Thread 40729117

im starting to realise that no matter how long i take these hormones for and no matter how much surgery im able to get, im never going to be a woman
im going to be stuck in that spot where theres just something off enough with my face or voice that i couldnt cover up no matter how hard i try
my life isnt worth living as an amab, iwnbaw and i think im starting to really understand that
i dont know whether to rep or to rope, i just cant keep trooning out

>>40729117 (OP)
im just gonna keep trooning out personally. id rather be a woman to some people than nobody and id rather not be any more of a man than i have to be. and i cant kms

>>40729142
i wish i could think this way
unfortunately its mostly absolutes for me and being a tranny isnt good enough
id rather die than live as a man or a tranny

>>40729117 (OP)
i couldn't eat for two weeks over this. my dysphoria makes it so hard for me to live.

i need my body to essentially female, i need it to be undeniable, in my face and my shoulders and my skull and my ribs. but i went through puberty. i want to vomit again

>>40729217
please don't see it that way. this is all we get we have to make the most of it

>>40729244
what could i possibly have to gain that would be worth living after being born a man? the best i could do is rep but i dont see that going well at all

>>40729310
i trooned out and i mean being a tranny sucks and i am still somewhat dysphoric and im still sad im not a cis woman sometimes, but im doing much better. i want to live now. how long did you take hrt?

>>40729334
i kind of lucked out a little on the age since im still quite young and i was when i started, but unfortunately age isnt everything and it doesnt make much of a difference for me

>>40729117 (OP)
Don't rope and don't rep, stop caring so much about society, stop being so harsh on yourself, take solace in the fact that you can be a girl, maybe not the prettiest one, or the most perfect one, but you can be a girl, and someone out there is going to love you for who you are eventually.

>>40729426
when did you start? i started at 16. i have a worse body than most of the people on this board but i pass irl. why do you say it doesn't make a difference?

>>40729117 (OP)
Have you gone on dates with men? Becoming sexually active in the role of a female really really helped my self esteem. Having a man fuck and love me is better than heroin.

>>40729459
i wish it was easy for me to keep this mindset
>>40729462
i started at 17 and i mean that it wouldnt have mattered whether i started then or later because i was never gonna pass anyways
>>40729468
id like to but i live in the middle of nowhere with magats everywhere so whenever i go out i have ti boymode and this isnt really a queer town at all

>>40729491
>magats
Like wow fuck you bitch, don't you know some of us girlies are right wing?? I only date right wing men. Why would you even single them out not to date?
God i wish this wasn't a blue board, I have a picture of me blowing a guy and he has a swastika tattoo on his thumb and his hand resting on my head as I'm throating his chode, he would also randomly put his thumb in my mouth and pull my chin down and told me to make a submissive ahegeo face, fuck I miss him, hes in prison now for beating up a cop ;_;

>>40729310
>what could i possibly have to gain that would be worth living after being born a man?
Ok this is pretty obviously a stupid statement. Plenty of men like being alive because there are things that give their life meaning. You’re putting all your life’s meaning into this one thing which is fucking stupid. There are people who lose their children whom they’ve dedicated their whole existence to, but they don’t rope just because their kid died they carry on and try to find meaning in other shit.

>kayla gives her pink hole away to straight up neo nazis
It's so over

>>40729491
it's probably not as bad as you think. how long have you been on hrt? i pass a lot better 7 years in than i did at 1 or 2 or 3

>>40729491
focus on getting a good paying job and saving enough to move out. don't listen to the gooners whos say you should be happy with whoring yourself to magtards

>>40729117 (OP)
voice and face are improvable through surgery. not saying its easy to get but unlike shoulders or etc its not impossible to fix

>>40729521
i was using it as a blanket term for people who dont like trannies since that fits the ones ive known, sorry
>>40729536
other things give my life some meaning but its not worth seeing it through for those things if it means i have to do it in this body
>>40729548
just under a year. im approaching my 1 year soon but i know its over either way. hrt couldnt ever do enough to fix things and realistically im never gonna be able to afford surgery.
>>40729550
getting a job and leaving is the plan for now, and i know not to listen to them, its just hard not to when they have more respect for me than i do

>>40729629
you've barely started hrt girl give it more time. i thought it was over at your age too

>>40729117 (OP)
Wh cares? Just be a feminin man.

>>40729550
shoulder narrowing surgery is in fact a thing, it's also called clavicle reduction

>>40730040
it costs like 30k tho