Thread 40341747

hii!! i'm attention starved and kindof drunk (but not enough,,) also im feeling a bit hopeless due to the US federal govt insinuating mass revocation of trans passports (orr v trump, ECF 127) anyway pls give me attention! really wish i had someone to cuddle and hold me..
also darn it the captcha's hard when inebriated, agh

>>40341747 (OP)
hiiiiiii same asf I love alcohol!

>>40341747 (OP)
you type super adorably, i am interested in seeing your unsee if you're comfortable sharing

>>40341800
yea!!
really wish i also had edibles here,, i realyl just want to disassociate from the world right now..

>>40341747 (OP)
You alright, pal? I can add you on discord or something if you wanna talk.

>>40341818
awhh thanks,, but i dont post pictures of myself on the internet, sorry.. i'm not that cute anyway
>>40341827
don't have discord... not reaally alright but hanging in! not dying!!

>>40341848
Oh, got ya. What do you have if you dont mind me asking?

>>40341856
uhh in terms of chatting i pretty much only use matrix at this point,, sorry

>>40341747 (OP)
Hiii im also drinking and hopeless and depressed and insanely lonely :3
Youre keeping it together better than me

>>40341888
Wtf is it with depression and trans people?

>>40341888
hiiii!! i'm probably not actually put together, i just kind-of seem so on the surface
sending a *hug* (if desired)
>>40341910
because it's really darn hard to live and be happy as one, maybe (i don't really know)

>>40341924
Better than me. Im the kinda 24/7 manic depressed where the only 2 people i talk to in my life are finally starting to just give up on me
>>40341910
Im a gay tranny with severe bpd. I was born to crash out and push people away then die

>>40341823
me too,,,hang in there <3 xoxo

>>40341946
Do you like.. need a fucking hug or something?

>>40341747 (OP)
Awww, I'm sorry to hear that Nona, I hope your night goes better :<. I'm also a little lonely, most of my friends are asleep and I don't have much to do, so im chatting with random peeps. It's nice to see all the people in here trying to comfort ya though lol, makes everything a little less bleak even if just for a moment <3

I'm trying to join my local chapter of the yDSA and SRA to hopefully maybe do what I can to numb the current wave of hatred, even if just a little. I wish we didn't have to live like this.

>>40341987
This is the part where we do the age old 4chan tradition of telling you to kill yourself /s

>>40341946
awh,, i suppose i have nice friends; world's still falling apart around me but im grateful for those whom i have
i really wish i could be there for you and try to make you feel better about yourself, but realistically i can't even really do that for myself
>>40341966
trying,, thanks <3

>>40341946
Awww were sisters :D, I'm npd. We aren't meant to be alone forever, its just hard to find people who can understand and love us anyway when our worst impulses and fears inevitably make their way back to the surface and cause us to do things we don't mean to do. I don't blame them, it's a lot of baggage sometimes.

>>40341980
All i want is to be held.....

>>40341987
thanks <3
same here i suppose; i frequently feel lonely and probably have attachment problems, but people here can at least blunt the malaise

>>40342006
don't we all

>>40342004
Thanks, the sentiments sweet, i dont even want anyone to make me better really, i just want to not feel alone
>>40342005
I just dont know what im supposed to do, i feel like im going psychotic most days and nothing ever helps. I was straight up told today im miserable to be around and part of the reason they havent completely cut me out of their life is cause they think id kill myself if i had no one to talk to

>>40342052
That's fucking awful I'm so sorry, I can't imagine anything worse to say to anyone in that position :(. Anyone casting the slightest bit of doubt that they really are there for you and care is a fucking knife to the heart. Hopefully you can slowly shift your focuses toward other people who care about you, its awful that you get treated like that when vulnerable.

>>40342088
If i didnt have a job id just be a full on neet again. Idk how im supposed to find other people

>>40342052
>i just want to not feel alone
yeah..

>>40341980
i think we all do

>>40341747 (OP)
>>40341888
I've been considering getting into alcohol for a good few years now. Is it worth it?

>>40341747 (OP)
Hi I'm also depressed and hopeless but thanks god I'm not living is the US

>>40344403
i mean, it's one way to cope..
is it good? no
does it blunt the pain? for a time

>>40344898
Maybe I'll cycle it. 3 days on, 11 days off.

>>40341747 (OP)
Hi nona! I wuv alcohol. Do you fw nine inch nails
>>40341987
DSA seems like a good choice to actually get shit done in the country, given that the dem base is demanding a much more hardline stance against trump than the party leadership is delivering. I dunno if I could afford membership dues though :[.

>>40344441
i wish i wasn't in the us

>>40345109
Not op but im seeing nin live next month!

>>40342117
>Idk how im supposed to find other people
real

>>40341747 (OP)
omg another drunk hopleless person hi nona!! i hope ur doing as alright as u can be <3
>>40344403
yes i drink every day and its the only time im ever happy desu!! try it and if ur an asshole when ur drunk theb u probably have to find something else unfortunately, im lucky i just cry a lot so my gf doesnt mind

>>40347675
wow FUCKING AWESOME!!!! That's so cool :D

>>40352599
i get really giggly when i'm drunk

>>40352599
>yes i drink every day and its the only time im ever happy desu!! try it and if ur an asshole when ur drunk theb u probably have to find something else unfortunately, im lucky i just cry a lot so my gf doesnt mind

i get in a good mood but also i think it makes me an asshole and i have a hard time telling if i am even when i'm sober.

>>40347675
jealous i have never been able to.....also not op or the other anon but i love nin......have so much fun for all of us nonny