Chud edition

QOTT: Did you have a politically extremist phase growing up?

Last thread: >>40580533

>long hair
>pale skin
>blue eyes
I love you babydollanon

>When the dysphoria hits

>iwnb babydollanon
great, a new thing to add to the list

>>40596910
did you seriously have to make this the first post in the entire thread...
>>40596831 (OP)
>QOTT
not really? i will admit i was kind of ignorant as a young kid especially (being a pretty bad sperg at the time things like traditions where some kids would come to school in "fancy dress" and some wouldn't always struck me as weird) but that was more just a lack of understanding than anything
i never really understood much of the appeal of extremism anyway, especially when the sources of most of the problems we have tend to be way simpler than the grand conspiracies people propose

>>40596831 (OP)
qott: not with any kind of depth
>>40596910
i'm just thinking about this song every time you call them that lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBHL2eW0yJU

>>40596987
Yes babydollanon fpbp <3
>>40596989
okay now this her (babydollanon’s) theme song

>>40596986
i'm really sorry i don't understand why they're focusing on me like this
>>40596989
>i'm just thinking about this song every time you call them that lol
anon don't encourage them...
>>40597035
>fpbp <3
that's not fair you can't make simping for an imaginary interpretation of me fpbp
>babydollanon
please don't tell me that's my name here now...

>>40597181
>>>40596986 (You)
>i'm really sorry i don't understand why they're focusing on me like this
change your typing style anon and stop giving excessive self-description
the new era of pinkpilling will be personalized and 100% suited to you

>>40596910
Creepy transbian groomer hands wrote this

>>40597200
>the new era of pinkpilling will be personalized and 100% suited to you
Gangstalking AI pinkpilling (but unironically)

>>40597216
did i read something wrong or did they go with this back and forth the entire previous thread? at this point anon wants to be groomed let's be real

>>40597367
doing this the old fashioned way (constantly smoking weed until I become schizo)

>>40597216
kinda wish a transbian would groom me to be honest

>>40597181
babydollanon is your name now yes
I am a cis guy btw not a transbian

>>40597408
>cis guy
>pinkpiller
post nose

Yea i was an anticiv fag. It went away after starting hrt

>>40597408
is this new chaser tech?

>>40597476
it’s not fair that girls only get attention from guys after transitioning haha

why does the repper thread keep attracting pinkpillers anyway you'd think that they'd recognise that this was basically the hotspot for the people least likely to be receptive

>>40596831 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40597527
that's exactly why it attracts pinkpillers
"i can fix him" type girls

>>40597527
not like there's anywhere else to try to pinkpill as many people though
>>40597536
no

>>40597550
>"i can fix him"
i guess i just really hope these people can develop a greater level of self-esteem so they're able to recognise that it wouldn't really end well :(
>>40597536
sorry anon
maybe in another world but not this one

>>40597527
>the people least likely to be receptive
thats why they come here. insecure trannies have to pinkpill to prove to themselves transition was right for them, and they get a proportional reward for engaging with deep reppers. the reward being distraction from the regret of their failed transition, of course

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40597634
i guess that makes sense
i just hope the people doing it find some healthier way of coming to terms with that, though? if that's even possible...

lol you are trans women
only trans women would
>hang out dooming about repping
>worry about not being trutrans
>get all flustered and blushy when treated like a girlfriend
yeah you need to pit in the work for your transition but you are women
and I choose babydollanon to be my gf
a cute pale British girl with sparkling blue eyes how could I not fall for her

>>40596831 (OP)
No. As long as I have been aware of politics, I have been a centrist (but more of an economically liberal and socially liberal one). The only standout politician who is not a centrist I have liked is Bernie Sanders.

>>40597634
this
>t. manmoder lurker

>>40597663
lol that doesn’t make any sense at all it’s amazing how creative reppers have to be to maintain the constant delusions required to not transition

is dysphoria actually messing with my perception of my masculinity? i'm worried if i dont troon out soon i wont last much longer, but i really dont want to end up looking like a hon...

>>40597839
you’re going to have to give a more detailed sense of the context here

>>40597692
>British
>depressed
imagine the teeth
>>40597703
sorry anon...
then again i do think there's some valid reasons beyond just the brainworms. but yeah a lot of it is brainworms

>>40597851
what i mean is does dysphoria delude your senses to make you feel/believe you look a lot more masculine than you actually are, or is that just horribly dangerous cope? everytime i look at myself, i genuinely believe there isn't any hope of me actually passing..

Have you dated men recently?

>>40597915
No because faggotry is ontologically bad.

>>40597703
i say all that after transitioning and then realizing it wasnt for me
nearly every tranny 'friend' ive had was vile and insecure and instead of reflecting they tried to groom people to vicariously live through

>>40597970
>but if I "become" a woman then I can have sex with men!

>>40597915
Men are stinky and gross

>>40598048
men created civilization
you should try showering with your male partner before sex or cuddling
it can be quite nice to be intimate in the shower just feeling and soaping up another man's body
and then no more stink

>>40598063
>another man
no I want a gf, repper is fine if she’s cute like babydollanon

>>40597915
nah the last one figured it out so haven't subjected anyone else to me in a few years

>>40597901
yeah dysphoria definitely can warp your perspective actually that is not a bad definition of dysphoria

>>40598083
what if a man sexually overpowered you?

