Thread 40637879

QOTT: Let's say magic becomes real tomorrow & you can change your body to whatever you can imagine. Would you just be content with a gender change? How extreme would you go?
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>>40637879 (OP)
First for wanting to be an anime girl

>>40637879 (OP)
HOT ANIME GIRL AND NOTHING LESS THAN THAT BARE MINIMUM

>>40637879 (OP)
>Would you just be content with a gender change?
Just blending in as a whole female, please.

>>40637879 (OP)
I just want to be the XX version of myself. Also immortal stuck at 18 but being able to die whenever I want.

I want to get off MR BONES WILD RIDE

>>40637879 (OP)
I would be my XX self, and I'd be perfectly fine with that. Maybe I'd if possible keep inconveniences like periods to a minimum but that's about it.

i'm off mr bones wild ride

>start taking hrt after years of agonising and hating myself even though i knew it was the right thing to do
>feel even fucking worse than i did before
this wasn't supposed to happen.......

>>40638403
Delete this post that's not how hrt works. Delete it now

>>40638407
i'm glad im taking it but i still really really feel like shit and i think about killing myself a lot more

>>40638394
only way to get off is acking
>>40638403
also happened to me

>>40638403
not hrt but everyone talks about having to take finasteride and the side effects of that were genuinely unbearable

>>40638403
hrt made me feel better but i don't want gyno
>>40638419
ok i'm only physically still on the ride then

>tfw actually autistically measured my skull and found it was big

why am I like this

>>40638424
Finasteride really did nothing to me, but I think i have high t. I cant believe i was hesistant to take finasteride while literally considering hrt

>>40638513
I got so much more depressed immediately, actually could not get out of bed and stop crying
does strong fin sides = low t?

>>40638563
Ive been told the main issue with finasteride is that it lowers your t. To me what you got just sounds like a side effect of tranny disease

thinking about stopping e and becoming an agp gooner again

>>40638699
hm maybe. i'd seen some stuff about fin specifically being linked with depression
>>40638800
y tho

>>40638817
it's better to just goon rather than having low libido and thinking about my skeleton all day

>>40637879 (OP)
Can I heal organ damage? I need to do that too.

>>40638403
yep
that's the truth

>>40638563
no i have low t and i take dutasteride with no side effects

>>40638424
Only side effect I got was that it was harder to get hard for about a week, but that went away after.

think ive discovered a new strat for dealing with this. if you drink/take drugs all day long then you will be distracted from being depressed and wanting to die
let me know what you guys think about this i think im onto something here

>>40639225
I was thinking VR helmet + drugs so I can be an anime girls in virtual reality.

>>40639225
i'm too poor for drugs and alcohol tastes disgusting, basically just being addicted to caffeine does anything

>>40639225
thats the whole idea behind anti depressants and anti psychotics

>>40639406
wouldn't anyone who would prescribe those to me tell me to just take my pills first

>>40638403
I'm sorry about that. Feeling worse after cracking is fairly common, because usually people crack once they can't dissociate from dysphoria anymore. I would advise laser
>>40639225
I used to do drink daily from 18-21, then smoke weed daily from 21-23 and still cracked. So it does sorta work!
>>40639406
I take a small dose of antipsychotics as a troon and it helps with PTSD shit from repping

>>40639406
my antidepressants make me feel better except for trans thoughts which get worse

I think a lot of people here are self-hating. I haven't seen anyone on 4chan really say "I want to be respected as a person", because the truth is that based on spending so much time here they naturally just associate being feminine or being a woman with being subhuman or evil, based on the toxic shitflinging men do to tear each other down to begin with.

>>40639897
I'm self-hating because I can't be a woman, among various other reasons, not because I think being a woman is bad.

>>40639932
yeah this applies to most here obviously
>>40639897
i'm self hating because i can't be a warrior poet with a philosopher king husband

>>40639932
I'm just saying with a lot people here. It's a humiliation thing that apparently they were bullied into or whatever because they fucking failed at life. You can't really ignore the way cis guys on this site talk and their overall worldview.

my hon compilation folder is growing by the day

>>40640005
Proof? Sounds like projection.

>>40640070
What do you mean ""proof""? You don't think this site hates women?

