so why is there an entire board on this site dedicated to my little pony
>>40440663>worriedI've heard he's got 9.5 inches
Over for you, rip
>>40440663FF1 was alright. 7 is the only one I've finished (like, twice, I love it to death), wanted to give the whole series a proper run. 1 had much bettermusic than Dragon Warrior, another JRPG for the Famicom. I went for an all black belt/monk party. The multi-level cave segments annoyed me though. As for gay boyfriends - tush, they're not of my realm :/
>>40440676Told you x)
>>40440661 (OP)hey I made that first
I think
>>40440681You must be under like 24
>>40440712i offered and you said no. your loss
Peer pressured into sending nudes again..
I blocked him
>>40440739But you proved my point, which matters more than finding transitory companionship in an otherwise isolating world xp gotcha
>>40440712i think 5 is my favorite and one of my favorite games
>>40440734some of us arent educated enough for /lit/ and /his/
>>40440757you created a self fulfilling prophecy by throwing my love in my face
>>40440755did he send first
>>40440767his is a fucking shithole full of the dumbest people on this website lit is alright though
>>40440773Yeah. Bit odd to offer love to a faceless stranger though, non?
>>40440765Heard good things about the job system
>>40440767nvm i just checked those boards
its nothing but holocaust denial and mein kampf spam
>>40440773no
but every message starts with asking for nudes
I should sleep but I dont wanna
>>40440695>Over for you, ripNah I'd win
>>40440734Dont think I've ever visited bant before lol. Looks chaotic D:
>>40440755>peer pressuredhow?
>>40440794I remember maining /lit/ for a while. God I was autistic
>>40438471The guy on the bottom right is hot
>>40440794but debaser, you literally called israel the new nazi germany...
>>40440789why? i have a lot of love to give
>>40440802anyone who wants nudes should send theirs first
>>40440808And the rest of them aren't? :/
>>40440819I'm sure your brimming with love, anon, but there's no reason to think I'm deserving or worthy of it. S'pose I'm just sceptical
>>40440805The conversation endlessly revolves around me sending nudes
>>40440831Oh no, wrong you're. I'm mortified.
>>40440831most people are deserving of love but fine, be skeptical. that's your choice
>>40440847he's hot so yeah
>>40440849>MostWho do you deem undeserving of love?
>>40440837been there haha
>>40440851is that hasan piker?
>>40440805You should post lewd :p
i could impregnate all of you right now
>>40440855homophobes
conservatives
>>40440869>You should post lewd :pI shouldn't!
>>40440851his outfit is as blotchy as his skin is, those yummy Jimmy John's stains lol
>>40440876You would mog the thread cutey pop
>tops in bondage
Hot or cringe
>>40440881>he doesnt know lol
>>40440900everything you post is cringe
>reluctantly join dating app
>only gay for miles
I can't help but laugh
about to sleep....zzzzz
>>40440871you could try but I think that's as far as it's gonna go
>>40440888doubt
>>40440900god I love this video haha
>>40440917only gay in the village
dating men is a fail
give me an evil goth jew, she'll accept my no foreskin
>>40440939i had one call me handsome at the gas station the other day and it almost cured my gayness instantly
My quads are looking juicy recently makes me want to get them tattooed
>>40440935I know nothing about Kate Bush, aside from she was British and a singer during the 80s. But she was a cutie for sure. You don't see British women this alluring anymore.
>>40440950I was followed by black teenaged girls that asked me to take my shirt off recently, it made me gayer
>>40440821I don't know... There's just something about him specifically.
>>40440953I adore her energy and her music is great. Plus she just looks so cool
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1pMMIe4hb4
Always with the racist shite
>>40440971Trying to be relatable.
What does a healthy monogamous gay sex life look like?
>>40441046nightly poundings
ok enough I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight chat
>>40441046>What does a healthy monogamous gay sex life look like?idk :(
I ate and ate and ate I canโt stop eating
>>40441054followed by cuddling
>>40441046It gets better with every encounter. You learn each other
>gays
>monogamous
maybe back in the past
not now in 2025 when most of them are prison gay incels looking for easy sex
have you ever interacted with an agp irl?