>>40598209
sorry bro friendly fire there I am a dude, I am babydollanon’s bf

>>40598083
babydollanon said he wasn't cute though
multiple times
extensively

>>40598219
most dudes are bisexual

>>40598257
of course she said that she’s a repper she has to maintain hopelessness and self loathing but I love her and can see the truth

>>40598266
well that may be but I only want to be with women, hence dating babydollanon

>>40598280
anon you can't "see the truth" you don't know him

>>40598343
you want to be with men, ur just scared others would judge you

>>40597703
my face when I creatively give myself poverty and then creatively give myself a learning disability.

I still want to be a big titty anime girl

>>40597692
>yeah you need to pit in the work
If only I could work away the bones.

>>40598407
I have been around enough to know what’s up
>>40598407
no I want to date a trans woman not a man

>>40598705
he's not a woman though he's repping so like he clearly has no intention of transitioning for whatever reason

>>40598727
pretty much all trans girls have a repping phase also no need to pretend to be someone else

>>40598753
>pretty much all trans girls have a repping phase
i guess that makes sense but there's a difference between a repper and a transfem in that the latter would actually transition and the former, for some reason, wouldn't (whether logical or otherwise)
also anon seriously come on you're better than this

tfw having a panic attack

>>40598804
just repeat to yourself - its ok to be a feminine male

>>40597408
>I'm a cis guy
Lol
>Babydoll
Sissy boomer ass name, and "babydollanon" is probably gooning to it while playing the anime tsundere.

why are tg stories so much better than troonslop scribblehun fics?

>>40598788
Every trans woman think she will never transition during her repper phase but I will remind you it’s just a phase I mean just by being your bf you will see how being a woman is not some weird delusion it’s the repping that’s the delusion I know it’s scary but little by little you can escape the catatonic suffocating feeling of not being who you really are

>>40598804
It’s alright breathe deep and evenly

troons have more in common with crossdressing than proper genderbending stories, lmao
the sad state of bio science and the delusion of trannies

to rep or to manmode, that is the question

>>40597636
I wish I was a mom :(

>>40599016
manmode

>>40596987
>especially when the sources of most of the problems we have tend to be way simpler than the grand conspiracies people propose
life made 100% more sense for me when i realized its all just the fucking jews

Hi /rep/gen. You all get an affirmation huge because I love you all and mommy has been drinking

>>40598822
>and "babydollanon" is probably gooning to it
I hope she is, I want her to feel good

>>40598822
>Sissy boomer ass name
i said this earlier it's an awful name
>"babydollanon" is probably gooning to it
swear to god i'm not lmao
i'm honestly moreso kind of surprised that this guy's decided to latch onto me specifically ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>40599135
are you serious right now :/

>>40598914
tru

>>40599195
don’t be mean to your bf!

>>40599214
he isn't my "bf" i don't know him
as much as the enthusiasm is appreciated i suppose it's misplaced i'm sorry

>>40599086
thank you but you're lying nobody loves me

>>40599238
a guy falls out of the sky and likes you and wants to be nice to you it’s not so bad

>>40599268
>and likes you
that's the thing though, they don't know me
i know that i'm gross and kind of offputting and i don't engage with self-care and i look like a neanderthal and i'm just not a person that most people would want to be around
anon, as nice as he's being, doesn't seem to want to understand that
if this were to go any further (as a hypothetical, i don't have an intention to engage like that) then there'd inevitably be a point where they realise, "oh shit, they actually *were* the weird, gross man they kept saying they were" and they'd dip and probably feel kind of used, and i wouldn't want to do that to anyone

>>40599324
I wouldn’t feel that way, yes I get it you;re a bit undersocialized but I understand that comes with dealing with a world full of transphobia I don’t hold it against you all of us have room to grow and develop it’s just nice to have someone to go through this life with someone to care for and who cares for you

>>40599238
>the enthusiasm is appreciated
thank you babe!

>>40599265
You're very wrong! My cat would love you!

>>40599517
i literally look like this zero exaggeration

>>40599539
Lucky. I'm balding

>>40599539
I dont believe you !

>>40598822
>and "babydollanon" is probably gooning to it while playing the anime tsundere.
trvke. this shit is getting a little annoying to be honest, there's like zero conversation in this new thread outside of their roleplay.

>>40596831 (OP)
Yes, I tend towards radicalism and totalizing ideologies to feel less freaked out about how much we don't know about the world.

IWNBAW :(

>>40597692
woman is when u have AGP

>>40597839
it's better to cope with (soft) drugs than be a troon.

>>40598831
ah yes, transition from being a dysphoric man to some other thing that is definitely not a woman and not really a man. definitely gonna fix the desire to be female

>>40599517
lol is that tommy wiseau?
>>40599555
>trips
witnessed

are there ACTUALLY good tranny webcomics or r they all self hugboxxing slop
are there repper literature?

Misogyny is a great ally against my dysphoria. But whenever I see this data I am sure that being a woman is superior. If only the difference wasn't so big...

I love spending all afternoon zoning out and feeling physical anxiety for no reason. favorite past time for sure
>>40599565
fr, need to get a room
>>40599596
> are there repper literature?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Industrial_Society_and_Its_Future

>>40599596
not a webcomic but michelle perez's the pervert is prime repper literature

>>40599565
jealousssssss bitch

>>40599612
>Industrial Society and It's Future
Isn't it interesting how Ted, a bright young man with an even brighter future, wanted to transition and get SRS AFTER being victim to an MKUltra experiment in college that involved him being constantly verbally abused and humiliated?

