Thread 40743534

>QOTT: Are you ok with being a jobless neet?
>QOTT2: Do you have friends?
>QOTT3: How badly does anxiety affect you on a day to day basis?

Thread for queers who are not in education, employment, or training.

(note: I don't think anyone should be ashamed of being jobless, but this goes especially for trannies. I mean, why would you want to work in a world that treats you like a gross animal?)

>>40743534 (OP)
QOTT1 not really, i would like to work so i could get out more as money isnt a problem but loneliness is (im not rich, just really frugle), the only time i ever had a job was washing dishes, i was overworked and i had a panic attack every day i worked, so stop showing up and been scared of employment since

QOTT2 a few, most of them prefer staring at a screen over meeting up, and the few that do are too busy being useful to society, when i see them is the only time i feel alive

QOTT3 hard too say, i dont leave the house much, but when i do i only speak when spoken too unless im manic

are u new? havent seen ur name here before

>>40743534 (OP)
q1 no but i would be if i had money, worked in accounting, then hospitality, then sales
while working in accounting i cried everyday in the toilet
hospitality was alright i guess but i didnt wanna do that really
in sales i got drunk everyday before work so i could function normally
q2 yea but i dont know if they really qualify as friends, really just good acquaintances from school, otherwise yeah i have online friends
q3 its getting better, i no longer sweat or stutter while going to checkout buying groceries

>>40743534 (OP)
Wish I could be a neet but I have to pay rent

>>40743534 (OP)
>QOTT
very conflicted. obv i would like a job where i can actually support myself but i keep self sabotaging and crumbling under agoraphobia and major depressive episodes
>QOTT2
none IRL anymore
>QOTT3
i literally duck from windows in my house and exclusively wear multiple layers of the baggiest clothes possible when i have to go out. as pathetic as it sounds i still have trouble answering or making phone calls, i feel like i barely understand anyone over the phone and i keep asking them to repeat themselves to the point my brain shuts down i enter a panic for being retarded

>>40743701
>are u new? havent seen ur name here before

I've been hear for a few years now lol. I mostly post anonymously though.

>>40743534 (OP)
>qott
no, i want moneys
>qott2
not really
>qott3
it's crippling! :D

>>40743534 (OP)
looking for a job, getting government assistance until i get said job. i'll be apply for a few more this week, would be more but if i apply to eerythingi want in 1 week unemployment will cut me off sooner than later.

>>40743534 (OP)
1: for the most part
2. no
3. im scared to go outside

>>40744396
same.

>>40743534 (OP)
>QOTT1
no bc i have no friends money or life of any kind
>QOTT2
there is a single internet friend ive known for so long that id consider him my friend. otherwise none
>QOTT3
its gotten so so much worse over time. i dont go outside anymore unless it's my dr

>>40744631
this thread is too relatable it hurts.

>>40743534 (OP)
>Q1
No I gotta get a real job and further my career this shit sucks ass, my life is going nowhere right now
>Q2
A few but i never had that little, I have like 5 friends but I barely see them they moves far away or are too busy. There is just one friend I see every week to play sports with.
>Q3
I feel schizo and autistic, barely human, unable to connect, I feel weird even with family and people I've known for a decade, as if I weren't me, as if I slipped into the skin of the person that used to be me someday and now I have to keep their life going and pretend like I'm them.
The loneliness and romantic yearning doesn't help and I don't know what to do about it I'm not sure it's the kind of thing pills can help with

Do I count as a NEET if I have seasonal ways to make money? I "work" but don't have a serious "job"?
And how old is everyone here?

>>40743534 (OP)
>QOTT
I used to not really be okay with it and wanted to change, but over the years I've accepted I'll be nothing more than a hikikomori NEET and became content with that.
>QOTT2
Nope.
>QOTT3
I don't leave my house pretty much ever.
Thinking about trying to apply for NEETbux soon, it's pretty hard here in the US but regardless I've heard of people getting it for mental illness related issues after a few tries, some even on the first.

I’ve been gooning 6 days in a row. I need a cage.

