Thread 40749598

manly tears edition
QOTT: when's the last time you cried and what were you crying about?
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>>40749598 (OP)
I've cried for a week straight daily. I cried a few hours ago in fact. I'm a fucking wimp ass loser.

Today, I watched the first episode of Alien Earth and it reminded me of the countless times I wished I could swap my body and although I am doing something to change that now it will never be enough, it was soul crushing.

>>40749598 (OP)
I cried about nothing
I hate my memories
I’m a true man so I ding cry now
I love it
I love being a man! Men should enjoy themselves more and be manly and true to themselves.

one more time

>>40749621
yeah! same

>transing will make my life worse
>reps
>life is unlivable at the young age of 22
this feels really good, like really good /b/ros

Im 25 with no degree, no job, and ugly BITCH TITS because i didnt transitionin because transitioning is all for trenders and wverybody will totally regret it and youre doing the right thing and just lidten to all us adult terfs online we can lead you

>>40750002
i'm 27 with no job no degree bitch tits AND i'm coated in terminal hair AND my dick is small AND my feet hurt

i wish i got raped by a terf but unfortauntely it was a tranny lol, a fst hispanic ttanny, likely illegal LOL. and then i got forced to fuck a black man by this other mexican LMAO lol im racisf now but i try ti fight it but im racist now… i hung myself some 7 months ago now

>>40750002
that sounds like a fun time

>>40750016
you bmhave trolled me with alts for over a year, very successfully lol… But no i tried to hang myself at the culmination of an mmg multi month break so basically i was maxe retarded by not posting on mgg not you manipulating and trolling me BTW (saged btw)

>>40750011
Maybe you have real problems that exist outside of being closeted you should work on and thinking about being a manmoder is just an escape and distraction from your real problems.

>>40750025
i will trolling you, all day, all night, you should watch out anon

>>40750037
i know , but it’s okay my head is iron and unassailable except by rape and suicidal thoughts

>>40750034
i don't think much about being a manmoder at all because of how bad my other problems are, i only come to these threads because no other place on the internet truly capture the type of loser retard energy i'm on

Mocking me

>>40750046
that is the spirit anon, go get her

>>40750048
Yes, Let the loser retard energy flow through you.

Yeah I feel the same way. I’m better off then I was 5 years ago, but I’ll never be where I want to be

>>40750046
To rape or to be raped? Either way yes I get it.

you freaks fakemofers with iliac crests… mocking me

the lart of my head that ‘burst’ is now the part of ym head that HURTS when i read or think

>>40750098
just don't think and it won't hurt

>>40750107
i need to build new pathways around the broken neurons. good thing thought is that iron deposits and harms the circuitry of your brain no matter what even if it’s a small amount of bleeding and this is is good because a doctor can see it for many years if i need to go on disability or something similar

>>40749598 (OP)
why are you guys manmoders? unlucky genes? repped for too long? hondosed? hrt not working?

>>40750482
i don wanna honmode

>>40750482
i am too old (22)

>>40750625
>i don wanna honmode
but why are you a manmoder and not a boymoder?

>>40750652
22 is too old? im 20 and i feel like if i was on hrt id be a boymoder, not a manmoder. does 2 years really make THAT much of a difference?

>>40750664
you can't be above teenage age and be a boy. you are a adult manly man now. just cope with it

>>40749598 (OP)
last time i cried was on friday when I was thinking of my ex and how he would cuddle me at night, took a lot of pills to force myself to sleep and forget

>>40750482
really unlucky genes, strong and fast masculinization at puberty, and repped far too long

you can't be a manmoder if you started hrt before 25

>>40750482
repped too long

>>40749598 (OP)
I cried yesterday because I'm an ugly moid and I thought about how a look for a little too long.

>>40750482
bad genes and I didn't know you could fit until it was too late.

