>>40409653>>40409666Based trips of doom anon here has it. Its not a gender thing its a shit luck thing. Ive been dealing with similar my entire life, and even as a passoid it didn't help.
Living a life like that is hard, and I dont really think there is a single person in my life who has been important to me in a personal or professional capacity that hasn't tried to screw me over in some of the worst possible ways.
Maturing is realizing that no one is coming to help and that it doesnt matter what your circumstances are, or what the end results are all you can really do is try to hold on to whatever you have with as tight of a grip and drag your ass through whatever broken glass those assholes try to put in your way.
Its a hard realization and one I spent years fighting and refusing to believe but its the damn truth. We live in a hellworld and suffering tends to snowball. But thats not to say that the pursuit of fulfillment is pointless (keep in mind I said fulfillment not happiness. Two different things)
My recommendation if youre at a low point is to just try taking up art. Doesn't matter how shitty it is, when I was at my lowest I took up surrealist abstract art and poetry to put my pain to pages and it helped me develop myself into a person who can face down life myself.
Basically just sometimes shit sucks, and clinging on to the just world fallacy in whatever form will drive you insane. Humans are social creatures and living a life like that forces a realization we're not meant to make as help is always meant to be a shout away, but it gets less painful after you integrate that realization.