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please god bless me with virile fertility tonight and make me pregnant with THs baby

>>40470225
Nobody deserves such fate in life desu

I'm struggling to find a reason to keep going lately, my only cope was that it might get better but I'll never see it if I kill myself (it doesn't work anymore because nothing gets better because I don't put in any effort and no one is going to come and save me). What am I supposed to do

Did the spam finally stop? I was ignoring last few threads because it was full of men vs women shit.

>>40470360
>my only cope was that it might get better
Are you talking about dysphoria or life generally?

>>40470363
Probably not fully but its less than it was before. Just hide and ignore baity replies

>>40469628 (OP)
Why is it so common for mtfs to hate on ftms? Is it just jealousy or?

Threadly reminder that the following are the best methods for repping. Ideally all should be done at once:
1) Start topical T or even full hrt
2) Butchmax
3) Get a cute, short, femme mtf gf
>>40470463
Not all mtfs are the same.
hsts types are typically misogynists that hate all women and view ftms as women.
But this is not ftmg so it seems off topic anyway.

>>40469628 (OP)
aparently you guys have been mean to Flux
he told me

>>40470516
The ftm trip ? A lot of women here are dood haters but I'm not, Inthink they are 'aight.

>>40470546
but why would femreps (freps, as I like to call them) hate ftms?

>>40470496
Yeah I know it's not all mtfs I was asking about ones who act like that

>>40470564
They see them as pathetic reminders that they can never be real men but only a facsimile version or they are jealous.

>>40470387
Life generally

>>40470564
It's the same disgusting male reppers have when they see clocky hons.
It just brings disgust and you're scared you might end up looking like them.
And if I transition I have higher chances of looking like clocky poon than some ftm chad.

>>40470619
Many if not most hsts mtfs are former misogynist incels. They did not stop hating women after transitioning and consider ftms to be women.
There is a massive cultural gap between them and normal mtfs. Especially when it comes to trans-lesbians (who at our worst typically just tend to be separatists).

Idk I like ftms who are malebrained and pass as butches at the very least. I'm also masochistic so I'm usually fine with being reminded how inferior I am even to other afaboids

If you're straight never transition.
All ftms who were feminine straight/bi girls before pooning end up looking uncanny. Picrel.
It's just not worth it.
Only lesbians can look fine post pooning and actually make it.
I hate everything.

>>40470496
>>40470675
What do you think about womb envy fag anon? Is he future hsts?

>>40470679
You have to factor in quality of life.
It is typically not worth gynephilic femreppers pooning, because of all of the negatives that come along with it + all of the effective strategies they have to manage dysphoria. Pooning is just going to result in a lower QoL then what being a hrt repping butch offers.
Androphile femreppers are the ones who are typically better off pooning (hence why they are so overly represented among ftms), since they have little in the way of effective dysphoria management options or romantic prospects that are not harmful themselves.
>>40470690
I think they are just mentally ill and need help.

>>40470679
Wrong. Socially pooning as a gynephilic dood is suicide, lesbians no longer want you, bi women will cuck you with real men and straight women are disgusted by you. Calling yourself a "straight" man as a dickless creature is laughable, gay men are already deviants so it doesn't feel as unnutural to see an afab emulating them. Passing doesn't matter if not all of you is male as a pooner that only likes women.

>>40470715
>Calling yourself a "straight" man as a dickless creature is laughable, gay men are already deviants so it doesn't feel as unnutural to see an afab emulating them
Nta but why do people on tttt act like gay men are somehow not men
If you ignore their sexuality, how are they different from straight men?

>>40469628 (OP)
I actually like when this thread is slower.
No tourists, no drama, heaven.

>>40470774
They are a deviant, often effeminate form of men, wich is also the best a passing pooner can hope to be. Not suitable if you have no interest in men.

>>40470715
what if I decide to be a eunich male and find myself a queen to serve counsel to

She looks so uncomfortable. I can feel the dysphoria through screen. Her gf doesn't love her.

>>40470814
Suit yourself but I want a woman that is mine, not some slut to beta orbit personally.
>>40470830
Guaranteed her gf is bi, my two bi gfs BOTH tried doing this shit to me for some reason.

>>40470830
the look doesnt suit her at all, even if her hair were longer

>>40470791
>Passing pooner should be a flamer
That just feels like it would make them even more clockable.

>>40470830
That video was painful to watch and really activated a desire to want to save her from that situation.
Why would you do this to me anon?
>Her gf doesn't love her
I typically try to avoid being so bitchy. But I would make sure a better gf for her.

>>40470856
The afab-ness will make any pooner, even the most gynephilic ones seems a bit gay.

>>40469628 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40470878
HRT = Good
Social Transition = Bad

>>40470830
Other girls often try to feminize me often.
Even my own sister is begging me to let her do my make up almost every day. (I haven't wear make up in ages and she told me that's making her mad)
I don't know what's the appeal.

>>40470883
truth nuke
t. intruding boymoder

>>40470897
My sister literally knows I want to be male
I never told her

Do you ever have homophobic thoughts?

>>40470923
yes
t. bi

>>40470923
Only when it comes to femme4femme couples and bis at lesbian events.
Otherwise I think I'm pretty chill.

>>40470931
>>40470945
tell me all the details and specifics about your homophobic thoughts, please
at what age do you remember the first ones coming about
and currently, what is the focus of your anti-gay ruminations?
Do you feel all women dating other women is wrong, or only certain kinds of women dating other certain kinds of women is wrong?

>>40470923
I only hate underaged libshits who think the world runs on corporate pride flags

>>40471033
I find it gross so I call myself bisexual but it's probably a cope
I tried to date man and it didn't work out
I wish women didn't turn me on

>>40471055
name a few countries that accept gays but don't allow pride events

>>40470945
what’s wrong with cis femme4femme couples

>>40471063
too much lesbianism
needs butch for heterosexual dynamic

>>40471071
Why do gay relationships need to maintain a heterosexual dynamic?

>>40470923
There is nothing disgusting about being lesbian. Being straight is disgusting. Heterosexuality should be banned.
Lesbians are peak.

>>40471080
To be more natural?

>>40471087
natural? do you think animals cannot be gay and that gayness is only induced artificially?

>>40471062
iran, brazil, mongolia, liechtenstein, mexico

>>40470872
I've seen it and it just makes them seem like fat enbies though that was just one I have worked next to.

>>40471063
In my personal experience they tend to be pretty annoying, at-least one of them will be bi and they are just awful to both butches and femmes into butches.
I have lost count of the number of times some femme4femme type has said that I may as well date men or that being a femme into butches was sexist and harmful.
As someone that is massively into the whole classic butch/femme dynamic, they just really do not seem to like the idea of me existing. So it is a mutual hate.
>>40471083
>Heterosexuality should be banned
Pretty based desu.

