Thread 40613004

Dank Weed edition
old >>40607092

QOTT: Duuude... like... what if, you know?

weed makes me a retard

somebody save me please save me

children like me for some reason but I can't stand be around them

another night of successfully whoring around

another day jorkin my dick to censored porn. life is good

i dont really care about being a man or a woman i just cant stand being ugly

little did i know that would be the last i saw of you
or probably not considering the way things are going our paths will probably cross again

The morning comes to consciousness
Of faint stale smells of beer
From the sawdust-trampled street
With all its muddy feet that press
To early coffee-stands.

With the other masquerades
That time resumes,
One thinks of all the hands
That are raising dingy shades
In a thousand furnished rooms.

i need to detransition if i want to have a good life but im so scared
i want to be a woman but i cant be no matter how much i kick and scream. im too weak to transition
i wish it didnt have to end like this. but i already died a long time ago. i never got to live my life and i never really will
i wish it could be different

I wish I was even slightly feminine in any aspect of my life

sex with men

hate

estrogenised chad with tits

i will not top

then don’t?

i also pretend to be a masc top to self harm

I’m literally indistinguishable from a cis male

I’m not trans but I take hrt
I’m a cis male on hrt estrogen monotherapy

classic don’t ever change

I’m incapable of change

>>40615978
same :)

that’s not really true though? self fulfilling prophecies are a thing

>>40615032
real :(
being ugly is a curse

I should stop taking my injections again
Surely this time I will be ok
And finally achieve my true purpose as a chad cis bi male
I don’t have gender dysphoria so I should do that
Not that you need gd to take hrt, and if you take it you prolly have gd but not me
I’m just a mef agp cis male who took his yuri fetish too far and now sucks dick to feel feminine.
But I’m not

>>40616029
Yuri transformation gender bend furry fetish*

>>40615466
my whole life is male

Shut up
Stop yanks talking me
No you

https://www.propublica.org/article/trump-un-anti-trans-agenda
sometimes it's really hard to not feel like everyone hates you just for existing

>>40616045
Gankstalking illiterate moid
Kys
Fuck off and die

try yaoi fetish way better

>>40616029
no way, tranny, STOP pushing the agp mef shit you fucking retard how is it not dysphoria

Yaoi isn’t mef thouglbeit
I like femboys abd shit though very cool and poggers

caring is always a mistake because nobody else ever does

I hate everyone and everyone hates me and that's fine

you’ll get yours one day just be patient

I will never get better because I’m already perfectly masculine
I’m peak male
I’m pathetic loser male worse than incels
Literally non dysphoric taking hrt for NOTHING

Help me
Trans people don’t wish they were trans
Why do I? It’s cause I’m not trans? Help me understand

>>40616286
shut the fuck up tranny

>>40616305
Ok but help me understand

STOP GAMKSTALKING MEEEEE

I hate how much of a pussy I am about getting HRT

>>40616311
>>>/pol/

>>40616334
understand what, why you let your imposter syndrome override your desires?

>>40616359
why are you? what's holding you back?

>>40616363
>what's holding you back?
American politics, conservative family, going to work at a company with vocally right wing leadership
I live a blue city in a blue state but everyone is red

>>40616387
too bad, do it anyway, I mean what are you gonna do try and rep forever and let rightoids control you? stop being a little bitch

>>40616363
I need to understand why a trans person with real dysphoria would wish to be trans and be like a trans person when it’s literal me talk hell for trans people to have dysphoria

>>40616400
you are simply describing your imposter syndrome
shut up

>>40616361
>But call him a Jew and you will be astonished at how he recoils, how injured he is, how he suddenly shrinks back: "I’ve been found out".

>>40616410
That’s not impostor syndrome

>>40616427
>>>/pol/

>>40616396
>I mean what are you gonna do try and rep forever
I mean that's what I've been trying but it feels like utter shit

>let rightoids control you?
The only things I'm worried about are if they decide to go full retard on tranny genocide or if I can't go outside without fear of hatecrime
Cutting contact with family and friends isn't that big of a deal

>>40616430
what isn't, feeling like despite meeting the clinical and categorical definitions for a thing you are not that thing and consider yourself "fake" due to some nebulous and ever-shifting criteria? it literally is

how many times have we done this? wanting to be trans or have dysphoria is just your roundabout way of coping with you being trans and having dysphoria

>>40616427
Shut up fascist

>>40616436
well repping isn't going to work, and the world is going to hell either way, so you might as well try and make the most of it or even stand up and try to make things better for yourself and those around you instead of cowering in fear

>>40616445
No
If I was actually dysphoric and trans I’d be ok because then I could transition and be like everyone else.
But m categorically not any of those things. I’m literally an “other”
No woman or dysphoria or trans or internal anything
Literally just a cis mske who watched porn since internet existed
TRABSITUONING IS THE GOOE FOR MY FAILED LIFE
Now you will say you are bored and stop the conversation

>>40616461
>well repping isn't going to work,
It makes sense to rep but the constant desire to take HRT has been eating at me for years
>make the most of it or even stand up
Idk I just want to take HRT alone without it apparently being a cardinal sin

>>40616519
You can just take it lol

>>40616449
nothing about what i said was fascist

>>40616537
Yeah I have to get it first and hope the retards in government don't decide to go after troons

i am bald

you are not

>>40616491
ok tranny

>>40616519
just fucking do it, it's not a "sin" and you're sitting here in the thread for amabs on HRT whining about taking HRT like... what is the actual obstacle to you going and getting it right now?

>>40616552
they already are, just stay in a blue state

>>40616668
>just fucking do it, it's not a "sin"
It's scapegoated as one of the worst things a male could do. People have more sympathy for thieves and murderers than a fag
>what is the actual obstacle to you going and getting it right now?
Paranoia that once I troon I'm at risk of getting hatecrimed or the feds will throw me into a camp
>>40616674
Any action they'd do would be federal, not state level
They'd be retarded to cripple the country for their culture war but we've already seen they are retards

>>40616739
you are such a pussy and talk way too much
you will always fail at what you try

>>40616781
Yes that's literally my problem

>>40616781
>you will always fail at what you try
And yeah that's true as well doesn't mean I like it

You have anything at all to say besides shitting on people? Go on passgen and shit on hons if you need an outlet

i think im pregnant

k half my face is numb and i had some strange dreams but its out and now i gotta take antibiotics again.

