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el faggotini

I got bamboozled and responded to the other one. Now Im confused.

>>40442033
there are too many but if there's any mention of pregnancy or tits in the op it's the fake and gay one.
Anyway hide and ignore the posts of retarded spergs

>>40441987 (OP)
I broke down and scheduled an appointment to get hrt, I don't know if I'll have the balls to go or I'll keep coping

>>40442065
Would you just take it and continue to present as normal or full on poon out

I think my dysphoria is getting worse due to my period coming up.
Really I dont even want to be a man but I feel like the reason I dont want to be a man is that I cant be a man. I truly think I must have some type of intersex disorder due to how jarring puberty was, transgenderism wasnt mainstream I didnt know what it was, I didnt know about gay people either so there was no outside influence making me feel lost and confused, I was just always like that. I naturally felt like I was gonna become one of the men, and when I did I felt like I will suddenly become a woman- as if everything about me was gonna change.

I dont want to say "oh I act like a man" because I dont, and yet compared to other pooners, what even is "acting like a man"? I act like a man compared to the average pooner at least, everything from my interests, hobbies, and attitude. I am more masculine than the average pooner to the point even when I did ID as trans, I was excluded from them for being too much of an actual man.

SO why do I have to be in the body I am in. I love being a woman yet women dont treat me like a woman, neither do men, unless its to talk down to me. Ive always been treated as some third gender.
Having all this happen but also not being raised around women much really fucks you up lol Its like having female friends feels like a pipedream. It feels like its something Ill never have. I just want to be with female friends similar to me, I feel like that would fix me.
>>40442065
>>40442152
I feel like even if you go on HRT you should rep. Treat it as if you were taking a steroid, see how it feels ig.

>>40442197
>, and when I did I felt like I will suddenly become a woman- as if everything about me was gonna change.
I mean "when I didnt", whoops

>>40441987 (OP)
Nice picrel

>>40442197
if you let men plap u when u ovulate you wouldn't have those pesky periods

>>40442197
Every time my period is around the corner I get more dysphoric desu

Don't argue with spammers because there is nothing more to say. They say the same things repeatedly. Hide the replies and ignore them. There are two other threads if you want to repeatedly argue with men.

i'm a tranny about to start estrogen injections
how does it feel knowing that i'm throwing away what all of you so desperately wish you were born with? does every tranny injection feel like a stsb to your soul?

I unironically avoid posting here while I'm menstruating. Anyone else?

>>40442225
I ignore amabs completely in femrepgen. I think they start to samefag when they notice their bait didn't work on femreppers.

>>40442228
lol fuck no, I could care less about what some bio male does.
But when it comes to pooners however... THAT stabs my soul, especially if shes attractive yet after pooning is a neverpasser. Waste of beauty, I couldve fixed her. And yet even if she became a passoid, it still hurts because its like she was genetically blessed.
But usually its the AAP yaoi feminist passoids that ground my gears. The most fembrained female to ever female yet gets to live their life looking like a male, even though they are most likely to depoon.

>>40442228
>how does it feel knowing that i'm throwing away what all of you so desperately wish you were born with?
i feel nothing. thats your life, waste it on being an ugly parody of a woman if you want to. those shoulders and hips arent changing anytime soon
>does every tranny injection feel like a stsb to your soul?
no not really

>>40442229
Why? Im currently on it actually, it used to get worse around this time but how terrible the physical pain and emotional turmoil is seems to be random for me at least.
>>40442245
Probably. I think all of the actual posters here should just try to ignore the posts instead of trying to reply for them whether it's for lulz or genuinely being baited because actually trying to converse with them isn't helping.

>>40442266
I can't type. ignore the spammers instead of replying to them*
whether as a joke or because you think theyre serious. If they're telling you to get pregnant it's bait, if they mention wombs it's bait, if they start saying something woman hating it's bait, etc. they speak like bots.

There are four femrep general threads up there's bo fucking way there's that many of you, you all male schizos

>>40442266
>how terrible the physical pain and emotional turmoil is seems to be random for me at least.
Samee.
What do you people do when it comes to being horny? I don't get horny except around this time and yet Im a stupid dyke with no ability to find other dykes atm.

you guys have like four threads

How many of you are into butt stuff? my girlfriend ( cis ) keeps nagging me ( mrepper ) to eat it out and fuck her ass but I just don't have the will for it, grosses me out. Do women have a secret zone in there im not aware of cause i dont get why she wants it that bad.

>>40442295
>>40442329
Get the jannies to delete the other two.

>>40442358
>women
>support censorship
not very malebrained of you

>>40442329
we should have more

>>40442355
>Do women have a secret zone in there im not aware of cause i dont get why she wants it that bad.
nah we dont. anal sex is generally unpleasurable for women. i think shes just trying to please you because males tend to like anal sex and womens asses. or maybe shes deranged and masochistic

>>40442426
every time ive stuck my cock in a womans butt they have loved it way more than i did

>>40442442
sure

>>40442488
I wish I was kidding.

>>40442426
>maybe shes deranged and masochistic
shes certainly a little bit loopy, ty for confirming my thought though. Shes way more pushy about sex than I am so it probably is her trying to pry what I'm into. I like her small butt but thats the extent of it for me, lore of a leg enjoyer.

>>40442355
lol ur dating a repper. while there are women who enjoy anal... women who enjoy rimming? none. the only ones who do are androphilic reppers who wish they were gay men

k but why would male and female repper relationship be bad?