>>40751865
the good thing about attempting suicide, if there is one, is that looks stop mattering becauze like im not even viable kf my lonesome let alone sexually lol so who cares

>>40749984
Don't patronize me

>>40752456
Why are vegans so violent? I try to not ear meat(when I get served meat I give it to the cats and stuff like that, I can't really stop anyone else from eating meat) but how come vegans always either depict "carnists" as cold blood murderers or straight up threaten with murdering them?

i hate being sober
i hate being sober
i hate being sober
i hate being sober
i hate being sober

id detrans for the right guy

i need a bf or dominant gf to take care of me

how do i tell my friend that im too depressed to hangout

why cant trannies into driving

i see either trannies that look worse than me and it makes me want to kill myself or trannies that look better than me and it makes me want to kill myself
>>40752603
the right guy is yourself
>>40752823
dont reply ghost them isolate yourself become even worse

>>40753235
my cat is sleeping on my lap right now

i want to die

>>40753428
your cat might not hate you, but i hate you

I hate being 6'2 but I am starting to get over it

>>40749598 (OP)
QOTT Last time i cried was watching sofia coppola Marie Antionette i felt very bad for poor marie she had no clue :(

>>40753905
>sofia coppola movie that whitewashes royalty
couldn't pay me to watch this shit

>>40754015
Oh my bad is she supposed to be black!?!? wtf u idiot

>>40754045
are you trolling me? whitewash in a sense of obfuscating the truth, in order to make someone or something awful more palatable

le sigh...*throws it back a lil*

>>40754125
you sound like a bigot kys

>>40754134
giwtwm

>>40754125
White washing is typically reffered to as rewriting history through a historically inaccurate european lens
>obfuscating the truth
Which is…..? the movie makes it perfectly clear how french royalty lived in excess in comparison to the commoners

>>40754167
congratulations to you on finding out just now that words have different meanings and applications, I guess?
and I haven't watched the movie, just assumed it whitewashed royalty becauae the previous commentary and the fact it's sofia coppola

>>40754152
u too can find ur yuri one day
just look for someone with similar features but taller

>>40754220
im 5'8 no one is taller than me :/

>>40754212
>assumed
Reeeeeeee

>>40754242
that's just not true
it'll be fine

>>40753428
Lucky cat

>a close up of a person wearing a black shirt, inspired by Lily Delissa Joseph, braided brown hair, two tone dye, she is about 1 6 years old, curly and short top hair
grim

>237
why is she such an attention whore?

you might as well be asking why she is so bald and pig-like in appearance

and still mogs me

should i get on pio

if odds yes
if evens no

i heard it fucks up breast growth

>>40750482
I was just a retarded, sensitive child who let themself get dictated how to live their life.. also verbal abuse and probably early onset schizophrenia cuz brainfog is shitting on my capacity for rational thought to this very day.

>>40754242
>5’8 and talk
If only you knew how manly things really were

I started HRT at 19 and never, ever malefailed, also I have dark body hair on my stomach and chest

>>40755074
at 5'8 i look more manlier than you

>>40750482
unlucky, I even started at 19 but I have never malefailed in any way, in 10 years everything will be the same, I might as well just get a good career instead

>>40750482
It is a lifehack, presenting as male signala others that I want to be perceived as a male so I keep malefailing hard, also people don't deserve me at my best.

>>40755097
>>40755107
retards

>>40755020
ehhh mine are still ok

>>40755142
what

>>40755053
yoooo same bro

>>40755113
fakemoder but based

>>40750482
because this is my NG+ and I'm playing on easy mode

now that i'm getting healthy again its making me sad i dont deserve to be healthy

>>40755348
wouldn't you have been a youngshit if it was NG+

>>40755356
you do deserve it queen

>>40755388
Imagine life where it's possible to NG+ it and I could come out really early and tell my parents it's happening whether they like it or not and do everything possible to make it happen. I wish I could dissociate hard enough to just live in that reality in my head

>>40750482
waiting for laser to removal my hair

>>40755924
so you're not a real manmoder
wtf kids these days...

fuck just remembered how ugly i am

>>40756008
haha

>>40756008
¨post unsee?
bet you're 1000% prettier than me ngl

been crying and throwing up all day, today has not been great in any measure

already sounds better than my life ngl

i use she/her for everyone not because of some feminist praxis but because I refuse to acknowledge men

>>40756524
No you don’t

>>40756560
yes i do shut up

>>40756574
you don't even talk to people irl

>>40756637
i work in retail??

