>>40414283Yeah....
I feel like I'm arrested in my development somewhere between like 16 and 19, like I'm stuck being perpetually a teenager because I missed out on milestones and it's impossible to catch up. Our rites of initiation into adulthood are much more subtle than those practiced by the tribes of the amazon and south east asia that likely resemble our own ancient forbears rites of passage, but they are no less impactful on our psychologies, and missing out on them in addition to already being genderfucked really does cut deeply I fear.
Like I am an adult, I have responsibilities, commitments, expectations but without the requisite development. But one cannot put back the clock.
>>40414223just to say again I'm sorry to everyone in this thread I should be nicer and the irony is I actually like enbies (when they're not just women being silly for a year in collage or performative guy with painted nails) I just wish I could join their club, but its not and will never be for me I guess idk sorry sorry sorry sorry