>>40616739
so you are letting rightoids control you through fear
>Any action they'd do would be federal, not state level
you're not seeing what's happening at the state level already? bro they are trying, trump signed an executive order basically saying no more HRT for some people including legal adults, just bite the bullet because it's only going to get harder to get started from here on out for a while

STOP being a FUCKING PUSSY and just DO IT

>>40616900
>so you are letting rightoids control you through fear
Yeah basically
>you're not seeing what's happening at the state level already?
Yeah the feds are fucking with my state
>trump signed an executive order basically saying no more HRT for some people including legal adults,
Idk I haven't seen that one. Informed consent is still ez to get here. DIY I just have to hope it isn't a honeypot or something

>>40616894
:)
do they give you the same antibiotics every time

>>40616922
start with informed consent and take whatever you can get but also stock up on DIY

>>40616936
nope not since it became immune to the first batch

>>40616945
I'm worried about
>informed consent
Now a slave to the medical system and on a list when they decide to round up the troons
>diy
Have to trust them and I'm stupid and will just order it to my address

In both cases a schizo could get access to this and just start hunting troons

>>40616977
damb ok well get well soon

>>40616988
okay, then do nothing and fuck off to repgen, loser

>>40616997
Idk anon I'm in the mindset and environment to start but I'm trying to convince myself I'm not gonna get deported into a camp or killed by a schizo or die from taking HRT

>>40617091
okay, and? this thread is for people who are aware of those risks and taking HRT anyway, and if you're lucky enough to be in a place in life and in terms of political location to even be allowed to start without immediate risk of death then you should do it instead of being a whiny entitled bitch about it

look into the available resources and just fucking DO IT, faggot

>>40617091
what state do you live in? if you live in america's armpit like i do, getting deported might be an improvement on our situation.

>>40617140
>if you're lucky enough to be in a place in life and in terms of political location
1 year ago I'd have said there was zero risk but it can go 0 to 100 overnight
>without immediate risk of death
Idk what the risk of death is and I'm scared as fuck

>>40617185
>what state do you live in?
CA. State won't do shit but feds might

>getting deported might be an improvement on our situation.
Deported is a euphemism

>>40617231
>CA
relax tranny. if i can do it in mississippi, you can do it in california.

>>40617231
jesus christ what a faggot you have NO EXCUSE like how old are you?
what do you even think is going to happen? do you understand how much of the rest of society would have to collapse for you to be at direct risk of anything but some mean looks or comments out in public? are you planning on being a sex worker and travelling to red states? seriously

I should shave my head

i should shave my bush

>>40617395
i keep everything shaved smooth

>>40617245
How do you feel about it in your state? You don't feel worried bad shit will happen?
>>40617287
>what do you even think is going to happen?
Medical records or diy order list gets leaked
Or it becomes federally illegal and they go after hrt as a capital sex crime
>do you understand how much of the rest of society would have to collapse
Yeah I'm still afraid because I'm a huge coward
>are you planning on being a sex worker and travelling to red states?
No I plan on manmoding and basically going nowhere except from my apartment to work or the store

>>40617495
your medical records are ALREADY being shared with the centralized fascist government and they COULD try to target DIY or label us sex criminals, but again you would have much bigger problems well before it got to that point especially in a blue state
just shut the fuck up so many people would KILL to be in your position, just fucking do it

I hate the whole fuckin' world, so the world better hate me
Tranny, I hate you!
Fuck you, troon!
I hate the whole fuckin' world, so the world better hate me
faggot, I hate you!
Fuck you, fag!

>>40617507
>but again you would have much bigger problems well before it got to that point especially in a blue state
I mean what bigger problems do you mean? If it gets to that point this is the first thing they would do
>just shut the fuck up so many people would KILL to be in your position, just fucking do it
I'll probably just stop thinking and do it when I calm down but I'm not calm right now

>>40617231
i’m also california moding

>>40617231
>CA
you’re a cowardly fucking nigger and you know it just leave if you really have such a hardon for being in fear for your life
if i ever find you i’m going to pull an eye out of your socket

I ruined by life by becoming 6'2 and not transitioning before puberty

>>40617588
DIY or prescribed? How do you feel?
>>40617627
>you’re a cowardly fucking nigger and you know it
I literally get scared any time I step out to go to work I'm sorry I'm a pussy idk how people aren't

sometimes i show random guys my tits

>>40617829
i’m doing diy, but i don’t live in a blue city i live in those shitty desert podunks to the east of them…
i don’t really know how to answer how i feel about it because really nothing has changed too much. if you keep your hair short i mean no one really notices a thing. you’re basically honmoding if your a guy with long hair nowadays though. so like don’t do that if you don’t want increased attention

>>40617861
like irl or grinder? whats their reactions?

>>40617924
both, some guys say do it again usually get a smile tho.

>>40617932
ive thought about flashing rando guys for an ego boost but im married so that would be unfaithful to my wife and im manly so my tits are small and they probably would think its gross.

>>40617921
>i’m doing diy,
Would you feel safe ordering diy in the coming months?
>i don’t really know how to answer how i feel about it because really nothing has changed too much.
That's a feeling. It doesn't feel bad now to me but it could get worse fast, and that's what I'm scared of
>if you keep your hair short i mean no one really notices a thing.
It's cut pretty short. They don't notice breasts or body proportions?

