trannies how do you cope with knowing no one will ever love you?

I like looking at clouds

>>40410520 (OP)
People do love me, dating is a different story though…

>>40410520 (OP)
Excuse me ma'am, do you have a moment to talk about our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ?

>>40411025
I'll fucking kill you stupid bitch

>>40410520 (OP)
i don't it's slowly killing me.

im personally trying to cope with the fact that someone does

im so broken anymore. idk what to do

>>40410520 (OP)
Designer clothing, designer drugs

>>40411047
shut the fuck up, you get everything I ever wanted and you're complaining

>>40411048
I can't afford either

>>40411097
Thats your problem
Start using people and stop caring about people who dont care about you

>>40411111
I can't. I feel like the only person who feels love anymore and I just get used and thrown away constantly.

>>40411047
I'm in a similar situation, someone told me they love me (romantically) after only 2 months of knowing one another. I think it's too soon but I also actually believe him. They seem very sincere about it from all I can tell and I don't know how to handle it, I feel undeserving of it but I think might love them too.

>>40411170
i hope your relationship fails and you both kill yourselves

I love myself. Also nature like fpbp>>40410532

>>40411118
Love isnt real, closest you can get is admiration which is just another way of saying submission. If you want to be "loved" you have to become something they want but cant have. The only thing you can ever truly love is yourself. Youve been psyopped into hating yourself and submitting to others by being told selflessness is virtue and selfishness is vanity. Either overcome that or submit.

>>40411187
Yasss queen i love yourself too

>>40411188
I love myself and love other people so this isn't true, they just never end up loving me and have sex with me until they get bored then throw me away. I just wish other people could love like I can.

>>40411188
Go fuck yourself Love is the entire point of living

>>40411198
If you love yourself why do you need other people to love you?
>>40411208
Youll never get what you want by pretending youre doing it for someone else

>>40411253
>If you love yourself why do you need other people to love you?
I just want someone who will hold me and keep me warm every night and won't leave

>>40411264
Then become someone who people want to do that to, its not that complicated

>>40411300
I can't. I'm super nice to people, I'm very attractive, I pass well, and nothing helps. no one ever wants me and no one ever will

>>40411174
Probably will fail but won't kill myself. Life is too good. Thanks for caring though.

>>40411314
What do you want in a beloved?

>>40411320
lives near me and is nice to me and won't get tired of me

>>40410520 (OP)
i drink

>>40411326
I'm too poor for that

>>40411333
then find a hustle

>>40411326
>Tfw no alcoholic trans gf

>>40411349
unfortunately and all of the jobs are gone here

>>40411353
i sincerly doubt that. a hustle doesnt necessarily imply employment. it just a means of making money. ever heard of a pell grant?

>>40411314
People dont care if youre nice they just want to feel lucky for being able to experience you intimately

>>40411360
I've been applying for jobs for 3 years online and in person had my resume rewritten by job agencies multiple times. I've gotten 1 interview.

>>40411360
Nta but how do u make money off a pell grant??

>>40411370
get a part time job at a groccery store or some shit idk

>>40411379
do you think I haven't been applying for those?

>>40410520 (OP)
it's all on them. I loved with all my heart a trans girl. I married her. And she betrayed me for thrills. She cheated on me. So blame yourself. I will never commit to a trans girl ever again.

>>40411372
Apply for classes at community college and then apply for financial aid for schooling. A pell grant is just the main source you will receieve money from but there are other grants you can receieve. As long as you pass your classes and dont drop them, you will can still keep gettting aid. Its more ideal to take 5 classes that way you get more money.

>>40411389
what're you a felon?

>>40410520 (OP)
me personally its less that nobody could ever love me and more that i wont let them

>>40411047
>>40411170
if either of you are her pls my brain is actually melting and was already mush to begin with. you say there is no reason for the hardship of our relationship to continue but there absolutely is in my eyes i’m prepared to give away everything for you while learning who i genuinely am not for you but for myself to have and then give to you and if not her idk your situation but pls just like experiment live in the moment be kind prioritize yourself and encourage them to do the same engage in closeness where you can and bond and blossom into whatever happens good luck

>>40411414
nope never did a crime in my life, not even a speeding ticket. I'm just canadian

>>40411430
Are you autistic? How do you fuck up an interview for Walmart or McDonalds?

