I dont understand how people can just transition. It's embarrassing and anxiety inducing. I had to detransition because it just made me feel ashamed about myself. How are people just confident enough to just live as trans especially if they dont even pass?

>>40426993 (OP)
extreme autism

>>40426993 (OP)
>detransition
Were you on HRT?

true, being overly self aware is a curse

>>40426993 (OP)
Non dysphorics need to shut up desu

>>40426993 (OP)
Having dysphoria bro.
You think I don't still hate myself? I just hate myself somewhat less now

>>40427083
You are a man in a dress.

>>40427015
Yes
>>40427063
You dont know anything about me so why dont you shut up
>>40427083
Ok but transition didn't help dysphoria. I would always be a man an nothing can ever change that

>>40427325
>Yes
Aside from the shame you experienced, did it help you feel better at all?

>>40427519
In some ways yes in others no. Hard to say why, and if it really truly had any effect that wasn't just placebo or self reflection or something.

bump

>>40426993 (OP)
the options were transition or kill myself in 5-10 years and i’d rather take the chance at life than a certain death. i boymode cause i don’t pass and have shame. those who honmode either lack shame, self-awareness, or have been through enough that they simply can’t care anymore

>>40429652
ty

>>40427325
If changing your body from testosterone to estrogen did not cause you to rather get shot than stop injecting estrogen, I hate to say it but you are not trans and do not experience dysphoria

>>40426993 (OP)
how is it embarrasing?
>>40430285
retard spotted. Not everyone is a fucking schizo who wants to kill themself

>>40430300
Retard alert. If testosterone isn't more distressing to you than "embarrassment" you literally do not have dysphoria. You are talking to someone with some self-hatred issues around being male, not someone with dysphoria. Like someone who got itchy is lecturing to people with missing limbs.

>>40430346
If your response to anything is killing yourself you literally do not have dysphoria you have schizophrenia or retardation or some other illness. Normal people don't kill themselves, dysphoria or otherwise

>>40430346
>If testosterone isn't more distressing to you than "embarrassment" you literally do not have dysphoria.
You don't have dysphoria because that's not how this works

>>40430364
I never said "kill yourself" you rapehon, I said get shot, and yes if you wouldn't rather get shot and go to the hospital than be permanently forced onto testosterone, you do not have dysphoria. And death can certainly preferable over living with dysphoria, this isn't schizo, people in pain kill themselves regularly. Retarded ass hon

>>40430387
Uh hello, it's exactly how dysphoria works. Pain over male traits and lacking female traits. If being off testosterone isn't an improvement for you you are quite literally not trans.

Paying a guy to remodel your groin ~$55,000 and the ensuing maintenance surgeries just sounds mental
Definitely not a scam by doctors to extort the mentally ill to achieve their "true self", no sir

>>40426993 (OP)
thats what boymoding is for
>>40430552
srs doesnt require maintenance surgeries, sometimes people go in for a revision surgery but thats out of the norm

>>40427137
and?

>>40430419
found the retard who found the board through kirbizia

>>40430439
Anon, you're not actually trans because that's not how dysphoria works.

>>40430776
Oh so tell me

>>40426993 (OP)
Is this punished Mef moder vevo live?

>>40430300
>how is it embarrasing?
idk it just is. literally nobody I have ever met has been supportive of trans people. people make fun of trans people all the time. people make fun of men that aren't masuline. nobody even supports gay people where I live. and if they ever found out you were gay they would look at you as some sort of freak

it didnt matter if estrogen and looking slightly more feminine but still just pretty much the same and still just a man made me feel better. it made it impossible to live because the anxiety was worse. i couldn't go out in public anymore.

>>40430364
can you get banned again

>>40426993 (OP)
It should be. You'll be another autist with a fetish crossdressing and sperging out. Get off this dinosaur hand nigger tranny board and do something with your life normal perhaps?

>>40427673
how long where you on hrt.