>>40442624
she isn't the first girlfriend I've had ask to rim them but I'm kinda wondering now lol, she knows I used to be trans and I sometimes see those tiktok flamers on her phone

>>40442628
feed into each other’s dysphoria

These threads are always the most batshit insane threads on the website and that's saying something

>>40442852
Like these most recent ones or all of them?

conquering femrepper pussy and convincing them to do piv with u

>>40442900
all of them

>>40442947
I'm sure there are more insane things on this website elsewhere

>>40442958
how tight is your snatch?

>>40442852
? these are usually chill and slow

>>40442496
whatever makes you sleep at night. women dont have any erogenous zones in the anus

>>40442852
whats so batshit about them

Be honest, have you ever benched more than 125lb?

>>40443031
I mean, I have no idea what was really going on, but this happened twice, and both of them claimed to love it and be multi-orgasmic. I do have kinda a big dick, but I was high on drugs and really not digging the experience at all. But they were both acting like it was sooooo good. It was weird.
>women dont have any erogenous zones in the anus
im pretty sure women have a homologous gland to the prostate

bugs keep falling out of my hair

>>40443121
Why? Are you rotting?

what's y'alls type

>>40443121
I got lice one time the only time I went on a plane as a kid, guess I was unlucky

>>40443110
>and both of them claimed to love it and be multi-orgasmic
women lie about orgasming or liking sex all of the time to appease their straight moids. like are you new
>im pretty sure women have a homologous gland to the prostate
doesnt have the same sensation as a male prostate. if it did women would initiate anal more but most of the butt stuff is initiated by males

>>40443135
>what's y'alls type
outdoorsy
scruffy - not clean cut or upper crust or pretentious
can hold a long interesting conversation
likes stuff for him - not just what's popular but isn't toooooo obsessive about it
open to compromise
has lots of ideas
not a computer nerd - cannot like anime - dealbreaker
fagcented

>>40443158
im obviously gay (fagcented)
I forget whose idea it was in one case but it was kind a haha im gay lets do anal and both were really into the idea and one claimed to orgasm 5 times
Also I try to not make it painful im kinda gentle

>>40443166
>likes stuff for him
>except he can't like things i don't like

why are you pretzel brained like this

>>40443135
>what's y'alls type
Fictional

>>40443131
drugstore beetle infestation. they keep crawling on me and getting into my hair. i like catching and crushing them between my fingers
>>40443135
>what's y'alls type
hard to describe. i think i have multilple consistent types of moids an aap skinwalker element to my attraction, i cannot find a man hot if i dont want to look like him.

Can I get a femrepper gf if I'm a skinny nerd like picrel

>>40443188
>i cannot find a man hot if i dont want to look like him
same, albeit it might be creepy if i tried to clone myself to a guy

>>40443197
thanks to paul dano a lot of internet brained women have a fetish for your phenotype, so yes
>>40443201
>albeit it might be creepy if i tried to clone myself to a guy
used to have fanatsies where i become arleady existing moids. like i infiltrate their brain and become them but not in a bodycatcher way. like i absorb their mind i become them

>>40443180
I don't want someone who only allows themselves to like what's popular.

>>40443220
god forbid your boyfriend may want to watch princess princess, thats too popular of a show

>>40443135
metrosexual male manipulators
bonus points if they’re fat… mmmm…

>>40443316
I'm a male manipulator but not fat

>>40443331
get fat

>>40443314
sounds like tranime - I would stay far away
I want someone who wants to go out and explore
I don't care much for sitting in and watching shows

>>40443331
get fat x2

i oddly feel very bpd tonight

I wish I was a gynephile so I could have a girlfriend

>>40443798
You are a girlfriend

>>40442426
>nah we dont.
speak for yourself, i love anal

>>40444088
you can love it but its true that we dont have any eregoneous zones in it

>>40444691
depends on your definition of an erogenous zone. i have no problem cumming from anal.

>>40444919
I know for some people I can push against the vagina wall because it’s right next door. I’m into kinky shit, but I never want to try anal. Exit only. I’ve watched a guy be fisted irl though.

>>40444933
>can push against the vagina wall
i have zero feeling in my v****a, for better or worse
>watched a guy be fisted irl
hot. was it at some kind of sex club?

>>40444942
I would eat you out anyway anon just for the smell of it. Yeah it was in a dungeon in Arkansas. I’m thinking about going to dungeons again. Idk if I want to be chill and mostly a voyeur or get into dominatrix stuff.

What are the best sexual strategies for convincing ftm reppers to let you stick your penis in their vagina?

>>40444993
take estrogen for at least 2 years

Would you voluntarily join if I created a breeding factory for autistic women? You know how Elon Musk has 30 autistic kids? All male? We are gonna fight back by making as many female-selected autistic kids as possible. Who is with me?

>>40445034
>All male
1) memorize your kids' names and genders already
2) grimes never loved you

>>40445043
>worrying about what some tattooed washed up art hoe thinks when I could have a veritable armada of highly evolved neurodivergent incubator-females at my BECK AND CALL to produce a new army of neurologically sophisticated next-gen femwarriors.

>>40445049
elon please
you even suck at video games
your genes are bottom tier

post your pussies ladies

>>40445072
is this a forcemasc psyop

your body holds the miracle of life

what in the holy tumblr is going on here?

>>40442197
>dysphoria is getting worse due to my period coming up.
That sucks

>Really I dont even want to be a man but I feel like the reason I dont want to be a man is that I cant be a man.
I wonder the same thing

>I didnt know about gay people either so…
Oh me too. I was super sheltered, but still knew I was gay and didn’t have a word for it.

>I naturally felt like I was gonna become one of the men
Yeah. Now I just feel failed male.

>I act like a man compared to the average pooner at least
Not a high bar. The most fem people I’ve ever met in my life poon out.

