>>40405369 (OP)
I can't convince myself no matter how hard I try that anything happens to us after death besides bodily decay. I want to believe my consciousness isn't going to just stop forever some day; I've been having daily anxiety attacks over it for over a month. I don't care how fucking miserable I've been for as long as I can remember, I wanna live forever so I can experience a happy life some day :(
i like to think of heaven and hell being in the same physical location, with your soul in the presence of god. but whether it feels like heaven or hell to be in his presence will be determined by how you lived your life on earth, how you treated others and yourself.
Hell is a transitional state before your consciousness comes back to the source. Hell is on earth, it often tries to take over your mind through bad feelings and mental sicknesses, when you die and your brain can no longer stay conscious, it starts aligning with the universal mind, the less "evil" you did the less you'll suffer, it projects an "image" into your mind and punishes you with unfathomable pain for each failed reflection.
The main mistake we make is believing it deals with human concepts, it doesn't work with relative morality or specific deeds, instead it "scans" the entirety of the brain looking for holes, which form when your thoughts are derived from genuine evil.
>>40405958
pretty accurate.
that's basically what it is
1 is ultimate + energy
1 is ultimate - energy
1 gets better and better
1 gets worse and worse
and its the best thing ever
and its the worst thing ever
its not even what you do in this 1, its what you did in all of them
and you're all alone for so long you thought it all up.
its really lonely being god.
but when god thinks. it happens.
likes to choose to forget to remember again.