>>40474314 (OP)I realize that unfortunately, like that I’m meant to be on the bottom of the system, to work until death, be alone, and never find happiness only fleeting glimpses that are quickly faded. I’ll continue on though, broke, scrambling to survive and if by chance somebody can stand me I’ll become jaded and faded, faking things and holding it together for some level of normality while life passes me by, eventually they’ll leave and I’ll be alone again, and they’ll find me in a shitty one bedroom apartment a mummified corpse, tossed into an oven as I doubt anybody would claim the body best case is my body is dumped in a pine box and sent to a grave pit to rot