>>40379463 (OP)let me save you the agony and confusion I went through for years and tell you right now:
you are very likely bi. so many more people are bi than you think. tons of people just aren't educated enough about what being bi is to realize it ("being attracted to femininity makes me straight!"), or realize it once they're already grown up and in a committed straight relationship and never come out
you might not be ready to accept it yet, it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I could be bi and have never realized for so long. it can be scary at first. that's fine. but it's a really cool thing so congrats on realizing that a crush is what you have, that's a real first step. if you come to terms with it faster and easier than I did maybe you can even ask him on a date