>>40441104i'll cuddle you after a pounding
https://youtube.com/shorts/SPGNip1w4jo?si=uoJFf2ttYJzsDgnS
>>40441169Ya, he was a bratty obnoxious guy who thought crossdressing gave him the right to be rude to men, and this guy was same height and build as me, which is to say looking nothing like a woman.
>>40441169irl and here i have no idea what the fuck that is
>>40441195did he have a girly voice?
>>40441206no he had this annoying squeaky tone to his voice, like he was speaking in a higher tone than his natural voice. it was before i started posting on this board and had no idea what to make of him, he wore black every day and wanted to seem hip but he was an annoying faggot
>>40441199autogynephile a man who acts/dresses very femininely but doesn't read authentically feminine like a homosexual flamer would
>>40441169fucked a few, i avoid them like the plague now
>>40441266wait what
how did that come about
are their agps on grindr now?
*faints*
>>40441169i'm an agp male and i jist act like a regular guy irl. deep down inside i have a submissive fetish and think a little bit of force fem is hot, but not too much. my dream is to be mind-broken by a top so much that i no longer feel embarrassed for being a fem bottom. a man who actively encourages me to moan embrace my femininity, but still fully respects me as a man. as an equal.
I kinda hate being gay if i'm honest
I want kisses and hugging and frotting :3
>>40441199straight man troon = agp
>>40441296not in this life id rather be straight
>>40441314The thing is, there's only ever been 3-4 gay trannies on this board. The rest are AGP and will pretend to like men for money or other incentives besides a genuine attraction for men. They'll talk about wanting a fem male partner, being 'bi', dating cis women or trannies in the past, because none of them are actually gay males.
Have you guys made quiche?
Do I have to pre-bake the crust or bake it with the filling?
>>40441481you have to pre-bake the crust for ~ 15 min at 325F or possibly 20 until its mostly cooked but not brown at all yet - with beans or something else weighing it down - poke it with a fork, and foil between the crust and the beans (you can use sugar too)
why yt is so easily snookered by jews ?
Cant think of anything more pathetic than gigi tripfags, what a life
why the fuck do women want to tell me how their days been going? i only said 'how are you?' to be polite
>>40441481What a nice topic to arrive to. Tell me about your planned quiche. Will it have spinach?
>>40441491Lets assume you had a friend who was a retard at cooking. Would he be able to use a pre-made pie crust. I am asking for him, of course.
>>40441538I call that the "consequences of saying hello".
Its like when you are out and thinking about stuff and some stranger says hello like a dog that needs to sniff your ass to be feel like you arent going to attack it. Or maybe they are blind and need to ping you to range distance to avoid collision. Idk why tf people do it but you have to stop what you are thinking about to answer, (or glare) and it feels like they are prank-calling your attention for no reason at all.
If someone called you on the phone and said "hello" with nothing else to say and hung up, it would be criminal harassment deserving of the full penalty of law.
>>40441542>Would he be able to use a pre-made pie crust. I am asking for him, of course.don't do it
crust is easy
take 2 sticks of butter and cut them into smol cubes
add ~ 3 cups of flour (sifted please if possible but not strictly necessary) - you want to have enough room in the flour to absorb the greasy butter but not all flour or all butter - if your butter is greasy and not firm - put it in the fridge or freezer for 5-10 minutes
all you do is smash the butter cubes until they are as flat and elongated as possible and and covered in flour
the goal is to get your butter flake-shaped as well as covered in flour on all sides
once all the butter chunks are flattened and ensmallened - add a bit of sugar and salt - a few egg yolks - and water until it comes together in a ball (a bit less than you think you need - can always add more) and then chill in the freezer for 30-60 minutes before rolling out and initiating crust pre-bake
t. quichemaker since age 10
>>40441530Why does it bother you so much?
>>40441530people who think about gaygen tripfags
>>40441599because you have absolutely nothing going on in your life but wearing a nametag here and annoying others on the one anonymous site left and offering your crypto-fascist opinions nobody asked for
>>40441567tyvm I appreciate it. I sure love a good quiche but rarely get it. I wonder why its not more popular, as it is so tasty and nutritious, and a fine comfort food as well. (and how) I mean, its literally egg and cheese pie.
*sighs...
delicious, precious pie
We made bibimbap for dinner at the farm. Easily one of the best things weโve madeโcrazy good.