I'm going to obviously shave every strand of hair between my knees and neck byeee repgen i love youuu

>>40599757
If hes a zoomer hed be psyopped into traanime shit

>>40600006
do you need help
t. chaser

>>40600006
Obsessively !

>>40600006
nair >>>

>>40600023
Yes, I've been drinking alot
t.struggling with capchas

>>40600060
I would love to really get in there also maybe kiss you a bit if there is any razor irritation?

>>40600100
I shaved my unmentionables and there's Hella irritation actually.. thought I did enough to prevent it it makes me so saaaaad

>>40599604
A big part of womanhood historically(pre birth control) and today is self sacrifice and selfless love / care for others. These concepts arent exclusive to women by any means, just being pregnant and giving birth and childrearing tends to force women to a more spiritual and loving/selfless place (what religion is all about/ love thy neighbor ) so i suggest abandoning misogyny and embracing an open forgiving heart. This will help you

>>40600112
you think some kisses would help?

why are there chasers here. do we not use enough of the rest of the board for that

>>40600124
Are kisses better than moisturizing because hell yeeeaahhhh

>>40600143
let’s do some investigation

>>40600160
Made another drink for u bby

think about how desperate the average chaser is and now imagine what a chaser who goes after reppers is like

Back hair is gross OMMMGGG

>>40600384
I wish I had a chaser-repper boyfriend. Imagine him teasing you when you are clearly a man who claims to be bothered by his teasing when you secretly enjoy it. Of course, that was when I was young. Today I'm just an old, bald guy and imagining myself in a relationship with another man is boring.

>>40600384
we probably deserve it tbf

>>40600123
Why tho ill never have a womb to give birth to kids or anything

reapers are too boring to flirt with online

>>40600468
fucking HATE back hair FFS
fucking hate body hair in general but back hair especially AAAAAA
>>40600538
>aww let's go off the mortal coil together <3
>cute but can i take your soul now :3
>thanks for calling me pretty let's go to hades :)
yeah i can see why

>>40600565
reddit

TURN ME INTO ANIME GIRL
GOD PLEASE

>>40600894
anime isn't real. Stop being cringe

>>40601021
neither is trans oh oops ah

life is just one big mating ritual
the final and ultimate blackpill

looked in the mirror and felt okay instead of terrible

>>40601243
Love you

>>40601250
why

>>40601175

>>40601252
bc you deserve love

>>40601263
that doesn't sound right

>>40601267
yeah you’re not used to thinking clearly

>>40601274
that's not nice

>>40601080
>>40601256

>>40601284
Tough love for you

>>40601302
do you still love me if i still want to be a girl

>>40601318
Not only do I still love you but now I want to date you

>>40601333
you should have higher standards

>>40601080
Trans people have always existed

I'm so hungry but I must lose this depression fat.

>>40601336
Don’t tell me what to do, woman

>>40601348
no

>>40599614
read it
i guess the ending feels kinda reppercore

who is the prettiest repper?

>>40602239
the nonna reading this <3

>>40602239
If we were pretty we wouldn't rep

>>40602252
not even close to true
I know some of you are cute because you go on to become super cute girls

give me more reppercore anime or movies or comics or manga or vidya (NOT HOI4)

>>40597915
No. Only bottomed for them on grindr if they bought me panties.

>>40598567
I still want to be a smol titty furry girl.

My name is Anon and I have autololiphillia

>>40602829
for manga:
>joshi kouhei (extremely repper coded)
>inside mari (shuzo oshimi, already admitted he wants to be a woman)
>welcome back alice (also shuzo oshimi and straight up has a tranny character)
>death note (light gives me highly intelligent repper vibes. no romantic interest in misa, obsessed with a goal greater than himself, etc.)
>any gender bender manga really

for movies:
>the skin i live in (trash movie but very agp fantasy like)
>silence of the lambs (obvious reasons)
>anything by takena (youtube channel that does gory claymation stuff)

for games:
>any grand strategy game
>factorio
>very modded minecraft

those are the first that come to mind. id love to know more of them too.

How would your parents react if they found out you were trans?

Mother: total shock and denial
Dad: Confusion
Brother: Anger, Insults

>>40603314
im setting up a modded skyrim with the anime girl mod but i keep getting sidetracked modding other shit to it
ive already watched silence of the lambs
i got the skin i live in to watch next

my brain feels like it's boiling from not going outside
>captcha vag40

i've been oversleeping a lot recently because being asleep sort of feels like not existing and that's way less painful than existing as a repper
i wish i could go back to my warm and comfy bed right now

>>40603412
My mom would not buy it at first but be supportive eventually. Dad would be secretly disappointed. Brother wold be 100 percent supportive but his wife would be shocked i had a feminine side at all and probably wanna take m on girls nights which I would avoid.

I just imagined myself with a full beard and physically recoiled in disgust. I am done with this shit.
Because modern methods are a fucking scam, I will dedicate all of my free time to try every single schizo technique in existence in order to become a woman. My first stop will be ceremonial magic, maybe summoning a powerful spirit that can drastically change my form. If i succeed, I will post all of my knowledge here for free. If I fail, I'll either troon out anyway or blow my brains out.
This might take years.

Wish me luck.

