I don't know whether I want to be a hot girl or if I want to fuck them...

>>40463756 (OP)
If you did want to be a hot girl, what would that mean for you?

Crazy stuff, right? I love hot women and I wish I could caress, cuddle, kiss and lick them, but the idea of fucking them feels awkward and I feel they are existentially superior to me.

I don't know if it's because I'm a failed male or if I'm a failed male because of these feelings. (I'm in particular a failure as a man, not as a person since I've got a job, uni degree, some friends, decent health/weight and no substance abuse issues)

Being a hot girl would be to become something I instinctually adore, becoming an alpha chad would be handy to reach those women but still something I've never really been able to aspire to.

>>40463756 (OP)
Why not both?

>>40463756 (OP)
Tbf, as a gay top I also had this problem because I had no point of reference, like, I didn't know how proper attraction to women felt like, I tried talking about it with my straight friends, but it feels like straight guys are either retards or don't even like women, so I never got the answer. But I'm a hon now, lol.

>>40463756 (OP)
>>40463836

We've been conditioned to not even be worthy of their presence. Taught to look away and dream other dreams, since wanting access to their bodies is BAD and a sign of rapey man behavior.

A better question is if you've ever wanted sex with women that aren't high value. Then, you're probably a male with normal impulses.

The fact that it's high-value only would indicate some kind of AGP internalization; you can't want them as a man so maybe you could try to be them or pursue them as a not-man.

>>40463756 (OP)
I want to be a hot enough girl to fuck the girls I think are hot

>>40463756 (OP)
sister, why do you have to decide? just do both. there are only two rules in life anyways
>be hot
>dont be ugly

>>40463756 (OP)
I want to be fucked like a hot girl.