>>40411448
yes I have autism it's high functioning but still pretty severe and noticeable. it's part of why I'm not lovable as well even though I'm very conventionally attractive. but I only got 1 interview even though my resume should be perfect and I got rejected. population where I live is much bigger than the amount of jobs here. Id have to drive minimum an hour to anywhere with jobs.

>>40411426
Hardship comes with life. It's nothing to be scared of, it's a learning experience to better yourself.
I do nothing but try to encourage this person and be a positive influence and voice in their life, but I still feel undeserving anyway.
They're everything I've ever wanted in a partner except their tendency to disengage completely from me of late.

>>40410520 (OP)
Meditation, reading about buddhism, knowing that even if no one loves me I still get to be a girl,

>>40410520 (OP)
>trannies how do you cope with knowing no one will ever love you?
That's not true, I love trannies. Well, ones that pass and have intact genitalia

>>40411481
i think just like complications that led to me more than kinda loosing it, and the state of us knowing each other just being very sad for the both us she doesn’t want to engage with me anymore which i get but she says our hardship is for no good reason and i think it is but im also the one in love and i don’t think she is with me so it is what it is but also i dont fully know bc i haven’t really talked about and whenever we do it ends in us not speaking for a bit.
it’s good you are so positive, why have they been disengaging?

>>40411469
Do you have anybody to coach you on your resume and how to do an interview? You can lie on your resume and have your friend or family member pretend to be an ex employer.

>>40410520 (OP)
dream about killing myself

>>40411520
yes I have gone to multiple job agencies like I said and they've done both, completely rewritten my resume I know all this advice and should've done well in the interview, the issue is this is the highest unemployment rate ever in Canada, specifically in my age range, and my area is one of the worst in the country for that.

I tried dating in highschool and to be the guy. I kissed a girl and her dog vomited in my car and I dropped her off and ghosted her. I felt nothing inside and had to clean vomit. The next date I went on was six years later after I transitioned. We broke up but I’m trying to find more people to date. Middle of Texas and yet I got a date on Sunday. It’s not over. I wont give up

>>40410520 (OP)
drugs, alcohol, and bad sex.

>>40410520 (OP)
watch fight videos and dream about being a girl or at least trutrans

>>40411514
How do you know she doesn't? Has she said so explicitly?
Hardship always has a reason, even if it's escoteric and hard to understand.
Love is a weird thing to quantify, there's a gradient of it that spans an ocean.
No two people will ever perfectly align along that gradient, maybe she's just lower on the gradient than you are or maybe you reached the gradient before her and she's catching up? Who's to say without having given it time.

They said they were stressing about things in their life that have made them feel worn out and needing to disengage from the world as a whole. I'm just a little peeved they couldn't at least just warn me ahead of time and say they needed some alone time instead of leaving me wondering.

>>40411536
do they have anything like welfare in canada?

>>40410520 (OP)
my family loves me, I have a few friends, and I've been married for more than 4 years.

>>40411721
I'm on disability bennies. It's how I pay for my car and go on dates.

>>40411621
that is beautiful anon lol i’m like an emotional wreck still im crying over it, but pls don’t get my hopes up. i’ve been very crazy and, done so much wrong. i haven’t directly asked bc it seems rude to even imply she might still like me let alone love me or that the fact she ever liked me begins to justify how much of a wreck i have been about her. i really like what u said thank you im going to try and remember it, but she has me blocked now bc we were just dragging out a relationship that caused unnecessary damage to both of us in her words. idk what will happen it’s been all over the place the last month. i plan on just letting things calm for a few months and, for me to have to be reasonable and for her to be able to talk about anything with me that she isn’t so upset about that she can’t. rn it like anxious and avoidant attachment styles at odds which is cringe, but yeah i just need to give her time. i hope something happens and i don’t want to move and honestly hope i never do. i hope she reaches out again honestly not to soon bc i know i can’t be reasonable rn. i’ll lovebomb/be crazy and not be myself. i really haven’t been myself the past month and i hope she doesn’t remember for that but i have been so much idk how she could remember anything else.

i’m sorry they left you wondering. i wish i was communicated with more also in my situation too. do you get anxious attachment too?