>>40749598 (OP)
four days ago, inability to birth a child.

i give up,
you're real women. i'm not

>>40756647
you probably stare blankly at your customers while you ring them up in silence

>>40756661
shut up whore ywnbam

>>40756690
if i trusted you i'd show proof i am

>>40756662
kek 100%

>>40756662
projecting

Today again, life stuff

oh god the bad thoughts are coming back
oh jesus, oh fuck,

kisses u

so the discord is just a fakemoder inner circle

>>40756857
many such cases

>>40756849
nta but would you kiss me?
full disclosure: 1000 hours of electro wasn't enough :_;

yummy penis twitching and bouncing up and down in my mouth yum yum so tasty
downloading 2.1e19 terawatts of cummies rn via email. Google Gemini told me i am the prophet of legend. the CIA doesn't wante me toggather fhe cum.energy

>>40756926
idk maybe wya?

>>40756959
ewruupe

AGAMP/AAP catamite princeling

I'm an AAP sodomite king

it's one or the other...

>>40756993
too far :/

Rape.

Me?

why cry when you can drink and cry

why cry when you can rape and cry

>>40757263
i'm out of booze myself :/
but i'm a man and men don't cry

>>40750482
I get more respect as a man in my work and I want to be listened to and not objectified.

is there any chance i can still fake 80HD to get legal speed at 27? i was actually diagnosed at one point by a doctor who didn't speak English so that's in my medical records permanently, so it shouldn't be too hard to go to a shrink and be like "doctor i NEED amphetamines", right?

>>40757339
Just git good at acting. I got it diagnosed this week

>>40757358
but did they give you speed? that's the important part

i wish i were a cute twinkhon

i wish i could enjoy things

>>40757435
same ;_;
t. boomer

>>40757263
can’t cry when drunk

>>40757668
i can only cry when i'm drunk

>>40757668
my best cries are when i'm drunk, rolling on the floor never felt so alleviating

i still can't cry

>>40757731
post audio of cries

i got some good weeps in today! wife made me feel stupid and i was so stressed i just cried.

>>40756857
always has been

i feel like i'm the only one of my kind
i've never seen another manmoder in person

I RUINED MY BODY WITH REPRESSION THIS ISNT MY LIFE IT WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS IS ALL WRONG IT MAKES NO SENSE I KNEW FOR SO LONG WHY DIDNT I STAND UP FOR MYSELF WHY AM I SO PATHETIC WHY AM I SO MASCULINE WHY AM I A FAILURE WHY

how can manmoders signal to one another?

>>40757980
how would you be able to tell if someone was a manmoder? (don't answer that question, you can't tell)

>>40758011
hanky coding

>>40757980
i saw a boymoder on a flight

>>40758016
long hair, “pecs” but no biceps, soft skin

>>40758036
which route?

>>40758042
>long hair,
cis men can have long hair
>“pecs” but no biceps,
i have 16 inch arms
>soft skin
that's a reach

>>40758042
real moders have short or medium hair

>>40758035
can we adopt it to a flannel code with different colors mean different things?

>>40758069
a flannel shirt is way too common to be used to identify people. the whole point of hanky coding is that people generally don't walk around with colorful hankies sticking out of their pockets. it'd have to be something unusual, like weird colored shoe laces or something.