>I am more masculine than the average pooner to the point even when I did ID as trans, I was excluded from them for being too much of an actual man.
Me irl right now without even pooning out.

> I just want to be with female friends similar to me, I feel like that would fix me.
Same :(

>>40443188
Diatomaceous earth. Treat it like a salt demon circle for your home.

>>40445514
No i like them

>>40444940
>>40444961
>>40444989
pussy clench

>>40445533
You remind me of this girl in a weird free lesbian indie game that lives underground and wants you to abandon society to live with her and her rats. There are bugs too. I have a crush on her. The game is called Don’t Bury Me Alive Beautiful

>>40445583
Yeah :) yeah
I love these two

Death Stranding is triggering my aap hard desu, this doesn't usually happen with video game men but I can't put my finger on whats different this time

>>40445653

>>40445669
AND I NEED TO FUCK HIGGS BUT AS SAM !! FUCK !

>>40445653
You actually enjoy that dog shit game? how

>>40445740

>>40445609
:3 these two though

>>40445740
I love delivering packages i don't know what else to say, story and cutscenes are great too. I enjoy the like humor of trying to deliver quesadillas in 8 minutes or less in an apocalyptic scenario and there's bandit camps i have to run through who will try to steal my quesdillas and mummified chupacabra
Honestly the second game reminds me A LOT of mgsv which was a game I also really enjoyed. You can rescue animals and tranq gun people too

>>40445252
Horny girls need their fujo porn and get them vulvas squelchin

Why did AFABs contributed literally nothing to society thru the course of history? Like, you're only good for getting pregnant.

>>40445597
This is unironically peak femrepper performance. I only feel fine with being perceived as a female if people think that Im one of those weird insane hermit women

>>40445833
why are so many of you leaking from pol right now

>>40446026
there are no humans on pol, only bots and indians. my bet is r9k. too much time on his hands too, which means he is a miserable loser. probably psychotic, full moon or something.

Good morning fellow goons

>>40445310
No clue what happened while i was asleep but I'm not upset

Is anyone over 30 or older? I have a feeling most people here are young, older ones pooned out or roped.

>>40446951
Celebrated my 30th birthday this month. Of course I have achieved nothing in the 3 decades.

>>40446951
>>40446996
celebrated my 29th this month, I achieved not being in debt like every other millennial at least

>>40441987 (OP)
neeed a fem repper bf to force masc. you will be doing work on my car and getting insanely jacked

>>40447322
>not being in debt
Debts are not even common where I'm at because education is almost free. Damn.

Any femrepper that (doesn't) want to troon out exclusively because of trauma, instead of having autism?

>>40445804
I never thought of it before, but I’m listening. Hiei Does get a rather romantic hookup in canon which frees Kurama up.

>>40445956
The other love interest in the game is a butch which I guess is also kinda femreppper coded. I get what you mean though. I was thinking about dressing more goth like I did when I was younger because it’s the only form of femininity I’ve felt ok with.

>>40446026
I think it’s the s-o-y-j-a-c-k-p-a-r-t-y ppl. You can’t say their name here.

>>40446141
Post more plz

>>40446654
You’re welcome

>>40446951
I’m 30

>>40446996
My twin

>>40447322
Honestly not being in debt is a huge accomplishment at this age. It’s literally the only thing I have going for me.

>>40446654
I’m assuming you’re the chad femrepper that on T or the strait who wants to turn into a lesbian. If the 2nd I will find you irl and turn you into a lesbian. Wait for me.

tfw you'll never be princess carried by a femrepper

>>40447676
correct. i'm weak as fuck.

>40416631
You’re always very tasteful : ) Were you also the one that watched Steven Universe lately? It was inspiring me to rewatch it. I like to throw on something and lift weights in front of the tv. Do you have any characters you relate to in Steven Universe?

>40416597
I will try this thank you. Kinda what I’ve been doing subconsciously as I’m more tomboy/futch than butch because I want other women to find me attractive. My fear with butches is that they’ll poon out, but at least with ftm you’re no longer visibly queer which makes life where I live a bit easier.

Idk why the lack of sex/relationship is bugging me so much lately or why I’ve craved the touch of another woman like some deep hunger coming out from the pit of my soul. I used to be fine and utterly happy being single. And I know that I’ll not just want anyone or anybody, but someone I actually connect with.

>>40447710
I can carry guys twice my size and pick people up in hugs often just to throw them off.

>>40445714
I believe in your dreams

>>40447710
hit the gym, i need that princess carry

Did anyone else ~30 follow this path
>on 4chan before /lgbt
>left for greener pastures
>now back here posting again

I think 90% of my dysphoria comes from not being big. I wish I was a little bit taller, I wish I was a baller…

>>40448216
No, it was twitter > reddit > 4chan for me

>>40446996
At least you haven't killed yourself, that's pretty impressive for someone living with dysphoria.

>>40447793
>Were you also the one that watched Steven Universe lately?
Yes, i am very obsessed right now
>It was inspiring me to rewatch it.
I hope you enjoy/are enjoying it just as much as the first time. If you're the one who asked me which part was my favorite I don't think I asked in return, which part do you like the most? I still love pearl but I'm appreciating rose alot more after rewatching the episodes with her in it, their relationship is really cute but extremely sad.
>I like to throw on something and lift weights in front of the tv.
Same but I need to start working out again... I've just been spending hours walking and listening to music lol
>Do you have any characters you relate to in Steven Universe?
Pearl again. I relate alot to the pearls in general because of their whole servitude thing. Pearl is alot better than me though because if the person I dedicated my life to chose to have a baby with a homeless rockstar instead I probably would've smashed my head into a wall.

Is being able to girlmode on T a meme or not

>>40449612
if butch no, if anything else yes

>>40442295
It's males creating bait threads.