>>40603412
Complete disownment, there's a reason I repped throughout my childhood despite actively being sent to psychologists to try and find out what my problem was.

>>40603412
my mother literally asked me if i wish to be a woman once, but she quickly rejected the idea

>>40605105
I feel like a real phony when asked straight up if I want to be a woman. I know nothing of womanhood I pretty much just want to look exactly like one, and be treated like one, and have sex like one.

>>40600529
Putting others first and following the golden rule WILL make you happy. Jordan peterson goes on about this a lot but negative feelings and high self awareness are super correlated. The cure to that is focusing less on yourself and more on others. You dont have to have a womb or give birth to be kind and helpful to others

>>40605485
>focusing less on yourself and more on others
sounds like cope for those who are not lucky enough to feel good with themselves. on brand for jordan peterson, really

>>40605485
>Putting others first

you gotta be careful with shit like this. you could easily end up a doormat.

being agp and not passing is so debilitating that the only activities i can engage with all day is talking to online strangers and watching youtube slop, i just hope i get the courage to kms eventually

iwnb babydollanon or anything remotely cute or feminine

>>40604454
good luck anon

>>40605485
absolutely seconding >>40605738 on this
>t. constantly continuing to ruin my life by being a complete doormat but not having the mental fortitude to tell people to fuck off because the act of being useful at all is pretty much the only way i can justify wasting other people's time by existing around them

>>40598914
>tsf and traps have always been my two favorite genres of escapism fuel manga
being a passing tranny would be a perfectly acceptable in-between for me, and the fact that it's achievable for a non-zero amount of 3dpds makes the fact that it's something I could never get close to with my hideous hulking man body all the more difficult to cope with

do i take hrt at 30

>>40606507
better than 40

i may have disliked my facial and body hair since i was 12 and hate my lanky awkward broad shouldered male build and ripped my hair out over how my face changed but i would never ever ever ever ever take estrogen because i am just a fake trans peter pan syndrome trender fetishist

>>40606631
this so much but honestly... i kinda liked being lanky (though my shoulders were and are small)

i've had fantasies of being one of the girls since kindergarten but all that shows is that i've been a disgusting pervert fetishist for the vast majority of my life

i've gone insane and started muttering to myself under my breath that i want to be a girl

The "Just Watched An Asian Girl With A Bleached Bob And Headphones In A Commercial And Got Dysphoria Again" Award

Still remembering that time my female coworkers started talking about how they love being women and all the good parts of it and I cried on my way home from work that day

I dreamed that I was wearing panties at school.

>tfw the hon from 2019 you used to make fun of is now a gigapassoid and you’re still a man

>>40607431
i'm excited to learn nothing from this

I feel like I have no genuine way of speaking, can't even pass as a person

>>40607056
Oh I know that commercial, she is cute isn't she? I also wanted to be her when I saw it.

at this point i'd be okay with being an ugly, lanky, bony woman, but hrt just makes you look like an effeminate ugly, lanky, bony man
what a fate i have been trusted with.

Do (You) demand sympathy /repgen/?

>>40605485
i do that but i'm not happy

>>40606507
yes

>>40608237
wanna kill ourselves together

it is sorta funny the john 50 paper gets linked as an example of why you should just transition now because imo
> In interviews, one gets the impression that the struggle to contain their gender expression deprivation anxiety--in and of itself--has become deeply ingrained in their psyche. It is as if the gender dysphoria has become a critical component of who they have become. Characteristically these people can be described as sad, depressed and deeply resentful. In treating these individuals, the best that can be done is to help them feel better about cross-dressing
describes how I'd categorize how I feel about myself way better. I don't want to transition and thinking about it just makes me more disgusted, won't john 50 because I'm still going to fucking hate myself regardless
>>40608293
look I just want to post about wanting to kill myself and if there's a place more out of the way to do that so it doesn't look like I'm baiting for sympathy please let me know

>>40608293
>"girl" in handle
why do hons do this so much? literally every boomerhon out there adds at least one "girl/gurl" in everything, from every plebbit post they make to social media bios to twitter handles. women don't do that nearly with the same fervor trannies do.
if i were a cis woman i'd be a terf, this shit among other troon behavior is kind of creepy.

>>40608293
I do not
I am a background figure in my own life

imagining myself as a girl with a boyfriend

i'm not a repper i am not a repper i am not a repper i have nothing to rep nothing to rep nothing to rep

>>40608432
>>40608356
FWIW I disagree with Faith but figured I would ask everyone.
>>40608420
She’s cute so it’s ok.

>>40608551
nothing to

>>40608572
i mean that was also a real question, I do genuinely feel bad using this board and wish there was some other side forum. r/askagp is the only other place I've seen but they do so much "actually I'm cured :)"

>>40608293
No, but it does seem odd to me to loudly declare you're not sympathetic.

>>40608601
> I do genuinely feel bad using this board and wish there was some other side forum
I think this is about it unfortunately. Any repper space will be trans-adjacent due to the fact that reppers suffer gender dysphoria so any space that allows frank discussion of gender dysphoria will accumulate reppers. 4chan also has the advantage of being anonymous so their is less at stake for a repper to fire off some posts since it wont be attached to any persistent online identity.