>>40470830
I NEED her so bad, shes so fucking hot. I hope she never transitions. But fuck I hope shes not dating some fucking troon. Im so horny MANNN fuck me. IM horny. Im so down bad rn.
I wish I wasnt stuck as a fucking DYKEE

>>40471071
that’s stupid
i think the need for a butch makes lesbos so ugly in public. Le pooner neverpasser should not get with the baddie
>>40471100
they have based opinions for that
but I get the mutual hate. I probably wouldn’t get along with them lol
I have never seen it irl tho

>>40470360
Wanna suicide pact, I know some people.
>>40471059
>I tried to date man and it didn't work out I wish women didn't turn me on
Same.

no better feeling than falling asleep on your straight besties big fat tits

>>40471097
accept gays?!?!?
>liechtenstein
what

also brazil and mexico definitely have pride stuff

>>40471100
I'm (unfortunately) straight but I believe in lesbian new world order. We need conversion therapy to turn every woman into lesbian. Not bi, lesbian.

>>40471177
straight women don't exist, ur bisexual

>>40471177
God, you're pathetic.

>>40471177
Real and true

>>40471177
>lesbian new world order.

yeah no thanks i've seen how those death cults end, ill stick to my penis plantation

>>40471128
>i think the need for a butch makes lesbos so ugly in public
Butches are painfully attractive anon. The average butch blows even the most high femme baddie out of the water.
Conventional attractiveness is a scam. I have always been shocked when a butch has shown interest in me (a femme), since logically to me it seems that all butches should just be butch4butch. It feels like they are aiming low by being into a femme. We are just so much less attractive and interesting.
Butches should be fucking worshipped desu.
>>40471177
Still pretty based. But conversion therapy just does not work.
Best you could hope for is gaining control over media and pop culture in order to socially ingrain lesbianism as a social expectation.

>>40471266
>conversion therapy just does not work.
what about testosterone?

>>40471275
In my experience, that mostly just tends to make afabs more sexually aggressive and increase their libido.
But then, I have only been with butches. So who knows how it would affect a non-lesbian afab.

>>40471314
after my first month of T I got so horny I kinda raped my friend while we were both drunk and he never talked to me again

do lesbians find futas attractive?
as a lesbian myself, I dont know why I dont easily get off to futa porn even though I get off to straight porn, though usually the man has to be out of sight where its focusing on the woman being fucked.
Youd think futa porn would be a turn on since its two girls, and yet idk. It freaks me out ig? I dont see a woman, I just see a feminine man with a dick no matter how good the animation is.

>>40471266
>butches are attractive
must be a lesbian only thing
They don’t even look like tomboys, just sjw theyfabs
it’s so uggo

women can't get in trouble for rape

>>40471356
My femrepper butch ex was on T and honestly I loved all of the effects (skin, hair, muscle, personality etc). But I think just how horny it made her was the only part of it that could at times be difficult.
I have a pretty low libido just due to being on E and as a bottom, there is a functional limit to how many times I can get fucked in a week before it starts impacts my day-to-day.
Thankfully I'm basically always up for body worship and it was something she was into also, so that helped keep her satisfied until I was up to her fucking me again. Working some power play stuff into the relationship also seemed to really help.
>>40471400
In theory I should be into futas. But honestly I have never found any futa stuff that actually did anything for me. I think because I am just into butches exclusively and zero futa stuff seems to include butches with dicks.
But I really loved my exs strap, we both talked about how she wished it was an actual dick and how hot I would find it.
I think futa is just not really aimed at lesbians I guess.
>>40471411
I would take a bullet for a random butch on the street.
Seriously, I never feel insecure about how I look around other femmes. But around masc butches I just turn into this shy, insecure mess. They are so perfect.

>>40471445
what sort of worship did you do

>>40471445
>But I really loved my exs strap, we both talked about how she wished it was an actual dick and how hot I would find it.
>I think futa is just not really aimed at lesbians I guess.
Yeah thats the thing. I LOVE straps, I love colored dildos. I love that dominance mm mm mm.
God I wish there was a way to organize meetups for lesbians in regards to sex. Im so fucking tired of straight people and gay men and now transbians getting to enjoy that sorta thing. I hate it. Im gonna end up on the news one day.

>>40471445
wait you are on E? Soo you are a transbian? Fuck off. Nevermind. Fucking... Im gonna kill you stupid fucks. Homophobic subhuman animal. Hope you get AIDs and die.

Any woman who likes a transbian deserves to be raped by an actual lesbian. I am better than all of you. I am superior than you and pooners, I am more of a man AND more of a woman than you will ever be.

>>40471479
Well typically it would always start off with a foot massage. That massage would evolve into more of a worship thing and move up her legs.
Depending on what she was feeling, from there I would either move between her legs and go into a slow, worshipful oral session. Or we would move onto her butt.
Pits were optional but typically came at the end if included.
>>40471488
In my experience straps are better anyway, just from a bottom perceptive.
I was more into the idea of her having an actual dick just because I knew how happy it would have made her and how much more she would have enjoyed sex.
More of an empathetic hotness I guess you could call it.
>>40471503
>>40471518
<3
I appreciate your emotion if nothing else anon.

>>40471445
>e
>was talking to a gross moid rapehon the whole time
fuck off, no wonder you are here worshipping butches. All of you fags trooned out to worship afabs

One day i’ll be able to masturbate, but it wont be today, and probably not tomorrow. One day

>>40471548
dont take it personally transbian, I am just a bitter incel. Its less about hating u and more about hating the status quo in regards to how rare lesbians are.
I never got with a woman b4 and was raised believing i was awful by both radfems and religious ppl for wanting to fuck woman lmao

>>40471420
neither can men

This is repfuel for me
>>40470463
I think a lot of them perceive pooning out as wasted femininity. But the problem in their reasoning is that not all pooners are born with inherently feminine qualities to begin with. Or feel comfortable acting/dressing in a feminine manner. Femininity feels like more of a social obligation as someone born female than self discovery. So it's quite different from our pov.
Either way there's definitely some mtf hate from ftms as well. Not to mention the theyfab/theymab hate from transmedicalists. I struggle to wrap my mind around that. It's ironic to me that there is so much hate directed towards theyfabs/theymabs because they don't "pass" yet in the same vein most transmedicalists are gigahons/doods.

>>40471550
I trooned out because it was that or kill myself due to how bad my dysphoria was.
I was basically asexual before I transitioned and even for the most of first year of hrt. It took me a long time post starting my transition to realize that I was a lesbian and even longer to realize that I was exclusively into butches.
>>40471632
I grew up in a religious environment also anon. I was disowned by my entire family when I came out. I understand being angry and I understand the self hate that background tends to result in.
But I do not understand lashing out at people anon.
I think really working on yourself and your trauma is the number one thing that helps you standout as a potential partner to other lesbians.

>>40471203
>>40471263
Liking penis is not normal. Sucking dick only pleasure male. It's a degradation.

Heterosexual sex only exist for male pleasure. Female pleasure doesn't matter. It doesn't even exist.

>>40471713
Why do so many ftms style themselves in this retarded way? yes i know theyre happier than me blah blah i dont care about that. Why is the clocky piercing and dyed hair like catnip to them and its always the same look.

I don't want to be made to get fucked on all fours. But I am. That decision was made against my will.

>>40471750
isnt this the core of mtf ideology that a man not touching your genitals during sex = being a woman

>>40471982
No, this is about females.