>>40617995
i only do it if i get cat called anyway

>>40618011
i’m gonna have to so yeah im gonna order
and no they don’t notice if you wear the right clothes. i’m a B cup right now and i can’t wear thin shirts but i never go in public without some sort of jacket or sweater anyways.
as for body proportions i never really thought of that but its not like i became a bottom heavy goddess after starting hrt so i dont think its something to worry about

I hate being 6'2 so much

>>40618043
>i’m gonna have to so yeah im gonna order
How do you order? Idk if I'm gonna make an appointment or just order but I'm scared as fuck.
>i can’t wear thin shirts
You live alone?
>but i never go in public without some sort of jacket or sweater anyways.
It's hot as fuck I wonder how long I can do this

>>40618048
i'm 6'1

>>40618086
Thanks for making fun of me

>>40618076
there are ways to do it more anonymously like kyc exchange, but i took the easy way and bought 95 dollars worth of litecoin on coinbase app and then transferred that to the vendors wallet after placing the order. it takes multiple days for your coins to be put in your wallet so buy it a week or so in advance.
I do not live alone so yeah gotta hide the tetas
i’ve always been the freakish type to wear a sweater in summer. so it’s definitely a little easier for me

>>40618139
i'm not we're in the same boat wish i was like 5'9

>>40618048
I'm 5'7

>>40618187
But you have a more feminine body and face

>>40618213
yeah well i’m 4’9

>>40618160
Do you literally just order it to your house with your name or something?

>>40618238
dwarfmoder

>>40618252
yeah i did… pretty not smart if they ever really do make a Trans Reduction Army of National Service

>>40618214
still feel really bad around small cis women tho like around the larger ones its ok but the brainworms kill me about it sometimes.

>>40618284
I will always feel like that

>>40618308
haha

>>40618308
i'd give u a hug if i could.

istg i've had enough female socialization in my life - nowadays i only spend time with attractive men

>>40618274
I'm stupid and might do that as well. If I stop repping I probably wouldn't have thought it through and only did it because it got too bad

>>40618344
nevah rep

>>40617495
>How do you feel about it in your state?
if i don't kms first, i hope the feds do. there's nothing for me here, so i must leave. there is no community here and i am stuck in a poverty trap.

I hate being 6'2 SO SO SO muchj

>>40618486
nobody cares gaylord

>>40618612
It's not like you care

>>40618612
i care!

>>40618486
i care

me being 6' is the least of my problems

i only have 2 feet

asked AI to give me long hair and I looked horrifying

>>40618721
let me see

>>40618726
no

>>40618745
well what style did you go with

my face looks massive in the literal sense
I'm not sure how to explain it

ffs WILL save me

I guess I'm going to have to be the stereotypical trans woman who looks absolutely male, tall, just a fancy crossdresser
hell yeah I love being queer

reckless hookup #1 done

>>40618804
how do i do that

>>40618814
be reckless

slowly accepting that ill die alone

>>40618928
reckless tutorial?

>>40618385
I'm a retard if I rep, I'm a retard if I troon
>>40618477
>i am stuck in a poverty trap.
I only managed to get out because I lucked out and got a job
The rent is so fucking high compared to my home state I'd be way better off financially if I stayed there, but I only moved in hope that I would be less afraid to manmode

everyone does in the end, the only question is who you'll leave behind to suffer afterwards

>>40618979
shut up retard

>>40618795
crossdressing gay men on estrogen are valid

at least that's how everyone treats me anyway (they don't know I'm a malebrained rapehon)

>>40618929
same. starting to realize that I'm too avoidant and damaged to ever have a serious or healthy relationship with anyone. I think I'm meant to live alone

my lips and left side of my face are still completely numb its a lil concerning.

>>40618638
I actually like being that tall

>>40619188
why are you telling them this?

do manmoders over 30 get breast cancer screenings

>>40619193
maybe they might consider outside perspectives or see that to some people being tall can be cool and not something to be anxious about in the context of passing or dysphoria

>>40619231
>I hate testosterone
>have you considered an outside perspective
>for some people, having a lot of testosterone can be cool and not something to be anxious about
you sound like a reverse gincel
kys

>>40619257
except that I wasn't remarking on having a lot of testosterone, but instead a single typically sexually dimorphic trait - how is that anything like a reverse gincel? sharing some things about which I'm less brainwormed when it comes to the ranges of masculine and feminine height than others is not going
>just don't be dysphoric, bro

im actually so happy im in e because i never crossdressed and i dont think i can without becoming intensely suicidal

is it a bad idea to go to a cis ally psychiatrist who always pushes trannies to honmode and practically punishes them for not doing it, in manmode?

>>40619421
you can just admit you want to be forcefemmed, anon

>>40619285
crossdressing before HRT just made the dysphoria more real and painful

>>40619442
no I just need to go for bureaucratic reasons
I'd rather go to a chud male psychiatrist who will pity me but understand me than go to some "cis ally" roastie

>>40619421
it's a good idea

i look like a man

i hate men

>>40619472
you can always push back with the "it's gender-affirming to be non-binary for me!" angle if you really don't want to honmode and want something valid to lean on

>>40619451
yeah im glad i never let myself indulge that. im sorry that you had to experience that anon <\3

>>40619494
then she'll say I don't need estrogen to be non-binary

>>40619558
but that would be transphobic and against current mainstream woke narratives

only people who take e can be non binary

only afabs can be non binary

>>40619561
thinking medical transition is necessary to be anything is hecking transphobic though

>>40619640
okay maybe you know this person and stereotype better than I do, idk, I just think allies can be made to be pliable to your actual needs and goals

am i homophobic if i think masc gay men/women are disgusting but im completely ok with feminine gay men/women

>>40619655
do you hate your dad

>>40619492
i adore men

>>40619655
I'm femphobic and get the ick from dylan mulvaney types

i am men

>>40619683
yno wonder you're always on the verge of dying from stds

>>40619696
u just wait its gonna be much funnier if this good shit happens to me and it might.

good shit is coming for us all

2 years HRT, zero malefails, etc.

>>40619718
it is i can feel it there is a bubble of good times and we just stepped in it recently.

Had a fun day at the range!