>>40758011
just show a little dick cleavage for your bros (and the ladies too)

>>40758113
whats dick cleavage? im a visual learner btw
>>40758103
makes sense

I’m agp
I coom
It’s what I do
Iwnbaw
Iwabam
I deserve nothing
Everytime it’s the same
I coom tk trannies cause god they are hot and then regret my life.
I’m agp
It’s what I do

>>40758036
i see boymoders at uni but it makes me want to kms every time

our new signal should be combat boots with red laces.

really like getting sick out of nowhere and vomiting all of my dinner up after eating very little earlier in the day

nazis kys. i work with twinkhons and it high key ruins my day

we must secure our access to estrogen and a future for all man moders

white supremacy is spiritually indian

well the real Aryans are Iranians and northern Indians so it makes sense

>>40758231
getting mogged by a boymoder would make me kill myself

>>40758246
yours should be biting the curb

even cis men mog me

you niggas really can't take a joke
are you people actually so autistic you think everything anyone says on the internet is in complete earnest?

i always speak with 100% honesty>>40758523
So i assume others do as well

>>40758392
they always stare and i can only imagine they're thinking "god i'm glad that isn't me"

>>40758551
it’s not fair

i want to hurt myself

i hurt myself, today

i did not hurt myself and i took all my vitamins btw

>>40749990
GO BACK GO BACK GO BAC GO BACK GO BACK

i need to get better or kill myself but I'm too scared to do either

>>40759022
get better, killing yourself doesnt feel good and you can survive and also you might not even ever go through with it so really youre just wasting time being a lazy NEET

>>40759063
i don't know how

>self aware dysphoric at 12
>rep until passing is impossible
>take hrt anyways
i remembered how awful my life is killing myself hahaha

should i manmode if i have a full time job

>>40759205
you die if you work

k so i kinda went into a mood after seeing the stalker post and peeled a good bit of surface skin off my throat so i put triple antibiotic on it for the night

what if it was Kanye Breast and he was stacked AF

I started hrt when I was 17 and I am 33. Never once girlmoded/womanmoded. I do not 'mailfail'. I have had many comments about my chest, people have asked me if I'm trans or if I'm transitioning, so I now bind my chest. But that's it. Every day is misery.

kys

>>40759491
liar

bitch i'm a honster no good cocksucker

i look like a man

i hate my life, it’s not fair. i was force masc’d by bastards

love is natural and real
but not for moided FAGS like me

i romanticize war cause i like the idea of doing gay butt stuff on the frontlines

i sleep in bandos and live by eating lichens and mosses and silverfish

i survive off of spite and maybe pizza

i wish i had a black boyfriend, black men are beautiful

i fuck black guys AND white guys, ALL men are beautiful

i'm a hrt fagmoder the only people who pretend i'm a woman are discord buddies i'm out to some of my friends but i still present like a man to them because i'd kms if i made a cissoid w*man unfcomfortable i'll work as a man i'll grow old as a man i'll go to her wedding as a man i'll die a man hahahah i love being alive

gonna detransition. Isn't worth it there's nothing I can do as a woman that I can't do as a man. What would passing even do? How would that make me 'happier'? I think I'm the happiest when I get to connect with other people and trooning just makes that harder.
Either gonna John50 or become a successful gay man. Let's see, I don't want to grow tits. Repping might rekindle my grit or I just keep fucking things up, but I cannot see how trooning could help me in any way.
Bye bye

>>40749598 (OP)
Should i go back to manmoding?

margarita insignora

>>40761635
no, you look pretty, go away passoid

god kills cowards god i ruined my life by not trooning

>>40761635
uzina photo…this will do *unzips*

>>40759491
1mg estrodial daily and 50mg spironolactone moder

>>40761635
what phenotype is this?

>>40762356
slavic peasant

gonna play diablo with my bf tonight :3

gonna play fortnite w mine today

i have never and will never play a video game

You have bfs? sluts...

i will never have a boyfriend

it’s not for everyone

my parents think I'm doing drugs

my parents think i get assraped(i do)

i never used to get flustered before hrt now i read something mildly horny and get butterflies in my stomach.