>>40744786
>Do I count as a NEET if I have seasonal ways to make money? I "work" but don't have a serious "job"?
Any working makes you not a NEET, you fraud!
Also I'm 23.

i got a job slaving at amazon warehouse (cause its the only place that will hire someone as socially inept as me) and it doesnt really feel much different from being a neet except im more tired and do a repetitive task for 40 hrs a week

i was a hikki for 6 years also god my fucking life sucks so bad i dont know what im gona do help help help help help help help hel phel phelp help hel phepl

>>40743534 (OP)
QOTT1 Only in the sense that I sort of role transitioned from being a software engineer to a housewife with well above average chef skills. Truthfully however, I dislike how I just feel like a lazy otaku doing Hiragana-Katakana-Kanji lessons one moment then just watching anime the next, then browsing for either recipes or playing a video game not because I even want to but just because I feel like I need to show anyone in my ancient friends list on Steam that I´m at least biologically still alive.

QOTT2 I have a history of some friends in furry circles but I ran away from the US with the new administration so they´re now basically depressing reminders of the fact that most of what made life worth living for is now out the window. Doesn´t help that a lot of them mentally are not on the same page as me with regards to just how much worse I can forsee it becoming for sexual freedom in that domain now.

QOTT3 It´s all I can do to basically leave the house to either visit an ATM or supermarket and if I try to go to the open grocer market with stalls my anxiety flares up even worse cause then I have to start ordering in my second language and hoping we´ll mutually understand each other and I´ll be awkwardly fiddling with the cash in my purse the whole time trying to not pull it out too early while they´re still butchering the meat. It leads me to order things online more often just to avoid a face-to-face or even voice-call order over phone.

>>40744836
holy fuck, take a break champ.

I think my bf has been seeing other people while I'm at home. It's time for detectivemaxxing
>Yes I am BPD get off my ASS

>>40743534 (OP)
q1 no. Im trying to get a job in IT that is not helpdesk
q2 no
q3 not much, social anxoety used to be p bad but i could work with it, i joind a.project that helps young ppl get jobs and i had to socialise alot there, i think you can train it away.

>>40745608
I don't blame you, I'd be paranoid too as a shut in. You can never know if your wagie bf/gf is talking to other people behind your back, and thats pretty scary.

my advice to NEETs who want to try dating: don't.

>>40745706
>my advice to NEETs who want to try dating: don't.
why not date other NEETs?

>>40744705
it's the life of like 1 out of every 10 trannies or something, total withdrawal from society. i stopped going outside at 13 and my perpetual summer vacation has turned into a nightmare 9 years later

>>40743534 (OP)
>>QOTT: Are you ok with being a jobless neet?
I was for over a decade because I had no hope and was just kinda coasting along. I'm not really anymore though. Spent a couple years losing a shit ton of weight. Started talking to people. Have come out to some of my family now. I want to somehow get into the workforce after 10 years of nothing so I can be a good partner for someone, because I have a sliver of hope now. But shit's gonna be fucking hard
>>QOTT2: Do you have friends?
Yeah I do. Old high school friends who meet up once a year or so and check in every now and then. Then bandmates from a group I joined at 19 and have been slowly trucking since. Miniscule focus on that has kinda taken place of focusing on anything that matters. Any time people talk about work I just bullshit about how the band is doing instead. Was kind of a crutch despite how dumb it is since it's not a career
>>QOTT3: How badly does anxiety affect you on a day to day basis?
Lately really bad since I cracked out of apathy. I used to feel nothing but now I feel the weight of a wasted life with nothing built up and so far to go just to reach adequacy. It's kinda crushing me, trying to not let it so I can actually dig out from this. I believe it's possible it's just gonna take a lot

>>40745750
Who's gonna pay for dinner

>>40745750
In my experience it only amplifies the deficiencies of both parties to the point that they both wind up hating themselves and each other more. Better to find someone who either tolerates or appreciates your quirks but otherwise still has a mutual need for something you can give them in a relationship and vice-versa.

>>40745808
their parents. or neetbux
depends on how they get food already
>>40745812
>In my experience it only amplifies the deficiencies of both parties
why is that a bad thing? sounds cute and codependent

>>40745750
because online dating kind of sucks, and im super avoidant.

>>40745753
yeah, these last few years have been one big fever dream for me.

>>40746027
>because online dating kind of sucks, and im super avoidant.
that's literally the only kind of dating an avoidant neet can do. are you just gonna remain single your whole life?