>>40639225
Can concur with this, very good strat!

t. 12 drinks deep on a Thursday evening

>>40639225
Alcohol doesn't always work

>>40639225
>terrified of falling down the same rabbit hole that a lot of people in my family did from drugs/drink
>also terrified of the idea of not constantly being kept in check by a mix of crippling social anxiety and constant depression
fuck me lmao i guess i just have to deal with it
which is kinda ironic because teetotalism is probably decently fembrained (based on historical precedent) but for all the wrong reasons
>>40639897
>naturally associate being feminine/a woman with being subhuman and evil
i can't speak for others but i don't think inherently being a woman (or feminine) is bad
i think it's bad specifically if i were to do it, because i shouldn't impose my delusions or presence on the people around me
that's less because "women evil!!" and more because people just wouldn't feel comfortable being around an ogrehon with linebacker shoulders, especially in light of media coverage, current optics, and a lot of misconceptions that exist around trannies in general
(beyond that i'm also aware that the moral ocd of micromanaging literally every minor movement i make in public because i'm horribly paranoid that people will think i'm going to do something absolutely heinous based on being a moid would only get worse (and probably more justified) if i trooned lmao)

You ever feel like nothing good was gonna happen to you?

>>40638699
it doesn't lower t however, just dht

>>40640560
always

>>40640029
Do you also like watching terf content too?

>>40639897
well yeah, self-hating lgbt people are very common due to how they're viewed by society, especially trans people, and trans people are the biggest group here.
Add to that the fact that most active posters are teenagers who grew up on 2016-era "trannies blown the fuck out" conservative YouTube content - of course people hate themselves.
Once I trooned and adapted to being a girlmoder, I started hating myself less for being a tranny, since I don't see having dysphoria as my personal moral failing and more of a curse I had to deal with - but now I live with self-hatred due to being in denial about my trannyism for so long and starting late (early-mid 20s)

>>40639897
Self-hatred is actually based but no one will say it.

>>40640676
Self loathing is just as much of an expression of ego as vanity

i know most reppers are having issues with depression and anxiety and having issues with life-ing life instead of just living cause you're not dead yet, and i was hoping we could make some kinda discord server where we could hold each other accountable and maybe push each other into improving the quality of life
as jaded as most of you are i think it's gonna have some positive influence cause it's not like i can share the stress with normies without sounding like a loon, and troons don't get repping either.

it’s not where we want it yet, but we just got it running and we’re figuring it out as we go.

https://discord.gg/a92nDtf5

>>40640661
>"trannies blown the fuck out" conservative YouTube content - of course people hate themselves.

But the thing is, I don't think they ever really let go of that at their core. They still see conservative straight cis men as the best people on the planet, the thing is they just realized they couldn't live up to their own standards and punish themselves for it.

i know most reppers are stuck in that limbo of depression, anxiety, and barely life-ing just cause we’re technically not dead yet. was thinking of setting up a discord where we can hold each other accountable and maybe push ourselves into giving a shit again. nothing fancy, just a space to vent, talk, whatever with people who actually get it.
as jaded as most of you are i think it's gonna have some positive influence cause it's not like i can share the stress with normies without sounding like a loon, and troons don't get repping either.

It’s not where we want it yet, but we just got it running and we’re figuring it out as we go.

https://discord.gg/a92nDtf5

>>40637879 (OP)
most vanilla shit ever for me, just a female version of me. same genetics same everything

>>40640661
>being in denial about my trannyism for so long and starting late (early-mid 20s)
it really is too late for me (28)

The Skin I Live In is decent agpkino. Recommend more agp media

>>40640861
Will be invaded by pinkpillers and subverted within weeks. Troons are savants at infiltrating communities.

>>40640861
a repper community sounds interesting desu, but having my tranny thoughts tied to an identity other than "anon" gives me too much anxiety sorry.
I've never hung out with strangers on discord before either. The necessary socialization I have to do irl as my repper mask identity is already too much, but socializing with people under a more feminine identity would make me feel like I'm lying to them since I'm actually my repper mask identity irl. This website where I have no identity is the only place on the internet where I feel comfortable posting.
Also, I can't really say that I actually want to be held accountable or pushed into giving a shit about my life.

>>40641114
trvthnvke
i don't have a discord account for repping

https://youtu.be/Su3xTxH-JU8
egg fugue in d minor

https://youtu.be/7t8YpP4b39Q
it's over
will tomorrow be the same
i know that
they're really not to blame
if they weren't so blind
then surely they'd see
there's a much better way
for them to be

Imagine having big anime boobs that bounced around.

>>40640892
i wish i started at 28

>>40641802
i don't have anime size boobs but they bounce sometimes?

>>40641987
What kind of boobs? Gyno boobs? Fat boobs? FTM boobs? MTF boobs?

Also it's jarring that one moment I want giant anime melons and the next i'm being a normal man.

>>40637879 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40642014
ex mtf so i guess well developed gyno

>>40641114
hopefully we can manage that by moderation cause i don't have a fool proof plan to prevent this

>>40641363
the idea is that since everyone there knows what we are dealing with you don't need to use mask, you're not expected to play into feminine or masculine stereotypes.
we know about the occasional "episodes" of uncertainty and lashing out everyone has so i was hoping we can make a safe space for that as well.

in the end it's up to you to decide if you want to join or not.