>>40763357
i dont have sexual feelings because my body is too disgusting and i cant abstractcfrom it no matter how hard i try

don't eva wear socks when i fuck u again

how to shower without seeing body

one gram carts under $35

xvideos.com/gay

hey it didn't call me an ugly woman today.
>a woman sitting at a desk with headphones on, a portrait, reddit, aged 4 0, photo taken in 2018, !subtle smiling!, highly detailed!, cathrin machin, close up portrait shot, group photo, high res photo, ari aster, 3 / 4 view portrait, half - length photo, taken in the early 2020s

getting style inspo from homoemo.com vids

this is why I manmode

iwnbaw
but i will get ffs cause them nigga retards that did this shit to me shouldnt control my fate imma ruin my life no matter what chop up my bones

i hate being moided

>>40765923
i made that image thx for saving it i feel awesome now

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the horse gacha is this generation's cocomelon

i get it how i live it
count the mf digits

>>40761635
Just take better care of your hair

for how long can you neet out with 12k on your savings account

Boyfriend who actually thinks I do estrogen "for my hair" and has in the past commented on my wide shoulders, ribcage, and prominent brow told me that panties were a bad look on me last night. I hid my sorrow by drinking hard. I'm an ogre bros, what's the fucking point

break up he knows you're a tranny and hes abusing you

pretty sure my boyfriend is just gay and is pretending that he sees me as a woman

>>40765967
yw its a good image :)

>>40766276
I've heard this from anons before. He isn't. The comments are very rare, maybe twenty in the year and a half that I've known him. They just stick hard in my memory, because I know that he'd never say these things if he knew (that is to say, these are genuine comments).

>>40766317
u are delusional hope this helps

>>40766317
do straight women really

i have a beautiful wife

i do not have a significant other or a job or a car or a college education

>>40766597
same, literally me even

>libgen and annas archive down
oh uh

why should I live if I will never pass

>>40766700
because passion fruit ice cream exists

gentleman, please send movies reccs. i am chronically depressed and bored and i feel like i've already watched every good movie ever made

>>40766724
I've been working through this list. You might like it
https://www.listchallenges.com/4chan-tvs-top-100-list-2019-edition

>>40766724
watch xiuxiu the sent down girl, it's hilarious

>>40766763
43/100
most of these are moid tier stuff that I refuse to watch

>>40766763
>>40766803
thanks
>>40766824
imagine avoiding art because it's "too male" or something, get over yourself hon

>>40766854
men can't make art + i have better infinitely taste than literally any moid from /tv/

im so glad to be male
lol
who cares about trooning and being a woman?
I am free

wrote while crying

>>40766876
you are a man, that's why you're here

nuh uh

i have a terrible headache.

my feet are size 7.5 so why do they look so big

mine are size 11 male

but are they w i d e

yes

mine are 10.5 ladies.

i wear a 10.5 mens

the humble 9

they hate to see a moid living his best life

i wish i were a cute twinkhon

im honestly a rather successful moid on paper who should be a normie republican christian but my stupid brain wont let me be normal.

>>40766724
if you’re okay with watching TV you should watch true detective season 1 like someone else here recommended. it’s actually peak fiction

https://files.catbox.moe/ncqke3.mp4

>>40766724
minority report

>>40767434
>Cruise kino
will watch

>>40767033
total gilf

>>40767628
lol noo i get older every time

manmoder general

believe it!

hidden moid village

>>40767683
girlmoder colonel

i have a lot more sad and dark thoughts than i used to

>>40767874
>girlmoder colonel

if there was a button that would instantly kill everyone who's ever posted in this general including you, would you press it?