>>40743534 (OP)
i dont have a choice im really crippled and in alot of pain every day

i couldnt work a normal job- even from home; if my life depended on it

>>40745839
Just my own personal anecdote. Suppose if you´re both ride-or-die for one another it will work but only because you´re prioritizing each other over yourselves and in my first couple relationships that wasn´t how the other tended to approach the dynamic.

>>40743534 (OP)
i dont think i can jold a job much longer but idk what resources i hacve

>>40746153
I have severe autism I think

>>40743534 (OP)
1. not really but i feel stuck, if not physically then mentally.

2. online only.

3. not sure. i never leave the house tho, feel like a failure at life but also dont feel capable of changing in any meaningful way anytime soon

>>40745753
>i stopped going outside at 13 and my perpetual summer vacation has turned into a nightmare 9 years later
Why is it a nightmare? Being a NEET gives you the free time to literally do whatever you want.

>>40743534 (OP)
>1
not really. i’m thankfully still living with my mom so im not in super bad danger, but i’ve run out of savings and weirdly secretive about doing instacart for a small cash influx, so i haven’t had more than ~$50 in my account for a while, which sucks (e.g. my car needs a new tire, which i’ve been told means i actually need a pair, which is gonna fuck me hard i think)
>2
yep! i’ve got a core group of myself and 4 others and we talk and see each other often. we’re all still pretty close, 2 in the same town, 1 the next town over and less than a 10 minute drive away, and the last splits time between two homes each about half an hour away. just had them over for a pool party on thursday! i’ve got other friends too, though they’re admittedly pretty much online friends nowadays because i’m bad at making plans
>3
not terribly, i’m apathetic to a fault so i'm not too affected by anything. it’s getting there though. no one actually knows i’m a a NEET because no one knows i flunked out of college (because of above apathy, plus a profound laziness) and now that the semester is starting super soon i have no idea what to do

>>40746500
You can only fill so much time in a day with video games and getting high or whatever other shit you might binge on a weekend before life becomes totally uninteresting. like the only reason im even still alive rn is to see what HRT improves over a few years lol. it's existence without meaning or purpose where every single day feels like groundhog day. life without living.

>>40743534 (OP)
1. no but i cant escape it, i dont know what to do to get out of neetdom
2. no :( never had any
3. a lot, everyone must hate me because i have no personality from being a neet with 0 social interaction for so long

>>40745608
Cont. brought it up and got yelled at yay

>>40746568
>You can only fill so much time in a day with video games and getting high or whatever other shit you might binge on a weekend before life becomes totally uninteresting. like the only reason im even still alive rn is to see what HRT improves over a few years lol. it's existence without meaning or purpose where every single day feels like groundhog day. life without living.
literal skill issue. I could live a life as simple as reading a book from my backlog and relaxing at home and be fine for the next 1,000 years.
>it's existence without meaning or purpose
that's existence in general. it's up to you to give it purpose, you don't need to work to find purpose in life. learn to be content with what you have, or learn to find your own excitement

>>40746730
are you a neet? its not that easy, im so lonely and everything is very very boring, and yes being a neet is less meaningful my life doesnt impact a single other human being in any meaningful way nobody even knows me

>>40746894
exactly. this shit is like when upper class suburbans kids say "i could totally be homeless, it's just like camping." like no lol. after watching the 500th season of your 50th high quality slap show in a decade or playing 47,823 combined steam hours of games in a decade (not including thousands of Minecraft hours), it becomes fucking nauseating. i want friends. i want love. i want to wake up in the morning and have someone to make happy, and who will make me happy, even if it's just by us being around each other. and i crave physical contact like liquid latinum. a hug or any embrace. i need to feel another human so i know im still alive and not in hell. i need someone to care. I would not wish this neet life on anyone

>QOTT: Are you ok with being a jobless neet?
No, but I feel weird going back to working because it's been so long, too long. I have barely went outside within all the months I've been a neet.
>QOTT2: Do you have friends?
No. I have my roommate but we have vastly different personalities and only recently has things became stable between us. I got banned off Discord the time I tried to use it because the server I was in got raided while I was afk. I try every now and again to message random people on various chatroom apps or on Tumblr but I've never managed to click with anyone because of our different interests with nothing connecting us together other than both agreeing "hey, _ sucks".