>>40640947
dr jackel and ms hide

https://strawpoll.com/7rnzVvRGYnO
https://strawpoll.com/7rnzVvRGYnO
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>>40641802
I wish I had medium sized anime boobs personally
just being able to feel boobs on my chest sounds incredibly comforting

>>40640861
Absolute yikes, not forming ANY community is kind of part of the deal.

>>40642421
you think this board is some transcendental ai simulation ?
this is already a community retard, whether you like it or not

man I'm so exhausted all of the time
any fun new copes friends? had to buzz off the repper hair because I'm too bald so have started painting my nails

>>40637879 (OP)
id definitely gneder change into a petite underweight asian girl because i still believe if im not small and vulnerable im not worth loving

i hate being bi it makes me feel like a faketrans even though i'm agp

>>40642385
>almost entirely under 30
TAKE YOUR PILLS

>>40643753
no <3
the 18-21 really should though, that's so early

>>40643849
you're going to be in your 30s and saying that but for 18-29 instead

breaking news
john (90) claims 80 year olds are youngshits
more on repper report after the break

is it over for me if i'm (almost) 27

>>40643945
we're probably the least qualified people to ask
yes

>>40643972
>we're probably the least qualified people to ask
i was hoping reppers + pinkpillers that lurk here would even out into a normal opinion

babydollanon I love you

>>40643753
Im using my malebrain to find a different solution

>>40643849
*ahem* here are my measurements to prove its joever at the ripe old age of 19
it's less about age and more about how hard puberty struck you. i remember a retard a month ago posted his photos here and asked what we thought. he was 18 but looked 14 due to a delayed puberty. he had pretty good potential, but he was the exception. at 18 most are almost done growing, you're begging god for a miracle if you start then.

>>40644463
Where do you make these

>>40644527
grayoasis ansur visualizer

will hrt fix me or will it just give me gyno? are the mental effects a meme

>>40644654
the mental effects will come before the tits if i understand it right

>>40644547
What do you measure for x and y

>>40644654
>>40644670
mental effects are a meme

>>40644692
It's in the pic rel >>40644463
bideltoid breadth and hip breadth, the bigger the difference the higher it goes

>>40644736
I see

i wanna look like if i was a girl from the start but if i did not have a flat stomach then I would CHNAGE my self to have that

>>40644463
Rolled shoulders and testosterone muscle inflates shoulders and hip breadth is determined in large part by fat pads. This measure can change dramatically with HRT

>>40644654
Mental effects are people attributing personality changes from reduced bdd and depression to le magic girl pills

>>40642029
yikes
I want TRVE big bouncy anime tits not swollen nipple gynoconetits

i don't think it will ever get better

>>40643945
I was like you once. And now im 36 still with these gay thoughts

Are there any reppers who read Dorley?

>>40644463
okay.. how the fuck do you measure hip breadth ? cause im sure im getting it wrong

>>40645440
Just get a ruler and measure it lol

>>40645440
nvm i think i got it right

>>40645440
>>40645446
Ruler doesn’t really work because you have to eyeball breadth calipers is the correct tool

>>40645446
i tried but messed u cause i measured sitting down

>>40645490
i tried went to a corner and marked other other side with my body pushing to the wall then measured the distance from the wall.
47cm / 34 cm

>>40645490
Yeah, but who has a caliper laying at home? You don't need to eyeball it from an awkward angle if you mark a wall with the measurements and then take a picture in front of it.

>>40645507
okay.. i think i need to sleep cause im slurring while typing.. this never happened before.

>>40645486
is this good or bad ?

>>40645525
>is this good or bad ?
really good, about as good as it realistically gets honestly. As long as you're not over 6 feet and don't have a particularly manly face you'll pass eventually.

>>40645534
5'10 not really muscular face with mid facial hair.
im already 26 tho. itz over

>>40645548
and hair's thinning out

>>40644940
>Rolled shoulders
?

>>40644940
aren't you supposed to measure hip at the hipdip ?

>>40645534
>As long as you're not over 6 feet
oh

make it stop

>>40645641
No I can’t post the image but widest point according to the instructions

>>40646348
>Widest point
It feels wrong to measure that way. Shouldn't one measure from one end of the pelvis to the other?

>>40637879 (OP)
I would fulfill my goal of becoming a bishoujo

>>40644957
Troons will say I'm a bad person for wanting to look like this. What is wrong with them? Why are they so fucking hostile to me for wanting to look like that? Do they think I'm making trannies look bad?

