>>40441077
This anon is close but the truth is much worse. The truth is, you're a repressed tranny, and these girls represent the ultimate dream that is still permissible to fantasize about, since fantasizing about being a cis woman makes you feel like a sad pervert. Passoids are real but it seems too good to be true that a man can turn into that. So you can't get enough of them. Looking at them, talking to them, touching them, making love to them. It's the closest you will come to the closest you will come to the real prize which is being the girl.
But you also know that you can never achieve that, and so you repress the desire to be, because it, too, makes you feel like a sad pervert. You manipulate it into a more acceptable, "conventional" sexual attraction that you feel that you can live with, and tell others about, without shame.