Lately two old friends tried to message me but I ignore them due to how much I've changed over the years, we have nothing in common and both tend to be pretty toxic regardless.
>QOTT3: How badly does anxiety affect you on a day to day basis?
It hasn't been as bad as it used to be due to getting rid of bad habits, yet I still find myself struggling. I have OCD and the way OCD manifests itself is on a league of its own compared to anxiety in general. It's hard to tell whats real and what are my intrusive thoughts trying to make me think is real.

Really Ive become more jaded than I want to be in regards to society. Its like my sense of identity shifts between wanting to be happy and vibrant to finding the cynical, darker side of myself more comforting for my bruised ego. People are awful. Random strangers, I mean. And the fact most people will never have to deal with discrimination, let alone stuff like homelessness or abuse, is isolating. Im trying to be more empathetic though, I feel as though I can get really caught up in my own issues that I forget we all share the same emotions even if one hypothetically "has it better" than the other.

>QOTT
If I had financial security, yes, absolutely. I could live alone in a dark house for weeks at a time before wanting change. Unfortunately, I am not married to some rich CEO

>QOTT2
Ya, kinda. I got a girlfriend, but my ex-bestfriend voted for the orange, so I had to cut her off. My girlfriend is actually the only reason I don't just stay in my apartment my entire life

>QOTT3
Before estrogen, it was everything. Got anxious getting out of bed, talking, or even walking. Now, I only feel anxious when doing applications and stuff

>>40743534 (OP)
>q1
No, I'm leeching off family and hate it here, and I finally want to stop being a hiki who has to be supported like a child. But I have little work experience so it's hard to find anything. (I only worked one job for a year and am 25.) The only good thing is that I have more time to read and draw. Otherwise, it's boring.
>q2
I had one childhood friend up until we were teenagers but none after that.
>q3
Terribly, I can usually make it through scripted interactions like with cashiers but if someone tries to have an actual conversation with me I shut down.

bump

ily all. Being a neet is ok.

im not going to post a lot but i think being loved, cared for, shown that my existence brings joy to someone, anyone, would help me a lot as a useless pathetic hikkineet transbian

unfortunately as a useless pathetic hikkineet transbian i do not deserve love so roping is only a delayed inevitability atp

q1: yes. my parents arent poor and they dont mind. i understand that some people think im useless but i dont let it get me down. im much happier this way
q2: just online. theyre more than enough to me. i havent had any real life friends since i was in high school
q3: i dont go outside very often, so i feel fine just talking to my family most days. when i have to go out into the wild, i dont talk much and keep my nervous feelings to myself. i used to panic a lot when i was younger, but i guess i got lucky and grew out of it. i hope that all of you who struggle with anxiety will feel better, too

I have a fast food job but I'm only scheduled to work one day because they hire too many people so I'm basically fired.

None of my friends text me when I text them or when they want something from me so they don't really feel like my friends.

I'm 22 and still live with my parents. I kinda hate my life.

Gf just got a career change and is now able to support me entirely without working
I cant believe how lucky I am to have her ;_; i was on the verge of breaking down cause of how much work kills me

I wanna be a nwet again so bad. I hate going outside, i hate working, i hate talking to people all of it makes me physically hurt, and now all i do everyday besides work is drink and cut myself. Its been so much worse these past few days cause i found out people have been calling me slurs behind my back. This happened a few months ago but at least then i had a boss who defended, my new boss disnt even have the respect to tell me, my coworker did cause she overheard my boss talking about it. Id rather be dead than work another day

>>40747426
>i want friends. i want love. i want to wake up in the morning and have someone to make happy, and who will make me happy, even if it's just by us being around each other. and i crave physical contact like liquid latinum. a hug or any embrace. i need to feel another human so i know im still alive and not in hell. i need someone to care
Being a NEET does not preclude being in a relationship. You can be a NEET and still find a GF/BF.
Is it harder? Sure. But even if you're some agoraphobe who doesn't leave the house, you can still find someone out there for you. Sure you might have to start out doing a long distance relationship, but plenty of people have made those work and transitioned them into IRL relationships.