I'm just being honest. I'm just being who I am. isn't that what "Trans rights" is about? Being yourself? I guess not. It was always about fitting a mold. Trans rights are Anime girl rights.

>>40647104
>Do they think I'm making trannies look bad?
yeah, it's all optics. they have to deal with accusations of being disgusting male fetishists all the time so they try to conform to Chaste Femininity to compensate

>>40647150
Trying to appeal to fools puts you among their ranks.

>>40647166
unfortunately, society is built on fools, and trans women want to pass. so do you, you just have a standard of "passing" so high you'd end up in a psychiatrist's office as a cis woman

>>40647183
Don't care + didn't read + I want anime boobs + Passing doesn't exist + GD is a mental illness + Bitterhons are mad + I refuse to pay taxes or work

>>40647193
maybe this kind of attitude is why you're seen as a bad person

considering a new cope
can't be bothered constantly keeping up with shaving (not helped because apparently it only makes the hair come back faster) and i cannot fucking abide looking like this any longer
tl;dr is hair removal cream a meme?
(also would it work for facial hair? ik there's a distinct type you're supposed to use on your face but again i just can't be fucking bothered with the constant process of keeping on top of shaving)

>>40647319
I've used veet before.
The kind I used wasn't meant for the face.
It worked for my body fairly well howeverbeit. I think it's good to follow up the cream with a shave, that way you can get a really smooth finish. I ran through the bottle pretty damn fast because how quickly body hair grows. Seriously, it goes fast. I think sugar waxxing might be better.

Verdict: NOT a meme.

>>40647328
>Verdict: NOT a meme.
Thanks anon! (And also, thanks for the explanation! But yeah, I can only imagine how fast it grows... just feels like it'd be better not to have it.)
Oh, silly question - is there a particular kind that's well-suited to thicker or thinner hair, or would one designed for thicker hair work fine across the board? (Gross dark moid hair.) :(

>>40647319
>because apparently it only makes the hair come back faster
it's more like, short hair grows faster, then once it gets to a certain length it slows down
it's not any faster than the first time it grew

bump

>>40647150
>disgusting male fetishists
Literally me. I don't love or care about anyone besides the hypothetical way I would have looked like have I not went through male puberty. What does this make me? I never heard a gynephilic troon describe something like this besides calling it le dysphoria and that's it.

>>40649201
autogynephilic narcissist

>rogd
>tim
>agp
>fetishist(gender bend futa furry feminization. Wholesome)
>tocd
>mef
Tell me RIGHT NOW why I should stop hormones and fully become a man

i want to die
i want to die
i want to die
i want to die
i want to die
i want to die

>>40649263
are you happy?

>if transbians weren't so common people wouldn't see trannies as perverted demons as often
>if people didn't demonize trannies, the stigma about being trans would be way smaller
>if the stigma was smaller, more people would be accepting
>if more people were accepting, i could've transitoned early
>if i transitioned early, i would've been happy
conclusion: transbians ruined my life and i want them to stop invading lesbian spaces

i'm scared for the future

>>40649263
what is tim? who is tim?
You shouldn't stop hormones. I'm literally the same, except mef and maybe tim

I'd transition but I don't want to have gyno for the rest of my life if I regret it. I enjoy wearing tight shirts

>>40649336
I’m not sure
>>40649666
Trans identified male
Why not?

>>40647193
>>40647104
I agree and kneel at the trvth of ur post
I WANT TO BE A HOT ANIME GIRL AND I ACCEPT NO SUBSTITUTES

>>40650115
trvthnvke

It sucks being attracted to both women and men.

I know this board hates me.

>>40650180
What do you mean? You have twice as many options

>>40649843
>Why not?
Do you have any reason to? Do you want to grow old as a man?

>>40650180
i love you with all my heart

>>40650256
I need to be true to myself nothing more
If being a man is truth for me then so be it
Living a lie will only make me suffer

it is kinda interesting how I never really got the whole thing about transitioning being life-or-death because it's sucked before but was never unmanageable
but have genuinely not been able to do much other than stare at the ceiling and feel either overwhelming anxiety or exhaustion from said anxiety this week
don't love it desu

>>40650429
Good point actually. I'm stuck a very similar dilemma.
It really feels like being true to myself would mean accepting that I am a man to my core, but I really hate it. It only makes me despair, even if living a lie makes me despair just as much in a different way.
Why would taking hrt not be true to your self? Is the part of you that lead you to take it not authentic?