>be American in summer
>six weeks of fireworks
>>40441656Really need to try this now. Never made a quiche because baked eggs didn't sound appealing, but I think I'll give it a shot based on your recommendation.
>>404416620,0
I see (soft boiled?) egg, tomater, onion, sesame, carrot, some sort of sauce, what appears to be a flek of ham at one oclock, a corn kernal at seven oclock and what I think is browned beef. I think I might see mushroom at nine and eleven oclock too.
Iโve been having mind warping say gex with the same guy for a little over three weeks & itโs so easy and natural and kinky and like the first time every time. I leave physically and emotionally drained every time. I donโt feel grounded at all, as if Iโm no longer myself or my feet canโt touch the ground.
I hope it lasts forever.
https://youtu.be/MP0pUU6BfIU
>>40440661 (OP)I've never kissed a guy for long who didn't really mean it. Fuck me but long snogging sessions are way underrated.
>>40441619You sound tense.
>>40441701There are many varieties. I encourage you to explore, you are sure to find a favorite. I think its fair to say it has a custard vibe to it.
>>40441708I am glad you are happy, Dan.
<3
>>404417083 weeks! That's like being married 40 years in the gayed world
>>40441725you will only get custard vibes if you use a generous amount of CREAM
also fresh or dried thyme is nice
and the rest is just eggs beaten and some cheese - gruyere is best cheddar will do
and make sure to use an instant read thermometer the innermost custard should be ~ 180-185F
>>40441491I see. I'm reading Mastering the Art of French cooking and I skipped that part.
>>40441542Just a basic one with bacon and cheese.
Pie crust is kinda easy, I like Stella Parks recipe.
dan
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>>40441747you don't want to see that my dude
>>40441740Ty, I appreciate the enhanced guidance. People like me need all the help we can get.
>>40441705Sunny side up egg, homemade bibimbap sauce, pork with a seasoning I forget the name of that makes the outside pink/red, shiitake mushrooms, carrot, mungbean sprouts, zucchini, cucumber, rice, and ground lamb in my specialty sauce.
>>40441754>Pie crust is kinda easy, I like Stella Parks recipe.I feel like her recipe is just giving all the cubes of butter one quick finger-crush and then rolling it out and doing a fold like a book a la puff pastry - fine - I've made it - it's flaky and delicious - but its a bit more fussy than just making it in a bowl and smashing the butter to flakes fully with your fingers
Front
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>when they beg you to come inside
>>40441760it's his best feature
>>40441764What a treat. You are very blessed, Ida. I hope your recovery is continuing well.
<3
he's a butter face unfortunately
>>40441786Thank you! Iโm walking mostly normally now. I only have an athletic brace on these days and am mostly without any pain.
>>40441828Ik it smells like upstud in there
>>40441737Iโm happy and sad because I feel so vulnerable and tired but itโs just been a few years since I found somebody that can do that for me.
>>40441739Itโs not long and it has been a blur.
>>40441836What's up, stud?
>>40441806https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2KnUfP7-Io&list=RDMME2KnUfP7-Io&start_radio=1
What in the biboomer is this
I should be a vampire, and or have a vampire bf. That's what I should do..
>>40441760literally the worst look i have seen on a man
>>40441989I envy his confidence to post his images. But I'd rather not see them
>>40440900Nothing more unattractive then a sub top.
I'll be your agp husband
You can call me Mark
I'm in bed while you're out clubbin'
You'll keep me in the dark
Waow it's so romantic, feel like an A-lister
I'll look the other way when you flirt with my sister
pewpy dewpy
I need to stop going back to that demon app
>>40442025Is he Australian?
I was hyped but now im so nervous to go dancing. All the normie gays will see my autistic lack of moves and judgeee
>>40442107I'd rather get naked and streak than have to dance in front of ppl. Brewtal
the free enterprise of making guns
>>40442093I live in North Illinois.
>>40442227oh hai - but you have to be fem too (thats the catch)
I see fems irl and oti and they always look kinda retarded looking and it makes me sad
I saw one chad fem4fem couple irl this year and I was SO JEALOUS
>>40442235My first boyfriend lived in McHenry and my parents were horrified that I was dating him cuz he was working class.