>>40608739
fair. does feel like having it here garners a bit of the "sympathy plz" vibe so i get it

>>40608797
Like I said, I disagree with Faith as to that being the case. If anything having 2 generals is better than having 4-5 randomly posted threads that each only get 2-3 anons talking in it. I also think that repping is society failing gender dysphorics so who else is left to be able to help reppers other than another gender dysphoric? IDK you (reppers) can be annoying but ultimately I think its less of a “demand for sympathy” but a cry for help in a hostile world to a largely apathetic populace.

>>40608739
once you understand how repping works you see it everywherea

>>40608293
probably
like i don't *want* sympathy but logically the act of shouting into the void about how much i hate dealing with a problem that i am objectively causing to myself (whether by fixating on transitioning or not going ahead with transition) is inherently sympathy-baiting. and then talking about not wanting sympathy is also sympathy-baiting. i guess at a certain point it becomes an ouroboros of "everything you do is sympathy-baiting, stop posting, fuck you, die" which you sort of just have to ignore the cognitive dissonance of or you just get like double insane lmao

>>40608293
that doesn't seem like a nice thing to say

The issue with reppers and sympathy is that they're made up of people that were always doomed by genetics or their environment growing up (something trans from liberal areas struggle to understand at times,) people who had a chance of transitioning and passing but squandered it, and finally people who could do so NOW but are holding back for some reason. It's only reasonable to be sympathetic to the first group, because passing is a time sensitive act for most and there's nothing they could actually have done thanks to factors outside of their control. It's reasonable to not be sympathetic to the second and third group, because they made their own misery; they effectively victimized themselves. On the other hand however, those decisions tend to be made thanks to a lifetime of some kind of abuse or another that makes it hard for them to accept transitioning, and ultimately they harmed nobody but themselves and are the one who have to live with it for the next 30 to 40 years.

>>40608883
i think this is a better explanation of what I meant by it being here is baiting for sympathy >>40608923
like it's mostly just diary posting and hoping someone responds "me too thanks"
but this also sorta reminds me of the conversations I have about not celebrating my birthday where people get really over the top apologetic about it which in turn makes it feel worse and we could short circuit the whole thing if I wasn't ever asked about it and they ignored it

>>40608923
I think you want to shout about gender dysphoria and how you never could never transition or how you will never be a woman with other people in similar circumstances. I think this is largely sympathetic to people with gender dysphoria. After expending enough sympathy I think people stop wanting to be sympathetic. However as a repper you goal isnt to garner sympathy. It probably makes you feel bad and weird about it. What you want is to commiserate with likeminded people. We (troons) just find your commiserating sympathetic.

>>40609002
Part of the issue is that it's not exactly a problem you can move on from, you know? As someone with GD of course you get that it never just stops. It's not like regular grief where you can just move on. So there doesn't come a time when you stop complaining and do something about it or move on from it, it'll keep picking at you until you die. But the natural human response to stuff like this is to get tired of that lack of proactivity and get frustrated with the person complaining, even if they're only talking among themselves.

>getting older
>NEET
>considering getting part-time to afford HRT
Thoughts xisters? Any advice for first-time job for a mid-20s schizo?

>>40609353
Avoid manual labor since it's counteractive to your goal.

>>40609349
> But the natural human response to stuff like this is to get tired of that lack of proactivity and get frustrated with the person complaining, even if they're only talking among themselves.
It doesn’t help that you all hate being told “take your pills” the one thing that might slightly mitigate your gender dysphoria but other than that i agree anon. and yeah im aware its not always as simple as taking your pills, but a for fair few of you it is.

>>40609418
No construction and warehouse work. That is a good point, thanks Anon

>>40609444
That's the insidious thing about repping. By the time you have accepted you should have taken your pills, masculinization has done its work and only extensive surgery can help and even that's not a guarantee.

It's hard when media everywhere keeps bombard you with giga successful pasoids lifestyle

The lifestyle you can never have

Desire truly is the root of all suffering

oh the misery

>>40611270
every single person is my enemy

I wish I had the balls to troon out but I've built an extremely masculine lif or myself and i would probably miss a lot of aspects of it

>>40606210
I like tsf (magic/scifi gb) but i dont like trap shit bc trannies read into it as a sign to hon out bc theyre delulu enough to think they have 2d cutie genes

>>40611283
Jerma is the only man I strive to be like.

>>40611508
if you stop yourself from liking a genre because trannies like it then I have some bad news for you about tsf anon

>>40609444
>take your pills
and move out and lose your job and lose your friends and have to explain why you're manmoding with breasts and-

having more gross agp fantasies (resting my head on his chest while he plays with my hair and tells me it'll be okay)

has anyone tried ketamine for depersonalization ?
does it work ? im currently overdosing on coffee to function and had gotten kidney stones on 2 separate occasions although nothing too serious. kinda need a better alt.

>>40611617
trooning is not genderbending
troons will never one day wake up a hot girl or get zapped with a feminizing curse that gives them all the natural female physiology and proportions
troons can only one day decide to hon out or take pills that make them grow tiny cones from their already hulking moid chests and makes their dick limp

>>40609444
i wish i had stayed a repper
being on e has made everything so much worse
my mind and my body and my life all in shambles
im so tired and theres no end
i just wish i was dead

>>40611756
feel free to post about it in gory detail

>>40611756
why not detroon then?