>>40426993 (OP)
i get it desu. im enbycoping at this point. trans friend wanted to help me get more clothes and i turned her down because i dont want to be seen as some fetishistic hon freak. i can live as is, no need to push the envelope. im 6'3 so theres no hope anyways, though im 3 years on hrt at this point.

>>40426993 (OP)
its not embarassing for me and im not ashamed in the least of who or what i am

i had no life and didnt even exist the way i was; i hid away alone in my dark room all of my adult life because i couldnt stand anyone seeing me as i was even though i could pass with no effort long before hrt just because ive always been feminine; but not having hrt i didnt have confidence to be myself; hrt hasnt even done that much for me physically i hate being flat still but my skin and hair is nicer and i got a little hips and emotional changes and it just made me finally wake up and start living my life; even though im disabled and can barely walk

now im happily married to my soulmate gigagorgeous wife and all of my greatest dearest dreams have come true

>>40433437
2.5 years

>>40431250
Ahh so it's misogynistic motivated transitioning, you thought being more masculine was the ultimate goal and couldnt achieve that so you went with what you thought would be "easier" which is becoming female or as feminine as you could, ypu don't need transition you need therapy and deratification

>>40430577
boymoding is only half transition tho :/

>>40435762
Nope. All my friends are women. I only really get along with women. I don't think women's lives are easier. It seems way harder. Being a man is literally life on easy mode. That's very cool that you want to pigeonhole me as some sterotype that you saw online somewhere but I'm actually a real person with their own thoughts and feelings and experiences and I'm not going to fit nicely into one of your preconceived boxes. I dont hate trans people I love and respect them and know how hard transition is. I transitioned because I wanted to be a woman, be more feminine, wished I could be a woman, but I could never really be one.

>>40436401
"All my friends are women" is the equivalent of saying all my friends are black, if you feel shame when you're in public that means you have subconscious bias regardless is you intend to or not, there's nothing shameful about choosing to do what you want with your body, we all have free will, we all shit, we all have things we're not happy about, but transitioning shouldn't bring so much discomfort in public of course unless you're projecting what you think about trans people onto others and assuming they think the same way about you.

>>40436588
It's not really projecting to say most people are transphobic. It's projecting to believe otherwise.

>>40436668
I disagree, if you take care of your self and you're not an insufferable person most people are indifferent or even more kind

>>40436751
>it's not transphobia hon you're just a bad person
You diagree because you came up with a convenient victim blamey excuse lol

>>40426993 (OP)
Because I'm just slightly mad. I was 16 in highschool and I just did it because I wanted to even tho I knew people would hate me even more than they already did for me being a femboy. I wasn't even sure if I was trans, NB, or a femboy trying to avoid getting ruined by T. I came out for HRT simple as a d let the haters hate me into even worse mental health.

>>40436783
It's lived experience, I'm trans lol, people are kind all the time, fewer people are rude that when I wasnt trans, if I behaved like Lilly Tino and didnt work on my voice or was built like a shit brick house then yeah im going to get mocked

>>40436808
lived experience aka your narcissism

>>40436820
Says the person whose image of them self is so grand that they daren't be judged in public for their own health choices

>>40436843
Except I'm a tranny. I volunteered to be judged in public for my own health choices and I didn't need to invent a fantasy where everyone is actually fine with it because I did it the right way or whatever

>>40436588
>"All my friends are women" is the equivalent of saying all my friends are black,
no the saying is people that say "i have a black friend". If all your friends were literally black you probably aren't racist towards black people

>>40436863
If all of your neighbors are black and you've made 2 of them your friends then all your friends are black, this doesn't stop you from being racist, and most guys have female friends nowadays it holds no water.

>>40436862
If people have a problem with it your fashion statements or literal statements are probably too loud, in general people don't give a fuck

>>40436907
Literally not true but whatever helps you sleep at night

>>40436898
ok

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