>>40442123someone I'm talking to atm
asian buttholes are sideways
>>40442235feels doxxy uwu
>>40442321I'm a femgay and I cannot enjoy ASMR if its a male voice doing it unless its another femgay voice so 99% of what I watch is female voice ASMR I dunno why I am like this
>>40442336im cis im just effeminate
I wish I could enjoy male ASMR I just can't
ghostface isnt even funny
>>40442346I've never met a fem gay that didn't lust after straight guys and masc guys.
>>40442362I like other fem guys.
>>40442390sussy baka but u do u
gaygen hates confidence and happiness and it is profoundly sad
>>40442400What drink do you recommend partner? I'm looking to lose my inhibitions and do dances on the dance floor.
>>40442400crabs in a bucket
i just get tired of lazy spoiled white fuck boys after a while.
no follow-through.
>>40442416I have an awful sweet tooth so for me right now this summer itโs a pineapple upside down cake served in a glass, because itโs normally a shot, Smirnoff whipped cream vodka shaken with pineapple and and topped with grenadine.
scraping the plaque off dans big square neanderthal teeth with a trowel
>>40442499i like a nice old fashioned or a mule or a manhattan.
>>40442400I cant tell if that shirt is violet or if it is just the light. Its a beautiful pattern, and I hope it is also violet.
>>40442400to be fair: i'd fuck ya, but i wouldn't brag about it.
>>40442499Oh wow. Do you like strawberry shortcake? Its very popular this time of year also, and key lime pie.
>>40442557Itโs just the light. The fabric is really light and summery perfect for these sweltering Texas nights.
>>40442564W
>>40442565I like a strawberry cake with cream cheese frosting- idk if thatโs a strawberry shortcake, white coconut cake too. Never liked key lime pie.
>>40441952https://voca.ro/17116bdLVhd1
>not able to have sex to destress before visiting my dad
devastating
>order expensive shoes
>amazon accidentally sends me 2
>fuck yes
>they don't fit
>fml
>>40442683Return 1, resell the other #grindset
https://voca.ro/1ilrc4sAbWe1
>>40442680are you going to rape his cock dry
>>40442639i'd rather just jerk off in private at that point.
>almost midnight
>have to leave early tomorrow morning
>not sure if I should take a bath rn or just go to sleep and leave without having bathed for a day
bleh what do
>>40442720i always shower in the morning, but i don't alway wash my hair.
>>40442711no, I'm not a rapist
>>40442725you should be red flagged or something, you unironically seem like the kind of person to do a mass shooting
>>40442726I can never seem to get myself to bathe that early unless I've like gone for a bike ride or something first, baths are good for decompressing and it feels weird doing it first thing
>>40442696Good idea. Do you want to but some shoes? I give you a discount.
https://voca.ro/1ia3ilHaJi1U
what is tsucker rambling about tonight
>>40442748I have two shoe racks full, im alright...
>>40442740cold showers are to wake up.
hot showers are to decompress.
I think this bitch is flaking on dancing. Alright. What should i do? Steal from the grocery store and stress eat? Go to a bar and drink and stress eat?
my brother just came out to me that he's dating a puerto rican man 6 years older than him. how concerned should I be? I am a straight male asking for advice.
>>40442683what shoes are they
>>40442783play Beatles real love for him
>>40442614Its a fine shirt. Indeed great for the season and climate.
I think I was confusing drinks with desserts after I re-read what you said.
Strawberry shortcake is much different than the cake you described, though I have had it too and its good. I think most people like coconut cake. I like key lime pie but only once in a while, and it matters how its made.
Strawberry shortcake is just short cakes with strawberries and the juice they yield with milk or cream on top. I am sure you would like that. At least that is how its served around here. Some dont add milk. But here we pour it in till its soggy and practically like eating a bowl of cereal.
Now I have a craving for it, or strawberry ice cream.
>>40442788All I want is for him to be happy but I do not trust men.
>>40442783Is he the bottom? Gays are notoriously unstable sis.
>>40442779I don't like showers and cold baths hurt
I think I will bathe tonight though
my least favorite part of showers is bending over to rinse my hair or wash the back of my head bc it makes me feel like fainting
>>40442783only six years older? that's like nothing
https://voca.ro/1eo4LaJskxPb
I showered and applied antibacterial to my leg cyst and a bit of antifungal cream to my underballs so they become a bit less itchy
>>40442812>my least favorite part of showers is bending over to rinse my hair or wash the back of my head bc it makes me feel like faintingiktf and it sucks
>>40442811Idk, he's the smarter one, but growing up, I had to do everything.
