Thread 40706301

should I hide my mutilation scars to protect tranny optics? I am scared that if anyone saw them, they'd come to the conclusion that we're all fucked up in the head

it would be nice not to wear a long sleeve shirt in 115° weather. I don't know what to do.

idk, most ppl will inevitably treat you with either pity or like someone mentally insane if they seen. i usually cope and put on a hoodie, no matter the weather

>>40706333
that's so depressing. I'm hideous.

>>40706301 (OP)
cut more you stupid bitch. you don't deserve to be happy, and no one will ever love you. accept that you're a fuck up and cut deeper. no one would give a single fuck.

>>40706393
Why'd you do it? There must be some other way of processing your emotions

hey cool i was gonna pop on to ask about self harm
the problem is that i'm a cis dude and an army vet though so i'm genuinely not sure how people would parse them
like i really, REALLY wanna just fucking relentlessly attack my arms with a boxcutter in the bathtub so I can easily clean up
fucking putrid! worthless! disgusting sack of shit! what a fucking failure!
i need to be harder on myself, i MUST be harder on myself. any successes are tangential, they are due to the team. any failures are personal, they are mine. I need to simultaneously own them and pay for them.
I should have known but I didn't. and for that I must be punished.
rotten. worthless. a detriment to myself and all around me.

i wish the wounds healed so much faster. i'm kinda scared of cutting if only because the last time i cut it healed as a hypertrophic scar. if i only do a few cuts, i could reasonably cover it up with a large bandage and just be like
>my cat's been an ornery old lady as of late and she got me good
but idk if that would fly
i almost cut last weekend but it was my birthday and i was seeing family members so i didn't want to alarm them
maybe i should do the real coward thing and slice my thighs open instead. but i'm also worried about those rubbing against my khakis while i'm at work and then bleeding through.

the only valid form of hate is of the self. the only valid form of violence is towards the self. rage boils under my skin and it screams for release. just a vent, a small gap. let it out. pain sears the anger.

you worthless fucking sack of SHIT. you fucking failure. that's all you've ever been and that's all you will ever be! immutability!

>>40707242
you're a male, just kill yourself

>>40707242
I wish I could give you a hug

>>40707723
Youre a male too. Also ppl who cut themselves are retarded fags

>>40707736
i do not deserve consolation, only derision and punishment
>>40707744
there is nothing wrong with it at all
"self-harm" is a non-sequitur, it's only harm if you believe being punished is morally wrong
but it's not!
steel on steel, tempering yourself into the weapon you use upon yourself and the cycle continues
sharpen up

>>40707723
shut the fuck up retard.

>>40707824
there's literally nothing wrong with dead men lmfao especially a military guy like he obviously is complicit in war crimes

>>40707803
Okay keep cutting yourself retard. I literally dont care lol.

>>40707910
cope

when you handle optics you should only hold their edges or the housing with clean, dry hands or nylon/cotton gloves, make sure to keep them in dust-free, dry storages. you should only clean them when necessary using residue free air duster or lens tissues and an appropriate solvent.

>>40706301 (OP)
opthicks

>>40706301 (OP)
You don't have to cut yourself to make the mental illness visible. You already did that by trooning.

>>40708956
HAHAHAHAHA GOOD ONE BUDDY. YOU'RE SO FUCKING FUNNY

>>40706301 (OP)
https://voca.ro/17E9WNx0JJTW

>>40709191
holy shit that voice sounds familiar

>>40709208
https://voca.ro/13UHgxTDdG1o

>>40706301 (OP)
I dont. I just stopped giving a fuck. Fuck optics. People will make you jump through hoops and treat you like a freakshow anyway. No troon will be treated like a human. Only if you pass and stay the fuck in your subhuman place.

>>40707242
cute post

>>40706301 (OP)
>we are all fucked up in the head
anon... who's going to tell OP that tying your gender to your identity in the first place is not something not 'fucked up in the head' people do.. Transgender ideology confuses me and I feel bad for the people that believe that it is some silver bullet for their insecurities.

Instead of living in spite of the gender roles of society, transgender people actively lean into them. Like a tree that snaps in the wind instead of bending. They snap in the face of gender dysphoria, giving into it and convincing themselves that gender is a key loadbearing pillar of their identity instead of simply just a physical descriptor that only effects who you are as a person on an incredibly superficial level.

Living as feminine and masculine as you like and not givng a fuck about what society/others think while STILL accepting and loving the sex/body you were born with is the true freedom imo.
But don't listen to me, I'm just a 'transphobe'. Disregard.

Most people don't say anything about scars. It's considered impolite to ask questions about that sort of thing, especially when you don't know someone.

In my old job I was walking around with three fresh burns on my forearm and nobody commented. They probably judge silently, but they didn't give me shit.

In 13 years of having self harm scars, I've been asked about them maybe 5 times by strangers. Most recently by a pajeet dentist.

Stop hiding them and get on with life.

However I'm a cis male so people might just think I'm a schizo, whereas a tranny with self harm scars might get more pushback.

>>40709776
I remember once I carved up my arm pretty bad. Only one co-worker ever asked. Pretty bluntly, "The fuck did you do to your arm?" I answered, "I pet the wrong cat." We laughed.

>>40709790
I went to a BDSM event in 2012, and there was a fat blue haired girl with obvious extensive self harm scarring on her forearms. Some normie army dude asked her what happened, and she said she had an aggressive cat. He actually bought it. I had started self harming 6 months prior so I knew the dark truth. I felt like I should have winked at her or something to show that I too am a cringe self harmer.

>>40706393
Why? You're getting the attention you wanted.

>>40706301 (OP)
I've had two zoomie female coworkers in a row who wore long sleeves even in the middle of summer to hide their cutting scars. If anything it shows you're fitting in with women better

>>40709812
cutting isnt always done for attention, retard

i had a really bad relapse lately and i had been bandaging the new self harm scars on my arms (especially since i carved DIE MOID into my left arm and i don't want people to see that, i'm a honmoder but i've never actually discussed being trans irl) but today i didn't and i had to do induction training at work for this 50 year old middle eastern dude who just joined and he was like "do you have a dog or a cat at home or something? because i presume those are scratches". so tldr yes hide them please.

>>40709773
> But don't listen to me, I'm just a 'transphobe'. Disregard.
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