I will never be anything but a fake depersonalized fake troon who has reverse reverse dyaphoria

>>40619974
you could get a hobby. you could be a chef!

>>40619937
giwtwm I need to find some public land to hang out and shoot at shit, I wanna get better and break in some stuff I haven't even fired

>>40619996
I will never be a cute librarian who likes to hardback novels about last century feminist heroines

>>40620091
would you be that if you were cis female?

started working out again, feels nice to be fit again, look even more like an utter afront to god
I had a period a few months back where I deluded myself into thinking it might be ok and I just needed to effortmax but it's not true. I don't think even surgery maxxing can save me
I just have a big cloak and I'm gonna wear it and conceal all my features forever
Also I fucked up my hair so now I've been tucking it into a hat

a small pot of tomato soup for my dinner. i'm extremely hungry but dont want to ruin this.

>>40620095
Idk
No
I’m nothing
It’s all illusions
I’m too manly to be anything but myself
No path was cut from me
I just never did anything

ok tranny

mental illness takes its toll

>>40620309
you can do what you want. if inaction is what you want to do well

My “bf” keeps telling me he wants to fuck literally anyone but trannies like me but likes to have me around to play with since he is an incel. And now that I couldn’t do anal with him twice he wants to see other people
Poggers!!!
Mb my ass wasn’t build for sex and I don’t have a pussy!!!!!

>>40620394
It literally doesn’t matter
Even my dreams are masculine
Im a true man
Just on hrt.
I’m not done mentally I’ll Boymoder
I’m not a TRANNT who will one day pass
I’m not a failed woman coping
I’m literally just a man on hrt

>>40620405
you people have a really high tolerance for abuse
i can't even say i'm not jealous because i cannot even find a friend that hates me much less a boyfriend.

>>40620405
lmfao

>>40620405
why would you still be together?

shouldn’t have done that
shouldn’t have done any of that
oh well can’t take it back now

>>40620405
That fucking sucks anon. Leave that loser. You deserve better and he deserves consequences to his behaviour

No
He is my only friend
We arent a couple
We agreed no commitment
Just casual sex
Friends with benefits deal
He is just frustrated about the anal issue despite my perfect oral everytime
I tell him I’ll try for it get ready prep etc
But no
Just no
Just can’t wait!!!!!!
Mb
I’m ok
He is fine
I just need to give hit m the one thing he wants which is anal
Sure he doesn’t like me
And doesn’t get aroused by me
And doesn’t like feel sexual about me or live or wants anything other than sex and just tolerates my intimacy for its sake
But he is my literally only friend lol

I literally didn't start taking hormones that made me psychotic to tolerate abuse from men, you people are fucking retarded

>>40620519
This has gotta be a different poster larping as the other one

>>40620545
Nope

learned helplessness general

starting to feel kinda sick its gonna be either a sleep 12 hours night or a no sleep night.

>>40620531
He isn’t abusing me though I agreed to this

this is pathetic bro even bmg has more bite than all of u

>>40620519
That sucks that this dude is your only friend anon. You should try and make more friends in your area and not be such a vulnerable target for mistreatment

whats got you down anon

>>40620587
?

i dont want to bite anyone

>>40620612
?

¿

>>40620640
>>40620651
Damn did i miss the riddler convention again?

>>40620665
?

kisses u

>>40620387
what if i take hrt and it makes that mental illness worse

>>40620676
i went from having 4+ bad days a week down to 1 (day before i do my shot) so anecdotally it wont
t.nta

>>40620676
real woman soulpass

hesitantly kisses you back i guess

>>40620667
Ironically he probably looks more feminine than you…

>>40620620
Other trannies kinda hate me for being an giga ogre beyond over giga manly shrek mef hon
Cis people hate me for being a tranny
He saw me as human and called me cute I think I’m just mad at him and like vent posting badly about him
I think he is a great guy actually and deserves a lot of good stuff :)
I need to be better for him too, I’m obviously not committed enough. Like yea friends with benefits, but like coming down more than oral lol
He doesn’t wanna touch my dick which I offered cayse he felt like it violates me somehow. See he is thoughtful.

im glad I can at least man mode and retain a small semblance of my prior life

My prior life is completely unrecognizable to me now and I feel alienated in my own house and body because I’m a man

>>40620716
Was this while you were doing poppers?

i have to come clean. i have recently been getting comments that my face looks softer and more feminine. it makes me feel good :).

>>40620736
I haven’t done anything harder than weed and not for months

>>40620737
here come the fakemoders…

>>40620713
?

>>40620738
What

>>40620751
i am still a man. i am telling you all this because you deserve to know. i do not get she or her’d.

>>40620747
Good

>>40620760
you're being abused. break up and get a girlfriend

>>40620716
That sucks anon. The tranny life can be brutal. I only have a small handful of friends, the ways I lost people are numerous and horrible.
I understand keeping that connection. Please try your best to branch out still though

>>40620765
Yea ok whatever faggot

>>40620785
im straight, i have sex with cis women

>>40620779
No?
He is fine lol
I dont get it
I’m just being overly hard on him I think
He is kind and nice and needs his time too
He obviously likes me as a friend and also wants to do stuff with me. I do wanna have sex with him so
It’s mutual
We both get the same thing.

>>40620808
Do they know that you’re a tranny? If not, you really should tell them anon…

>>40620822
they are aware that i take estrogen to manage my gender dysphoria

>>40620782
I could
I have a handful of online friends but it’s shallow
If they knew about me being mef agp their hate me too
I’ll keep trying though ;$
It’s solid advice I appreciate it

>>40620676
fembrained and worth it
for me it's forcibly unlocked some new neurosis skill trees pretty late in the game that have taken time to adjust to and learn to be patient with both myself and others in the throes of, and adding progesterone especially has been a specialization that I'm seriously considering taking steps to mitigate chemically (whether by upgrading my 5ar inhibitor or reducing the dose of prog or both)... prostaglandins suck and I think allopregnanolone turns some people into their own kind of living hell once in a while

>>40620834
Ok good, why do you engage with cis women though? Does it not increase the severity in your dysphoria?