>>40750365
nta
depends, i dont think i ever had any friends so no i cant get a bf without knowing how to talk to other people
+manmoder so its over anyways

>>40743534 (OP)
Q1: i don't think i'm okay with it, no, i want to go out and get a job one of these days but it's not going to feasible for me in my current state, crippled by cptsd.
Q2: there's a few but I have a hard time asserting my boundaries with them and that leads to them treating me like a child sometimes, like giving me advice i'm never going to use and not taking the hint that i want to speak even when i'm trying to be really clear, working on it though
Q3: ehh it depends. hypervigilance spikes throughout the day triggered by god knows what, on a normal day the social anxiety is not too bad, i think i have social anxiety the most when i'm with people i care about or afraid of saying something wrong which is a lot

>>40743534 (OP)
Get a job. Jesus the whiny little answers in this thread make me sick. I've dealt with anxiety my whole life and it never stopped me from working two jobs to survive, that's a shit excuse to be a drain on whoever is allowing you to live with them.

Yall get 80% of your baseline requirements to live handed to you and you can't even bother to get up to 90% by just doing anything to bring in some money. One day whoever you are mooching off of will get sick of your lazy NEET ways and kick you out. I wonder if your anxiety will be bad enough to make you homeless when that happens, or if you'll do what everyone else already did a decade prior and get the fuck over it and WORK

>>40743534 (OP)
>1
Hate it, graduated cum laude for fuck all. It is all nepotism and dead end jobs.
>2
Lost everybody at coming out. Lost new friends too when they decided to "settle".
>3
Not muh thanks to Clonazepam. Taking the stuff because my VFS got botched. Gonna be fun tapering off eventually.

>>40751191
the day my parents kick me out i kill myself, i cant even get a job its not that easy

>>40751199
You can work some bullshit McDonald's/7-11/Food Lion stocker job just fine. You won't kill yourself. More than likely you'll get angry at your parents and blame them for whatever minor thing was the straw that broke their camels back and hate them for decades for it before realizing you were just a lazy NEET for too long and now they're dead so you can't even apologize to them for not seeing the error of your own ways faster.

Go get a job before your parents get tired of you being a waste of space, why are you so comfortable detonating every relationship you have just because muh work is too hard?

>>40751191
It's not whiny it's pain. I think you have a lot of internalised shame inside you

>>40751298
Life is suffering. To exist is to suffer. To work is to suffer. But that's how it is. This thread is just a wall of cope to avoid unavoidable suffering. And I can promise you if you keep NEETing your suffering in life will be much worse.

>>40751310
You're being fucking bad to me. Don't do that.

>>40751322
What are you gonna do about it? Go get a job

>>40751242
my parents also hated me before becoming a neet, they were always like this i will never apologize for not helping
not even a highschool diploma even mcdonald wont accept me now (because i never worked a job before)

Had myself a cute little mental break last night

>>40751242
Non-neet here, you're lame leave these people alone. You screeching at them to get a job isn't going to make them go apply for Amazon. These posters are talking about cptsd, OCD, and agoraphobia. They sound like they need therapy, medication, discovering adjusted forms of employment that work with their needs, or to get that diagnosis and apply for disability. Even food stamps is a huge help to lessen stress for some people.

>>40751445
>applied to one job and didn't get a callback
>abloo bloo nobody will ever hire me

I'm 100% certain that if your circumstances changed you would find a job to survive. Why wait for that to happen and have no options? Do something about it now instead of letting things disrupt you and rushing to pick up the pieces.

>>40751469
That's fine, I hope they get whatever help they need. But I know the agency that a steady paycheck provides will help alleviate alot of the learned helplessness involved in most NEETmoders. It's not your job to be superman and save these people from their own poor decisions.

>>40751591
Wtf are you talking about no one is playing Superman and rescuing nobody... And that agency is very shortlived if they can't consistently commit to employment, or earn enough to obtain agency at all.

>>40751591
if my circumstances change i wont find a job to survive i just wont survive, i dont care if this is "learned helplessness" i never fit in and even when i really tried i kept failing its not poor decisions

>>40751634
You are right now by doing the "oh they're just poor maladjusted children who need W, X, Y, and Z and then maybe they might be able to work 10 hours a week". Stop making excuses for them. Just look at the responses ITT, they don't mention any attempt to improve themselves or their situation in any way, it's just whining about circumstances. I empathize with folks who struggle in life, not everyone has the same advantages or disadvantages. But being a layabout and bitching about not having money while using your transness as a shield of criticism and expecting simps (You) to protect them is pathetic and lazy. You don't see John, 50 hons laying around at home all day. You see them working, getting sneered at, doing shit jobs for shit pay and they just do it and don't expect anything from anyone. Be like John.