>>40471996
well but mtfs have this belief too
that sex is just piv and you can't touch the clit or the penis of the more feminine/submissive partner
which is FUNNY because y'all are mostly having anal anyways
are ftms quite so regimented as mtfs whereby the more masculine partner must be the penetrator exclusively?

>>40471982
>>40472005
You don't understand. Mtfs get pleasure through prostate. Women can't do that.
How can you even compare this two.

I don't want to be penetrated, it just feels unfair that a man is able to experience being enveloped by a woman while I have to settle for being the female.

>>40472053
women have homologous glands to prostate glands
also receiving anal isn't THAT fun, if someone doesn't make your penis/clit orgasm - sex isn't nearly as fun

>>40471974
I cannot tell if this is a creepy fetish post or the result of mental illness.
>>40471982
That is insane anon.
Not only does this have nothing to do with mtfs, but by that logic stone butches are the ultimate women.
>>40472057
You are still perfectly able to penetrate another woman if that is what you want to do anon.
>>40472071
Hard disagree.
It is just an acquired taste.

>>40472134
>Not only does this have nothing to do with mtfs
most mtfs believe sex involves a woman being penetrated without the man making her orgasm directly via clitoral stimulation
that, the man orgasming, alone, makes it sex

>>40472143
I have never met a single mtf that has thought anything close to that. I have met some that did have weird conceptions of gender. But nothing like that.
I don't know how you came up with that insane hypothesis anon, but I suggest that if you want to learn what the core of 'mtf ideology' is, you should try actually engaging with mtfs.

>>40472189
mtfs believe women don't have their clits stroked to orgasm during sex - that's why their penises can't be touched because women wouldn't have that done to their clits
penis and clit are the same fucking thing my dude

>>40472197
That is insane anon. I cannot tell if you have just never spoken to an actual mtf or if this is just some mental illness thing.
But that is just comically wrong.
Many if not most mtfs have some degree of genital dysphoria. So it being touched during sex is something that is upsetting and does not feel good. It has nothing to do with this weird idea about women not having their clits touched during sex with men (?).

Genital dysphoria is just genital dysphoria. Stone butches deal with much the same thing.
You are just projecting some really fucking weird ideas onto this.

>>40472253
>Many if not most mtfs have some degree of genital dysphoria
because they believe women don't have their clits stroked during sex
the penis and the clit are the same thing

>>40472264
You can just admit you do not know what genital dysphoria is anon.

>>40470679
Why do you assume that being straight equals being femminine I always looked and dressed like a dyke
>>40470830
This is animal abuse

>>40472276
>words words words
you either think normal male female sex involves clitoral orgasm or it doesn't

>>40471756
>Why is the clocky piercing and dyed hair like catnip to them and its always the same look
Nose rings are fucking hideous I dont undefstand why people like them

>>40472392
I think guys are inherently gross and sex with one would be both demeaning and sexually unsatisfying.
But that is because of my sexuality. Not my gender identity.
I don't put any thought into if straight women are actually able to really get off when having sex with guys, nor do I care.

>>40471756
>>40472400
why do i want facial piercings if theyre so cringe...?

>>40472408
Because youre a fucking retard nonnita

>>40472413
i like how they look... id even want gauges too just like the pooner caricatures

>>40472407
>I think guys are inherently gross and sex with one would be both demeaning and sexually unsatisfying
I think the same way and Im straight but thats because Im dysphoric. I need to be a real man in order to enjoy sexuality properly but thats not gonna hapen so Im stuck in this weird fuckasss limbo

>>40472407
gender identity precludes the existence of sexuality

>>40472408
I like my facial piercing and all of my exs said that it looked nice.
But I personally would not like a partner to have a facial piercing. When it comes to partners, I like butches with tattoos.
>>40472434
If you are an androphile, then just pooning would probably really improve your quality of life anon.
Being able to enjoy sex alone seems like it would be worth it.
>>40472437
I do not think you understand what gender identity is anon.

>>40472458
if you can simply feel like a man or a woman and it's just based on self-conception, there's no meaningfulness to being gay

>>40472458
>If you are an androphile, then just pooning would probably really improve your quality of life anon.
>Being able to enjoy sex alone seems like it would be worth it.
It doesnt work that way for me because I have schizophrenic levels of dysphoria. Like if he does so much as suspect that Im a tranny that I was a female at some point its so over in my head thats the same as getting hatecrimed, I will honour kill myself. Doesnt matter if hes accepting or not, being aknowledged as a female feels like rape

>>40472461
I'm sorry if that makes it less special for you or something.
But the world does not revolve around what makes you feel the most special. Language and social conceptions are function first and by their nature agnostic to individuals wanting 'meaning'.
>>40472486
That sounds like something you should be working on with a profession then anon.
Because if you are able to actually get control over the dysphoria, it does sound like pooning is the right option for you.

>>40472504
what function does having a gender identity serve other than "making you feel good"

>>40472620
The social utility of gender identity is pretty self evident anon.

I have such feminine mannerisms interests hobbies etc I hate myself so much. If I could completely retrain my mannerisms I would, but it would most likely have a forced effect. I am blatantly hyperfembrained I don't know why I have to be so dysphoric. No one would take me seriously as a man
Unrelated but I have always been socially isolated and being on this board has made me want to stay that way

>>40472657
????
>men larping as women
>women larping as men
>YOU NEED TO BELIEVE US OR THEY WILL KILL US ALL

>>40472891
It isn’t hard to be normal enough, unfortunately trannys are too weak

Sometimes I get so angry and want to start hitting my mom again but she will get me institutionalized if I do that. Lame

>>40472914
Why do you hit your mom when you get angry wtf

>>40472458
>If you are an androphile, then just pooning would probably really improve your quality of life anon
Anon what.

>>40472914
You could be hitting me when you get angry anon. wtf, don't waste that energy on your mom.

>>40473088
Shes a snake
>>40473107
>You could be hitting me when you get angry anon
Wish I could

>>40472903
nobody said anything about normal you can be gender non conforming without the opposite sex larp

>>40473337
>you can be gender non conforming without the opposite sex larp
I dont want to be gnc i want to have a cock and balls

>>40473341
Well that’s impossible

>>40473370
I know but it doesnt cahnge the fact that I feel this way not bnecause I think that not liking pink means I should chop my tits off

>>40473379
>but im really really delusional
yes
yes you are

>>40473379
We all gotta cope. I on the other hand need to revive my testicles after years of injecting tranny cum

>>40473384
I dunno I've had balls and they are really unaesthetic. The penis is fine, wish it weren't mutilated obviously, but that's beyond my control, but balls just kinda suck they get stinky easily, they hurt if they get touched even gently, and they look weird. If I could still be fertile and not have them that would be fine. I guess after I've had kids I could get them removed but I don't believe in altering the body unless necessary.

>>40473391
Yeah well I need my testicles reactivated for kids if I ever want them

>>40473395
I would never deactivate them cuz that does other stuff I don't want. Like I get it, people do not value me sexually liking (only) other men, but I'm not gonna castrate myself over that.