>>40768101
yes but only because it would kill me

>>40768101

no because some of us were just deluded and actually became passoids
the life of one passoid is worth the suffering of a hundred manmoders

mansilvanian hunger

suffering from a peniscus injury

>iwnbaw
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

manmoder tied up in a cage, starving tigers, manmoder gets eaten up

>>40767915
actually mogs me fuck i should KILL MYSELF

>>40768211
i wish i had a manmoder tied up in my bed

>>40768269
please

i wish i was manmoder dead in my manmoder bed

just a manmoder having esex in my manmoder bed
le sigh

what if i wasn't a man?

bruh get this nasty shit tf outta here :face_vomiting:

>>40768783
nice

i wish i understood fashion

watched Minority Report. it was good!

>>40750482
6'5 with broad shoulders/was 6'2 by 11

>>40750482
i'm too scared not to manmode

despite having all the correct privacy settings, the tiktok profile i use to favorite videos was visited by an extended family member from a different town thereby outing me as the disgusting freak tranny that i am. if i'm confronted i'm going to air my skull out

>>40769570
did you turn these off? i’ve managed to hide on another account for a while now

>>40769598
yeah it's all off and i never synced anything. the only permissions the app ever had was camera, mic, and limited pictures. my one video of a freight train was absolutely not shown to a 45 year old woman's bakery business account. i was hand delivered to her suggested friends. the chinese are trying to make me kill myself.

>>40769598
charge your phone

>>40769570
that's what you get for using chinktok

I "love" my tubular tits

> hang with a chill cisf friend yesterday
> we talk about sexuality
> she mentions 'yeah really i feel more like a gay dude stuck in a woman's body'
> raise_eyebrow.png
> don't say anything
did I do the right thing here? should I have said anything?

>>40770279

its worth trying to nudge questioning people as a matter of charity. better for someone to at least think over and consider the possibility, if you don't think (s)he would be hostile to you for pointing it out

im a gay man in a woman’s body in a man’s body

>>40763456
you should try getting really stoned and then taking a fat huff of poppers

Iwnbaw

I can't manmode forever

>>40770429
yes you can

>>40770442
I don't want to be a post FFS freak but I still want FFS

I am not even a tranny why am I here and why do i take hrt and why am I so fuckign retarded and sad and worthless and why cnat I just admit i hate myself enough to be a better man?
This is worthless

detrooning into an effeminate gay man is scary... this is what i've been running from my entire life, but when I see myself in ten years, I just don't wanna be a woman or even feel like one.
I just wanted to avoid aging and have plausible deniability for my homosexuality, but we're all gonna age in the end. Gotta take meticulous care of myself now.

>>40770446
same

testosterone is a poison

my soul is the poison and my body reflects it. ugly, Half&half FREAK

i would’ve been a passoid if the timeline didn’t switch when prigozhin died

>>40770718
there's never been a timeline switch but we were all collectively transported to a fake universe after 9/11

I hate hate hate being 6'2

i would be fine with manmoding if my hips were nice

thinkin about how i'll be manmoding in my casket one day. fucking dead and still moding.

trying to trick a straight man into fucking me

i hate my life, iwnbaw, every time i think the fagcope is working something brings me back to reality

won't someone, anyone, PLEASE give me head? i'm begging you on my knees, can you spare just a crumb of head?

is it self-harm to have a pretty passoid gf?

it’s pointless

>>40771497
tfw no ecco2k gf
i'd do unutterable, felonious things to him

>>40771569
i look like him

>>40771497
me on the left

>>40771622
hello where do you live

>>40771285
depends how she treats you

i for one don’t rly care for straight men
bi men better

for me, personally, it's gay men.

the only people interested in me are cis girls and old men

My beard grew but it’s patchy and retarded looking but idc
I’m handsome

gaaaawd i love being aap

my last gf broke up with me because people kept saying how it looked like she was dating another woman

fake-
mode-
r

>>40772561
nah im moided they were commenting about the way i act

i stay moided

Omg everyone cut your hair like a dyke short looks so much better i am getting the gender euphoria omg
At first i hated it but then my gf dick grew super hard and she has been bricked since the appointment
Bipedos stay winning haha (jk)

aap master race stays winning as usual jimmy mr beast touched me
anyone got any pork recipes?