Thread 40723025

I wish i was born into femininity and wasn't built like an ogre. I wish me being a girl was just assumed by society and not something i need to fight a losing battle for. I wish i could love a girl in a way that was mutual with no inherent power dynamic or gender expectation. I want to be able to hug my partner without constantly remembering the degenerate appendage in my pants. I wish i was a cis lesbian so bad.

>>40723025 (OP)
these are normal cis male thoughts

>>40723040
i dont think this, ever

>>40723066
Because you are a fag
>>40723040
These are normal *straight* cis male thoughts

>>40723072
>projecting
im a straight transwoman

>>40723083
>normal cis male thoughts
doesn't seem to apply to you......
but also i think anon is wrong

>>40723083
same dif

>>40723135
im a normal cis male boymoder on e who is straight and identified by your kind as trans.

>>40723025 (OP)
same i feel disgusting for liking women as a trans woman. how can i ever be good enough while not being fetishized? how can i be sure they're not just settling? how can i know that they don't see me as the man in the relationship? its terrifying. aside from other factors i get hit on by other girls semi often and it just makes me feel awful because i have to say no for factors entirely because of my own insecurities

even though ive been stealth for a huge portion of my life now i still feel like i'll never be able to fit in with other women the same way other women can. despite my feelings i think if i was with another woman i would just be miserable from jealousy the entire time, i struggle with making friends with cis women because of this. it makes me feel so sick and like a terrible person. cis people have no idea how easy they have it not having to constantly second guess the optics and history of everything they ever do

>>40723150
well why'd you say
>straight transwoman
then silly

>>40723178
thats how other lgbts see me because im a boy on e. im over arguing it is all

>>40723192
i'd like to think there are a fair deal of people here nowadays who would understand
anyhow you didn't have to say anything if anon was right in clocking you as gay lol

>>40723150
so hrtfemboy? boymoder implies you being a tgirl inherently
>>40723177
>even though ive been stealth for a huge portion of my life now i still feel like i'll never be able to fit in with other women the same way other women can.
bleak. Honestly my only hope left for a partner is for some fchaser to find me pathetic cute. Ive tried t4t so much and its never worked out for me, i think other trans people get scared away by my brainworms.

same iwn be butchy because i will only end up looking like a man. i hate that i fucked up my life for so little in return

>>40723025 (OP)
Me too.

>>40723025 (OP)
Yeah
felt this since i was like 13

>>40723237
yep this tortures my mind constantly
i wish i could give a kinda masc representation while still being read as a woman. that i probably wont ever have that makes me wonder if life is even worth living. i'll never be who i want to be. even after transitioning, i;ll never be who i want to be.

>>40723378
Nowhere mentioned.
I grt this in the opposite way, im worried im to fucked to look how i want and ill meber look fem enough to pass a s a girl. This id not even mentioning the genital dysphoria

>>40723025 (OP)
This debate is ridiculous.

1: anger needs oxygen! Know the difference between rational anger (phone was stolen, etc) & irrational anger (my hands are ugly, i hate rainy days, etc).

2: know the words that start with "L" and end with "N". Hers is already here (Lesbian/Sappho) -his is hidden in the rainbow.

Enjoy your new life!

>>40723177
Most people who get married end up settling with that person. Just find someone you can be comfortable with and sign a good prenup

>>40723025 (OP)
i have everything you dream of except im not sys or married to sys

t4t limitless infinite passionate deathly serious mutual Limerence love a best

>>40723515
Part 1 of this post makes sense and then it just devolves into scizoposting

>>40725214
You seem like the type to trap and eat stray cats