>>40442628
Double suicide caused by jealousy

if you are mentally a boy, then do you guys also have a feet fetish

>>40449612
I'm technically doing that but most people assume I'm male these days. Although I'm butch, taller than most woman and gymcoping so I was already being he/him'd pre T. Depending on genetics and presentation I would say it's entirely possible.

>>40442852
>These threads are always the most batshit insane on the website because males are shit posting
Yeah that's saying something about moids.

>>40450595
I do have one but I'm still mentally a woman.

>>40443121
I got lice as kid, then again at 15, it was fucking terrible.

>>40450613
you are so lucky because you can have girly sleepovers and innocently massage feet

>>40443135
>what's y'alls type
Fictional.

>>40443316
>Fat
Gross. Men shouldn't be fat.

>>40450588
how depressed am i that a moidrepper and femrepper double suicide sounds quite romantic?

>>40444993
Non existent

>>40445146
>your body holds the miracle of life
Unironically trvke.

>>40445171
He's so beautiful.

>>40446951
I'm 19

>>40450623
I'm a giant bulldyke and straight woman have always avoided me like the plague. GIW they had invited me to sleepovers, I've fantasized about it so much.

>>40443135
I like petite woman at least 4 inches shorter than me, asian or white is my preference but I don't discriminate desu. My only 2 real dealbreakers is being fat and not being a gold star lesbians.

>>40450700
can you girlmode to straightpass
If you are not gonna poon out, you might as well use your feminine features as an advantage

>>40450647
It's romantic in really fucked up way desu

>>40450700
>I'm a giant bulldyke and straight woman have always avoided me like the plague
False, I used to have sleepovers with butch dykes as a straight woman we would fuck all night.

>>40450700
>im a giant bulldyke
would you befriend a flaming efem gay man?

>>40450711
I've tried being more fem but I just come off as autistic, I've been accused of enough sexual harassment as it is. Also I'm butch on T modding now.
>>40450723
Where where you during my teenage years ? A straight girl letting me hit could've fixed me.
>>40450738
I already have a couple flamer friends, they are nice.

>>40450758
Why only during teenage years?

>>40445072
>>40445075
>>40445079
>>40445180
Crazy how "hot" males posted in this thread are almost always shit looking.

>>40450912
I try to not lust after straight/bi women anymore.

>>40445188
>>40445682
Like what the fuck is this shit
They're ugly.

>>40450936
You should it's easy

>>40450640
EVERYONE GET FAT NOW!!!

stopped repping started taking hrt
how do i avoid the cringe babytrans shit

>>40452065
you will never be a man

>>40452065
>Stopped repping
>>40437765

>>40447676
you can still dream nonny
>>40447807
same

>>40452065
Ywnbam
Sorry sis

Bump

>>40446951
I'm 31 and my femrepper butch ex was 37.
Older femreppers certainly exist, at-least when it comes to butches. Butches < 30 actually seem to be almost non-existent.
I cannot speak to androphile femreppers, but I assume most of them do just poon out young.
>>40449612
You can butchmax on hrt easy. It actually helps.
You can 'girlmode' on topical t.
But you cannot 'girlmode' on hrt for any serious length of time.
>>40452065
Avoid social transition and just butchmax.

>>40450627
>>40450936
Strait/college girls are my type, but I also want to sleep with masc women and people shorter than me a lot.

>having a fetish for straight woman makes me spiritually male

>>40452065
By not hanging out with other trans people. Just assimilate in as male when you grow facial hair. Loose as much of the estrogenized-women-fat on T and body build go over to /fit till boobs are near gone then let keyhole too surgery to avoid stupid looking scares and have passing chest. Your goal is to live as a man not live as a trans man and unironically don’t do it if you’re just gonna be a fat fuck and not lose the female fat deposits.

*then get keyhole surgery to avoid

*scars

Damn I didn’t think I was that drunk

bought a masculine smelling deodorant as a cope but now i just become deeply depressed whenever i smell it on myself

>>40454345
It makes me insanely dykebrained actually. Being obsessed with straight women just means our brains are fembrained in a lesbo creep way.

>>40454547
I think that was just a moid shit posting. Having a type is just having a type. It’s not that deep.

While I think college/strait describes what I’m talking about I also think sorority girl fits. See pic. How would you describe this type of women?

Also I low key think I just gained an attraction to stone butches over time because of the amazing sex.

>femrepper
stupid
>poonreppers and troonreppers
Ideal includes a slur

>>40454523
If it makes you feel any better, it probably makes much more appealing.
Assuming you are a gynephile.
>>40454610
Stone butches are amazing and deserve more love.

>FTF
Unlike FTMTFs they are not stupid

>/YWNBAMG/ You Will Never Be A Man General
What if we changed the thread name to this? It’s not repressing it’s accepting reality.