>>40473382
You think i dont know this are you fucking retarded? Im a repper for a reason
>>40473391
>Well I have balls and I-
Didnt ask. Id kill to have a cock. So annoying how whenever any female person brings up feeling dysphoric about her genitals youve got 15 different moids chirping in tune WELL ACTUALLY I HAVE BALLS AND I DONT LIKE HAVING THEM good then cut them off faggot

>>40473521
>WELL ACTUALLY I HAVE BALLS AND I DONT LIKE HAVING THEM
Well if it makes you feel any better, I do sincerely wish that we could just trade genitals.
It actually makes me genuinely sad that I cannot just give a femrepper something that she really wants and I do not.

>>40471735
That is the best part though.

>>40473570
Degradation is only fun when it is coming from a butch.
It is why sucking strap can be fun, but anything with a guy is just hella gross.

>>40473521
No I mean I don't really care that much but balls are not especially attractive they are wrinkly egg sacks they are just sort of necessary nature - not the pretty part
I'm not dysphoria I like being male
I just wish I could get pregnant so I would never have to work and everyone would treat me like an angel

>>40471420
I got in trouble for "sexually predatory behaviour"despite never doing anything, I'm a vis woman. Most falsely accused men also never go to jail for lack of proof. Try again retard.

>>40473617
the criminal justice system is designed to help women domesticate men

>>40473623
Well it's not doing a good job, men treat me like shit and so do straight women. Where is muh heckin female privilege when I'm being dykebashed by moids lol

>>40473639
im sure chopping off your tits and roiding out will surely fix the dykebashing issue

>>40473661
It already has.

>>40473670
congratulations on your escape

This shit impacts my life so much but the worst part is not being able to have a relationship.

>>40473675
Thanks. Iwnbam but passing as one is the next best thing.

>>40473697
you really think you pass?

>>40473701
People only gender me male these days, I'm sure I get clocked but I don't care since I see myself as a woman and correct them half the time anyway.

>>40473688
I am so close to taking a creepshot. He is so pretty. I'm aging out of his dating pool, maybe I already have. I wish I were a normal cis woman. I want to see his lips stretched around my d- Wait.
^ this is why I'll die alone

>>40473615
>balls are not especially attractive they are wrinkly egg sacks
No they are hot and beautiful especially if musty and dotted in sweat
>>40473701
Maybe shes a gigapassoid. I used to know a ftm who was like 5`11-6`0 and had a big jaw and a masculine face and a moustache despite being pre everything. Hope he dies

>>40473730
>Maybe shes a gigapassoid.
Not really, I'm only 7 month and T, I was mistaken for male 80 percent of the time pre T but that's due to being a bulldyke more than anything.
>I used to know a ftm who was like 5`11-6`0 and had a big jaw and a masculine face and a moustache despite being pre everything.
My face is not that masculine but I'm 5'10 so that's doing a lot of heavy lifting.

>>40473730
>I used to know a ftm who was like 5`11-6`0 and had a big jaw and a masculine face and a moustache
And no he wasnt one of those cis men who lied about being a tranny to get compliments, he was the type of a poon where if youre also a tranny then you can clock him easily but to unsuspecting cissoids hes just a weird guy with a teenage boy voice and a wispy pubestache

>>40473749
>I'm 5'10 so that's doing a lot of heavy lifting
Im gonna fucking kill myself because I have a gigamasculine face for a woman and practically no hips + huge shoulders that if I posted them in the mtfgen people would tell me that Im a hon whos ngmi but none of that matters or holds any value because I have the height of a 12 year old boy and 98% of moids tower over me

>>40473688
>>40473727
Didn't take the creepshot. Time to get off but, like, in a sad way.

>>40473894
more of you need to be creepy and mentally ill its scaring the chaseroids away from this thread

>>40473942
I don't see how I was being creepy.

>>40474026
youre literally calling it a creepshot

>>40474498
Creepshot is a sneaky photo, which I didn't take.

>>40470923
i tried to delude myself into thinking i was straight and normal about gender for years and im not much better about it now

>>40474551
>sneaky photo
Yeah and thats creepy.

>>40474640
Cameras are literally everywhere, beach photos are all over Instagram, and taking a candid photo of someone fully dressed is creepy?
>>40474622
I had tried to be a lesbian.

I woke up and I still want to kill myself wdid

>>40475776
take the jesterpill and learn to laugh at the absurdity of life

>>40475851
Hahaha isn't it funny that I am a grown ass woman and I let one little chromosome make me sad lmao

>>40475880
thats the spirit nona, it is absurd we feel the need to change our physical bodies to feel ourselves

True masculinity comes from the spiritual self, you can be a greater man than most cis men with that

>>40475976
>you can be a greater man than most cis men with that
retarded cope

>>40476020
what is a man without resolve in life, most cis ''men'' today don't have any direction whatsoever. What defines a man is his altruism and firm philosophical beliefs behind those actions, his real ''balls''.

You don't need to be born with certain chromosomes to be a man, to protect those around you or push something forward. There were many biological women of history who understood this and didn't feel the need to change what they were born with. We shouldn't either. I may be a fruity paradox but all the people in my life come to me for guidance as a man.

Its absurd to be made to feel you can't be a man because of whats between your legs. Take up a skill and improve yourself anon.

Girlfriend having a hard time with being aware that strangers only gender me male. I'm afraid she might cry again. Hrt butch repper xisters...

>>40476020
Shut up troon

>>40476272
every time you mention ur gf my eye twitches

>listen to troons and get taimi
>it asks for money after viewing 3 profiles
What the fuck is wrong with dating apps

>>40476240
no retard what defines a man is a bundle of biological factors. so tired of this shit. equating being a man to being someone honourable and heroic implies that being a woman cant be honourable and heroic.

>>40476272
Hypothetical. Would you prefer that she also sees you a man, do you prefer that she sees you as a woman, or does it not really matter to you?

>>40476392
not to mention that a normal man doesnt need to do any of this shit in order to be regiustered as a man in the eyes of others. people will see him as a man because he is a man, not because hes eminating le inherently male spiritual wisdom

>>40476297
I complain about her here but she is really great.
>>40476415
I would never date someone that isn't exclusively a lesbian so it would be bad if she did. But, at the same times when my resolve is weak I sometimes desperately want her to see me as a man.

>>40476793
>I would never date someone that isn't exclusively a lesbian
Any special reason you wouldn’t go for bisexual women, or is it the typical fear that they’d leave you?

>>40476892
All bi women I was with with cucked me with a man, tried force-femming me and tried "fixing" me being stone despite loving it at first. Never again.

>>40476927
That’s rough. Were those relationships before you passed as a man?

>>40476392
>>40476419
>equating being a man to being someone honourable and heroic implies that being a woman cant be honourable and heroic
but thats the exact opposite of what I said anon. The point being whether you're born a woman or man you can still BE a ''man'' in the concept of what we hold upto being a man.

>not to mention that a normal man doesnt need to do any of this shit in order to be regiustered as a man in the eyes of others
but this isn't true at all. biological men who dont act like real men are seen and known as such by those close to them in their lives. Do we see manchildren as real men? no, because they're not. Women evaluate cis men by their value as an asset above all.