>>40751647
Alright you'll either work and live and figure it out or you'll weaponize keep manipulating the emotional attachment of your parents to keep NEETing it up til they realize you're fucking up their life and they kick you out, your actions afterwards be damned. Don't blame them for it, you're the one relying on their continued bond for you to support your existence. Nobody wants to be a caretaker forever.

>>40751693
are u gay

>>40743534 (OP)
I'm just gonna list off skills I have, and have (you) judge how screwed I am:
>3dcg
>cpp, c, c#, python, html, css, bash, lua, opengl + vulkan, robotics, arduino
>linux, arch + gentoo
>CAD
>powerpoint sheets all that bullshit
>voice acting
>singing
>descriptive writing
>art
>photoshop
>graphic design
>animal husbandry
>manual labor (i bench 2pl8s)
So basically, I know all the pathetic atrsy fartsy asswipe skills easily replaced by AI and third worlders. How the fuck do I get a job? I have over 500 apps. I haul my ass to places in person, firm handshakes and all. Call places. Zero. Zilch. Nada. Like 15 interviews tops, and two of those were scams to try and kidnap me. What the fuck do I do? Am I truly just fucked till I get a degree? Not even grocery stores or fast food want me dude. I can do all this shit but can't stock shelves or flip burgers?

>>40751715
wish i had something good to tell you but i feel you. even if you're trying sincerely shit's harder and worse than a lot of people are ready to admit

>>40751693
how am i fucking up their life? im not a manipulative person i dont manipulate them to stay a neet all my efforts in the past to not be one just failed so they gave up
the only reason im relying on them is because i dont know what else to do i have 0 skills unlike other comment here

>>40751715
There are objectively more unemployed people looking for a job than there are jobs out there.
It was fucked form the beginning.

>>40746568
You need a balance. Learning and creating are what keep me sane. If you do nothing but mindless activities, your synapses will quite literally rot and lose their connections. Companies want to keep you rotted. Don't do that. Find a passion or a project instead. Balance. Does it fix the loneliness and misery? Not entirely, but it does give you the stimulation you need to not feel completely dogshit all the time.
>>40751469
I also have cptsd. I am extremely anxious and its hard to put on a brave face and do things, but I'm not an impotent child. I can work. You can overcome anxiety too. Everyone can. Its really a matter of just getting out there and letting yourself be uncomfortable anyway. I find carrying a weapon helps. Becoming /fit/ and taking martial arts also helps. But if you're a tgirl and have a muscle aversion, weapons alone help lots with your peace of mind.
I do feel like a worthless anxiety riddled piece of garbage too though. And wonder how much the interviewers can plainly see my social incompetence on full display. Hopefully it will get better after I graduate though. And I don't get kicked out in that time. Hopefully. That's some damn wishful thinking though. And if I do end up on the street. Quite honest, I'll probably get trafficked and die. But oh well. Its sort of my fault I suppose. I bet I could try harder to be normal, learn another marketable skill. Yeah. I just try to be hard on myself and hope that eventually lands me financial security. That's how I keep myself sane.
Oh, I also don't really have friends or a support system or anything. The passion project thing distracts me enough though.

>>40751715
Right there with you, spent my whole life studying operating systems and software engineering principles even down to the network level, in spite of no social life just so that I could at least be a useful engineer. Had no meaningful social life in any part of life beyond age 10 until I got a job after college and then I still spent the first two years miserably slacking away while the pressure of work only grew and the proverbial promotion carrot was dangled in front of me for years before they unceremoniously put me on the prolonged death sentence known at PIP, so that they could make up cause for firing a queer multi-facet SDE after five years of dedicated work. Yeah I was also too autistic to follow the job-hopping trend at the time, but like >>40751817 said, this market was artificially inflated by the powers-that-be to overgenerate brains like us to just pump and dump the stock market and throw us away at the very moment it became most convenient for them. No rest for us till death as it stands, but I´m genuinely too angry to let myself die for their benefit so spite and stubbornness keeps me going atm.