I'm gonna become a wizard next year!!!! OwO

shouldve starved myself when i was 8 to never grow tits

>>40447486
>No answer here either

>>40455055
but then you'd be 4'9"

Every time I think I’m getting normal I end up back in this damn thread

>>40454679
If I'm trying this hard not to poon I don't want to be called a pooner anyway

>>40454523
Nigga wtf is a masculine deodorant, get some cologne on

>hate the idea of wearing feminine clothes in 99% of contexts
>like the idea of wearing them while in a kig
why? though I've never done kig shit, the masks that actually look good are too expensive and it would most likely just make me dysphoric anyways

>>40447486
For me its both. Autism by default making me stand out amongst girls (hated femminine clothes due to sensory issues, had weird special interests that collided with traditional femmininity, wasn't emotionally intelligent or interested in gossiping about boys) + trauma from being bullied and beaten by guys in my class that made me associate being a girl with weakness and being physically abused and being a male as someone whos socially dominant and can do whatever the fuck he wants without consequences (none of the guys who targeted me ever got suspended or anything. and it wasnt just getting slapped once or twice, there was blood, but nobody cared about the weird annoying kid who barely managed to pass her classes)

>>40441987 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40447486
For me its both. Autism by default making me stand out amongst girls (hated femminine clothes due to sensory issues, had weird special interests that collided with traditional femmininity, wasn't emotionally intelligent or interested in gossiping about boys) + trauma from being bullied and beaten by guys in my class that made me associate being female with weakness and getting physically abused and being a male with being socially dominant and able to do whatever you want without any consequences (none of the guys who targeted me ever got suspended or anything. and it wasnt just me getting slapped once or twice, there was blood, but nobody cared about the weird annoying kid who barely managed to pass her classes)

>>40457053
Ill never be a man. Theres no point

grindr sucks I just wanna find a femrepper or ftm who’s into bottoming for short hairy dudes…fmll (fuck my latino life)

>>40457123
Did you actually expect to find a femrepper on grindr or am I misunderstanding

>>40457334
I have before

>>40457065
Damn, rough.
How about now though? Are the brainworms the only thing that bothers you? Or did that stuff give you a moody outlook on life?

>>40447486
I'm honestly not sure what you are asking

>>40457888
Yea I thought that was more bait

>>40457873
>How about now though? Are the brainworms the only thing that bothers you?
No I have many other problems unrelated to gender shit, but its still in my head to this day and still bothering me

>>40454855
Trvke
Repping is not real
That just means you're not delusional

>>40458057
are you cute

>>40458057
Reppers are in an unfortunate between state of being more delusional than the average but not delusional enough to enjoy it

>>40457888
>>40457978
I've heard that gender dysphoria can be caused by trauma.
/lgbt/ is filled with autistic trannies, I wondered if there are any nonas who are not autistic.
I phrased it poorly, but if I wrote "Any femrepper that want to troon out" it would be wrong, because no one wants to troon out here, but it would also be wrong to say "Any femrepper that doesn't want to troon out", because what kind of repper would you be in that case?
>>40457996
Sad for you, nona.
Sorry if I cut to the chase, but I asked my original question for a reason.
Reading Domestic Girlfriend made me wanna go back into writing.
I wanna write a novel, but I know that once I finish that manga I'll much probably drop the novel too.
The manga gave me the idea to write a relay novel (as a mean to not stop writing it halfway through), but I already started writing it, since no one answered me neither here nor on ftmg.
I needed someone who wasn't autistic and who wasn't a normie, because my plan was to write litfic.
That said, if you want, I've got another idea: you can write a page each day and I'll read it, and I write a page and you read it. We each write our own novel, but I think this way there will be still enough social pressure to be consistent.
If you are interested, we can decide on the nuts and bolts of it.

>>40442197
>I dont want to say "oh I act like a man" because I dont, and yet compared to other pooners, what even is "acting like a man"? I act like a man compared to the average pooner at least, everything from my interests, hobbies, and attitude.
I understand this to an extent. The concept of "womanhood" never resonated with me, but I don't think "feeling" like a man is really a thing either. So much of "womanhood" pertains to our biology like being nurturing and raising children. Those things aren't applicable to me because I was born with reproductive defects and am same sex attracted. I feel a lot of discomfort with those qualities being applied to me simply because I was born with a taint.
Long before I even knew about my infertility, pregnancy seemed like incomprehensible bodyhorror. I wanted nothing to do with it. In a lot of ways, the social exclusion that comes with being an infertile woman is akin to being a third gender or intersex. You're expected to "correct" it and live out the qualities that were imposed on to you as a woman. But it's such bullshit - I never signed up to be female, so WHY should I spend my life trying to live out a binary fantasy?
>>40457065
>hated femminine clothes due to sensory issues
Word. I still feel sick to my stomach when wearing feminine clothing. For me, I don't think the desire to troon is related to trauma. My first egg moment was when I was in kindergarten. Long before any major trauma happened. I told my teacher that I hated being a girl and she jokingly asked if I wanted a sex change operation. My knee jerk reaction was that I'll get that done when I'm older. I had no idea that was an option for people until she brought it up. But after years of repping, I fear that attempting to transition would only lead me to hyperfixate on passing and become even more critical of myself. I admit that non-passoids are a bit jarring to look at.

>>40458853
>same-sex attracted
are you single? im a cis guy

>>40458334
>If you are interested, we can decide on the nuts and bolts of it
Im not really interested in talking to anybody outside of these boards. Im sure youll find another writting buddy
>Word. I still feel sick to my stomach when wearing feminine clothing.
Whenever anythin celebratory happened my school forced all girls to wear vyshyvankas and flower crowns/flower clip ons because culture preservation I guess. Hated their texture and how they felt on my body. Also always hated anything frilly or too weigthed or anything that clung to my body and made me feel like my flesh is trapped in something tight, female clothes are a nightmare for autists. Jewerly is horrible too, I hate clips, I hate rings, I hate bracelets, I hate constantly feeling something dangle on my body and distract me. So glad that Im an adult now and can wear tracksuit pants and oversized shirts 24/7
>My first egg moment was when I was in kindergarten. Long before any major trauma happened
Always felt fascinated by people like you because I dont think that I was consciously aware of my gender and femaleness until turning 7 years old, but thats probably because priori to attending school I was a weird hermit child who didnt have any friends or talk to any other kids
>she jokingly asked if I wanted a sex change operation. My knee jerk reaction was that I'll get that done when I'm older
As a kid I used to fantasize about my whole family dying in a car accident so that I could transition. Idk why did I think that them dying was necessary in order for me to pursue transition. Maybe I just really wanted them dead