After all these years I still go back and fourth wanting to transition

>>40650195
More like I'm just a freak

>>40650180
I never tell anyone im bi. Worst of both worlds. Never fucked with dudes because gay people discust me

Id rather be feminine in youth and masculine in old age

>>40650180
>Get accused of being AGP by HSTS
>Don't really empathize with the AGP experience
Like crossdressing doesn't do it for me.

>>40651000
>Get accused of being AGP by HSTS
I never understood this. AGPs and HSTSs are equally trans, that was the WHOLE point of Blanchard inventing the dichotomy, but in this board the meaning got diluted into genuinely retarded namecalling. Hussies are just as predatory as jeeps are creepy, there is no "better" tranny in this typology.
Modern AGPs really need to use their autism to pass better instead of playing hoi4 all day, though...
t. never read blanchard

>>40651000
>>40651715
You don't have to exclusively jerk off to crossdressing to be AGP. Also Blanchard, if anything, said that AGPs were more valid.

>>40650580
Part of me wants it to be true
But I can’t tell and that’s what irks me
Or maybe deep down I know I wasn’t authentic and I’m trying to avoid the realization
Who knows
Just wanna live

>>40651715
very curious that the board with the huge population of chasers uses the typology to mean "androphilic = good, gynephilic = bad"

>>40651749
My point isn't to claim anyone is or is not trans, but rather to point out that, as a bisexual, I don't fit in cleanly into either of Blanchard's categories. He never handled bisexuals very well.

>>40651889
you can be attracted to yourself as a woman and also be a faggot it's not like faggotry has standards or rules, quite the opposite

i first tried to troon 4 years ago and 4 years later im still a man hiding in his room looking near identical to how i was before i did anything

it never gets better

>>40652334
Repression is the only thing that works.

I've been thinking about this a lot the past few years, but I'm unsure if it's too late since I'm 33. Do I bother with hormones or should I cross dress and put on makeup privately? I really am so conflicted and confused.

>>40647319
am compleely shaved from hair cream and yeah it works. shaving (with a razor) only make it look like it grows faster because the hair becomes more blocky instead of pointy so it looks bigger... anyways hair cream wont actually epilate u. itll just break at the point in the skin where it goes out of the skin. so its basicallyu just a shave thats easier to do but more expensive ig

>>40652734
You can cross dress to see how you feel about it. Also try in public at pride or goth clubs

Know what commercials make me jealous? The one where the girl has hair down to her back.

Do you act enough like a women?

>>40654626
People online keep telling me I act like a woman so I guess.

why couldn't i had been born in thailand

>>40655031
The country with mandatory military service?

>>40654636
I have a lot of people who call me a woman or a tranny here, and while that is cool I am actually really malebrained for the most part

me after dying of alcohol poisoning in my early 20s

post characters that are literally (you) fr

watching the People's joker currently

I used to think my my life was a Transition Timeline but now I realize it's a What Is a Woman best moments part 1

Best agp video games?

anime will never be real.

reading wholesome OL yuri is my favorite form of self harm

I had a dream last night where I died and was body swapped into a 12 year old girls body. But it came with all the fucked up implications like me not knowing anything about this girls life resulting in her parents thinking I was insane. It was still a nice dream though.

Why did I get so fucking unlucky?

>too agp to be a regular well-adjusted dude
>not enough dysphoria to be trans

every time im about to sleep or even take a nap I pray to wake up as a hot anime girl

all my trans friends are attracted to men, i am just an agp faggot. i need to be normal i am a cis man i am a cis man. i hate my appearance but im still cis, i cant be a woman

>>40659456
>not enough dysphoria
cis people don't have any dysphoria at all

I can't transition because it's heavily restricted in this area
so I deserve my fate
World just don't want me to transition
So fuck it
this world just not ready for my amazing appearance and personality
So I just continue to live like a worm
I can't have wings

>>40659516
>You're just one of those men who watch hentai and now want to look like some stupidly proportioned anime slut because of your porn addiction???
>Yes, I do

>>40659528
nta but I still can't believe this

everyone has dysphoria its just that normal men just accept it and suck it up because there are good things about being a man, im just a coward

>>40659528
there's autists who have dysphoria about not being anthropomorphic animals. being trans doesn't exist

>look in the mirror
>holy fuck I'm a man. there is nothing feminine about my face at all

ahhh!!!

>>40659631


>because there are good things about being a man

What things?

>im just a coward
Maybe

All I need to do is accept that I am a man
All I need to do is accept that I am a man

how do i stop being so out of it all the time

>>40660350
ask your doctor about estradiol

>>40660355
ok and is spiro or cypro the one that makes you shorter?