If the people close to you would see you as a man, why even care what randoms think? nor should you as a better man than them.

>>40477045
Yes. I also got with my current gf (lesbian) pre-T and she never tried doing any of that shit. She understands me being stone, doenst try to make me fem it up, is respectful of my dysphoria and will never cuck me with a moid.

>>40471177
you think domestic abuse is bad now...

>>40477246
>>40476927
idk this makes me sad even if she is great, u dont deserve to feel guilty over enjoying being masculine

>>40477323
lol this political lesbians are so painfully underaged.

>>40477246
That really sucks. I do feel that lesbians would definitely be more likely to properly appreciate (what they saw as) a truly GNC woman.
I’m genuinely not sure if you’d have the same issues with bi women now, especially since you’re probably a bit older, but I understand why you’d rather stick with things as they are. I do hope things work out between you two as long as you’re both happy.

>>40477153
>but thats the exact opposite of what I said anon
no its not
>you can still BE a ''man'' in the concept of what we hold upto being a man.
thats the point, its retarded to uphold this concept, its retarded to prescribe such characteristics to a biological reality, only to then claim that actually you might aswell be a man if youre like heroic and self sacrificial or whatever the fuck. are all heroic and self sacrificial women now men? or are they only men if they choose to call themselves so? if its the latter then this concept falls apart because its built on nothing but vibes and feelings
> Do we see manchildren as real men?
nonnita even if theyre denied the societal label of a "man" like 100% of the population still aknowledges the fact that theyre a biological man, they dont need to make up these copes about how theyre a man in the spirit to feel better about their lives
>If the people close to you would see you as a man
Youre making a mistake by believing that nondysphoric cissoids dont other you in their brain even if they claim to see you as a man. unless your close circles is entirely composed out of trannies i guess, and even then i still see mtfs and ftms as their respective birth sexes despite being a repper myself so who knows whats going on in their heads

how to make femrepper happy?

t. mtf with femrepper friend

>>40477853
>nonnita even if theyre denied the societal label of a "man" like 100% of the population still aknowledges the fact that theyre a biological man

and? what good does that do them. your priorities in how people perceive you are completely backwards anon. My own father has said I'm a better man than he was at my age and I don't bother to care about the vanity of it. Men do and don't care for appearances, read berserk.

>>40479086
>what good does that do them
their gender will never get revoked just because they fail to meet the spiritual expectation of what it means to be a man. because theyre male, they have a penis, they have testicles, they have a prostate, they have XY chromosomes, a male skeleton, a male skull. even if some annoying white bitch says that theyre not men enough that wont mean anything because the reality is that theyre objectively, indefutably, biologically, are men.

plap plap
get femreppers pregnant

>>40479228
like a cis man can be the most vile horrible piece of shit ever and people still wont misgender him because hes objectively male, meanwhile a tranny does something mildly bad and cisoids take that as a carte blanche to misgender them at any possibility. I dont want to be this vague, sexist, and frankly just plain corny ideal of being a man in the spirit and outmanning cismen with my gigasuperior male advice, I just want to be a normal man. But ill never be a man so Im stuck here arguing with you retards

>>40479228
>the reality is that theyre objectively, indefutably, biologically, are men.

sorry but no, they're not. but brother, WHO CARES. why would you ever be comparing yourself to some loser because he lucked out being born a male and still failed at life? hes revoked himself from being a man. Let the world whine and seethe like hysterical women about you, if you're a better man than everyone else thats all that matters in the end.

Butches were right all along.

>>40479321
>sorry but no, they're not.
their chromosomes woul say otherwise but sure keep repeating this mra sigma male nonsense
>but brother, WHO CARES
my dysphoria
>if you're a better man than everyone else thats all that matters in the end.
thats the problem i dont wanna outchad anyone i dont want to be guts from berserk I want to be a midugly average guy who just goes through life not having to think about this shit or invent elaborate cringe copes like this. the fact that i was denied this very humble desire is whats making me seethe

>>40479455
if you're already mediocre, what does having a penis change

>>40479876
my dysphoria. itll change my dysphroia.

>>40480204
even if you were a cis man with a micropenis smaller than your clit now?

>>40480320
yes

>anon wishes she was born male
>umm but you can be morally superior to cismales!!!
how does that solve the first problem at all

>>40480329
you're a silly person, ill give you that

>>40479455
Are you pre/early T dysphoriaposting or are you genuinely a repper? If the latter, what’s keeping you repping?

Bump

>>40469628 (OP)
I'm 25 and I'll have to switch to medicaid once I turn 26. I've been considering top surgery as a cope and still presenting as female, but I learned that medicaid in my state doesn't cover top surgery unless you've been on T for at least six months. I feel like it's over before I even started. Now I feel like I have to rush and attempt to conceal any effort while on my parent's insurance before it's too late. I'm also terrified of anesthesia because I went through anesthesia awareness and while top surgery would make a massive positive impact in my life I've also been terrified of being put under again.

Transitioning and going on HRT isn't an option for me because I'm not accepted. I tried coming out repeatedly between 11-14 because I wanted to go on blockers and unfortunately puberty fucked me up so much that I feel any effort to modify my hormones is pointless.

I just wish that I could go to sleep and never wak up again. I don't know why I had to be cursed with such a shitty family.

>>40480443
im not , theres nothing worse and more humiliating than existing as a woman
>>40480570
>what’s keeping you repping?
ill never be a man

>>40484079
>theres nothing worse and more humiliating than existing as a woman
I think that is a very unhealthy way to look at things.
Womanhood is what you make it. You are able to carve out a good life for yourself regardless of how you were born anon.
>ill never be a man
Sure.
But you could be a pretty damn good hrt butch.
Being a woman does not mean that you need to be feminine. Embrace masculinity. I think it will make you feel much better.

>>40484079
>theres nothing worse and more humiliating than existing as a woman
I wish you could actually be a man and find out how much worse men are treated.
Women know nothing but endless privilege and coddling.

>>40484095
>Women know nothing but endless privilege and coddling
Im the same anon who was physically abused by male peers my whole childhood, this doesnt apply to me. If I was male they wouldn't bully me for not performing femmininity
>>40484091
>But you could be a pretty damn good hrt butch.
>Embrace masculinity
Halfmeasures.

>>40484095
>endless privilege and coddling
me working since the age of 16 and supporting my parents by 22 vs my male cousin who's been playing vidya in his room for the last 27 years (his life is so hard, poor baby)

>>40484234
>Halfmeasures
Well there is not some magical machine that can just turn you into a cis guy anon, so the best you can do is get comfortable with a 'halfmeasure'.
Reject femininity, butchmax, hrt-rep and get yourself a short, cute, femme mtf gf.

tourists in this thread are under impression that femreppers are a massive chunk of the cosystem but desu i feel like its the same 10 crazy women with no life posting here

>>40484267
>so the best you can do is get comfortable with a 'halfmeasure'
I have a really strong "all or nothing" mentality that prevents me from moving anywhere in my life

All you butchcopers should be happy you at least have some shred of masculinity. I am literally a cishet woman. Fuck you all and fuck the blight that is femaleness

>>40484396
all it takes is one no-hrt tomboy to make me happy for the rest of my life

>>40484396
I would like to help and many of those 10 as possible.
Butchmaxxing, hrt-repping and a mtf femme gf is the path to femrepper happiness.
>>40484403
That is a serious problem that you should seek help with.
You should appreciate what is possible and 'good enough' in life. You will always be unhappy if you only accept the perfect.
>>40484481
>het
I am so, so sorry for you anon.
I have nothing but empathy for het femreppers.