>>4044282231 and 25 like wtf, that's a grown ass man. And a fucking puerto rican???
>>40442838yeah it's big part of why I just take baths, it's a lot easier to wash and rinse hair and your head that way
at least he's not chinese
>>40442812>>40442838put iron in your food
Years ago, I was chinese.
>>40442841when I was 26 I dated a 46 year old and when I was 28 I started seeing a 61 year old
31 and 25 isn't what I personally would go for as a 31 year old, bc I like guys older than me, but it doesn't seem that egregious
https://voca.ro/11JMbupTygWp
vocaroo poltard anon is the worst person in the gay community
wow this album is pretty good, i wonder what people online have to say abo-
>anthony fantano has a video review on it
i'm going to kill myself
Oye
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>>4044284125 IS A GROWN ASS MAN.
GOD
DAMMIT.
SONOFABITCH.
https://voca.ro/14ufbhYoEqFO
>>40442874You have no boundaries. You have only the claim of boundaries. In reality there is nothing you wont stoop to and you come here to perpetuate misery because you don't know how not to. You will never choose decency over some twisted thrill. And you can cause no consequences. Your entire larp is tiresome.
>>40442884he's just different
do you ever just feel like killing or hurting yourself because of cringe
need homogay fascist husband
>>40442953https://voca.ro/14OwowBLcPn3
>>40443026what happens when he is inevitably murdered via firing squad by his gov't?
>>40442988https://voca.ro/1aJ5vwsmjAZc
https://voca.ro/1i6LapvktP6T
>"waaaaah no one knows how great I am!"
>"waaaaah no one knows I spent time giving advice!"
>"I have so much empathy!"
>"I am such a great person!"
...
>"4chans a great place to meet teenagers."
>>40442871there's a difference between doing that and telling us about it like its normal
https://voca.ro/1fzDSgTugsMJ
https://www.newscientist.com/article/2488587-babies-made-using-three-peoples-dna-are-free-of-hereditary-disease/
https://voca.ro/1p5GRZ2GnmsT
i stopped listening to the vocaroo posts. the just give phishing vibes.
https://voca.ro/1bFygMAGUUiI
never listened to them in the first place tbqh
>>40443145it is pretty normal desu
https://voca.ro/17Br66CKpVpX
Met a guy on Grindr a week and a half ago. We've enjoyed our encounters and connect emotionally. He says he's exclusive with me now. Only issue is he's leaving the country in 7 weeks or so
>>40442404as a bi fem bottom i will only ever let a based femgay top me.
>>404432954chan sexuality
I make 6 figures, own a house, and have lots of money but I feel like I'll never be good enough to have a partner. Every gay guy might as well be a millionaire supermodel
>>40443307you can open grindr and prove yourself wrong instantly
i picked the scab on my foot and now it's bleeding
>visiting dad tomorrow
>weather is going to be in the 90s fahrenheit
>want to wear shorts
>don't want dad commenting on my scars or asking if any of them are fresh
I can't wear long pants bc it'll be too hot but I feel weird about my dad staring at my thighs and always asking about the scars when we've already discussed them, they're years and years old some over a decade
should I just wear a dress or a skirt or something I feel like even that might be preferable to doing the same thing over again
>>40443319I always get discouraged and close it or delete it
>>40443307https://voca.ro/1bQ19aFpbrbl
>>40443352this is the healthiest possible response to grindr, congratulations
https://voca.ro/1oSSo7Dt0fLx
>>40443350mtfg is two blocks down
>>40443371guys can crossdress retard
>>40443379those are trans women
>>40442315that's just askin' for it
>>40443350Its only natural to look and ask. Its a natural concern. They will always be there, so you do not have to be on defense. For whatever questions someone has, there is an answer, and you have time to make them as mutually comfortable as you like. Its as true in this case as it would be if it were an accident. Scars are stories and people ask to hear them.
Perhaps you feel on defense because you caused them and feel some embarrassment. While understandable, the time for that has to come to an end. That doesnt mean you pretend they arent there, it just means you can constantly be defending your past; no one can.
