>>40455913i kinda agree,i shouldnt exist. i will never be happy unless i am cis & i will never be cis. I always feel like i am insufficient & a failure & get very very anxious my bf will inevitably realize i am not a foid & hate me for it, which he should anyways. he deserves sm better & i will never ever ever ever ever be able to be what he deserves. I wish i werent born but not mostly in a suicidal way but in a way that my existence is an inconvenience to the world & myself so i shouldnt exist