>>40611714
lol are you doing affirmations now?
as if true genderbending is any less out of reach for us

>>40611769
not much of a story. ive had tranny thoughts since i was five and i finally succumbed after trying to kms twice. i got on hrt and my dysphoria got a million times worse. i became crippingly anxious all the time. i cry every day and i cant hold a conversation irl anymore. seeing my reflection is paralyzing and i cant do anything for the rest of the day. ive spent the last year in this absolute psychosis. lost my job, my partner, my friends, blew a ton a money and got in a ton of debt, and now im living with my insane parents again
all this without even socially transitioning. i dont know what it could be but reverse dysphoria. but im still cowardly to quit because im majorly fucking retarded
i used to be a really cute guy and now im an abomination. theres probably a lesson in all this but its over for me so oh well

>>40611772
im scared im so scared ill never be happy

>>40611812
at least gb is less stained by troons than trap crossdressing shit bc it doesnt give big hulking men the idea to start wearing skirts and gb is less gay than trap shit

>>40611832
if you detroon maybe your anxiety will go away since your emotions n shit will be dulled again

>>40611832
> i became cripplingly anxious all the time
from experience, if the anxiety correlates with starting hrt and not with for example agonizing over the way others perceive your physical changes, that's a pretty clear sign of "i'm neurochemically male". in that case you should probably detransition. at least testosterone should bring most of your cute guy self back, you'll just have to live with the gynecomastia

>>40611772
>>40611849
>>40611854
i guess i wasnt clear but the dysphoria is entirely over my male traits
i need to be female but i absolutely cannot be
i just wish i could be me with a female body
i wish i repped and stayed blissfully ignorant about masculinizing because now its all i can think about

>>40611843
so much shame in one post, what are you running from anon ?
the only reason tsf is not that "stained" by troons is because of the furries

>>40611854
a bunch of psuedoscience bullshit stop giving people advice. "neurochemically male" is not even a thing

>>40611891
some bodies just don't function well on estrogen, nothing you can do about it

>>40611875
how long you been on e anon ?

>>40611905
its been a year
against my better judgment i will keep going because people say it takes a while

>>40611843
there are probably just as many trannies who felt inspired by tsf stuff as there are who felt inspired by trap stuff, if not more.
I guess it is more gay though. I'm bi leaning towards men sexually so I guess I just don't mind that.
I don't get why trannies liking something means you aren't allowed to like it. We have a whole lot in common with them whether you like it or not. I would be one if I got less unlucky with genetics, or was delusional enough to think that I did.

>>40611832
>i dont know what it could be but reverse dysphoria. but im still cowardly to quit because im majorly fucking retarded
Anon, be honest with yourself. If you don't have any potential to pass and your life went to shit right when you trooned out, you should probably detransition. The fact that you consider your past self cute means it's probably not over yet. Just stop the hormones and you should go back to normalcy, except you'll have gyno and a lower t level for a while.
That would be a good start in fixing your life. You fucked up, but nobody is going to fix it for you.

>>40611875
>i guess i wasnt clear but the dysphoria is entirely over my male traits
You don't need to be a masculine man. Get on finasteride to stop hair loss, exercise your lower body, get some good fashion sense and maybe get some surgeries to look a little more feminine.
You're stuck as a man forever, but you can at least make it a little cozier.

>>40611881
No i just dont like crossdressing trapslop for being troonbait/pinkpill fodder and that gb is superior bc its not comparable to trooning out
and i dont consume furryshit the only tsf i read is the kind where a moid gets turned to hot anime girl

>>40611930
give us some recs anon

>>40611911
GLGO
>>40611924
don't try to groom people, it's rude

>>40611924
there are people who are happy and think theyre girls even though they dont pass
my brains too fried at this point but i still wish that couldve been me

wtf is glgo

>>40611962
looked it up still no clue

>>40611939
honestly slim pickings from the genre since i usually just look for manga
you've probably seen all of these already: boku girl, ranma, onimai, tensei pandemic, zenbu kimi no sei, kanojo ni naru hi, shoujo nyuumon, fabiniku, cylcia code, ts gyaru, girls heart high school boy, etc etc those r from the top of my head
also hentai lol i like stuff from aji pontarou and echigoya takeru, and other artists i fail to remember the names of

>>40611930
I just realized furries might be another reason why are there degenerate hairy troons too

>>40611962
Good Luck, Get Out
I just came up with it

>>40611940
>tranny calling me a groomer
irony or something

>>40611946
i mean if you wanna live a lie your entire life, you totally can. we're all gonna die anyway and this is meaningless or wahtever
i do think you could at least be objective for a second though. is that what you want? is someone calling themselves a woman the same as real femaleness? are these people actually happy? will they die with a smile, or will they subconsciously regret what they've done, never knowing why they feel like they did something wrong? (in this schizo case being a tranny is already a permanent part of their personality, and clashing against that would shatter their identity).
I have no clue. It's your life. Your brain probably isn't built for honning out though...

>>40612049
I'm a repper you retarded nigger

you know i think i might just be nb and too afraid to exist as one in society

>>40612002
onimai is borderline loli stuff

im too much of a coward to self harm but i like to aggro my cat to scratch and bite my hands and arms (it doesnt take much to piss him off im not abusing him or anything)

>>40612104
yes. i only like the few chapters or episodes that deal with mahiros feminization (like the period and red bean rice stuff) instead of the loli pee stuff

>>40612133
based and same
it's so fun

>>40612145
whats ur method? my cat doesnt like bellyrubs so he goes berserk when i tickle him there

>>40612142
try nicoichi, i my me strawberry eggs, gokudolls, otoboku and mariaholic when you get bored of poof tsf no gay stuff i promise.