>>40484488
Youre not finding them here go seek them in normal person spaces

>>40484481
I feel you. Being attracted to moids is a curse.

>>40484396
10 is overstatement I fear

>>40484234
>Nona thinks her male peer bullying wouldn't be x10 worse

Fucking kek

>>40484403
>I have a really strong "all or nothing" mentality that prevents me from moving anywhere in my life
Theoretically, what would happen to you/your life if you were to look/feel just 1% more male? (Aside from “I’d be miserable because I don’t look 100% male”, or anything else that wouldn’t be a change from where you are currently)

the loneliness is paralyzing

>>40484950
i wouldnt be bullied for not being femminine if i was a male so a huge part of my harassment would be gone + itd be easier to take it because i wouldnt be stuck in a feeble retarded body where all guys can use my head and as an armrest and push me into walls face first like its nothing

>>40485358
Well, if you are looking to talk to a short, mtf femme...

if you can rep, then you don't have it.

>>40485304
What does looking 1% male entail? Do I feel 1% less like a woman? Idk how Id feel, maybe a little happy that im one percent closer to a male, but ultimely still dissappointed because its just 1%. Thats probably how itd feel to be on hrt, like it feels nice to disfigure my femminity but its also pointless because thats just a fraction of whats being a man is like, thats a parody. id genuinely kill myself tomorrow if i found out that reincarnation is real

This is all so tiresome.

>>40485437
reincarnation is real

>>40485437
Would it cause any issues in your personal life that you’d be worried about? Would those potential issues, or your feelings, change if it was 25-60%? (At a point where different people would read you as an extremely masculine woman, a teenage boy, some sort of trans ((anywhere from gigapoon to hon)), and/or a man with/without odd features and/or some sort of disorder)

>>40485397
Agreed, I'm just mentally ill.

it's like I'm born to want unachievable things
>wish I were a man
>wish twinks remained young forever
>wish there were only white people and asians

>>40486000
hopefuel if true. thank you anon
>Would it cause any issues in your personal life that you’d be worried about?
Not really
>Would those potential issues, or your feelings, change if it was 25-60%?
Itd be the same feelings but amplified becuase itd be more noticable
>At a point where different people would read you as an extremely masculine woman, a teenage boy, some sort of trans
This arleady happens

>>40486334
>>wish there were only white people and asians
hate you all so fucking much

>>40486334
No wonder the karmic cycle put you in a foid vessel
such a vile soul

>>40486334
This, tired of brown people ruining everything and trying to trap us with them by tying gender and race together. No Jamal I do not support you.

What if I'm racist but, hear me out, only to muslims because their "religion" sucks?

>>40486745
Islam is not a race...

>>40486749
Um, race is a social construct, anyone can be a subhuman muslim

>>40486685
You can thank muh heckin intersectionalism.

>>40486782
Are you really that fucking stupid?

>>40486811
Melanin moment

>>40486672
Nta but I wonder what did I do to deserve being reincarnated like this. And Im not even talking about the poonerism, because yes thats an issue but even aside from dysphoria I had a laughably terrible life to the point where some people dont believe me when I talk about it. I kind of have like weird blurry pseudo memories about things that never happened to me like ever and feel like something from very long ago. I also get a sense of dejavu and nostalgia from mentions of certain topics and I feel weirdly drawn to them even if they were never actually present in my life. Ive tried becoming spiritual about this but I have this normieslop programming in my brain telling me none of this is real and Im just being crazy
>>40486745
Anon islamic teachings usurped and colonized many nations (balkans, north africa, central asia, the indian subcontinent, etc), they only actually benefit gulf arabs and serve to erase the authenticity of other cultures. Those usurped nations need your help, not scorn.

>>40486672
Nta but I wonder what did I do to deserve being reincarnated like this. And Im not even talking about the poonerism, because yes thats an issue but even aside from dysphoria Ive had a laughably terrible life to the point where some people dont believe me when I talk about it. I kind of have like weird blurry pseudo memories about things that never happened to me like ever. I also get a sense of dejavu and nostalgia from mentions of certain topics and I feel weirdly drawn to them even if they were never actually present in my life. Ive tried becoming spiritual about this but I have this normieslop programming in my brain telling me none of this is real and Im just being crazy
>>40486745
Anon islamic teachings usurped and colonized many nations (balkans, north africa, central asia, the indian subcontinent, etc), they only actually benefit gulf arabs and serve to erase the authenticity of other cultures. Those usurped nations need your help, not scorn

"The Group is sacred because it is whole; it is whole because it is sacred. Seventeen is unity because unity is seventeen. The Order persists because it must, and it must because it persists."

>>40486829
>sense of dejavu and nostalgia from mentions of certain topics and I feel weirdly drawn to them even if they were never actually present in my life
If it’s traumaslop, those feelings are unironically just empathy from experiencing feelings of helplessness through other means. Experiences that lead to those feelings typically generate similar behaviours and outlooks. An extreme version of this is like how someone who recovered from childhood cancer can share PTSD symptoms with someone who went to war, despite being completely different experiences.

>>40486937
>If it’s traumaslop, those feelings are unironically just empathy from experiencing feelings of helplessness through other means
No Im talking about more abstract topics and concpects and very specific events from the past that literally have no correlation to me

I wish I was white and a man

>>40487118
lmao i don't think the tumblr-style left is prepared for the advent of genetic engineering. imagine their reaction when blue eyed aryans start popping up all over third and second world countries.

>>40487138
Tumblr style left is not prepared for how racist post soviet second worldies are. Like 90% of us have brown hair and brown eyes but if your brown hair and brown eyes are one shade darker than the rest of the populations you might aswell be african.

