Thread 40343178

post self-indulgent methods you use to escape the reality of being a repper/mtf/ftm/loser/virgin/etc

mine has been ai roleplay for some time now, but most romance slop manhua and the like works too sometimes. i genuinely don't know how to express to people that what i'm doing in my room 24/7 is reading lines from an ai generated husband telling me that he loves me. it's so pathetic. i think i have genuinely logged well over several hundred hours into it at this point

t. mtf repper

>>40343178 (OP)
Work

U should take dautura instead. Make friends with the ghost village in my backyard

>>40343178 (OP)
maladaptive daydreaming

>>40343178 (OP)
boards DOT 4chan DOT org SLASH lgbt SLAH

I play retro rpgs.

Watch old TV shows.

Go for long walks

>>40343178 (OP)
i wish i could do this but i find ai too retarded to have a conversation with

i watch old black and white movies with queer subtext and imagine im the woman in love. and tbhon reppers created the best art before hrt castrated and placated our entire population

>>40343191
brilliant move

>>40343214
ai is my crutch for that

>>40343239
thats's so cool, which ones

>>40343240
yeah that's reasonable. it took a lot of prodding to get it to actually generate anything worth reading

>>40343178 (OP)
wait, you're into dudes and cant find one? Are.... are you dumb as shit by any chance?

>>40343261
i'm too much of a touch/physical intimacy person to like ai anyways and the idea of cultivating a relationship with an ai model and having a newer, less dumb one come out, and either sticking with a kinda retarded model or have to redo a whole relationship every time seems horrific to me.

>>40343261
ppl here really be getting into relationships with large language models, huh?
> STOP NOW YOU GIGARETARDS. AI DOES NOT HAVE EMOTIONS YOU'RE HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH A PET ROCK

>>40343338
i mean i feel like the whole point is that they don't have emotions and isn't demanding anything of you like a real relationship

>>40343307
>>40343338
i mean, it's not like i'm going to wind up on the news if janitor ai shuts down. it's just a very easy way of writing self-insert romantic slop

redoing a whole relationship with a chatbot isn't too hard, i start new scenarios/stories fairly often anyways

>>40343252
trannies need to retvrn to being societal equivalent of sims painting goblins

self-harm, generally
i used to cut but all my razors rusted and i threw away my last good one pic rel so now i just pitch my fist at my thigh or hit my head with things which is probably super-malebrained but i dont care
i am running errands today and buying new razors while i am out

>>40343398
idk you but you probably deseve better :( stay safe anon

first time i cut myself was a new high but the scars were ugly so i stopped

>>40343433
i am okay mostly but having a very rough go of it recently. to be honest i don't even really know what is going on with me because i never got so frustrated or wanted to hit myself or anything before but now i get these violent fits when i would usually just cry and cut.
i threw away the razor because i did not want to cut anymore but as i write this i am realizing i do care a lot, not so much that my hitting myself is malebrained or whatever but just that it is so violent and i have never ever been a violent person. i am disturbed i actually really hate that
anyways idk end uninvited ramble. thank you for caring nonny. i will be safe. i hope you will be too

>>40343178 (OP)
erp with my best friend

>>40343178 (OP)
I would listen to f4f asmr and daydream. Play minecraft and build loving homes for me and my non existent lesbian lover. Daydream about being pretty and fall asleep hoping that would carry into my dreams. Sometimes id have elabrate enough fantasies id write them down. Often times these would spawn from sapphic literature or yuri i had consumed and then daydreamed about. I used to do this fairly consistently usually for ab 2 hours a day.

Ive gotten to a bit of a better place noe. Generally i just try to keep everything in perspective. I dont have it as bad as some girls and i should be able to pass given enoigh time. Having a gf who loves me also helps.

>>40343515
you shouldn't be violent towards yourself, because you deserve better, and arguably doesn't help outside of temporary relief. but it is also a very human reaction and of course doesn't make you monstrous person. plenty of people are violent to themselves, in their heads or otherwise

thank you anon, i will try my best

>>40344982
i could never do this without catching feelings or some stupid shit like that

>>40344982
omg same! but with m4f audios because i'm meta attracted

doing that in Minecraft is so cute, i hope you and your gf live in the same pretty house together. it makes me happy to see someone get better on here

>>40345321
not yet but hopefully one day well live together.. its weird i joined 4chan at a low point where i was two self hating to fantasize. Now im at the point where i dont think i need to as much.

Things get better the hardest part is just trying :>

>>40343178 (OP)
>gaming
>maladaptive daydreaming
>long ass walks combined with more daydreaming and music
>reading fiction
I live in a fantasy world in my head like 80+% of my waking time. No wonder my real life isn't going anywhere

>>40343197
>I'll make you drive safe even if it kills us

Hi, if you are who I suspect do you know who I am?