Since I got laid off only my closest partners have kept me alive and I no longer reside stateside so much of my old life is like a mirror I´ll never be able to pass through again. Much emptiness to be had, very likely more to follow in the ensuing times.

>>40752279
You have to create your own job nowadays but people don't want to hear that. Honestly not having a job when you can make your own is a skill issue.

>>40743534 (OP)
I've been a NEET for two months and it sucks. im bored
I have friends but most of them are retarded and I want to make new ones but it's hard
I experience no anxiety

>>40752291
My ¨job" these days is home chef for my wife and partner, and I can proudly say there is no skill issue on my Tonkotsu Ramen, stir-fried rice, onigiri rice balls and creme brulee but it´s still a far emptier life that what was promoted to engineering autists from a young age.

>>40752296
thats not being a neet, youre just unemployed
im a neet for years with 0 friends

>>40752329
If you're a stay-at-home X you don't count. That's multiple jobs in one that you don't get paid for. It's like mandatory community service that benefits the world in general. You've evolved from neetdom into a productive member of society.

>>40751191
>"get a job in a society that treats you like complete shit"
>"pick yourself up by your bootstraps"

fuck off.

>>40752377
they stopped replying too, there no advice for mentally ill neets i cant get a job this is all so dumb

>>40752375
I´ll accept that external validation then, so thank you for your words. I will add that I´ve spent years away from here after being a goon for much of my pre-transition life so now that I´m in this role after going through the American healthcare system a few times (que the South Park song) I just want to give non-aggro anecdotes and viewpoints in a way that might possibly give back further to any other anons that have been going through their own hells so that maybe at least some of them find the care they´re looking for even just a little bit easier than I did.

Thank you again, Anon.

>>40752291
this thread is full of retards that think money can only be made in one specific way

>>40752664
what way can i make money? i have no skills

>>40752377
They also try to act like they understand even .01% of what a NEET goes through because they have anxiety themselves. There’s a huuuuge difference between just regular anxiety experienced by a lot of people, and the debilitating anxiety that arises from long term agoraphobia and being a shut-in for years on end. They’re a complete retard with boomer mentality.

>>40743534 (OP)
>QOTT
no i hate it i feel like such a worthless piece of trash. I tried to go to school but the instability in day to day schedule was too much for me and gave me panic attacks. I think im gonna try and go to community college then finish my bachelors eventually
>QOTT2
no just online friends :c everyone i meet irl just builds to my anxiety cause even cis women that i meet in queer places (trying queer spaces cause im scared of how ppl will react to me being trans) always just want to have sex w me and it makes me uncomfortable to build a friendship on rejection like that
>QOTT3
insanely bad. it used to be worse pre hrt felt like ppl stare daggers through me and have a vitriol and look of disgust for me, but even tho i know it's just in my head it wont go away. Feel like im constantly being stared at and judged everywhere i go and sometimes i hyperventilate and dry heave and have straight up thrown up just from mundane activities like having to go to the grocery store i hate living like this

>>40752693
i guess you need to do a lot of research on what particularly fits your case, and somehow get your creativity up. i'm not saying i'm good at that, but i've def had it with the plebs thinking that having some shitty job hating their life puts them in a position to give advice

bump

getting white girl wasted tonight
>tequila
>lime juice
>lemonade
>raspberry popsicle

ive been a neet for 10 years, i could have done so much better but im massively avoidant and fearful. i dont want to do some slave minimum wage job so i have to get skills, i thought out of everything i should just do IT since everything else seems like stressful hell, but i dont think id ever get past an IT interview honestly.

>>40743534 (OP)
1. Not really I fucking hate myself for it, I just literally went on a tinder date for a meal and I’m waiting for my disability check to come in. I’ve turned into a fucking whore at this point and I hate myself for it
2. No, I have one girlfriend that’s cis that sometimes checks on me. We use to date in high school when I was a boy then we caught up as adults after I came out and now we talk here and there
3. I don’t even have the energy to care anymore . I’m literally still in bed with cum dripping from my ass and just masturbated all day after he left. Not even because I enjoy sex but because it’s the only thing that feels real.

>>40743534 (OP)
>>QOTT: Are you ok with being a jobless neet?
i have a job
>>QOTT2: Do you have friends?
i have friends
>>QOTT3: How badly does anxiety affect you on a day to day basis?
it doesn't
get a job kek

>>40755952
i hate you fuck you

>>40755952
The life of one NEET is worth the lives of a million people like you.