>have elaborate sexual fantasy about a man fucking me
>When he puts it in my pussy I blank because I have no idea how that is supposed to feel
>Fantasy ruined

>>40660366
hrt changes bone shape over time

>>40660400
yeah and it makes your voice fem and gives you ovaries too

>>40660383
i used to try out wake induced lucid dreaming. during one session, about an hour in and past the hypnagogic state, i started getting full body phantom sensations of having sex as a female. to this day, over ten years later, it was still the best thing i've ever felt in my life.

>>40660570
Might be worth trying this. I was going to try heavy amounts of weed + hypnosis.

>>40660613
thats almost exactly what i did, it completely slipped my mind, i smoked weed, took 10mg ambien and put on lucid dreaming hypnosis audio. i wasn't even aiming for the experience i got, it actually freaked me out because it didnt stop when i woke up and sat up in bed.

>>40660677
god I want that so much
I remember I came handsfree from hypno and was never able to replicate it. It's like I was in the perfect combination of sleep deprivation, drug use and mind set.

>>40660714
i felt two orgasms but i was totally soft the entire time and nothing came out, it genuinely felt like another body overlayed my own. i've never been able to replicate it, but i've gotten better at imagining it in my fantasies.

>>40659456
trvke
i hate the agp basilisk

>>40660350
good question
>>40660400
if started early enough*

>>40660383
Yea that fucking sucks. It's weird but I try to imagine like a clit sensation or almost a feeling of having to pee

>>40660209
You are a man

Should I goon?

I’ve come here because I wonder if anyone has any similar experiences.

So between the ages of 11 and 16, I went to an all boys school and I’ve been thinking that’s one of the reason why I repped as a teenager. I feel like I could have discovered I was trans much earlier in my life because when I went to a mixed school from ages 16 to 18, I noticed my dysphoria get really bad. (Thoughts started at 13)

After all, at an all boys school I was surrounded by other boys all day and there was no one to envy, no one to be jealous of. This all changed when I went to a mixed school.

Also the fact that transitioning in an all boys school would have been scary as hell. Would I have needed to change schools? Cos I would have had to wear the boys school uniform if I had stayed. These have also contributed but if I really wanted to have transitioned, technically I probably could.

I wonder if I would have trooned out had I gone to the other school that offered me a place when I was 11 which was a mixed school……..

>>40661521
I know, I know, I know. I just want it to not hurt anymore

>>40637900
Mmm my taste are more refined I’d rather be a hot manga girl

here is a *hug* for the hug person if they are still around

>>40662467
Everyone died larry
It’s just me and you
Soon it will be just you

>>40662467
i'm not the hug person but can i have one?...
i'll give you one too...
*offered hug (you don't have to take it if you don't want to i understand if you're like touch-averse or anything)*

>>40662467
welcome back larry hope you're doing good

Is it possible to be touch starved and touch-averse at the same time

>>40662705
i am really sorry to hear that, i hope the method is good
>>40662827
sure, *hug* friend
>>40662861
i am doing better but still pretty bad tho, no more trans issues really desu, dysphoria is too low so i forget abt it..

>>40662886
yes, hedgehog's dilemma (common c-ptsd symptom)
>>40663017
>sure, *hug* friend
that's super kind of you, thank you... :)

>>40663024
But I don’t have childhood trauma not that I can think of, no abuse I’m normal apart from the loser and self inflicted mebtality and the tranny thing
I think I’m just creepy and know it and that’s why I avoid people, while desperate to have sex or something equally fucked

it's quite funny that my life has generally been pretty easy, i haven't had any bad trauma or anything yet im still rly fucked up and mentally ill, im drinking and doing drugs all day and self harming and shit lol
>>40662467
im still here thank u

>>40663087
>I’m normal apart from the loser and self inflicted mebtality and the tranny thing
dysphoria is a continual form of trauma...
>>40663164
>im drinking and doing drugs all day and self harming and shit lol
see above :(
(this isn't me pinkpilling or anything btw i just don't want you all blaming yourselves for it...)

>>40663238
Yea yes sure but I do t have real dysphoeia lol
And anyway I was always a normal person but sometimes during puberty I got really lonely I think that might be it, I was super normal just lonely af and failed life after that lol
Damn

haven't been on this board in a while, been trying to stay off it cause it was genuinely making me a worse person. quite drunk rn (actually becoming an alcoholic desu, can't stay away from troonslop), feels kinda nice to be back on here, but I would be better not to. I'm an irredeemable repugnant piece of shit repchud

>>40661532
No
stay strngbrthr
This board tells porn is bad
So no don't goon

>>40664224
Most male targeted porn straight or gay is fucking mindnumbing to me anyways. So soulless.