And perhaps it makes him unhappy, or angry or someone else who wishes to cause distress. But to be aware of it is the first step to refusing to let them do it. And as for your dad, perhaps he feels you do not appreciate how it makes him feel also and wants you to acknowledge it, and that might be a hard conversation that takes patience, and he might insist on more understanding than he is showing himself.
Still, this period has to come to an end. There has to be some point when the page has turned. Hopefully, together, you can both find your way there. Good luck, and stay cool.
i am owed a gay man who will cuddle and play vidyagaymes with me
>>40443366I don't know where to meet people as a guy in my 30s. I still feel like a loser compared to a lot of guys my age
After my dance date flaked I ended up walking around for an hour considering different places but every time i walked up i just got extremely aggravated by the normal people enjoying their life and left.
>>40443429https://voca.ro/1hLB0OR7GNcm
>>40443478I thought it was relatable honestly.
>>40443444pretty annoyed myself rn
Maybe that's why I don't move to a better city, because I don't want to be reminded of normal people.
>>40443444Im sorry. Any time someone ditches its a real let-down and its disrespectful. I know the feeling when a night goes off and it feels like you are just in the background, outside looking in. It takes resolve to just re-start in the middle of a night when you had other expectations and hopes.
But you can be proud you almost got there, most people would give up right away. At least you went to different places and had something to look at while you thought things over. So at least you were out and about and not at home pouting and being mad.
You are evolving, I think, growing, and thats a good thing. You will have more tough nights, but you are sure to have good ones too if you keep trying.
swearing off heathen bussy for good this time
i don't feel much at all these days
I wish I had normal, successful parents and not loser druggie parents. I'm so envious of people that had good parents who had money. I grew up poor and had to do everything myself to get to where I am. Meanwhile this one guy I know fucked up so many times but his rich parents gave him hundreds of thousands of dollars like nothing
>>40443532pious bussy pays back in dividends sis
took a tumbly wumbly down the embankment cuz couldn't see >.<
Pooners... not a fan of them
timur has a scabrous pussy
>>40443570I would patiently study him for years to figure out how to get his money.
>>40443616xanax is pure bliss for insomnia
>>40443532The carnal and corporeal hungers drive our physical bodies, like dumb beasts in the material world.
It is chaste purity where the mind rules and sees sensuality in a myriad of possibilities, across dimensions and universes.
An animal eats only what it finds. The chaste and pure know there is bounty everywhere, ripe and waiting to be plucked.
Good morning
>>40443591are you ok? Was it like super dark or something?
friend spotted me half a bar of street shit, not even a real prescription and i slept for 8 hours. I envy people with good healthcare that get treated like humans by their doctors, and can get a few Xanax or Vicodin when they need them.
>>40443629Good morning. You're sweet to ask. Yeah I'm fine just slid off some rocks and gravel being careless. It was pitch black and being a dummy i had my flashlight turned off
>>40443336waddup homeslice
>>40443624I hear that but it never had that effect on me, rather the opposite.
Oddly, certain beef fats put me right to sleep. It seems to have something to do with char. It seems to take a certain composition and the ability to be charred. I dont know what the chemistry is though. I know its specific though, not all beef fats or preparations.
>>40443643all good brotherman
>>40443660I'll trade you beef fat for your xannie script*.* every time i could get real xanax it put me to sleep within 1 hr. it's a beauty for insomnia.
I have never heard of beef fat putting people to sleep.
You're a 30something, socially awkward, shy, below average looking virgin walking into a gay bar for the first time. What do you do?
I'm thinking about becoming a god.
Its not as hard as some people think. You can actually pretty much ignore everything and everyone.
>>40443670I'm starting to think you were right about Pirate Software, except he's gonna kill his friends/family too before he gets to himself.
>>40443679Turn around
Leave
Go to the gym
Every gay bar I've been to was nothing but fat beaners and drag queens
40443591
no one cares trannysucker
>>40443679order a large fry and big nugget combo
>>40443686what did shiza say about him?
>>40443677I slept on xanax but it was nothing special. The difference was that I felt rested and super alert the next day. It didn't make me drowsy though, maybe a bit stupid until I slept. I got quite a tolerance though and it legit fucked with my short term memory in a serious way.
