Sometimes I get really sad that I didn't transition into a baddie(I'd need ffs atleast, aren't hate me) and that my best friend didn't want me at all. That being said I have a bf and if my bestfriend told me ye liked me today I'd quickly reject him as my boyfriend is the beez knees. I guess I'm just sad cuz I know if I was hot I'd be perfect for him like the only thing that bars his attraction to me is physical and it makes me wanna kms even tho I wouldn't even date him anymore. I think it's just dysphoria body dysmorphia but it makes me feel like the shitiest gf. I really don't want to be around anymore likr everything about me sucks.