>wake up
>not an anime girl
nothing ever happens

What's your relationship with your father like, anon? I'll start:
Mine is nonexistent. He left when I was young and I don't even remember his face. He apparently tried to kidnap me once when I was 10 years old but besides that he has never tried to contact me directly.
My mom constantly asks if I want to meet him. In truth, I do, but I don't want him to see the complete failure his progeny has become, even if he didn't care about me enough to stick around.
This is another reason I rep, I genuinely think I have some kind of psychological parental wound that ended up becoming a form of AGP at some point.

sorry to the girl that i could've been. i wasted your chance to exist. you would've been so happy

>>40665234
Shitty. He was the type to come home, sit down on the couch, drink, and watch TV. We tried to avoid interacting with him when he was like that, because he had a shitty attitude and would yell at you. Of course he spank me whenever I did anything wrong, so did my mother, so with all that combined I tried my damnedest to avoid him when I could. At around 10 when it started to become obvious I was 'feminine' he started trying to get me into Boy Scouts and stuff like that, but when I didn't really enjoy it much (Those kids were shitty) I got screamed at and insulted a lot, which made me want to avoid him more. Both my parents were bad about rants against 'faggots' (since trannies weren't very known in the public consciousness at the time, they were treated as the same thing) and were extremely critical towards any mistakes, unusual or gnc behavior, I got called a freak and 'not normal' more than once, and got accused of talking/acting like a faggot a lot, both by my father and teachers.

So I learned pretty early on to bury my feelings and especially not to express any GD, I thought my treatment would end up miserable. Conversely, they pretty much only paid attention to me when they were displeased, and since I wanted to avoid his attention, that means I did struggle to keep him 'happy' so I'd be left alone. All that meant hardcore repping and eventually internalizing their beliefs and behavior to be what they wanted, which was incredibly hard to do and in defiance of my internal identity and made me miserable. Lot of self-loathing for being a freak. Funny enough, my father got better once I hit my last growth spurt and got taller than him, since I was no longer physically small. They also put him on anger pills for trying to choke my brother. After that it's been pretty easy, 'friendly', I listen to him rant about events and personal experiences I don't care about or fags and trannies when he calls.

>>40665355
Man I was thinking about that shit today too, my thoughts were, verbatim, "I don't know what kind of person she'd be, but I know she'd be a better and happier person than I am."

my sort of friends are the type that like to post coomer/goonbait type women and stuff and it just makes me feel like shit, the more i look at that sort of stuff the worse i feel

>>40666195
i feel you so bad anon :(
i would kill to be goonbait (female)

>>40665234
my dad is actually really great and I still ended up this way. I feel really bad about it too because he really does deserve better

>>40666475
yah it's pretty horrible
i dunno why anyone would troon out when anyone into women basically only likes those types

I need to be a cockteasing anime girl with a body that makes men drool and go crazy.

forgot picrel sowwy :3

>>40668132
Her proportions aren't exaggerated enough.

>>40668136
apologies my king, is this more to your liking?

>>40668213
BIGGER

>>40668299
will this suffice milord

>>40668365
NOW WE'RE TALKING.
I need to be built for SEX. Like designed, fabricated, and constructed PURELY for SEX.

>>40668370
I pray that you will become the hottest and most breedable queen among all the fertility goddesses in the next life*
*as a hot anime girl

Anons, there's one aspect I really don't understand, how am I supposed to kms when I have people that kinda care about me? Am I REALLY supposed to wait until they die or forget about me?

>>40668393
Zased

>>40668469
>open
>no magic transformation to a girl
>get a wall of tranny grooming points instead

I think if trans rights are going to move forward it has to face the "Anime girl" question. It's intellectually dishonest that no serious gender theorist has written anything on it.

>>40665234
my dad left when i was 19 but he was pretty much a stranger anyway. we didnt really interact much after he realised i wasn't going to be a son who liked football and drinking

>>40668469
this is sissy forcefem fetish stuff i think

>>40665234
Not bad not good. We have a lot in common, sometimes I act like him and I don't particularly like it. On occasion we have good father son moments but most of the time it's just emotionally cold. I always felt like he had no respect for me.

>>40665234
I can sense the seething and resentment he feels towards me for trying to raise his only begotten son and still getting a failure

>>40664834

>porn with soul

So you can't coom or something?
Try yaoi manga idk

>>40669775
Don't like that shit either

>>40669026
No, it's just an affirmation button apparently.

I want a shady website that actually turns me into hot big titty anime girl when i press the red button there, not show me a bunch of troonoid talking points and quotes from twitter hons

got a tiktok of someone more bald than I am who grew all of their hair back on e
need to uninstall that app

>>40670263
This is the ine that always gets me. Multiple times I've said to myself "in gonna do it" over the hair alone

>>40670427
starting hormones but pretending I'm only doing it for the hair like that one guy who uses his son for blood

checking in from last week. i didn't do anything, i was too scared. i'm sorry

Should I buy a dress and tights and heels and a wig and makeup?