I would abuse it and end up "quantum leaping" from place to place, and getting messages returned from calls I had no memory (or intention) of making. I would be in one place, and then "zap", the next thing I know I am somewhere else at a different time with no memory of anything between. It was fun but quite bizarre and sort of terrifying at that moment.
I am sure there is some explanation for the beef fat sedation. I assumed it had something to do with trans fats since charring seemed to be important, and there are many types of fats. My guess is it triggers some hormonal reaction. Lots of people get sleepy after eating, but certain beef fats knock me out.
>>40443714That he's gonna kill himself soon in a fit of narcissistic insanity.
>>40443679Making me anxious just thinking about it
>>40443682go girl
I wish crying helped grief go away.
>>40443679In that case I would be a whore. But I wouldn't go near gays to do it. I don't want diseases. I would instead find a drunk guy who got dumped by gf and console him until we got to the closer.
>>40443697Is every guy at a gym supposed to be gay? Because it's been the opposite in my experience
>>40443686i actually changed my mind on that because i didnt take the ferret shelter into account and i compared it to the fox lady who killed herself and i think it takes a bpd foid brain to kill yourself with that vocation hanging over your head
also he has a very fortified stronghold of mind and basically sees himself as a victim and does like a whole heroic contrarian narrative and i think all this just pushes the ceiling on his ego
>Patients with mental disorders that experience grandiose delusions have been found to have a lower risk of having suicidal thoughts and attempts.
>>40443757Oh god the ferrets... I completely forgot about the ferrets... he's not gonna kill his friends or family as he doesn't have those, he's gonna kill the ferrets.
Are ferrets vegetarian or no?
>>40443747crying makes it feel better. Staying busy and hanging out with other people and stuff might make you forget it for a while which is nice too
>>40443754my friend that frequents the gym keeps bothering me to go cuz he claims he ends up talking to hot guys there all the time some of which he thought was gay. (he's straight and retarded tho so idk)
>>40443747Theres not much love or hugs that can make it through the internet, but I am sending what I got.
<3
>>40443797If ferrets are anything in the wild like minks, sables and martens, then they are actually small but vicious predators. Weasels too.
>>40443641all i see female legs
A passing rain. Good sleeping weather at last ^^
I think a good way to improve at anything really is to keep your self-esteem permanently low, so you never feel the need to stop improving!
>>40443852That is not a "low" self esteem, but rather humility. It just means you do not exaggerate your sense of control or relevance in the world around you.
By comparison, a low self esteem can still be egoist and is active self debasing. It would make it harder to improve because you would never recognize the improvement as real or relevant in preference of maintaining the low self image, if the self image we deeply entrenched.
Nonetheless, someone with low self esteem would be encouraged to continue to build improvement, just so there is something there to potentially recognize when recovery becomes possible.
My self-esteem is at 0 and never goes up
My phone just wished me happy birthday but it's like several months away...
>>40443826>small but vicious predatorsjust like me fr fr
>>40443893Man I need some pasta so bad. I would easily pick pasta over sex rn. Pasta vs coke, I would have to think about.
>>40443902r u cute?
I'm the best pasta maker i know
>>40443896I learned that I have conditioned myself to be miserable which is similar. That means no hope, no trust, no faith and the certainty that everything can only get worse.
I apparently adapted this way to avoid the shocks of disappointment or crushing disaster, which I experienced more than once, frequently and early.
My body learned, that is emotionally, that this state is easier to handle (or it perceives it that way) than the shocks, so its a pre-emptive anti-despair measure by constantly issuing small doses of it.
I learned the body, the emotions, can handle a little unhappiness all the time. What is traumatic is the swift and sudden emotional and intellectual upheaval of rebuilding reality or imagined hopes when something out of control crashes. Its not the unhappiness, its the sudden transition into it. That transition is where the pain actually is, when your visions or faith is being broken. Once you accept it, the pain essentially ends.
I dont know if this is specifically innate to my biology or if its the result of repeated damage. Probably a bit of both. Its odd being aware of it and trying to imagine if it I could change it, or should, and still feeling I could not. I would have to essentially be re-programmed emotionally at the level of a developing child, and I dont think thats possible without literal brainwashing which has to be performed externally. You cant think your way out of it because its how your thoughts work in the first place. Learned avoidance and the trigger associations are not easily retrained.