>>40487138
No one wants to be a non

>>40486846
The advent of hedonism coincides with Kali Yuga in which the majority of humans are hylics after getting left behind. They thus contribute to a pervasive skepticism on spirituality due to their inability to be free of materialism. They worship happiness aka the release of endogenous opioids and thus seethe at being free of the mortal coil to achieve that.
I could not imagine a worse fate than our timeline and world in being a biological woman. A slave to brutes and their sustem based on material wealth. It is immensely cucked and degrading. Especially since in this ‘free’ world, that just means the inhabitants just let their impulses take over without shame, and now you have sexpests, vapid cunts, greedy pigs, and soulless consoomers rampant

>>40487336
>thinking humans being retarded, rapey, and greedy is new
open a history book or something

>>40487336
>I could not imagine a worse fate than our timeline and world in being a biological woman
Not only that but I have a very extensive history of trauma and people being shitty to me for little to no reason aswell as general "unluckiness" (Im not sure if I actually believe in luck, what I mean by this is that there were so many points in my life where the worst outcome happened, like one of those worst outcomes that you examine and ruminate over and think that youre just being paranoid because its so unrealistic and out there and totally cant happen to you, except it does. Also had so many shitshows spiral out of harmless innocuous decisions). Like what did I do was I a fucking dictator or something

>>40487364
new? Kali Yuga started eons ago
clown world from the start
>>40487495
Sometimes it really feels like it comes down to luck to not only have been born this way, in this world but also receive unlucky events. Most hylics would argue that you can assert some level of control and victim blame, but they suffer from a deluded internal locus of control in a universe full of variables outside of one’s consciousness. It’s just unlucky nona, and all one can do is reroll. But in the off chance the accumulated karma can help that, you can choose to not resemble those aggressors. Nothing more pathetic than a faggot who uses their past to excuse horrible actions

I'm so fucking stupid why can't I force myself to do things I need to be doing. Fuck my stupid foid brain.
I've been neglecting my health for years, it feels like my body is rotting and falling apart. There's a job I can do and make enough money to treat all that can be treated, except for some chronic conditions probably but I just don't want to. I feel like I deserve to suffer. All I do is wait for someone to come and say that I do not actually deserve it and I don't have to do it alone and they'll be there for me all the way. I'm a stupid fucking damsel in distress except no one is coming to save me. It doesn't make any sense that I'm so dysphoric about my body while having the most female brain possible. Please tell me to kill myself and I will, there's no point living.

>>40487623
common procrastination or adhd?

>>40487636
I'm not sure if common procrastination can last 3 years. Not diagnosed with anything but chronic depression, psychiatrists in my country suck. They don't diagnose adults with adhd or autism so I guess I'll never know what's wrong with me.

>>40487781
>They don't diagnose adults with adhd or autism
youre slavic arent you

>>40487781
yep you're a slav

>>40487795
Yup

why is there so amny slavics here holy shit

>>40487874
Because our healthcare sucks and everyone is poor duh

>>40487874
we have the willpower required to rep

>>40488013
And no insurance that covers trans shit

>>40488068
>insurance
lmao i can just walk into a hospital and get help immediately. for free. same with the less urgent shit. why would i need what essentially amounts to racket? i've done some reading on the topic and luigi was right.

>>40488013
>>40487947
This is why talking to american tranners feels like torture. Retarded westoids whinning about how they werent able to start hrt at 14 bcs of their parents FAGGOT THAT WASNT EVEN AN OPTION FOR ME if youre a minor you get no blockers no hrt no anything you are gigacucked and forced to watch your peers mature and grow into men while you remain a pintsized underdeveloped subhuman. And the worst part is that you CAN get a gender dysphoria diagnosis as a minor but you cant do anything about it because fuck you I guess. My parents are relatively accepting of me not being a typical woman so if I was born in america theyd likely allow my teenage self to start hrt and I wouldn't be as mentally ill as I am today. Literally could've had it all if I wasn't a subhuman eastern European fuck my shitty slavoid life

>>40488121
>reeee a gender affirming care for minors clinic shut down in my state!! literal genocide, i'm going to kms!!!
They are so whiny

>>40488121
Really, you can get a gender dysphoria diagnosis and not schizophrenia (unless you travel to the capital and go to 1 of 2 psychiatrists who know about trannies)?

>>40488455
This bitches wouldn't last a day outside the US

>>40488121
>Literally could've had it all if I wasn't a subhuman eastern European fuck my shitty slavoid life
lmao but at least you are not American
glad you found something to feel proud of bud

>>40488719
>Really, you can get a gender dysphoria diagnosis and not schizophrenia
Most of them label any mental ilness outside of depression or anxiety as schizophrenia

>>40488759
>lmao at least you dont live in this first world country where everything is infinitely better and you wont instantly get hatecrimed for being a tranny and lgbt people actually ahve rights and laws that protect them and future
Are we deadass

>>40488909
We don't even have same-sex marriages nigga

>>40489025
we dont either whats your point

>>40489164
I'm retarded and misread the whole thing

>>40488909
Think you misunderstood them. They're not saying America is worse; they're making fun of you for the fact that not being American is something you're proud of.
Still doesn't make sense since that's not what you said.

>>40488121
I really wonder what these posters look like
Would a cis male ever post a word essay like this

been getting into umamusume lately

>>40489395
>would cis male do [normal thing most people have done millions of times]?

>>40489395
You are on a website where men write long wordy vent posts constantly, yes obviously a man would write a word essay like that.

>>40489395
>I really wonder what these posters look like
acne, caveman slouch due to dysphoria and binding, unkempt dark hair, dark eyes, skinnyfat, methhead stare, eyebags, disproportinal face and body with wide shoulders and long orangutan arms, heightmogged by average cis woman, thrifted ill fitting male clothes with holes and stains on them. but thats just me idk for others
>Would a cis male ever post a word essay like this
have you ever talked to a looksmaxxing incel.

>>40489545
why are you such a neet neckbeard lmfaooo

>>40489545
>caveman slouch, unkempt dark hair, dark eyes, skinnyfat, methhead stare, eyebags, disproportinal face and body with wide shoulders and long orangutan arms, heightmogged by average cis woman, thrifted ill fitting male clothes with holes and stains on them
Real

>>40489545
tfw staceymoding

I was sexually rejected by my dad 3x before these thoughts began taking control of me. I think I want to be like him since I can't have him. It's all so humiliating.

>>40489610
>why are you such a neet neckbeard lmfaooo
untreated mental illness + parents checked out of raising me at age 12 and are allowing me to rot both mentally and physically + i only leave the house to buy food + only talk to my family and even then we dont actually like. talk talk. its just surface level hi hello good morning or like domestic dialogues that are only happening out of necessity. i am not well liked or understood by them and the feeling is mutual + nothing seems desirable + i have no future i doubt im ever gonna get a job not only because of mental illness but also because im a quitter and wnenever anything gets too hard i give up + i have no one who actually believes in me, my whole family concluded that im a loser who wont ever amount to anything, and its hard to be optimistic when the only people you talk to think of you as a brainless retard who will mooch on didsability money her whole life. i think ive been conditioned to think of myself as a failure

>>40489395
Obese, greasy hair (shoulder length, always in a ponytail or bun), brown teeth because smoking + coffee + no brushing, cross-eyed, shitty pcos facial hair, short with tiny shoulders and comically small hands and feet, dressed in whatever I can find for free/very cheap, male female unisex whatfuckingever. I would've been a walking incel caricature if I were male.

>>40489769
>my parents
>nobody
>conditioned
>allowing me to rot
Bitch you don't need permission to live.

Although these are a good reminder why I should stop coming here. Compared to y'all I'm comically successful and well adjusted despite the dysphoria, channeling the frustration into work and hobbies, and I project my experiences onto (You) when it's not actually true. And opinions here are neet opinions which have very little to do with reality.