>>40458853
>The social exclusion that comes with being an infertile woman is akin to being a third gender or intersex
are you MRKH

need femrepper to jerk off with

>>40448294
I'm convinced a lot of trans suicides are a byproduct of social contagion. I don't think the notion that not transitioning will inevitably lead to suicide is a healthy narrative, nor is it something young trans people should be told.
>>40458997
>Always felt fascinated by people like you because I dont think that I was consciously aware of my gender and femaleness until turning 7 years old
I think a lot of it has to do with how one is raised. I was definitely made aware of my gender early on and had my fair share of limitations imposed on to me. I felt like I wasn't allowed to be myself because I was born female. My extended family had their fair share of gender disappointment and never got over it. I was treated as though being born female was somehow a moral shortcoming. My parents initially thought they were having a boy because their first ultrasound weren't correct. When my parents later learned that they were having a girl, they opted to keep it a secret and wanted it to be a cute surprise. They weren't anticipating that much of my family would end up rejecting me because of that. Consequently, I was often treated as defective by my extended family and reminded that I was "supposed" to be a boy.
>>40459023
Not MRKH (which is total Mullerian agenesis) but rather a Mullerian anomaly and endometriosis. So It's similar to MRKH in the sense that portion of development was messed up, but I was still born with a uterus. Just a physically deformed one that served zero utility whatsoever. The bulk of women who try to conceive with what I have end up having late term miscarriages. There are corrective surgeries, however, they can cause internal scarring and not fix the issue. I had no interest in preserving what little fertility that I had, so I opted to yeet that organ in its entirety. It's been the absolute best thing that I've done for myself. A definite weight off my shoulders and it helped me cope with dysphoria over the years.

>>40459267
I wanna date you, you seem cool

>>40458997
>Hated their texture and how they felt on my body. Also always hated anything frilly or too weigthed or anything that clung to my body and made me feel like my flesh is trapped in something tight, female clothes are a nightmare for autists
On this note, I hate how style choices are so readily gendered. I find it dreadful how people are expected to render themselves into caricatures and sacrifice comfort to make others feel at ease. In hindsight, I think being made to present in a hyperfeminine manner primed me for dysphoria. Puberty only made that more difficult. I was told by women that my developing body was abhorrent and that I had to "embrace" modesty. Or else I'd be seen as an object unworthy of basic respect. Just how exactly is hating one's body extolling the virtues of being a woman? Why is being an object the "default" state of our character and something we have to outrun? It doesn't make sense.
I feel like the end goal of the women's beauty industry and trans medicine are largely the same. It comes down to profiting off of deep insecurities that were instilled into people as a result of societal expectations. If someone grows up being told that they're defective (ie not "feminine" or "masculine" enough), you've got a lifelong customer. Extreme sex differentiation is the end goal for troons and cissoids alike. And society primes people for that, even though those extremes don't mesh with reality.
Readily accepting those extremes and trying to put oneself in a box seems like NPC behavior. I think that's largely why I object to transitioning and opt to repress instead. Trying to navigate life as a woman while also asserting my autonomy is difficult, but I don't want to be a product either.
>>40459287
If you're a cisfem or femrepper that's cool. But I'm almost certain that you're >>40458879
By same sex attracted I mean that I'm biologically female and attracted to other biological females. I'm not one to reject the way that I was born.

To repress successfully is to reframe your circumstances. For example, I just think of myself as a disabled person. Physically weaker than expected, a little deformed, generally a weirdo: it all checks out.

I'm just a bad person living in a decaying body

How many of you would mind being made pregnant?

>>40460554
I wanna kiss you

bump

>>40442197
I'm definitely repping, I don't even plan on taking hrt long term. I just want at least some of the effects to hopefully be more at peace. I can't stand living anymore.

>>40442228
Whenever I see mtfs hating on pooners I think this way and wonder if the hate is all jealousy

>>40458853
>The concept of "womanhood" never resonated with me, but I don't think "feeling" like a man is really a thing either
Always disliked how trannies talked about "feeling like a man/woman". What the fuck does that even mean? When you ask them to explain themselves they just bump into stereotypes or weird schizophrenic copes about how they have a congenital deformity where they were born with a male brain in a female body and how this makes them intersex. I dont "feel like a man", I just want to look like a man, I want to have a penis because I prefer the dominant/penetrative role in sex, I like their strenght and how their bodies look, I want to jerk off in a mirror while staring at my own pecs. So retarded to base your whole identity based on feelings rather than objective reality. Theyre shooting themsleeves in the leg with this argument because now you have nondysphoric cissoids making the same snarky annoying comments liek "how can you FEEL like a man if youve never been a man and dont know what its like? Checkmate tranny!"
>>40462152
Jealousy + mtf trannies dont like aknowledging this but like 50% of them are ex incels who still think that living as a woman is inherently easier and dont realize that its just their dysphoria talking, they view ftms as dumb women who dont realize how easy they have it and are throwing away their femmininity for nothing. Ironically enough they also are oblivious to the fact that this is the typical example of mysogyny that males display towards females on a daily basis. Very annoying