>>40612155
start petting him and then abruptly stop while leaving my hand right between his paws or just moving my hands around really fast to bait him into attacking
he loves bellyrubs so that wouldn't work for me

I will admit though, as an older repper, all the younger reppers going through the same copes I once did and being just as belligerent and aggressive about them, especially when confronted, really does get exhausting. So I understand when trannies get frustrated with reppers. It's like. no dude, you're not going to be able to meme it into just being a fetish, I'm sorry.

>>40612090
you're the retarded one, i'm afraid.
the other anon literally mention their life falling apart the second they started hrt, still being unable to look in the mirror even though they're in the "medication" that's supposed to fix that for an entire year and getting a literal tranny infohazard in their brain
>i wish i repped and stayed blissfully ignorant about masculinizing because now its all i can think about
they repeat this ad nauseum in this board. "you're still getting manlier", "you'll john 50 don't even try to rep", like it's some sort of satanic cantrip.
and you still want the anon to keep doing this? it sounds like you want to live through them or something
i'll concede on the you being a tranny part though mb

>>40612199
not op but aren't you the one discrediting the decision making capacity of the other anon ?

>>40612245
Yes. i just realized anon didnt ever actually ask for advice so i look like an ass now
fuck

>>40612188
Whats the oldrepper cope then

>>40612199
I don't particularly care what anon ends up doing, I just wish them the best one stranger to another and hope they end up choosing the right thing for themselves. I don't think that the right thing is the same for everyone or that I can tell someone I don't even know what it is for them.
You posts come off very manipulative, you read like a pinkpiller to me.
also as someone who needed to choose the repper path your arguments for doing so are very stupid

>>40612188
can we get a roadmap ? im only 26 in kind of a zen state with depersonalization and derealization

don't rep, troon out
>see you can't beat dysphoria it's inevitable
rep, never troon, die of old age
>well he wasn't *really* trans

>>40612339
trvth nvke

>>40612339
will dying in my mid 20's from alcohol poisoning count as old age?

im glad i stopped repping even if ill never pass or be able to totally act like a woman

like i can somewhat look at myself in the mirror these days without cringing, thats a win

>>40612374
any age past 25 is geriatric in twink years

>>40612171
NTA but your post just reminded me that I need to give Otoboku a shot, it's been on my backlog for a while
I think I'll wait until tomorrow when I have more wine and it's not 2am to watch though

>>40612384
past 25 is late 20s
also if I was fortunate enough to get twink genes I would be consuming estrogen not alcohol

>>40612299
Just the grim reality that you missed out and now your bones are hulking.
>>40612327
Eventually that will fade because you'll be forced to actually confront reality as your material condition worsens.

>>40612454
What do you do now? Just go through the motions of a middle aged cis man? With kids and a job and a wife and all that?

>>40612454
>material conditions worsen
like what exactly does that look like? I've been feeling particularly schizo as of late and wondering how this bottoms out, ya know. just worse feeling until you can't take care of yourself?

>>40612301
>I don't think that the right thing is the same for everyone or that I can tell someone I don't even know what it is for them.
yeah, i agree. reading the original anon's post, i figured they wanted to detransition. i mean, what can "e made everything worse" and "i wish i had stayed a repper" possibly mean? i just forgot anon didn't actually ask for advice in the post so it seems like i showed up out of the woods shoving them the reppill. sorry.

>You posts come off very manipulative, you read like a pinkpiller to me.
i wish pinkpillers were actually manipulative, if they had gotten to me earlier maybe i wouldn't be here.
was i being manipulative though? forceful? sure. but i straight up told anon i had no answer and they needed to use their noggin to figure out what they want upon realizing they might not mind being clocky. i don't think it's impossible for someone visibly trans to be happy, for example. just unlikely depending on the clockiness. i could be proven wrong.
i intentionally tried to avoid telling them what to do besides that first post (except in my second reply to you but that was more of an emotional response than anything) because i don't think i'm qualified to give long in-depth advice on a serious issue like that.

>also as someone who needed to choose the repper path your arguments for doing so are very stupid
again, i figured the anon already wanted to detrans, so they were more like things to think about more than "trverepper" reasons.

Again, sorry for the original anon if I upset you with my spergy posts, I did not mean it that way.

>>40612454
And what happens when you process the reality of whats going on? How do you feel? What do you do afterwards? Do you have hopes for your life with things not related to gender? Or is it the grim centerpiece of your ruined life?

>>40612454
>Eventually that will fade because you'll be forced to actually confront reality as your material condition worsens.

... okay.. hits quite close to home.
any advice on where i can go from here ? cause you're right about the wakeup call thing as much as id like to deny it

>>40612509
Only thing you can do is try to find some happiness in other parts of your life, but that unhappiness with your gender is never going away.
>>40612479
>Wife and kid
Bad idea, there's always the risk you won't be able to take it anymore and turn into a sissy boomer. Better not subject anyone else to that.
>>40612538
That depends if it really is too late for you or not.
>>40612500
When your life sucks, anon. Your health, your financial situation, all that material stuff. Derealization is easier when reality doesn't smack you in the face.

>>40612548
How does it feel when you have to take a proper long look at reality? How does it feel? How does it feel?