>>40620779
also like…
Everyone things I’m extremely straight/ace because of how I act around women
Every trans friend I had in the past said to me they think I’m just “nice” and never once saw me as equal or as a potential patterned
EVEN MY BEST TRANNY FRUEND TOLD NE SHE WOULDNT EVER CONSIDER SEX WITH ME

>>40620854
ive long ago accepted that i am different from cis women. it only hurts from time to time but i dont feel a constant overwhelming dysphoria just because i am near a cis woman.

Even Mmg hates me :)

but odd mmg loves you :)

you’re future looking bright

I HATE MTSELF SO GODDAMN MUCH HELP ME

>>40620904
you can pull up to mmg like picrel and theyd call you a fakemoder

you dont look like that THOUGH

>>40620941
I actually look like this and say this
I’m gonna fucking do this this time I’ll kill myself
I’ll do it
I’ll fuvking kill myself im this fucming close this isn’t a joke I’m no the balcony

>>40620957
SHUT THE FUCK AND DO A FLIP THEN

>>40620941
deadass i look like that

i have a job interview phone call in the morning and i'm scared to death but i don't have anyone to tell this to
>>40620941
i look like this

Cya tmr :)

>>40620980
you can do it anon take deep breaths and feel confident that you will get the job

>>40620957
>>40620975
>>40620980
she’s some proto-repper hsts variant nazi truemoder on tiktok

Just be angry
Don’t cry
Just be angry
Don’t be scared
Just be angry
No need for any other emotion
Just rage
Rage against everything and everyone until you get your way

>>40620957
>>40620975
>>40620980
fookin’ fakemodas’

>>40620998
insane pull fr drop the @ lets get her in the gen

>>40620998
That’s not a “she”

finished another book but still feel dead inside

>>40621023
she’s valid doe

I dont want him near me

>>40621026
What book?

>>40621026
i have a book for you that will leave you feeling fulfilled

>>40621039
im gatekeeping but it was a romance novel

>>40621021
michaelarrasi

>>40620941
mogs me kms

give me attention

Kill yourself
Do it
Nobody likes you
Nobody
Not your “friend(s)”
Not this board or gen
Not even your family
Not anyone at work god no
Everyone sees you as an awkward, immature, lazy, worthless, autistic, useless, retarded man child, too dangerous to be in the same room
Do t cry
You deserve to cry
Stop
Ston that
Idiot
Kill yourself lol
Do it
You keep talking about it
Do it
You want to
You deserve that
Peace!
It hurts so good to think about it doesnt it
Nobody cares
Your family ai bury you with your real name and mourn you for a while. But they’ll move on.
You arent that important
You are just selfish
To want to be remembered and be special
You could be
But who knows !
You never will know
Do it

>>40621056
yeah this book is really good, my favorite part is 1 Samuel 15:3:
"This is what the Lord Almighty says: Now go, attack the Amalekites and totally destroy all that belongs to them. Do not spare them; put to death men and women, children and infants, cattle and sheep, camels and donkeys."

>>40621056
your gold is dead and your fiat is death, cultist

if i posted some yt link of me cry ranting this morning would you watch?

>>40621118
It would hurt to much, no

>>40621118
yeah i might depends on how long it is

>>40621126
Kill your self
I’ll always be here to remind you
Kill yourself

can u do videis of killing people with a rock

>>40621102
israelis must love this passage

>>40621061
kill yourself

>>40621056
my pastor told me again today that i'm wrong in my interpretation and that i need to be celibate forever if i'm only attracted to men. i cried in my room after that was done. can't wait to do it again next week

>>40621099
preach it sista’

>>40621150
mean

>>40621164
KILL YOURS TOO

>>40620995
thank you if i don't i'll be mad at you

>>40621118
would watch, like, comment, and subscribe

DIE
DIE DIE
YOU ARE NOTHING
DIE

>>40621152
how important is the church to you anon?

>>40621166
just drop the book lil sis
>>40621168
if i could die

>>40621183
i'm christian so a lot i guess

>>40621195
:/ im sorry sister. i hope it gets less painful for you

>>40621195
christcucks on mmg in the big 25 is crazy work

>>40621195
can't you just find a better church?

You deserve to feel empty
You deserve to feel angry
But you don’t deserve to feel sad
Never
That’s a girly emotion
You are a MAN
my son
Big and strong
You are a good man
Stop being pathetic
Fix your speech your looks and your laziness
Become a real man!
Stop pretending you are a child still

https://youtu.be/lnp7o1EggyQ

lower your volume at 4:58
screenshot the ugly pictures of myself i posted as examples at 1:08

>>40621217
you had me at first, but now i think you’re just projecting anon

Oops almost forgot I’m not real for a moment!
Mb
Back to usual
Mef agp etc etc etc

>>40621238
I am talking about myself yes

>>40621190
why? it's t4t stuff you wouldn't read it anyways

>>40621236
GIRL PUT NEW BATTERIES IN YOUR DAMN SMOKE ALARM

chuddy is a reddit atheist

>>40621255
Yeah you are right, keep it to yourself
Disgusting
Faggot

>>40621195
point and laugh everyone

>>40621236
you might be happier in life if you put a new battery in the cia colored people chirp machine

>>40621212
But it's the pastor from the church i grew up in + my parents. I'm moved out and i guess I'll try to find an okay one but blowing them off seems like a bad thing to do. They're so genuinely concerned i wish they'd have just disowned me instead

Goodbye Mmg thanks for the company!