>>40671068
this week is the week

>>40671093
I don't get much out of crossdressing. Tried it but it's not that erotic. Am I faketrans?

>>40671093
>wig
Just grow your hair out bro

I wonder how many agp fathers are out there that transitioned over 30, want to die daily and are living vicariously through their youngshit agp sons

>>40669970
I bet you don't masturbate

>>40671227
This retarded site says that if you on hormones then you are a true trans otherwise just deviant demon creature

>>40671353
Funny how trannies are constantly trying to be more inclusive for the definition of "Woman" but exclusive for the definition of "Trans"

>>40671353
xhis
non-hrt troons are hated like demon spawn

>>40671375
>Funny
Really?

>Funny how trannies are constantly trying to be more inclusive for the definition of "Woman" but exclusive for the definition of "Trans"

I'm repper not actually "legal" tranny if you asking

>>40671375
>Funny how trannies are constantly trying to be more inclusive for the definition of "Woman" but exclusive for the definition of "Trans"

at least we look like moids
gotta count the small blessings

>>40671513
>>40671513
>we
You mean mtf reppers?

I personally look like a fucking pooner faggot
never "real male"

>>40671235
If only someone could have told me this 2 years ago instead of me repping by only allowing myself to do what I want privately in my bedroom by wearing a wig as a cope for dysphoria.

>>40671375
>but exclusive for the definition of "Trans"
Depends on what group of trannies you are looking at. To me everyone who is either on cross-sex hormones or wants to be the opposite sex is a tranny.

i want a hug

I wish I had estrogen

reppers are modern day uchiha

dubs and ill troon

dubs and i'll troon...eventually...when i get around to it...

dubs and I'll kms in a week

man this shit sucks. feel almost resigned to transitioning
>>40671709
i'd give you a hug friend
>>40672143
what does this mean

how do i start manamaxxing? it seems to be a nice consolation prize for reppers
>get to be cute
>have fans that adore you
>get to use the artistic gift trannies have
>you can just claim to be an artist if anyone suspects you're a repper

>>40671399
deservedly desu

>woke up in misery at 3pm again award
I hate being alive so incredibly much

haven't had a drink for over 3 months now
probably should get wasted even though i feel no desire

signalis fanart makes me so sad

i actually started trooning, i have supportive understanding tranny friends who are helping me and i still fucking hate myself and want to die. im so fucking pathetic. i hate myself so much. i should have killed myself like a useless fucking faggot like i was planning to

The weekends over and I cant drink it away anymore

>>40672284
is that a guy? he looks really hot

>qott
centaur. need i say more?

>>40638476
*1930s gangster voice* its cuz you a real smaht broad

i haven't actually cried in over a decade. how do i unemotionally repress myself

>>40673461
Let me punch you and throw you into a ravine.

>>40673673
please do

I'm daydreaming about playing games again and never actually doing it

>>40674270
what are you thinking about playing
maybe we could play together

>>40671314
Just use my imagination

>>40674318
basically just emulated retro games

need someone to feed me frozen grapes and tell me it'll be okay

I wish I have gun to shoot myself

>>40674344
thats badass you could stream it in vc :3

e cup, small waist and uterus is all i need

>>40675006
Forgot to mention I want all this as an anime girl.

every day i have to see 20-something year old artsy looking alt girls at work and it hurts

>>40673256
He sure is. It's a shame the video quality was absolutely horrendous during his golden age.

kissing reppers sex with reppers cumming in reppers

>>40676356
when i was repping i met my (now ex) long term bf in a repgen thread. im surprised more chasers dont come here looking for an investment gf to groom

>>40676403
i wish someone would groom me

>>40676356
how are you even finding us
i never go outside
>>40676425
same

>>40676425
>>40676427
it was great, i ended up going back on hrt for him and he helped me girlmode and boyremoved me. literal repper's dream

>>40676427
>how are you even finding us
this thread mainly (I haven't actually had sex with anyone I just make posts)

>>40676435
giwtwm
>>40676445
haven't actually done it, just making posts. fits the theme of the thread at least

>>40676403
I'd only go for it if he's rich enough to pay for my ffs.

>>40676459
sorry

>>40676356
I'm a khhv and I fully intend to stay that way until I die (unless I magically swap into a body that doesn't totally gross me out ofc)

>>40676469
supposed to be grooming one of us and instead is just apologizing right away. have some fight

New thread:
>>40676911
>>40676911
>>40676911

>>40668469
fuck sis...right in the feels