>>40458853
>The concept of "womanhood" never resonated with me, but I don't think "feeling" like a man is really a thing either
Always disliked how trannies talked about "feeling like a man/woman". What the fuck does that even mean? When you ask them to explain themselves they just bump into stereotypes or weird schizophrenic copes about how they have a congenital deformity where they were born with a male brain in a female body and how this makes them intersex. I dont "feel like a man", I just want to look like a man, I want to have a penis because I prefer the dominant/penetrative role in sex, I like their strenght and how their bodies look, I want to jerk off in a mirror while staring at my own pecs. So retarded to base your whole identity based on feelings rather than objective reality. Theyre shooting themsleeves in the leg with this argument because now you have nondysphoric cissoids making the same snarky annoying comments liek "how can you FEEL like a man if youve never been a man and dont know what its like? Checkmate tranny!"
>>40462152
Jealousy + mtf trannies dont like aknowledging this but like 50% of them are ex incels who still think that living as a woman is inherently easier and dont realize that its just their dysphoria talking, they view ftms as dumb women who dont realize how easy they have it and are throwing away their femmininity for nothing. Ironically enough they also are oblivious to the fact that this is the typical example of mysogyny that males display towards females on a daily basis. Very annoying

>>40443135
I have multiple types but overall I like feminine women. I usually go for nerdy shy girls or the straighest looking ones. Every once in a while I can like a tomboy if she's kinda girly.

>>40452065
Get off this website go outside and don't listen to tiktok pooners. ygmi

>>40447676
It's too bad girls like you only exist online. I would love to princess carry you.

sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i wasn’t like this. i wanna be a normal woman not some wannabe man

>>40462152
In fairness, it is typically hsts types that you see hating on pooners.
Personally I do not think full social transition is right for most femreppers due to all of the dysphoria management strategies on the table + all of the many negatives that come with it. However, I acknowledge that it is necessary in some cases and have nothing but compassion for trans men.
>>40462238
>Always disliked how trannies talked about "feeling like a man/woman"
I personally like to describe my experience with gender dysphoria as a female soul who ended up trapped in the wrong body.
But if you would like something more medicalised: In utero you are exposed to a number of hormonal washes at various points in your development. For whatever reason, I simply received a large amount of estrogen, priming my developing brain to expect to be in a female body. This mismatch between the programmed expectation created in utero and the amab body I was born with caused a deep seeded incongruity with my own body; Evolving in full blown gender dysphoria even before I hit puberty and things got really bad.
It is a complex topic to explain, especially to cis people. So it does make sense that some people would just fall back on stereotypes.
>So retarded to base your whole identity based on feelings rather than objective reality
It is an objective reality that I would have killed myself had I not transitioned.
Feelings can effect and shape reality.
>50% of them are ex incels who still think that living as a woman is inherently easier
Almost all of the mtfs you are talking about are hsts.
Many of them were bigoted misogynists before transitioning. Transition was just a way they could deal with being into guys without 'being gay'. They always have and always will hate women, but it is unfair to judge all mtfs based on them.

>>40462350
>For whatever reason, I simply received a large amount of estrogen, priming my developing brain to expect to be in a female body.
Ive arleady stated that I dont take this argument seriously. Theres very little credible evidence for it. The "differences" between male and female brains are statistically irrelevant because even in non dysphoric cis people they werent able to find persistent brain patterns that matched theier sex. Being exposed to estrogen in the womb wouldve made you physically intersex, not born with a pink brain or whatever

>>40462117
maybe you would be happier if you had a child to take care of

>>40462350
>It is an objective reality that I would have killed myself had I not transitioned.
>Feelings can effect and shape reality.
Never made an argument against this or transitioning in general desu. I just dont think that you can "feel" like a woman. If youre more comfortable in an estrogenized body then thats your choice

>>40462419
lmao the schizo is back

>>40462410
>Theres very little credible evidence for it
All things considered, we do not have a very good understanding about the brain or being trans.
However we do know for a fact that hormonal washes in utero do effect development and that sometimes a fetus can receive the 'wrong' wash. It stands to reason such events would have an impact on the developing brain of the fetus.
So I'm really not arguing that I have a 'female brain'. Just that because of the hormonal washes I was exposed to in the womb, my brain expects to be in an afab body, the fact that it is not creates dysphoria. No need to drag in any social conceptions of gender.
>Being exposed to estrogen in the womb wouldve made you physically intersex
Well, in utero you are exposed to both testosterone and estrogen. That is a universal fact for everyone. It is just a question of your genetics + what hormone/what levels/when.
Also, personally I do have a chromosomal intersex condition. But I do not think being XXY made me trans.
>>40462424
>I just dont think that you can "feel" like a woman
I feel less dysphoria when presenting as and being recognized as what we have agreed on as a society is a 'woman'.
I think in shorthand, informal conversation it is perfectly fine to describe this reality as 'feeling like a woman'. If you want to attach social stereotypes and conceptions of gender onto that, that is on you.

>>40458997
>Im not really interested in talking to anybody outside of these boards. Im sure youll find another writting buddy
Probably not.
But thanks for sharing anyway.

>>40462848
>All things considered, we do not have a very good understanding about the brain or being trans
Yeah Im not gonna believe the "wrong brain" thing until I see solid evidence for it.
>It is just a question of your genetics + what hormone/what levels/when
Its a known fact that female fetuses who are exposed to testosterone (and vice versa) in the womb are born with physical/chromosomal intersex variations, we do not however have any evidence that it causes for your brain to expect to be born in a different body. This is a very sad cope and a strategic attempt to make transgenderism seem more "normal" and "natural" than it really is, but it doesn't need to be normal or natural, people do weird shit to their bodies all of the time and thats fine, you dont need to pretend that you have a female brain to present as a woman

If wanting autistic women to be bred is wrong, I don't wanna be right.

What mental illness do yall have besides the obvious ones (autism and gender dysphoria)? Im schizophrenic + fit the criteria for conduct disorder with macdonald triad as a kid

>>40463379
I would NOT impregnate you.

>>40463393
Why not I thought men liked crazy bitches

>>40463403
I have limits and boundaries.

