongoing binge with dry spells.
I reckon the goal is to either get healthier and feel better about my body so the trans thoughts go away, or get in some kind of shape where some kind of transition is possible.
Until a bout of depression derails both plans, or course...

>>40371016
Me every weekend
>>40371077
2 weeks ago I drank a case and it sure did help. Alcohol cures all alememts

if i make 200k a year but am still repping and over 30 how much of a loser am i

>>40371730
Less of a loser than me.
I don't make 200k a year.

>>40371730
wow lucky
if I were you I would just save for a couple years until you have enough money to buy a cabin where you can hrt manmode in peace away from society

>>40370887
follow the devs twitter for schizo incest lore

i don't want to interact with women anymore. it gives me insane dysphoria every time they perceive me and treat as a man (especially if they find me attractive, so fucking gross) and i always end up being so jealous of their nice feminine bodies.
at least i'm bisexual

Nah it's ok I don't want to be a woman. I just want to look like one and be treated like one and have sex like one. Not a big deal

Does hrt actually change your face or is that pinkpiller propaganda? i dont think i can fight it for much longer repbros...

>>40371833
>Less of a loser than me.
can you drive? i can't drive
>>40371883
i'm too stupid to hrt manmode
if i were less stupid i'd just pay off an apartment and then hrt manmode there

If I had money I'd buy a VR helmet and goon to myself as an anime girl.

>>40374241
>tfw just saw a thread on r9k about this

>>40374106
hrt just makes new fat go into female places so it does change how your face looks, if you have basically zero body fat there beforehand (or lose all your fat within the 6 months it takes for "redistribution" to kick in)

>>40374189
I can drive, so you've got me there. lol
Do you need a chauffer? We can swap stories about how we've failed as men in our society.
>>40372428
This keeps getting better and better...

>>40374385
>I can drive, so you've got me there. lol
yeah i'm the biggest loser that makes six figures
i take public transportation to my job and then dissociate because my coworkers are attractive women

>>40374367
That's what I thought. I've been a skeleton all my life, so my plan was to do an intense bulk for a year or two and then lose most of it again, in hopes of the fat that's left staying in good spots (chest, hips, ass, etc)
id probably get some stretch marks though...

Im such an ungrateful asshole. Im good looking, in great shape, and a good life, and I still waste my time agonizing over this bullshit.

Reposting every thread until you accept it.

>>40374704
Can't I also be a depressed bad person idiot though

>>40374416
Don't be so hard on yourself. By that logic, I'm the biggest loser who can drive...
We're all losers to some extent, which is why we congregate here for some companionship. We wallow in it, and I'm not trying to take away your right to wallow, we ask questions, we make choices. And we have our strengths too.
Maybe some day you'll find a way to use your six figures to find a little happiness or satisfaction for yourself, like >>40371883 said.

What are you guys playing lately?
I recently bought cultist simulator thinking it was gonna be a cool management game, but it's more like an overcomplicated solitaire
im a little disappointed not gonna lie
to make this more related to the thread, also recommend some wish-fulfillment games that make it easier to rep.

>>40374704
what point are you trying to make? calling it a mental illness doesn't magically create a cure

>>40374897
i pretty much only play osrs now. it's pretty autismo but is a good distraction

>>40374897
>wish-fulfillment games
Anything with a female protagonist.

>>40374801
>Maybe some day you'll find a way to use your six figures to find a little happiness or satisfaction for yourself,
it's not like i woke up one day and make 200k i started off making way less
if i wasn't so dumb i could have done it at 80k. i just john 50ed and kept going for raises

>>40374704
>I want to be the opposite gender because I have a mental illness, even though I'm a 6'0" bald man. Instead of trying to rationalize it, I'm going to self-induce gynecomastia and dress like a clown.

Just did a thorough study of my figure and realized my shoulders are so ridiculously massive (18-19 inches, don't have a caliper so I just used a ruler) that the only way for me to pass is to gain a ton of weight and pray to god it all goes to my hips.
Now I'm wondering, is passing even worth it if I need to have 32-38% body fat at all times? I don't want to die of a heart attack in my 30's or something (not to mention the possibility of me just getting a disgusting beer gut instead)
What do I do, repbros?

>>40376524
Similar situation. Ive been thinking about doing a small dose and just being a weird looking guy

>>40374704
I recently had this realization. I think trying too hard to make sense of it was only making things worse.

>>40371730
>>40374646
This is funny to me. Just because I see the recurring narrative being pushed hard that men don't *really* want to be women, they're just too lazy to find success as a man. It's all kinds of people though, in reality.

>>40377036
Yeah that whole thing is bullshit. I bet even my friends think I just cooked my brain with Pornography, but the feeling predates that

>>40377036
>Just because I see the recurring narrative being pushed hard that men don't *really* want to be women, they're just too lazy to find success as a man.
i am lazy and cowardly i just happen to make good money

next hread >>40377629

>>40374897
i usually play tf2, ffxiv, and gg strive, recently i've been playing factorio