>>40756097
>>40756479
if it makes you feel any better i lied

>>40756633
the terrible feeling already passed, but thank you i guess

>>40743534 (OP)
just quit my job with no fallback :)
>QOTT1
i wanna get back on my feet and be self-sustaining but dealing with people for work is such hell, tired of getting stared at or harassed when I'm just trying to do my stupid retard job. but i hate being a NEET it makes me miserable
>QOTT2
i have lots of frens online and a few local irls i know from online
>QOTT3
I have really bad agoraphobia and will always be scanning rooms and looking behind my back. therapy has been entirely useless, meds (which i got from bs online pharm) just made me crazy. hrt really helped my social anxiety, I went from shaking when I had to give speeches in college to a total social butterfly (at least with trannies)
At this point, I'm more just a loser than a NEET, but I mostly get along with NEETs and losers. I'm hoping this cool girl that's into me adopts me and makes me normal.

>>40756640
i actually didn't lie get fucked lol

>>40756734
you are mentally ill

>>40756712
>hrt really helped my social anxiety, I went from shaking when I had to give speeches in college to a total social butterfly
are you a mtf or ftm? because if mtf it's surprising estrogen made your anxiety better, I've usually heard it does the opposite for most

>>40756764
mtf, i was always a massive sperg but once i was at the point where i couldnt rep anymore, it felt like i was like on drugs and couldnt look at anyone or theyd like see how fucked up i am internally. maybe it was just a mental thing

>>40756734
i will not take the bait, but if you actually didnt your evil i didnt choose to be a neet

>>40743534 (OP)
>1
yes. unfortunately my parents wont let me stay one.
>2
somewhat? i dont talk to anyone unless they talk to me and even then its a 10% chance i respond
>3
i hate phone calls but other than that im at the point where i dont give a fuck anymore and will go out without getting ready at all

How do you express in words the feeling of becoming more retarded over time due to isolation? I struggle in basic conversation with close family.

>used to be normal and work a regular job
>slowly became more isolated and weird over time
>34 now and can barely go outside without having an anxiety attack
anyone else? what happened how did it get like this

im obviously never getting a job but man im getting tired of being so poor and not having the money to do anything or live comfortably without without worries. im still angry at myself for missing the crypto train for no real reason since that was probably my only real chance

>(note: I don't think anyone should be ashamed of being jobless, but this goes especially for trannies. I mean, why would you want to work in a world that treats you like a gross animal?)
Kill yourself you enabling freak.

>>40746500
Fact of the matter is the majority of people don't have the drive and agency to make it as neets. The ones that do will inherit the world, but most are just soulless husks that are better off being used up for slave work

>>40760229
don't ever in your fucking life address me again faggot wagie. Ew.

>>40752729
This. a lot of people don't even know how much worse anxiety is for a neet.

>>40760229
pos

>>40760229
fuck you fuck you i dont want be treated grossly i hate cissoids im an ugly manmoder i dont care if people want me to work or help

>>40743534 (OP)
>QOTT1
not really, while its nice to have time to do stuff i dont have the money to do what i want or meetup with online frens
>QOTT2
only a few online, with time i messed up all my irl friendships over mental issues and isolating myself
>QOTT3
On good days its manageable but lately its getting worse

my anxiety used to be so bad i couldnt go into a store because of the interaction with the cashier and the feeling of peoples eyes on me, i would walk down the street looking at my feet because of the stares of people in cars, i couldnt get on a train or a bus because i was afraid of buying a ticket. it took me until i was 24 to start changing it. its better now but i am still a neet, one step at a time

>>40752417
No I stopped replying because I actually work for a living and didn't feel like dedicating any more of my time and attention trying to tell people who have 0 motivation to do anything but rot that life is hard and unless you're lucky enough to not have to worry about bills etc the only way out is hard work. It's not "pick yourself up by your le bootstraps" it's "the first step to getting anything done and improve your life is to put on your boots"

Anyways stay miserable and immobile if you want not my problem

>>40762119
i will fuck you

>>40762119
i tried improving my life again and again and i just failed every time its not like that

>>40762224
dont worry about that guy i'm gonna fuck him

>>40762231
what