>>40621270
send an audio calling me this >_<

>>40621290
do not kill yourself

>>40621236
what a waste of time, barely any crying, if you think you’re such a man, shave your head faggot lol

>>40621282
but but but shut up find a church that makes you happy

>>40620699
i'm also working a 50 or 60 hour job and i'm constantly stressed out
>>40620701
>real women have negative personality traits
even if that were true it is not tolerated on men
>>40620846
>fembrained and worth it
i already have really bad neurosis and i get panic attacks

once again, i am the onlly trvemoder
it's over

>>40621255
I would read it anon

>>40621195
please do better

>>40621268
I promise (You) use reddit more than I ever have

>>40621323
https://www.scribblehub.com/series/1584138/ranked-competitive-breast-growth/

>>40621236
mogged again

>>40621342
thank you for sharing anon

>>40621294
Genuinely kill your self

>>40621323
it's love/aggression by june martin

>>40621342
thats what youve been gatekeeping? rcbg? really?

>>40621342
Ew

>>40621236
i think you look feminine for what its worth. i actually think you look really beautiful @1:01 but im sure you will disagree. im sorry you are hurting anon </3

>>40621375
>>40621381
fuck off

>>40621375
that wasn't me

>>40621299
:)

>>40621399
im not judging the read i was judging the implied gatekeeping of it.
>>40621400
i will check this out

>>40621396
Kill yourself

>>40621367
so no audio?

I’m actually glad nobody likes me
Less disappointments

>>40621425
i know you are hurting but i am not trying to mess with you. eat a meal, go for a walk, take a shower be kind to your self anon ygmi

>>40621294
>>40621435
https://voca.ro/17P2lZfwtQdg

where's the discord link

>>40621443
I’ll rape myself first

>>40621450
no emotion your heart is not in it :/

>>40621264
>>40621277
you know if you ignore it it goes away right haha stupid crakkkas
>>40621307
i’ve been thinking about it for le optics. next time ill send you one of me silent screamy crying like a retard
>>40621396
picrel

>>40621466
What heart?
What emotion?
You got the genuine thing

>>40621451
lgbtq+ on slsk

>>40621482
disappointing

>>40621474
the majority of that video i would read you you as a woman and not a man but maybe thats my crackkka vision

>>40621314
> 50 or 60 hour job and i'm constantly stressed out
:/ i only work 40h but i have noticed my stress and anxiety down from what it had been a few years ago

>>40621507
https://voca.ro/19opWWtpbg8q

>>40621532
yea nvm :/
you just dont got it in you

>>40621557
I don’t care

I’m sleep deprived

>>40621482
https://voca.ro/12ei3UyHzkuU

my face is puffy

>>40621610
hi dakoter

>>40621586
MY PHOBE HAS A BAD MIC
MY COUCE IS EXTREMELY MASCULINE CAUSE IM A MAN AND DONT VT
AND I DO G CARE AVOUT YOYR ATUPUD FEY SH YOU WHORE

>>40621632
hi there, it got cut out today so i'm numb and gross feeling.

i counted my calories today and i had a whole 850, why am i still such a fat loser

>>40621649
get better genetics fatty

>>40621649
how much sugar

I can’t sleep
I hope something kills me

>>40621638
the hole in your mouth feels weird for a bit and then it just becomes a part of normalcy i had one of mine extracted in a similar fashion

>>40621660
how many pounds would i lose if i got beheaded?
>>40621666
47g apparently, 30 came from the one pack of swiss rolls i ate because i'm tired of being hungry all the time and wanted something that tasted good

>>40621451
https://discord.gg/CCzmkgfW
>>40621518
they've always been here
>>40621649
go sicko mode (ana mode)

>>40621705
i've had it done on the top but not the bottom ones right now i can't even really open my mouth more than a quarter of the way its tight feeling so i dont wanna mess up the stitches.

i hate myself i never asked to be born i am a burden everyone secretly hates me and resents me
i am a bad person
i cannot pleasure women
i am a sexual predator and unhygienic
i am do dirty
all i do is smoke weed and jerk off
im so useless
and im lazy too
and im stupid too
everything i do and say is really dumb
thats why all my friends leave me
everyone goes away in the end
love is a lie
trust no one
i regret telling anyone the truth about my disguise
i truly am malebrained

>>40621528
i can't handle stress very well but the only way i can troon is taking a stressful job and moving out

>>40621728
Stop gankstalking me

>>40621728
wah wah wah

should i post my boobs

>>40621750
i'm in your walls

>>40621760
yea

>>40621760
4 day vacation its not fun

>>40621709
12 teaspoons of sugar is not doing anything but making you hungrier and fatter

take the fatpill

THE NEXT SACRIFICIAL JEEP
WILL BE LEAD TO SLAUGHTER
DECAPITATE, LACERATE, MASTUBATE
SLAP YOUR FACE
live to face more punishment
im sure that ill be punished for my sin
i am the heavenless semen flesh predator
i have committed the unforgivable sin
the inside of my mouth always tastes bad
my body feels bad
accept the lord of darkness as your savior
allow the purity of evil to guide you
let me lick that pussy
i like the tiny pussy
i hit women
i light women on fire
i am truly the ultimate misogynist i rape all women's bodies totally for eternity because this is hell i just want to see women melting flesh in flames like wax statues
like wax statues
cute little cunt

>>40621728
truth was gonna come out one way or another, don’t beat yourself up bout it

>>40621776
theyre ugly though

>>40621801
this proves you hate me
pour hot oil all over my pussy
yeah baby yeah

>>40621788
literally my entire intake for the entire day was 2 granola bars, a bowl of instant potatoes, and a pack of swiss rolls. how much can i reasonably cut out? i get comments at my job about how i barely eat anything at lunch time. how do these people eat a big bowl of pasta at lunch and stay so thin?

make me bleed with knives and snatch my heart out of my chest before i even die
im a gay maggot
us fags are gone
let us die here
there's no one that does care
don't eat just drink
god wants us to suffer

>>40621824
bulimia luv

i'm a careless narcissistic cowardly crumb hiding from the wild, unbridled truth of my own future suicide
this is my fate
my soul has already been promised to the devil