>>40489769
Damn. People think a certain way for a reason though, and, although, irrationality can take a hold. The more people that coincide with a belief tilt the odds in their beliefs being more likely true. There are a lot of cis males who lead that kind of bum lifestyle citing upbringing and autism/neurodivergence as a primary factor. You kind of live the same life you would've led as a male, but maybe you are aware of that. I would hope actually having gender dysphoria establishes a sort of realistic perspective in comparison to the normie women who claim they would have been chad if male. My condolences nona, I would probably reroll or go live in the woods. It doesn't sound like living
>>40489789
Damn. Haha . . . at least that is male brained or something I guess . . .

>>40489898
>>my parents
>>nobody
how is this a contradiction if were not close like at all and the only reason why theyre tolerating my presence is because im their child
> Compared to y'all I'm comically successful and well adjusted despite the dysphoria
do you want an asspat for being more succesful than a bottom dwelling mentally ill neet loser you retarded vain bitch. why are you telling me this. being a grade above bottom of the barrel is not an accomplishment, you shouldn't be proud of this thats the bare minimum
>>40489915
>The more people that coincide with a belief tilt the odds in their beliefs being more likely true.
no yeah exactly and being self aware doesnt help because it doesnt kill the belief it just makes your exsitence seem more absurd
>You kind of live the same life you would've led as a male
not really because a lot of my problems stem from being tranny adjacent. like i kind of dont even try anymore because the overwhelmingly cis society will always view me as a freak for having a different gender expression even if I start masking and working through my trauma and other stuff
>I would hope actually having gender dysphoria establishes a sort of realistic perspective in comparison to the normie women who claim they would have been chad if male
I feel like id definitely be a loser but like with the tranny thing out of the way thas like one less massive problem, I wouldnt have to drag this existence where living as neither gender feels authentic because ive never properly lived as a man but due to dysphoria ive also never properly lived as a woman and at this point neither feels natural or authentic
>It doesn't sound like living
I feel like I have cotards syndrome but like self aware. It feels like I died when I was still a child

why do i want to be the polar opposite of what i am? i am a pale, frail sickly asocial woman who detests sports and is incredibly frigid. meanwhile my greatest and strongest burning desire is to be a sporty, outgoing man with a strong sun tan, pulsating musculature and high libido whom always has sex with many women and enjoys close bonds with male friends. why is my brain so fucked?

>>40489743
elaborate on sexually rejected please

>>40469628 (OP)
women don't do anything for me sexually but I've started playing this dating sim and it's fun pretending to live the life I never could
it's so fun fantasising about what I'd do to these whores if I had the chance

>>40490852
What dating sim?

Bump

i miss having friends

Why has this thread been so active? It should be a slow thread. I have a life and can’t keep up with all these NEET posts.

As always my favorite people are the bulldyke on T and gaydenreppers. I fill find someone like you irl to eat my pussy. Hope you’re all gonna have a good day.

WAGMI

>>40490386
Read Yukio Mishima
>he fits this motif
>was also a repper

I wish I didn’t like the personalities of femreppers so much it feels weird

>>40493212
You don't. You just make up shit about posters here in your head and project it outwards.

>>40493296
I dont make up anything about them except that they are fem reppers. I just like the things they say and how they say them.

>>40493320
do you mean people on this thread specifically or femreppers in general

Men on this board are freaking about a new app. >>40489645 it looks like it’s for strait women to make sure a man is safe before going out in a date with him/rate him? Idk and don’t really care what the straits do. Thought the gaydenreppers could use it though.

I might download it just to be nosy and give guys that I’m friends with all good ratings so they get laid.

>>40493092
i've read mishima once but only his early works like confessions of a mask and some short story collections. is reading sun and steel going to help me understand why my brain is fucked? i mean it makes way more sense for a man to want to be a better sort of man vs a woman who just doesn't want to be a woman at all... also why do you say he was a repper?

>>40494047
Repressor like in the closet repressing his homo urges. In a way you’re just a failed man anon.

>>40494070
i think it's just fundamentally impossible for me to fully relate to any male whatsoever even someone like mishima who, throughout his life, was greatly distressed by the insufficiency of his body. in a way, he had it better than me. he got jacked, married a woman, even had children and became a well respected figure in literature... that's a far cry from a severely mentally ill woman who is depressed because she's not a burly man with a penis to fuck women with (which mishima didn't think much of since he was a homo). i think only other males can benefit from adopting mishima's philosophy.

pregnancy time

>>40489743
How do you get to the point of wanting to fuck your dad? Send pics of him

>>40493868
In this thread, I dont really see femreppers anywhere else. I did date someone once who was probably one…

>wake up
>remember that i am me
>instantly feel like shit
>lay in bed staring at the ceiling raskolnikov style thinking about my writting and contemplating life
>crawl out of bed, take the trash out, unload the dishwasher, clean cats bowls
>check this thread because its a part of my routine atp
>smoke a cigarette
>mindlessly scroll youtube shorts for 2 hours and contemplate suicide
>go outside to get groceries
>buy an energy drink and an icecream sandwich
>go home, unpeel the sweaty duct tape I bind with from my skin, sit in the shower for half an hour
>put on the same clothes that i was in before the shower because i dont have any clean ones + new duct tape
>smoke 3 more cigarettes and eat ice cream
>scroll 4chan
>its moms birthday and she wants us to go eat sushi together, but Im not close to her and we have nothing in common + I kind of hate her
>still agree to it because free food
bleak retarded pointless existence

>>40494422
>In this thread, I dont really see femreppers anywhere else
I dont blame you desu I feel like a lot of us have a unique perspective on life due to the way we are

>wake up
>check phone
>0 messages
>scroll 4chan
>scroll reddit
>remember that banned on reddit and can't comment
>seethe, go back to 4chan
>smoke a couple of cigarettes in the meantime
>check tinder, grindr, taimi, local dating shit
>see one notification, not even excited anymore
>of course it's spam
>I'm gonna die alone I'm gonna die alone I'm gonna die alone
>go to bathroom, take a dump, sit on the toilet until can't feel legs while scrolling
>go make instant coffee
>play vidya for 4 hours
>"shit I'm hungry"
>eat a sausage right out of the fridge
>back to gaming
>smoke another half of pack
>drink more coffee
>tired of gaming, go back to 4chan
>goon
>4chan
>reddit
>try to clock pooners on tinder
>fail
>smoke
>scroll
>coffee
>sleep
Most productive day of the most mentally stable repper (haven't thought about suicide)

>>40493874
I feel like nobody is going to use this or it’s going to get raided until it’s useless. Most women I know just post cringey screenshots of the messages they receive on their private Instagram.
Reminds me of shitty sites that were around years ago that all died off, Always Sunny has an episode about it (“The Gang Group Dates”). We really are regressing.

have you had your fertility clinically assessed?

what's the stupidest thing that makes you dysphoric? mine is being afraid of bugs

>>40496936
being kind to people

>>40496976
also other women just existing. genuinely have no idea how anybody can find women attractive because when i look at them all i see is this

>>40496976
Someone had shitty male role models, I see.

>>40497417
yes

>>40496936
I love bugs. Idk but I have a terrible Napoleon complex and anything can trigger it.