how would you guys go on living in my situation
>red state
>too broke and autistic to move out
>too lazy and autistic to transition for real
>6 years of boymoding
>retarded and bad at my low paying job
>will be fucked when Mother dies
>everything fun or important feels undercut by the fact i can't even be a twink let alone a real woman

it all feels pointless and overwhelming and if it weren't for the fact i owe some online friends some money rn, i'd probably sui

>>40364070 (OP)
Get a job, go to community college, start being a normal

>>40364070 (OP)
Why did you lend money from online friends?

>>40364070 (OP)
I don’t understand the issue. you’ve gotten used to living like shit but you’re a particularly eventful week and some high-quality support away from getting what you want
I assume you look, well, fine, because you’re not explicitly complaining about your appearance
>too broke and autistic to move out
you could, should things go your way. you’d just lose things if you did it right now. consider what you’d lose.
>too lazy and autistic to transition for real
c’mon, you’ve been on e for 6 years? you are transitioning for real! you just need a friend and like, two new outfits
if someone shook you hard enough I bet you’d end up transitioned. you just need to do it
yes it would be hard, and yeah you’d lose some things. but think about what it is you’d lose
>will be fucked when Mother dies
why so? do you have any friends? I’d get to that. if you can pay rent and learn to cook you will be able to live
>everything fun or important feels undercut by the fact i can’t even be a twink let alone a real woman
why? you can be. you just aren’t. I don’t see the issue

frankly you have a perspective issue. you’re so scared of pain and loss you’d end it all.
transitioning, moving out, financial independence would be like hard, dont get me wrong. maybe you’d even lose some things. but I doubt you’d be homeless, and I doubt it would be impossible for you to, say, move to europe after 5 years and work a different hard, shitty job in a different country, as a woman
try pain before death

>>40364162
i have a job
>>40364198
needed it for some important stuff
still need to pay them back
>>40364247
i'd lose all my comfort and familiarity...
also if mom dies, well i rely on her like the manchild i am. i give her $$ for rent but i can't afford this house on my own and i don't know how to adult with car insurance or bills or anything like that
and mentally i couldn't take it
dad is already gone
if she goes too i might just go with her
i cant be a woman
idk how to explain
i just
im not one and i cant be one and thats my cross to bear i guess