>>40612559
How do you try to take your mind off of gender?
samefag:
What goes through your mind? What are the conclusions do you make afterwards? Do you then go about the rest of your day? Do you brace yourself for another one of those moments?

>>40612548
i feel like im talking about derealization and depersonalization as a superpower here but i don't really feel anything as in im watching a movie through my eyes and just observing. still going strong despite health issues and being almost broke.
>That depends if it really is too late for you or not.
too late for what ? are you suggesting trooning out ?

>>40612559
Like you're being crushed by an insurmountable weight. Like it's all pointless because you made dumb decisions when you were younger. Futility when you realize you can't fix it.
>>40612576
I don't. It comes, I sigh, feel worse, then get on with my day. I have to, there's no luxury to sit down in my bed and have a cry like a NEET living with my parents.

>>40612611
Your ability to do that will decline, it did for me.
>Are you suggesting trooning out
Yep, if there's any chance you pass. Being a middle aged repper isn't something I'm going to glorify. It sucks. If I was young again, I'd troon. That's what I've been saying, I got old and realized that repping was fucking stupid, but now it's either repping or being one of those really awful hons that makes even a leftist flinch.

>>40612612
thanks for the answers
well at least you're tough

>>40612612
hmmm im still a neet though im uggo and 28
guess i really should be like this anon and get a job before i end up homeless
welp

Isnt it so grim though
the world is full of actually miserable people who missed their chance to enjoy their life and they just slog through it and die unsatisfied and full of regrets

>>40612548
>Your health, your financial situation, all that material stuff.
makes sense i guess. i've been able to keep it together enough to work and like brush my teeth / shower type of thing but outside of that really not able to hold together much else. lately if I sit around and think about it for longer than like a minute I start to get that extremely anxious sensation in the veins in my chest. idk just sorta weird sitting around thinking through what the different sorts of ways I could lose full

>>40596831 (OP)
>QOTT: Did you have a politically extremist phase growing up?
I occupied my time as a lonely dysphoric loser in high school by becoming semi e-famous in far right xitter spheres. I literally see slop I made as a 16yo getting reposted to millions of people now, it's a strange feeling. I've long since burned out of genuinely caring about politics but I still hate society enough to not feel guilty about it.

>>40612049
I live a lie every day. I'm not actually happy. I will die miserable. I consciously regret what I've done, knowing for a fact that I did something horribly wrong.
too bad, the die is cast
>t.repGOD

>>40608293

>>40611921
ew why would i want to keep my dick if i got mega foidpassing genetics and just keep claiming to be a crossdressing dude
why would i not want to go all the way if i look exactly like a foid?
trapshit is deranged

>>40612928
i thought the reason people were averse about the bottom surgery thing was because it was just body work on the car and selling the engine to cover the expense

who tf would wanna keep the dick if the alternative is a functioning vag

There’s no point in xdressing as a repper. It’s the body I want not the clothes. I’d be much happier wearing male clothes in a female body than I’d ever be wearing female clothes in a male body.

I am not trans, I am not dysphoric, I am not repressing anything
I am not trans, I am not dysphoric, I am not repressing anything
I am not trans, I am not dysphoric, I am not repressing anything
All I need to do it is stop deluding myself into thinking that my life would've have been worth living as a woman

I want to be an anime girl. I want to have absurd booba proportions. I want wear revealing outfits in public.

I'm not trans I'm just a man with agp and male skeleton dysphoria

>>40613510
forgot picrel

>>40613553
This person is NOT me HOWEVER that image DOES FIT my post and I WOULD like to look like that.

>>40613582
:3
same

>>40613599
Trannies will say that being a hon is a satisfying consolation for not looking like that. LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>40613801
I just wish I looked like an average mid 20's woman instead of a hon

>>40613816
Too bad

i don't want to look like an anime girl. i want to look like an averagely attractive woman of my age

>>40613955
cringe and unambitious

*sigh* 5 exams in less than 2 months and here I am spending time playing random game from tfgamesite hahahahahahahahahahahahah

>>40602829
https://youtu.be/IYDb1XJvNAc?si=NXFTZI3cKnBM4vSl

Found this the other day. Not sure if tis reppercoded other than the fact that it kinda gives me giwtwm feel

>>40603412
They'll probably gonna send me to a religious summer camp lmao

>>40607056
>>40607480
what commercial?

>>40614081
what ur best coomer games

>>40614032
and yet just as unobtainable as being an anime girl

>>40612171
>>40612434
>Otoboku
Man tis probably 15 years since I watched the anime. I rember seething out of jealousy when the main char tried a bikini and looks completely like a foid with tits

>>40612188
>meme it into just being a fetish
I feel like I jerk off to more degen shit due to repping

>>40614169
none

The internet is dogshit now. I have no car and I live in a suburb prison.

What's left to cope with? There's no where to go anymore.

Trying to become thin again so I look less like shit crossdressing.

do your tits get smaller when you detransition

i hate my parents for failing to make me go to university how will i ever afford ffs now

>>40612501
late but you didnt upset me at all that was pretty much the response i was expecting
i just have a lot to think about before i do anything

who up experiencing a vague sense of terror that prevents them from accomplishing anything

>>40615570
Literally me while repping

new thread
>>40615793
>>40615793
>>40615793

>>40613955
I'd settle for looking below average as long as it's not deformed.