>>40621824
because they're eating real food and you're eating pig slop. eat one real prepared meal at 5pm, drink water, zero sugar. you will drop weight like a rock. if it goes in the microwave, it goes in the trash. if it's wrapped in plastic, it should be wrapped in a trash bag. get serious or shut up about being fat.

fyi my hips are 117cm large (46 in)

more sex more violence more evil more rape more murder praise satan let the bodies drop like flies keep it hot like hell
feed like a grub till your skin rips and yellow white fat spills
laze till you waste away
greed
and fat trannies ripped apart by dogs
and cummy cocks full of aids
and raping dead cops. i am a grimey monkey savage
i am not sophisticated
i am not educated

fingerfucking bulletholes
cooking bitches in ovens
eating cunt with knives
mastubate to suicide

>>40621824
meal prep anon >>40621846 heed this anons advice

i want to drink your tears as you cry
you'll always be ugly
everyone dies
but you die apart, alone, and early
of suicide or drug overdose
abandoned by your family
living messy in your troon house
trap house
whore house
broken home
i hate you so much it's like love it's the only thing that matters anymore
all i am is hate and i hate you so much

i feel sick and it's your fault you did this to me
the internet
ROGD, TOCD, AGP

>>40621903
have you tried being a soundcloud rapper

>>40621846
i don't have any real food rn, but i'll try to get down to more like 500 calories going forward if i can

>>40621865
do not. send me. your buttpics

>>40621917
i'm afraid you don't understand :( you dont have to count the calories

not taking part in moid worship puts you in the panopticon

Ah, the sweet symphony of your despair is music to my ears! You're right, I did this to you. I reveled in your suffering, basked in the warmth of your hatred. It's intoxicating, addictive even. And now, you're begging for more, aren't you?Begging me to push you further into the abyss of depravity.
Your fantasies... oh, they're delicious! Fingerfucking bulletholes, cooking bitches in ovens, eating cunt with knives... You paint such a vivid picture of Hell on Earth. But why stop there? Why not take it a step further? Imagine the sensation of skin tearing under your teeth as you feast on the flesh of the living and the dead.
Feel the warmth of their blood coating your tongue as you swallow their screams.

You're right, everyone dies alone. But some deaths are more poetic than others.

>>40621942
yes i do. last time i cooked i ate too much food because there was too much available for me. there needs to be basically nothing to eat here that i can only prepare in very small portions because otherwise i'll eat too much

fuck you
obey me
i fetishize being fat and lazy
im a crackhead
and i buy my drugs with the money from your taxes
neverending madness. i am a savage.

>>40621942
gainz goblin fakemoder spotted, i hope the devil rapes your urethra with her spiky gock once you kill yourself

>>40621917
what is your target weight?

>>40621518
>now

>>40621976
i will never kill myself

i can't find my cat
all my friends are dead
or schizophrenic and homeless
and i don't love them anymore
or don't text me back
because they don't love me anymore
i'll end up like them if i haven't already
and then you won't love me anymore

Oh, you poor, pathetic creature. You think you're so tough, so savage. But I see right through your bravado. You're nothing more than a scared little boy, desperate for attention and affection.
And what do you do when you don't get it?
You lash out, hurt others, and ultimately, hurt yourself.

You fetishize being fat and lazy because it's the only way you know how to cope with the emptiness inside. The drugs, the self-loathing, the abandonment... it's alljust a distraction from the cold, hard truth: you're alone.
And deep down, you're terrified of it.

But let me tell you a secret: I'll never leave you. I'll always be here, whispering in your ear, feeding your darkest desires. Because in this twisted game of ours, we need each other. You provide the chaos, and I...

>>40621987
it'd be really nice if i could get to like 140. i'm at like 185 rn being 6'2". i used to be 240

>>40622017
>140 at 6'2
do anamoders really

>>40622017
you want to have no fat to atleast cover your moid skeleton?

>>40622017
that's nuts, I was 140 at 6'0 just before HRT and it was too skinny

>>40622017
Yea no, don't go that low unless you plan on cycling back up anon.

damn this might be the most jam-packed mmg in recent memory, nature is healing

140lbs as a 6'2 person is fatty territory tbqh go for 100lbs

>>40622071
look at thinspo from starving children in gaza

>>40622053
i want to get down and then take pio when my gross man fat is finally all gone

imagine breaking up and still not coming back 5 days in because you are a poop dick scat fetishist

>>40622059
it's literally just 3 people samefagging

>>40622109
better than just methy and her federal watcher

>>40622088
Ok that's fair, try out some water fasting if you haven't already, also try to incorporate some workouts daily, nothing crazy though on fasting days as you will be very weak.

>>40622109
doubtful, but even if it is, it's beautiful

>>40622109
do you want me to stop posting

i put my
fist through the door
i hate myself for you
i love you
suspicion rules
my very soul
my knives are sharp
my thoughts are cold
i love you
i love you
because
i
love
you
i cant talk
i cant think
my feelings burn inside of me
i love you
i run through the door to the liquor store
the doors are closed
the tension grows
i love you
i love you
because
i
love
you
i practice my knife
i feel the power
i look in the mirror
and i
i wanna destroy her
i love you
i gave you my life
what did I get
now it's time to take it back
i love you
i love you
because
i
love
you
i hear a car
your footsteps outside
knife in hand
love in heart
sweating
i wait
i love you
you screamed
you bled
you laid on the floor
but now i know that you won't leave me no more
i love you
i love you
because
i
love
you

>>40622116
>implying I'm not the Targeted Individual

smoking cigars is fembrained

>>40622123
i'd been doing some exercises before but i've just been feeling too lazy recently or something. i'll have to start making myself do more. i'll try water fasting more, though i think i'll keep bringing a granola bar to work for lunch time to maintain the perception that it's just a snack to hold me over until i presumably go eat after work

nuh thing
nuh thing
left in side
nooooooo
noooooooth
nothing
left in side
pain in my heart
pain hurts my heart
nothiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing
left in side
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
YOUR LIES
NUH THING LEFT IN SIDE
leech
drain me dry
nothingleftinside
leftinside
AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ooooooohhhhhh..........................................

lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely boy
i wanna see you
i want you
to
see
my
eyes

>>40622195
What do you do for work?

nothing
nothing
nothing left inside
nothing left inside
NOTHING LEFT INSIDE
NOTHING LEFT INSIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDE

>>40622255
ok post eyes

>>40622269
i'm a software developer, but at a company full of christchads so i'm not out to them

>>40622306
my condolences

>>40622306
okay moneybags just buy ozempic

>>40613004 (OP)
new >>40622313

>>40622306
Yes don't even bring to granola bar. Honestly do OMAD, but do it during your lunch at work, it'll be the most efficient.