>>40463405
Pussy. Come here

>>40463411
I just want quirky tomboys!

>>40463379
I'm just a mtf, but apart from the standard, I have DPD, OCPD and AvPD. The cluster C trifecta.
Of these, DPD is the most prominent by far and is basically just a core aspect of who I am and how I function when it comes to relationships.
>schizophrenic
My best friend is also. Honestly I think it makes her a more interesting person.

>>40463423
>My best friend is also. Honestly I think it makes her a more interesting person
Sometimes I doubt that diagnosis desu. I started getting really violent and agressive at age 10 and at 13 I had a massive psychotic episode where I threatened to kill my parents and babbled about being a god and that warranted me a diagnosis. It went on for about a year until I turned 14 and stopped getting hallucinations/delusions and havent expereinced them ever since. Nevertheless thats still in my medical card so I identify with it

ooga booga
where da NON psychotic femreppers at

>>40463499
No non psychotic femreppers, only me. Get on the bed. Mommy want rapies

>>40463697
Bitches can't rape

>>40463717
What do I call it then if you explicitely dont want it

>>40463724
Depends on how big your strap is

>>40463772
Would femreppers tolerate a relationship where the ONLY sex allowed is PIV and I never touch your clit ever?

>>40463923
No thats pointless

most raped general award

>>40464068
Stone butches have the right idea desu.
>>40464088
Queer people in general are much more likely to have been sexually assaulted.
Hell, I'm an mtf and I have been SAed.

>>40464088
Ive never been raped in my whole life I just have an unhealthy fixation on the concept of sexual assault

>>40464104
>Stone butches have the right idea desu
Im a stone butch but like, straight.

>>40464210
Looks uncanny desu

>>40464189
I don't see how that could work on several different levels. Unless you are basically celibate and being a 'straight stone butch' is more a theoretical.
I just don't think guys are wired to be able to appreciate stone butches.

>>40464249
I like straponing guys and dont want them to touch me

>>40463379
Besides autism, OCD and MDD. If theres more im not willingly getting it on paper im toughing this out.

>>40464720
I feel like depression barely counts as a mental illness nowadays. every third person has it because the modern world fucking sucks

What does life feel like for a femrepper?
How much does it hurt? How do you cope?

>>40464762
As long as it continues to fuck my brain and life its a mental illness to me, but i see what you mean.

>>40464774
>What does life feel like for a femrepper?
Bad
>How much does it hurt?
You get numb after a while
>How do you cope?
Addictive substances. Art. Daydreaming. Gooning

>>40464807
Also it helps that I have bigger problems to worry about (dont wanan go in detail) so instead of dooming about my sex I can doom about them

>>40464786
I have problems with depression being labeled as a mental ilness in general, like its one thing if its endogenic depression specifically where you have an objectively good life but your brain just has a chemical imbalance that wont let you enjoy it, yeah thats a mental ilness, but most depressed people Ive met have the exogenic type of depression where theyre depressed because their life fucking sucks. Like thats not a mental ilness, thats a normal human reaction to feel shitty about a shitty situation

>>40464920
>like its one thing if its endogenic depression
And even with endogenic depression you could make a point that conscious existence as a human is sad and scary even if your life is "good". Theres a duckman episode about this I think about it a lot

>>40464920
I dont know, depends on what you consider an objectively good life. I have my material needs met and am privileged enough that i can cater these to my specific preferences, most of my issues are that my body is shit or my mind is shit and i dont function as a normal person. Most people generally dont seem to understand or even comprehend depression and its effects beyond what they see in movies and find actually depressed people to be crazy, and people who have had objectively more traumatic life experiences than me show zero signs of diagnosable depression and are generally unempathetic to people who do. Not that everyone needs to bend their knee and validate my overdramatic brain, just that they dont at all understand. Even if alot of people get diagnosed its still a pretty big debuff in normal life and i dont want to live off of medications to fix it.

>>40447630
>Hiei Does get a rather romantic hookup in canon which frees Kurama up.

It's f'kd up kurama is the only boy without a canon relationship, the only love he received was in the form of toxic yaoi

>>40465124
Not what Im saying

>>40465553
Like my point was that only endogenic depression should count as a mental illness

Anyone else get real good at pissing standing up

>>40463379
Depression although I used to anamaxx to cope with endo and dysphoria. Being anorexic sucks ass though. Malnourishment gigafries your brain. Recovering from anorexia isn't all sunshine and rainbows, but it is better than the alternative. Recovered on my own without psych intervention and I wouldn't have done it any other way.
>>40462238
>What the fuck does that even mean? When you ask them to explain themselves they just bump into stereotypes or weird schizophrenic copes about how they have a congenital deformity where they were born with a male brain in a female body and how this makes them intersex.
I completely get this. Like I was born white but I don't wake up and "feel" white everyday. I don't feel the need to affirm my whiteness by going gluten free or bragging about expensive hiking gear. How is gender any different?
>>40464920
Even when it comes to "endogenic" depression, I'm convinced that the bulk of psych treatments are a grift. There's no convincing research to back up the idea that depression is caused by a chemical imbalance (contrary to what the pharmaceutical industry claims).

rip ozzy

How do you even treat depression as a repper? Taking pills and talking about your feelings feels like putting a band-aid on a wound while a knife is still in.

>>40467197
You don't. You either poon out or learn to enjoy the little things in life.

>>40467197
Ride it out

>>40441987 (OP)
hello, would you let me tou h your boobs if I dated you?

>>40467084
What the fuck, he actually died

>>40450963
>would you fuck me? I would fuck me. I would fuck me so hard

>>40441987 (OP)
>>40469628