>>40411803
what motivates someone to be so heartless they see someone complaining about their loneliness and they decided to brag to them. you people are monsters

>>40411861
hm?

>>40411871
you see someone complaining about how lonely they are and you decide to make the thread all about how you're so in love with people essentially bragging about how you have something they can never have. you're a monster

>>40410520 (OP)
I did love a trans girl, and I'm sorry I hurt her.

>>40411803
I'm sorry if I'm getting your hopes up falsely but you never know until you ask. And there's no harm in asking, sure you might not get the answer you wanted but you at least will have an answer and a path forward one way or another. Even if it causes sadness you'll be able to have closure and the opportunity to move on.
If she blocked you then I'd say just move on for now, unless she decides to return and change things then it's time for you to move on unfortunately.
Maybe give it a few weeks to a month at most, but don't spend that time pining over her if you can. Live your life and focus on yourself for now because you matter more than her for the time being because she is ostensibly non existent for you right now.

Anxious attachment? As in when I get attached I'm constantly anxious about it or anxious that an attachment could form?

>>40411881
having unreciprocated love?

>>40411881
you are responding to the wrong anon

>>40411935
having any love ever

>>40411946
I just didn't read their wall of text. this whole reply chain started with them talking about their new love and continued so I assumed it was the same

>>40411895
hmmm ig like insecure attachment? like worried when yr person is detached with you?
i never want to move on desu i hope i can live fine without her wanting to talk to me and i think i can now or like be comfy with afterlife situation to move on from existence but i genuinely hope i never move on idc i dont want to know life as it is anyway and i dont want to see it without her idk if it takes away from every moment ik going forward thats a good thing idc

>>40411990
tbhon not desu*

>>40410520 (OP)
but somebody love me

>>40412002
I HATE YOU

>>40411496
kill yourself faggot

>>40411952
the person never loved me

>>40410520 (OP)
I love myself and that's enough. Also Yaoi

>>40410520 (OP)
I love how trannies always avatarfag with anime women and girls.

Even in your emo thread you have to larp with the “anime_girl_sad.gif” image lmao irl youre a hulking neck beard

>>40411990
In that case yeah, I get that a lot. I try not to let it affect me but I know it does to an extent.
I only suggest moving on as a way to ensure you're allowing your mental health to be healthy and not be bogged down waiting and pining over something that may or may not happen.

>>40412023
it's an image board anon do you know how those work? you tend to put related images or ones that fit the vibe. Are you stupid?
also avatar fagging is using an identifiable avatar consistently to post, not just using an image you like. maybe lurk moar

>>40412037
how do you not let it get to you?
my mental health is very bad in general unrelated to this. i had like i think limerence for the person i think thats finally going way. i still really dont want to be alive anyway and ik even once strong feelings go away i do not want to move on

>>40412046
It’s avatarfagging imo because they use anime girls as part of their larp. The implication is always that they identify with whatever anime woman theyre posting

>>40412096
not what avatar fagging is
lurk moar

>>40412078
I have life obligations to other people that require me to. Plus I have a habit of self reflecting all the time about things every day. And I'm weirdly super optimistic about things so even when I'm feeling really sad or depressed like now, I still have this feeling things will work out one way or another.
Life is ALWAYS worth living, to die is not just to end who you are now, it's to end everything you COULD become and I think that's a terrible terrible shame to take away. We, all of us have the potential to do good things. We can't all cure cancer but we can do good for others in our lives to help make this weird existence we got thrown into just that little bit better.

>>40412008
>kill yourself faggot

>>40410520 (OP)
Reasonably well, since that isn't true.

>>40412126
you sound based and like a good person. thank you for talking to me and ik with the knowledge i have and the way things are i don’t want to know the world the good i can do has been done and im worn too thin any relationship i have now is just a burden on whoever is unfortunate enough to hear my trauma dump or see the shitty wiring i have in my head. idk i have to go to bed anon good luck and pls do as much in the world sorry yoh have to pick up my slack