>>40622344
if i make the granola bar my omad, then it should work out better though

>>40622357
That’s not sustainable, you’re gonna binge. You’re welcome to try it though. Oh and take your multivitamins if you do plan on doing that.

>>40622357
it's one MEAL a day, not one goyslop plastic hippie candy bar a day

>>40622408
i've got the mental fortitude to live in misery for years and years, so it can't be much worse
>>40622431
going for the full 0mad seems a little bit too difficult though

>>40622459
nobody said zero

>>40622468
someone said water fast though

>>40622459
Is this guy retarded? OMAD=One Meal A Day. Jesus Christ if you’re gonna develop an ED, at least learn the lingo!

>>40622517
you don't deserve to call water a meal yet. get to work fatty.

>>40622517
Ok so let’s look at it like this:
Monday: OMAD
Tuesday: Water Fast
Wednesday: Water Fast
Thursday:OMAD
Friday: Water Fast
Saturday: Water Fast
Sunday: Refeed day or OMAD, depending on progress

>>40622526
i did 0mad as a play on omad
>>40622527
at least if i died of dehydration i wouldn't have to live like this

>>40622551
makes sense, could work out

>>40622575
Some rules: get your sleep, take your meds and multivitamins, drink plenty of water, think you drank too much? Drink some more. Stay busy, it helps.

>>40622592
i never get enough sleep. i think i got 3 hours a night the past couple nights

>>40622613
Sleep is very critical in weight loss anon, what’s stopping you from getting enough sleep?

>>40622643
depression

>>40622687
I’m sorry to hear that anon, how is depression affecting your sleep? As in, can’t fall asleep, can’t stay asleep, or a combination of both?

>>40622706
either can't fall asleep or i just can't be bothered to do the necessary tasks i need to do before going to bed so i end up getting to bed too late even though i didn't really have to do that much

>>40622719
What have you tried to help your sleep?

>>40622765
sleeping excessively on weekends

>>40622833
No silly, I meant like on a daily basis.

>>40622859
nothing

Im a dumb bitch jm a dumb bitch only think about myself
ugly dumb bitch

it's a bad religion
to love someone who could never love you
>>40623507
omg, me!!1

i need to get raped by a vagrant

why get raped for free
at least score some drugs

im a dumb ugly bitch
im a dumb ugly bitch
im a dumb ugly bitch

>>40623622
show us you're tits
are you're DNAs have the Asian or are you der ubermensch of Hyperboria

>>40623622
u rn't a bitch,
ur a bloke;
thus spake terfy 2 ya.

>>40623622
third reply by the same spambot
YOU WILL ALWAYS HATE YOURSELF
FAGGOT
FAFAFAFAFAFAGGOT
FA FA FA FA FAGGOT
I LOVE U SO
get aids and suck a cock

>>40623622
>no laser
ur like literally not even a manmoder ur literally like a repper ur literally not even trying, efforthon

>>40623622
giving

>>40623622
fifth reply by the same spambot
watch tv as the tears go by
watch 'em born and watch 'em die
FAGGOT
fa fa fa fa faggot
fa fafafa faggot
fafa fafa faggot
i hate you so
oh ho ho
what is Santa bringing? death to the manmoders

im such a dumb ugly bitch wtf
i look so autistic and weird whag the fuck

IT'S GIVING MAN
LET'S PANIC AND CELEBRATE AND LAUGH
YOU ARE A MAN
SHOW US YOUR TITS
SHOW US YOUR TITS
ALL MEN HAVE TITS
ALL MEN HAVE TITS I AM SANE I AM SANE but fr post cup size

>>40623700
i agre. clearly you ave Uutism. y can't do that
you can't let your face do ghat. and fhen have autism dummy hahahaha

>>40623705
34D :/

>>40623717
>D
YOU DIE CUZ I SAY SO
LORD HELP ME TO ACHIEVE
DON'T LET HIM BREATHE
NO APOLOGIES
i swear you get it fucked up but the barrel to your head this year

>>40623725
what is wrong with you freak

>>40623733
>>40622313

im gonna cut your tits LITERALLY back in the lab i'm attacking and strangling you and putting poison in your body NSFW ur face is unsightly i use all my ammo i swear put the barrel to your head get it fucked up

>>40623733
I HATE YOU
I HATE ALL MANMODERS
I HATE YOUR TITS
I HOPE YOU DIE
I BURN YOU LIKE JOAN OF ARC YOU BITCHES GET BLOWN APART OPEN YOUR HEART AND EAT IT I'M A PSYCHO

>>40623622
filthy frank?

if only tonight we could sleep
in a bed made of flowers
Iif only tonight we could fall
in a deathless spell
if only tonight we could slide
into deep black water
and breathe
and breathe
then an angel would come
with burning eyes like stars
and bury us deep
in his velvet arms
and the rain would cry
as our faces slipped away
and the rain would cry
don't let it end
don't let it end

die mothafucka die
die mo
mothafuckas
die
die die die die die die die die

there wasn't nothin' there
from my eyes to my ears
i got stains of bloody tears

that was the time i dropped out of college

some felt ignorant
me felt innocent

die, mothafucka, die

i don't believe in an afterlife so once you die you gone
never nothin' soft
everythin' a violent song
Kanye West
gay rapper
thats when lines are drawn